crack in my crown;

2008-05-03T22:04:00.007+08:00

I am now posting at:

makethislove.livejournal.com

♥

2008-04-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

I remember brown eyes
So sad and blue skies
Turned to darkness and night
I'm so sick of the fight
I won't breathe unless you breathe
Won't bleed unless you bleed

Today I learnt what failure is -
it is ignorant ambition and ambitious ignorance.

"Wipe those tears away, Wonderwoman."
It's been some time since I last heard those words, and I never thought I'd ever hear them again. Thank You, for everything ♥
(But things are so screwed up when you turn around and realize that you've made a mistake, only to find that it's irreversible. Since when will time ever come to a standstill? It's now... But not anymore.)

I want to feel everything, when everything feels wrong.

And all I have, is all of me.
And it's all that I can give.
Our disappointed hearts will heal.

2008-04-18T22:04:00.008+08:00

So suck your so called pity down
Hey, that's not so bad, is it?
So take your cold, cold heart and drown
And don't forget to take deep breaths

Season starts tomorrow.

& I've found it's not about how good you are; it's about how bad you want it.
(God, help the SAINTS.)

-2;
'Cuz we're second to none.

2008-04-17T23:47:00.001+08:00

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violence, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
I know you think it's more than just bad luck

Recently I've been eating so much fish 'cuz of my illness - okay it's not that serious; it's just a viral attack! - and it's driving me nuts. I think I'll start growing 2 fins and tons of scales soon. Or, maybe blubber since I find myself putting on weight from the lack of training. 3 trainings less and I feel unfit down to my veins ):

Speaking of training, I finally attended one today. My first this week, and it's the last official training before Season starts. However, I didn't exactly train on the field. Mar's ill too so we both just sat, watched, waited.. D: Pretty miserable, I must say. I miss my boots, I swear.

Team Talk was good. I like Coach, especially when he's inspirational :D Saturday's going to be our day. Hwachong, here we come! (And anyway F said he'll be pretty disappointed if we don't thrash them and who wants to disappoint him?)

When training ended we pretended to have this "Drinking Up" Session whereby we all stood together in a circle with our bottles uncapped and did the usual "yum seng" thing. This time, though, it ended with a splash - and literally! 'Cuz everyone emptied their bottles onto Wati, HAHAHA. Some birthday surprise indeed :D
HAPPY (early) 17th, WATI! ♥

-

Candyman and I are having some wonderful conversation on MSN. Terribly, terribly amusing :D

guoxiang. says:
aye cheer up some stupid virus cant keep hot stuffs down!

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
HAHA OHMYGOSHHHHHH

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
YOU KNOW ABOUT "HOT STUFF" AS WELL?!

guoxiang. says:
LOL

(HAHA, ohmygosh ~~Shao Rou look what you did~~! Awesome shit now.)

guoxiang. says:
go drink water now

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
Oh right okay wait ah.

guoxiang. says:
woah so ting hua, awesome~

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
Mhm.

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
Just don't have any evil thoughts that will make you want to start treating me like a dog.

guoxiang. says:
noooooooooooo never.

guoxiang. says:
okay anyway i think people should never be associated with dogs its almost too basket

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
HAHAHAHA.

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
Ohmygosh, you made me literally laugh out loud and now my Dad and my brother think I'm crazy!

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
guoxiang. says:
okay anyway i think people should never be associated with dogs its almost too basket

guoxiang. says:
HAHA

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
This sentence is way funny.

♥"Hello, I need you." says:
WAAAYYYYYYY.

Thursday nights make me cranky, and they leave me hung up on Friday mornings.

-1;
Right now you're all that I recognize.

2008-04-16T19:48:00.009+08:00

Don't be so amazing or
I'll miss you too much
I felt something that I had never touched
Consider yourself lucky if you think of this as home
You can move mountains with your misery if you don't

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO THINK SKIPPING SCHOOL ALL THE TIME IS FUN: It's so not ):

Haven't been to school on Monday, went for half a day on Tuesday (thereby missing my Econs test) and today I wasn't present either. This sUxXx ballzzzzXZzxz ): I sure miss A02 a whole lot and not forgetting Soccer. There's too much I'm missing out on in school that the thought is just enough to kill.
~~SometimesIdon'tgetwhyI'mputthroughallthismiserybutthenagainIshouldstopquestioningGodandshutup):~~. Am sure there's a Higher Order I've yet to learn to appreciate.

Throwing that aside, I swear Blogger codes are 100000000 times friendlier than LJ codes omgwtfbbqzz! Okay, it's official: I just spent 3 hours ++ on random words, letters, symbols & numbers - javascript, HAHA - I totally should've never laid my eyes on, nor even bothered to process with the precious cells in my brain. Dang, I'd be better off studying.

Season's coming up and it's really freaking me out. The fact that I'm ill ain't doing it any justice either anyway. Oh, something I thought's worth mentioning (thanks to Andrew who pointed it out): In today's Straits Times HOME Section under Sports there's an article about Girls' Soccer and how it's gaining popularity in schools. So much so that the MOE is finally going to regard it as an official CCA. What joy - at least the Government realizes there's a whole bunch of us females that's just raging with passion about a sport called Soccer. And, am sure our ardor the past few years hasn't gone to waste. Thankfully enough :D

But what shit, they only mentioned Veejay. Where the hell is "SAJC"? They may've bagged a 14-0 today but that ain't going to bring us down, by any chance.

Update on the Championships: We're in the same Group as HCI, RJC, NYJC and SRJC. (No prizes for guessing who's in the other Group, then.)

And yeh, I'm feeling really crappy about everything. Life in general feels like a pain and I think I'm quite disillusioned about some people around me. I'll get over it though, I'm stronger than this.

Nyehhh.

0;
I may have failed
but I have loved you from the start.

2008-04-14T21:13:00.005+08:00

Lately I've found out that I'm a secret
Call me stupid, call me what you want to
I still can't feel perfect inside your head
I don't know why
It makes me cry

Been working on a mega-long post since 4.30pm this afternoon. But I'd abandoned it halfway 'cuz Blogger decided to screw up (oh how timely) and didn't allow me to upload photos ): Besides, work ain't going to spare you even you're ill.

Anyway, tonight I realized how encouraging Johnny can be.

♥You're my Comicbook Superhero. says:
Jiayou Johnny. And don't fail the test tomorrow.

† junyanG ; 'You are, my fire. says:
haha jiayou too hotstuff

† junyanG ; 'You are, my fire. says:
hot things score hot marks

♥You're my Comicbook Superhero. says:
:D

Mhm, that's me alright! ECONS FTW.

2;
You have me waiting.

2008-04-06T23:28:00.007+08:00

I'll wait until tomorrow
Maybe you'll feel better then
Maybe we'll be better then
So what's another day
When I can't bear these nights of thoughts of going on without you?
This mood of yours is temporary
It seems worth the wait
To see you smile again

Terrible night.

& I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I'm not sure.

Because I am strong, I'll hold 'em off. And should my eyes decide to let 'em flow I'd rather have them dug out, more than anything else. What agony, to have to bear the sight of your sorrow.

♥

10;
Eyes on the prize.

2008-03-30T19:05:00.004+08:00

Maybe when I'm done with thinking
Maybe you can think me whole
Maybe when I'm done with endings
This can begin

A sight to behold,

& as I sat and watched the sky turn from yellow to gold to orange, to crimson red to purple then grey... I swore then and there, I'd kill myself should I ever dare do that again.

The time to move on was there.

It was time. Time to rise above.

17;
Keep a hold on me.

2008-03-28T22:25:00.003+08:00

Would it be all right
If we just sat and talked for a little while
If in exchange for your time
I give you this smile?

Finally, some time this week to sit down and update proper.

Tuesday

For Morning Assembly we had a special programme that involved all the Team SAJC sportsmen. We took the pledge and everything. The Captains stood in front of everyone, whilst the rest of us formed a sort of "contingent" right in the middle.

Cool, huh? :D

See Maria & Cel?
They'd specifically instructed us not to make them laugh but wtc!
(Click for enlarged view)

The main purposes were to kick start the Competition Season, as well as to encourage all the Team SAJC people. Ugh, that only reminded me of how near Season really is.

(Afterwhich, I honestly cannot remember what in the world took place that day for lessons but I found photos in my camera that reminded me of the camwhoring before GP Tutorial!)

CANDID: Benhui's sleeping, Xiayu's reading her manga and Eve's tying her hair!

I've no idea why I'm smiling like that! Maybe just trying to show off my teeth :B

HAHAHA okay so stupid. After school, Shi Qi and I headed down to Jurong Junior College to catch the Guys' Soccer Team match. It was SAJC vs. YJC! The journey there didn't seem that long, after all. Guess it was 'cuz we were talking most of the time :D Nevertheless, when we reached it was past First Half and we'd missed 2 goals! ): I tried desperately the whole game to look out for Andrew Fu and I didn't even take note of the substitution until all of a sudden I saw his jersey number out of nowhere! FREAKY.

And amazingly, my camera could capture pretty clearly the players on the field. Andrew's in every one of 'em photos, hah. Click to enlarge any of 'em!

See all the SAJC supporters in the foreground? :D

I think I see Kev in this one!

Andrew Fu & Kevin are in this one, as well as Andrew Ng who's making a save :D

Andrew, mwahahah!

Went home with Andrew Fu and we'd a good time chatting! Prolly the first time I've said so much to Andrew, hahaha. And, later on he got a bit carried away with the "Next Big Thing" thing! Tsk, tsk.

Wednesday

Can't recall much, honestly. But I know that PE was damn hiong! We ran 4 rounds for warm up - and it wasn't the slow aunty jog, mind you - then played Captain's Ball. It was through the Captain's Ball that we uncovered so many hidden talents. Like, Kai Leng's meng skills at defending and BenBen's ability to actually jump (?!), HAHAHA. Awesome stuff, it was :D And Mr Daryl (or Darren?) Ong played with us, even though Johnny commented that he's "so noob at everything else other than Rugby"!

For training, we'd a Friendly with Overseas Family School (OFS). The players on that Team are really big and strong D: Especially this giant, ohmygoodnessme. Cel had such a hard time marking her 'cuz she was like, more than a head taller!

Even though we were trailing 2-0 after First Half, we made an amazing comeback to win the game 4-3. Thanks to the effort put in by the players :D

Guess the funniest thing was their swearing, haha. And they even swore at the Ref, so much so that one of the girls got a Yellow Card! It was like, "FFFFF" everywhere O: Also, the way Narmadha imitated them was damn hilarious HAHAHA!

Thursday (Yesterday)

Was a helluva day, I swear.

First thing in the morning after Flag-raising, we went into the Geog Room for Civics and found a present there for us!

A DUSTBIN IN THE CENTRE OF THE CLASS, HAHAHA!

Ohmygosh, stinky ttm ): At the end, Mr Lian tasked Arica with having to bring the dustbin out. But Benedict the pok was kind enough to help, despite the stench! D:

HAHA, check out the expression on his face, yo!

Then during Math & Econs Lecture we got so super bored, Tracy and Shi Qi started playing with gummy bears! They threw this green gummy bear all over the place it was too disgusting to be consumed thereafter. Hence, Tracy took the liberty to vandalize it.. Thereby changing it into a work of art :D

Voila! It's even got a crown, awh.

In the afternoon before training, there was a Rugby match (SAS vs. PSS) at our field. We watched the match and I swear, I really don't get the game of Rugby. What's so fun having tons of people taupok-ing you all at once, over and over? Tsk. But that aside, the Rugby Team still is cool. And the tradition of old is awesome :D

GO SAINTS! ♥

(Then the rest of the stuff that happened from post-training to this morning at 0200h++ need not be mentioned. Why, and whatever for, anyway?)

-

Am tired and zombie-like. 3 hours of sleep just ain't enough for me 'cuz I've been putting up with it for long enough. Mega-crazy ):

Friendly tomorrow with NTU.

19;
Fighting for my sanity.

2008-03-28T02:01:00.000+08:00

& all I need to do right now is

Cry.

2008-03-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

Good day today, I'd say!

And yes, I'm a happy kid. Being 16+ is "WOOHOO" :D

Updates tomorrow.

22;
We're out of touch.

2008-03-24T22:24:00.002+08:00

We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Joleeen, Arica, Trace & I ♥

Have got this disgusting rash thing coming up on my shin. Similar to the one I had last year. (Remember: I was in slippers to school for the longest time! And the dots were really really sick. Ugh.)

Okay I've to go now 'cuz Joe needs to hear my story :B

P/S. All the best to SAJC Guys' Soccer Team for their first FAS Nationals' Match against YJC tomorrow! (And, of course, to Andrew Fu hahaha.)

23;
Just to make it through.

2008-03-23T18:26:00.003+08:00

I don't know about you
But I'd swear on my name
They could smell it on me
And I've never been too good with secrets

It's Easter today!

This song has been stuck in my head since like, forever :]

Yesterday was a good day, pretty much. As usual, sometimes I like to think that it's good, the fact that I don't have to worry about my days. Everything's planned out for me and I just go for it; though torturous in a way. Reminds me of a conversation I had with Marcus online on the Monday of the March Holidays:

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Tomorrow I'm busy from 8-4, Wednesday 11-9, Thursday 8-1 and 5-7, Friday 3-10, Saturday 11-9.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
But this is my schedule.

i love my voice. said:
haha you must love being busy

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Not that I do.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
It just happens.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Crawls up on me.

i love my voice. said:
haha!

i love my voice. said:
well thats sad ):

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Yeh, I guess.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Oh well.

i love my voice. said:
haha you are funny.

i love my voice. said:
save some time for yourself

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Haha, I will try to.

Thanks for the advice, Dude.

Soccer was from 9-1. Earlier in the morning, though, we had Team Devotion. I didn't manage to make it on time for the entire sharing but apparently Coach read from the Bible and talked about how we should not forget God in all that we do. Indeed, "He holds the future". We prayed then got ready for training.

Training was interesting 'cuz we played Game at 10-minute intervals, and it was all video taped :] After 3 times, we went into a classroom to watch the video. It was embarrassing, the mistakes I actually committed! Being a Right Mid is so not easy, I swear. Aaaugh, but it was also cool to see that Marissa and I really do look quite alike on tape D: Tsk.

Gwen had brought her Micro Cube and was blasting the music. (Was it meant to be a help or a hindrance? Sounds so SS but nevertheless.) As of yesterday, though, it was agreed that her playlist was out and not well-received, HAHA. We'll prolly be coming up with a new SAJC Girls' Soccer Training Playlist or something! :]

After training we had donuts to eat 'cuz Mr Tan had bought the Team 30 donuts from Donut Factory! Oh yum ♥ There were extras so Beat brought them home, haha.

After training!

Everyone looks funny in this photo I don't know why.
(Click to enlarge)

Carin & Jo.

Team Lunch was at PP Macs. Sadly not everyone was present ): Towards the end, Maria and Cel gave the J1s an inspiring talk about FAS Finals 2007. It was crazy; we could literally feel the excitement in their voices and the pride that's once again reignited within them, as they spoke of Beat's goal and how we managed to clinch the Championship Title over VJ. Marissa, for one, was over the moon!

The "cool" table :]

Stupid Deb was asking me the boyfriend questions again! Tsk, tsk. And the rest of them at the table were suan-ing her about how, even at the age of 20, she was still single. Our topic then moved on to Soccer and as usual, Deb and I the Liverpool supporters got whacked by the Man U supporters ): I really must watch out during the Overnight Camp, in case Jo cuts off my hair or tortures me at night! O:

Rushed down to YF thereafter. Had a good time learning about Jesus as King :] Came home, skipped dinner and crashed at 2145h 'til 0700h this morning. HAHA I ROCK, WORHX.

Crap, I don't want the week to start all over again.

24;
Don't let me down.

2008-03-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

Drink up, baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy

& if I had eyes in the back of my head,
I would've told you that you looked good
As I walked away.

It's Good Friday today.

For Your love, Lord.

Thank God this week was shorter; only 4 days and I already felt I could die. Once school starts again, I'm done for ):

Schedule's been so packed, I hardly have time for anything else but lessons and Soccer. Even OG36 is missin' out on my loveeee, I swear. Oh bummer. But I can't say I'm hating this - Soccer is my (new) life, or so it seems :D

Got our jerseys and our Team SAJC shirts at yesterday's training! Wow, how exciting indeed. I desperately wanted #15 - 'cuz of Crouch, naturally - but the seniors were given priority - again, naturally - and Jo chose it ): Made me pretty upset but well, at least my second choice was available! And hence, I now don "16" on my back. (Same number as Germany's Lahm ♥)

Season's coming up and I'm starting to feel the pressure. Trainings are getting more on the emotional side and I don't know if it's a good thing. Coach recently shifted me over to Defence, so now I play CB. It's a pretty cool role, actually.

There's a need for change.

26;
You're heartbreaking work.

2008-03-19T04:00:00.004+08:00

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep 'cuz reality is finally better than your dreams." ♥

Nonono, I'm up. It's GPGPGP.

:D

2008-03-16T19:42:00.004+08:00

We're one mistake from being together

But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight

Been lazy to update, recently. Too much crowding my ~~life~~ head ):

Holidays have zoomed past, for one. Ah well, I prolly should post about the entire week even though it's going to take a hell long time. Aaaaugh.

(Last) Friday-Sunday

PREP CAMP!! :]

It was much fun, and I must say, a good time of spiritual refreshment as well as bonding with the Christians in - and out - of SAJC. Throughout the Camp, was hanging around most with Benedict, Rach, Sam and Chesed. My Group Leader was Vincent and guess what, he's like my older brother's good friend, HAHAHA. (Apparently, studying partner, yo.) What a small world, I'd say D:

Learnt the importance and POWER of prayer, as well as fellowship. Was in the group I called "The Wanderers" 'cuz we were neither dancing nor in the band! Hence, we were assigned to help out with the Egg Factoids - don't ask me why it's such an odd name 'cuz I certainly didn't come up with it - and the wire-bending souvenirs :]

It was during the course of these Art & Craft sessions (of sorts) that I uncovered Emma's talent of being so ARTSY-FARTSY, tsk! Anyhoo, most of the time we were just being high and I think we gave Sharon a hard time. Heh, sorry.

Photos!:

Remember Kevin my giraffe? Stupid Sam was abusing it every night ):
(SOUNDS WRONG BUT YES.)

See the cross? :]

The sky was just pretty pretty! And that's when we marvel at God's handiwork.

Then during this Free Time slot, we all started sitting on the ledges of the second storey. Was kind of freaky, like I could fall any moment! D: Thanks to my fear of heights. But Benedict quoted from the Bible - and out of context, again! - that "He shall send His angels to surround you.." HAHAHA.

Chesed's like trying to emo; DRAMAAAA!

If you ask me, I think Sam's better at the emo-ing O:

Went home with Rach on Sunday morning. Bought Macs' Breakfast, takeaway! When I reached home I just stuffed my dirty laundry into the washing machine, took a shower and crashed.

The usual.

Monday

Woke up to a good morning, pretty much. Decided to mug. (But honestly, that didn't really give me a headstart anyway 'cuz I still have more than half my assignments undone..)

Training in the afternoon. Arrived tad late by the seniors' standards - I swear I didn't know about the half-hour rule! - and guess that made me feel pretty bad ): Nevertheless, I survived training, and I think I survived it well.

Following a pact made between God & I: Training was good, only 'cuz I'd committed it to prayer. Camp had taught me much, and I was determined to see prayer in action. With each round, I gave praise to His Name and I promised to give God the glory. Praise be to God, for He delivered, once again. I am proud to say I am a Christian and that, should anyone ask how I made it, I will be a testimony for Him ♥

Tuesday

Got influenced into attending Teen Games together with the Team, instead of attending AP/GP Lecture. 'Til now, I'm still clueless about that topic but I guess the time spent together with the Soccer Girls has made it all worth the while :]

Didn't know Teen Games was organized by Singapore Youth For Christ (SYFC) until we were made to listen to a small message that was preached. Interesting, indeed. But I guess that was good; bringing our focus back to God and not just all about the Game itself.

Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself thoroughly playing with my Team mates. GO SAINTS! Sadly, no camwhorage 'cuz I forgot to bring my camera. Some of the rest took photos but I've yet to get the photos from off them ):

Team Lunch was at United Square, Novena. We settled with Pastamania. I couldn't stay to interact, though. 'Cuz I'd my braces appointment! Alas, my braces have been removed. Have been dreading this day ttm D: Gahhh, I miss them so much!

IN LOVING MEMORY

Tuesday, 11 March 2008, 1420h: The moment Ely's braces ceased to exist.

Now I think I look odd. Wonderful.

Wednesday

OG36 had a Mugging Session in school, initiated by Joleeen. Unfortunately, I'd already made plans to study with BFF, Albert and Reuben. But things took a turn for the worse when BFF had to stay home 'cuz she was unwell ):

Left with Albert and Reuben. Novena Starbucks was cold, as usual. Nyehhh. Met Kevin there as well, though. Haha, wonder why he's always there; favourite hangout of sorts. The rest of the day went by okay. Everything was in replay when we went to Fish & Co. to eat again and yada yada. (I'll save the details for my own head, thank you.)

Training got cancelled 'cuz it was pouring the entire day! D: Amazing how it can rain so much, haha.

My brother's POP from BMTC took place. It was raining and all, plus my Dad forgot to take photos of the cap-throwing! Mannn, that's like one of the most significant parts. But still, I think it's cool my brother's out of Army.. For now! Finally, the first 3 months have passed. Praise God for taking care of him, and that his 'A' Level results weren't too bad :]

Met dajie and zl for dinner. I thank God for the opportunity for us to meet; it's been 2 years now and we're still going strong, yes? The Mini Zoo! :B I love you two so much and I'm glad that y'all are doing pretty much okay. Somehow, though, we always forget to camwhore, HAHA. Takecare ♥

Thursday

Teen Games again! :]

Siyi was late, HAHA. And the night before she still could message all of us and IN CAPS, saying we've to be at Little India station at 0730h, tsk. Arica woke late as well. It was funny 'cuz Suria called her and she went, "O-M-G, I'm late!" in a very shocked/sleepy/I-just-sat-up-in-bed tone.

The wet weather was pretty bad. Coach gathered us together before the start.

Coach: Any of you brought goggles today?
Us: -Stunned- Uh, no. Why?
Coach: 'Cuz today y'all will be diving.
Us: Huh?
Coach: See the fields? Like milo!

HAHAHA. But it was true. Throughout the course of the day we got muddier and muddier. It was stinky, above all ): Ah well, can't complain 'cuz there was this NJ Keeper that kept diving in order to save the ball, that after a few matches she was brown from neck down D: Mud spa, we call it!

In the end, the games had to be called off halfway. Pretty upsetting 'cuz we didn't get to finish it. Nevertheless, we'd a helluva time playing our hearts out, bonding and even making friends with the other teams! Our SAJC seniors participated in the competition as well - those who'd won FAS National Champions last year - and I must say, they're good O: The Deyi United players became our new friends.

Despite the rain, our spirits were never dampened and I think we were the most self-entertaining group over there! Sang in the rain, kicked around and at the end of it all, even washed ourselves in the flooded longkang. We looked like those Kampong Kids (and Narmadha was the worse 'cuz she literally sat in the drain I think she looked like some poor African kiddo) so much so that Coach and the seniors couldn't stop laughing at us! :]

Wati made the best comment ever: "See, who said girls are afraid of mud?"

I went home to get my stuff washed and to take a shower. Half of the group went to Coach's office to bathe/mug and the other half did the same at Suria's. We then met at Jalan Besar stadium at 1700h to watch the Lion City Cup match - UAE vs Chinese Taipei. UAE was like imba, 'cuz by First Half they'd managed to get 2-0 against Chinese Taipei. All the Chinese Taipei players were Arica's, HAH.

The final score.

Towards the end of the match the Australian players came and sat next to where we were seated, haha. Some of the guys are so cute that I think we got distracted ): Marissa somehow caught the attention of one of the guys and there was a bit of hoo-ha going on! Goodness me.

The Singapore and Australian Teams :]

The J1s sitting in the same row as me :]

My first photo with braces off! D:
(WHATTHEPOK, I LOOK UGLYYYY)

Haha, I stole a photo!

We watched the Singapore-Australia match only 'til Half-time. Then we made our way down to Bugis' foodcourt for dinner at about 9 :] Cel informed us that training for Friday was cancelled! All the better, anyway, 'cuz our boots were terribly wet from the morning D: Went home with Arica and Cel, and I'd a good time speaking with Cel, haha.

Friday

Woke with the intention of studying but it was futile.

Spent time preparing for YF Worship. Then headed down to j8 with my parents, had Mos takeaway and went straight to Church. Met Shermaine and Serene to discuss Worship. Left Church with Serene and Zac to Jo's party, while Shermaine stayed in Church to mug with Charles 'til late!

Think the 3 of us YFers felt out-of-place at Jo's, HAHA. 'Cuz all the little guys there were like 13 year olds and the rest of us, much older D: Sam Tan couldn't make it, that pok! Abandon his QT Partner only, tsk. When Jo's parents asked us how old we were, we all burst out laughing! (Serene's old enough to be Jo's Aunt already..) D:

Jo and Zac played the guitar whilst I just watched on. Then, Jo created his Facebook account! :] HAHAHA, he'd been waiting for this day just so that he can be of age - officially - to create one. How, innocent.

Then we had the cake-cutting and birthdaysong-singing time!

Mmm, strawberry cheesecake!

Here's the Happy Birthday Boy ♥

Saturday

Went to Church at 12nn to meet Shermaine and get our last-minute stuff ready for Worship rehearsal at 1330h. Rehearsal was okay, thank God.

Just before Worship, Shermaine and I were really nervous ): The Worship Team said a prayer and we started. Thankfully, though, He saw us through it. I knew I was afraid 'cuz my fingers were really cold D: Nevertheless, after it was over, Joey came and told me, "Elyssa, you've a very nice manly voice. I think I'll call you more often and talk to you over the phone!" HAHAHA. Sam Kwan also spoke to me and asked me how I felt; am glad he said I didn't sound nervous and in fact, sounded like my usual self :]

After YF, had intended to join EXCO at AMK for dinner. But I'd to join my family instead, 'cuz my brother's home this weekend. Ah well. Sam Tan was supposed to teach me Econs while I waited for my Dad to come pick me from Church but that pok stole my notes at first, then distracted me by making me talk about something else and finally, went to play Captain's Ball. POK! ):

OkaythatwasareallylongpostIthinkI'llstopnow.

Phew :B

2008-03-10T23:03:00.004+08:00

And I'm choking right along with the words in my throat
I'm falling back in love with the letter you wrote
And I think that I was wrong, but I guess I don't know
I figure that I'll wait until you tell me so

Are you there?
Sometimes it's so hard to tell.

Quote someone who posted this some place else:

"One day, I want to be the "you" in all those over-used quotes on your profile. One day, I want to count the little stars and have it add up to my name. One day, I want you to end every conversation with "I love you" or "Never leave me." And I wouldn't, leave you that is. It's only fair. After all the effort I've put in to finding the perfect quote to describe the exact emotion you put in my head, don't I deserve someone to do the same for me? Underneath all the "I'm glad I didn't die before I met you"s and the "The truth is I've never fallen so hard"s, there's a little girl, who wishes she could just take your hand and run away. I want to stand up on my tippy toes and kiss you gently on the cheek. I want your hand to reach down and push a lock of hair behind my ear. I want you to hold me, and cherish me, and love me. And only me. But, I know "I'm not your star" this time around. So goes another day of away messages revolving around such topics as "The only broken hearted loser you'll ever need" and "I'm sick of writing every song about you". But you'll never know that "you" really is you. And your "you" will never mean me."

&& to me, you're a part-time lover and a full-time friend ♥

2008-03-06T22:38:00.003+08:00

I'm so much like you
Caught in a moment, coming unglued
In a world so big, it's not easy to choose
Which path to take, which pawn to move
So we'll let go of everything we've ever known

Smile,
but it's only what we put in front.

Haven't had much time to post, let alone go online. Oh bugger, I'm looking forward to the full-swing JC life. Entirely.

We all face problems from time to time, but I thank God for sending grace and comfort - often through people - when I need it most :] These days, fasting has also taught me how to put aside worldly things and to focus on nothing else but Him alone.

Was just sharing with Benedict this morning how I enjoy Morning Worship so much. It prepares me for the day, and serves as a reminder how I should rely on His strength instead of mine.

(Things will work out fine, I'm sure.)

That aside, "All trainings have been cancelled, in pursuit of A. E." D: Ironically enough, we're having none whilst VJ have increased their training sessions to 5 times a week (i. e. Every school day, as we know it), damn. Nevertheless, whoever said anything about not having 'accidental trainings'? Plus, tomorrow morning's the time for our SILENT PROTEST: J1 Soccer Girls are going to wear boots + ankle socks with our school uniform for Assembly.

Tomorrow's my first ever Econs Test in SAJC, haha. What the shit, I'm so excited for the Preparation Camp that I feel like conveniently bypassing it now ): Quote Rachel: Stuff it man I'm going to sleep! HAHA.

Oh, and tomorrow's the release of the 'A' Level results for the J3s. Am worried for my brother but I'll be praying for him. Cool to see him in school, though. Heh.

AND YES, PREP CAMP ♥ :B

2008-03-03T22:35:00.001+08:00

When it all comes down, there's no one else to turn to. (Maybe, just maybe, S.)

But even then, there's only so much one can offer, before it becomes one of those "only you yourself can deal with it" things.

-

To whichever 'you' you are:

1) I trusted you, like I said I would. And you were right - though not always right -in the end. Still, trust can be easily misplaced. I wonder, what's the right thing to do now? I dare not judge, if this was the right thing to've done.

2) Even if I were to say "I love you", I won't mean it 100%. Is that what you want? Are you ready to settle for that? I'd rather you don't, and you tell me "no".

3) Give me assurance, like you've done so. I need to feel your presence; that you are by my side throughout this. You, are indispensable.

When it screws your heart over so bad, just let it go and sleep.

& so I will.

2008-03-01T22:21:00.004+08:00

The longer that I'm out here, the better you sound
You're scrunching up your face in this picture I found
And I'm chasing after you, steadily losing ground
I miss you all the time but I'm blocking it out

Yesterday

CG 1.5 Bonding ♥

Had CG Bonding Time yesterday at the Track/Gallery :] We're (1+2)/2=1.5! 'Cuz it's 08A01 and 08A02, HAHA. Tawan came up with that formula, of sorts.

We took tons of photos and I think we look pretty unglam in most of them! But I guess that's the purpose of candid shots, no? Tsk. Will upload the photos to FB when I have more time. (Recently everything's starting to flood in again. JC life in full-swing, coming right up.) Sigh.

Anyhoo, Michael got taupok-ed yesterday as well D: It was the consequence of losing a carom game he was playing with the guys in the SC! Ohmysheesh, you should've seen the Army of guys that came down on poor Michael. Nevertheless, he survived! HAHA. Didn't manage to take a vid but I took photos!

After school, went out with some of the OG36 people, to meet Kris, Rachel and Ho Yuen CW! Walked around PS and ate dinner at Pastamania together, 'cuz Ho Yuen CW had the Membership Card, heh :]

Today

Training turned out to be Team Time! Fun, ttm :]

It was a good chance to get to know the Team better. We had sandcastle-building from 8-10am, then Indoor Soccer at Futsal from 11-12nn. Was super tired and that hindered my performance ): The arches of my feet are aching so badly now.

Had Team Lunch at Burger King! All 23 of us sat together 'cuz we joined tables, haha. And made noise, and some people (Gwen, Siyi, Maria, Beatrice) were jamming! Deborah tried singing but what in the world, I really wouldn't want to comment D:

Sadly enough, I brought my camera today but forgot the battery ): Mehhh. Hence, no camwhorage AT ALL and I'm pretty upset over that. Oh well, it was good time spent.

-

I feel random now. And I'm on Messenger!

JAPPY. says:
and i bought fbts!

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Haha, what in the world?

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Why so random!

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
You mean FBT curve cut ah?

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
D:

JAPPY. says:
haha

JAPPY. says:
NOPE

JAPPY. says:
not curve cut

JAPPY. says:
im sure i so gay lah

JAPPY. says:
haha

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Hahaha, I'd faint if you do D:

JAPPY. says:
aha

JAPPY. says:
if u lend me yours i'd wear it!

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
HAHAHA.

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Okay I lend you my red one :]

JAPPY. says:
omg

JAPPY. says:
that's damn gay.

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Then next day I buy electric blue you wear!

JAPPY. says:
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

JAPPY. says:
(i like.)

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
HAHAHA.

JAPPY. says:
i reailsed smth

JAPPY. says:
how am i gonna fit -.-

HAHAHA, Japheth is so gay sometimes.

2008-02-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

'Cause an empty room can be so loud
It’s too many tears to drown them out
So hold on, hold on
When you love someone, and they break your heart
Don’t give up on love, have faith, restart

Blasé,
Like how we all can be. (See us?)

Today was a super fun day, I must say.

But thanks to training, I've to be sleeping early. So it's way past bedtime for me ): East Coast Park is where we're headed tomorrow! Coach refuses to tell us the details of the training, so I guess we'll all be kept in suspense D: Mehhh. Indoor Soccer, though.

Long day ahead. Ohmysheesh.

2008-02-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm a silly love song
A twisted elbow crush song
I would go to jail with only boys
Just to prove I was as tough as you
And when I get out for good behavior
I'll be writing love songs

Yesterday

(Almost) everything was boring.

Slacked in the Student Centre during our break. Some photos:

Johnny wearing Tracy's skirt! D:

Xiong looks like a PIMP! Tsk.

Do we look alike, even when asleep? Hm.

She's so cute when asleep :]

Tawan is so gay, I swear D:

After school, attended a Principal Meets Christian Students function. Went pretty well, and I'm ready to answer His Call, and serve in school events :]

Thereafter, went back with Rachel to NYJC. It was good to see the Soccer Team again, and all the people I miss! (Especially Leonard & Joshua my bestest buddies.) But still, didn't manage to see everyone ): Also, walking around in my SAJC uniform made me feel odd, 'cuz I was obviously outnumbered. Some of the seniors appeared cynical when I'd told them I was back in the school 'cuz I miss it so.

Think what you may, but as far as I know, it's true. That place - and the people - will always hold a special place in my heart ♥

Today

Am tired. Training, I think. And all that being hyper in school.

Morning Worship was pretty good, I must say. Benedict actually led the Service. Teared during the Prayer Section. Guess that was 'cuz I'd gone in this morning, with a heavy heart. It was good to be reminded that I can pour everything out to God.

Lectures were boring. Seriously. Especially PW! The guys got soooo bored, Xiong actually took my camera and tried to camwhore, tsk. I ended up writing on people's arms (as usual). The rest, either slept, talked, got hooked onto their h or played Bingo. Photos:

Xiong took this photo of himself and Jonathan! Hah.

On Xiong's arm! (IT'S SO TRUE LA.)

Sammmyyyy playing handphone games! D:

Wilson sleeping! HAHAHA.

But Econs Lecture was super cool. OG36 sat in the front few rows and we amazingly stayed awake throughout the entire lecture, plus took down notes. Stepping out of the Cultural Centre, we were all suddenly "inspired" to start studying like mad. Mega crazy, I'd say!

We'd Mass Soccer today, during the 3-hour break that we had! :] It was most of OG36, plus other friends. Chee Bird and Joleeen are our top-scorers, man. Fernando Torres-es in-the-making. HAHA. Sadly, I'd to leave earlier 'cuz I forgot to bring my contact lenses for training.

Gih and Towkay walked me out. They even helped me to look after my stuff. Awh, thanks ♥

Tomorrow's as good as 'Happy Science Faculty Day'. Have got no lessons, save for Assembly and Civics. 'Cuz the rest of the slots are filled with Physics, Chemistry and Biology. Ah well. It's Games Day for us Arts people! :] Playing ball, I think. But I want to be a crazyshitmugger. Nyehhhh.

Okay, recover, Ely.

You're no good, you're no good. ♥

2008-02-26T23:27:00.001+08:00

It's dead
One last chance to reverse this curse
You stole my heart but I had it first
And now I see you've got something to prove
And nothing to lose, so let me tell you the truth

HAHA, candid shot (of me running up the stairs) after passing the camera to Issac! D:
I LOOK UNGLAM, TTM.

It's Love, y'all ♥

OG36 is so much fun, I can hardly contain the excitement everyday. We're always hanging around together and thanks to the number of people we actually do have - 24, to be exact - it's hard to miss! Heh.

Today, I've learnt: Sometimes, all you need is faith; and trust in God above.

Results for the Civic Groups were announced this afternoon. Am in 08A02, together with Jonathan, Tracy, Arica, Junyang, Kathleen, Chee Ling, Sylvia, Wilson, Tawan and Catherine. Thank God for friends :]

Although not all of us are in the same class (that would be impossible, unless we all form a class by ourselves!), it's alright. That's 'cuz it's not going to stop us from being this one big OGclique! :] We still lovelovelove, ttm.

&& To those from OG36 in different classes: Don't worry too much, we'll still be together!

Girls' Soccer tryouts was at 1630h. Was freaking out the entire time before that. After all, Team SAJC is the best in Singapore D: Nevertheless, I said a little prayer before training and just plunged straight into it. And He delivers, I testify. Praise God, I made the team!

&& To Rachel dearest: Come back on Thursday, yes? I need to play with you. Will pray for you, and I know you're meant to be in. Love you.

Some of the OG36 members actually stayed back after school, and they came to the Gallery to cheer for me :] Awh, I was seriously touched! (Even though I must admit it was a tad embarrassing.) But still, your encouragement gave me confidence and I must accredit this to y'all. Thank you.

Been a long day, I'm tired. But starting the day right is good.

Lord, receive the sacrifice of a broken heart
Jesus, what I give? What can I bring?
To so faithful a friend, to so loving a King
Saviour, what can be said? What can be sung?
As a praise of your name for the things you have done
Oh, my words could not tell
Not even in part
Of the debt of love that is owed
By this thankful heart
♥

2008-02-25T21:45:00.001+08:00

That look was priceless, don't let me get carried away
I've seen it before, and it still suits you the same
You catch on quick!
(You catch on quick!)

During the 4-hour break today, at the Fitness Corner.
(They look nice, aye?)

School today was COOLCOOLCOOOOOL! :]

Math Mass Lecture in the morning almost killed me. Sat with OG5's girls; sadly Tiff wasn't around 'cuz she doesn't offer Math D: Nevertheless, the so-called 'Introductory Lecture' plus a wee bit of Chapter 5 (Summation) towards the end was crazy. Felt so tired, I could die.

After Math, though, there was a super duper ultra long break for most of us in OG36 before the CCA/PE Talk. We wanted to play Ball but Johnny didn't bring balls! I asked him to go to the PE Dept. and tell the teacher: "Teacher, I have no balls. Can you lend me?" HAHAHA, what in the world, man D:

In the end, we managed to get a basketball and a soccer ball. But somehow, they kicked the ball so far it rolled near one of the PE teachers that was conducting PE and that teacher took it away from us ): Nyehhhh.

So I came up with this brilliant plan: If you can't play basketball, and you can't play soccer... CAMWHORE! :]

(And we did.)

Twinnie! :]

Andrew my Brotherrrrr!

ZOMG, TAWAN HAHAHA.

Tawan, Melina & Tracy!

Deborah & I, with our advertisement for Nalgene and Nike bottles!

WHAT IN THE WORLD, JOHNNY WHOOSH! D:
(Andrew took these photos; I think he has a secret crushhhh.)

Sakinah, Wilson & Towkay :]

Wow, we did a hell lot of camwhoring! The rest of the photos will prolly be up on FB sometime. But honestly, what would one do without a camera? I wonder.

Andrew got taupok-ed today and - as usual - it was initiated by Johnny (Whoosh!). Tsk, poor thing. I got a video of it, and it'll be put up on the OG36 blog once I send it over to Tawan :]

Oh, today my Twin was super funny. I gave him a Bio lesson about girls and the loss of blood. He actually thought it was like shitting, and it doesn't happen 24 hours, hahaha. Ohmygoodnessme, we all had a good laugh - including the guys! Think he's the only one not aware of how it happens; even some of the other guys know, somewhat D:

Girls' Soccer tryouts tomorrowww! And I'm attending Morning Worship, for real.

The world seems greater than the both of us. ♥

2008-02-24T18:27:00.001+08:00

So we bottled and shelved all our regrets

Let them ferment and came back to our senses
Drove back home and slept a few days
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be

Just came online to find no one in my SAJC MSN List in Green. Most obviously, considering all of them (OG36) are outside for our very first ever Outing! Mehhhh, what in the world am I doing at home ): Realized I rant a lot, but it's true.

Saturday

NYJC Team!

Went back to NY in the morning for a Soccer match! J1/2s against the J3s (those who've taken 'A's and are waiting for their results).

It's always a joy playing for that Team :] The juniors lost 3-1 but it was a good game, I swear. I miss the Soccerettes so much ♥

Couldn't go for OG27 Farewell thereafter 'cuz the moment I stepped into the house after the Match my parents' words came raining down. Sucky ttm, and thus I'd to skip the Outing. Else I would've been slaughtered then and there, had I even dared to ask for permission D:

YF was School Day! :]

The Cedarians in ZYF (Past & Present) -
Me, Joy, Alethia, Shermaine!

JOJOJO :D

We played games the entire day and conveniently bypassed our "CA1 Exam" at the end (due to lack of time, I think). HAHA. Oh well, the day seemed to pass pretty fast! After YF, I tried playing Soccer with the guys and failed miserably. Tsk. I need more practice D:

Sunday

Today was a long, long day.

Woke late for Church, hence didn't attend 8.30am Service ): Attended YD instead. Aunty Peck May was our Guest Speaker and she taught us about Inductive Bible Study. It was interesting! And I guess that it has sparked a new interest in us to study about His Word, 'cuz the way it's done is so much easier to digest the passages.

Had Children's Camp Committee Meeting after lunch. Charles, Samantha, Valerie, Junipher, Gregory, Daniel and I were there. Think we managed to fulfill our agenda for the day, so it's pretty heartwarming :] With God's guidance, we'll be led to make the right decisions about Camp (Afloat)! ♥

Am tired. And it's time to get going to my grandmother's.

I miss OG36 already ):

2008-02-22T23:23:00.007+08:00

I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand
Or go blind

OG36 ♥

It's thanks to this bunch of wonderful people that I finally feel like a part of something in SAJC. Today, lectures and talks were sian but the real school started AFTER school :]

Went to Toa Payoh as an OGclique for lunch! (Well, not everyone's in the photo, but yes.) We'd fun, talking shit and all. Then Tawan got real serious about our OG stuff. Together with Deborah, we're now going official!

After lunch, half left. 7 of us went over to Tawan's house! I finally learnt how to play Bridge, and a tad bit of Mahjong. But I still need practice, yes? D: Tried sleeping. But with Sakinah and Tawan around, that's almost impossible. Tsk.

That aside, I finally realized that the few days before this, I've been PMS-ing. Maybe that's why I was so down ): And feeling so warm all the time! Thanks to those hot flushes, gahhhh. Damn my pimple-fied face!

Metrosexuals (like Tawan!) and I hate pimples ttm ):<

&& HELLO TWINNNN!

2008-02-19T20:11:00.001+08:00

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

Lie with me,
and forget the world.
~~(If only it were that easy)~~

Woke in the morning only to find my handphone bursting with text messages. The first one read: "MOE: Congrats CHUA JIAWEN ELYSSA, you are posted to ST ANDREW'S JC, ARTS (30A) under 2008 JAE. Pl report to JC/MI on 20 Feb 08 at 7.30am."

It'd came in at 0626h, and to think we all were waiting for 8 o'clock to arrive. Sheesh, a tad early, efficient, and shocking to heart eh, MOE? Aaaauuugggghhhhhh. Can't exactly tell if I'm happy or sad - actually, part both - but I just trust that it's God's plan I've been put in SAJC.

After all, the motto of the school does go: "No one is here by chance." And I believe that, ttm ♥

Since today's prolly the last day ever we'll have fun before JAE officially starts, it was only imperative that I went out. Couldn't find dates initially, but I guess everything (sort of) worked out in the end? Hm.

Carlton pangseh-ed Joshua and I so in the end we were stuck with each other D: Was just stupid. We roamed PS, did spastic stuff, ate, and finally decided on watching Jumper! The movie's pretty cool, that's all.

BUT GUESS WHAT! After the entire show when the lights came on I turned to my left and saw Hon Ding, ohmysheeshhhh. Nicholas was in the same theatre! And just as I was laughing my head off at this pure - but wacky - coincidence ('cuz Nicholas had asked me out to watch Jumper the night before) someone else called my name. SARAH TEH & friends O: Oh wow, is PS that popular a hangout?!

Same movie, same time, same theatre, same dayyyy.. It was so crazy I couldn't stop laughing. To add on to that, OG23 was in PS and so was Morgan & Jessica. Just wonderful - it was like some Nanyang unofficial gathering shitz.

Oh well, at least that made the day feel more like school.. In NYJC.

-

Tomorrow will be a new day, a new start.

Guess 2nd intakers do get outcast, whether it's by choice or by default. Nonetheless, I believe it'll be fine, or at least I hope so.

But this is so true:

♥athalie (: says:
nice unioform, here we come!! :D

♥But you and I both know we're a lost cause. says:
Yeh :]

♥But you and I both know we're a lost cause. says:
Woohoo

My cousin and I both got in SA. And we're taking the same stream, so I guess we'll be in the same class! I know I'm n OG5, but she's in OG3. Whatever the case, I've got a going-to-school partner for every school day morning for the next 2 years ♥

In the end, what does it matter when the human heart can only find meaning, in the smallest of moments?

2008-02-18T22:39:00.001+08:00

You're all that I hoped I'd find in every single way
And everything I would give is everything you couldn't take
'Cause nothing feels like home; you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay

Set it free,
(and hope it comes back.)

Last day of PAE.

Was horrible, to say the least. P'haps I'm just one of those stupid emotional idiots who cry at the slightest departure - or parting - of sorts. P'haps I'm just one of the few who feel so much from the past 6 weeks. P'haps... This is crazy.

The ~~last~~ walk out of NYJC was the most heart-wrenching ever. My tears were literally squeezed out of their glands, with the grip of reality that overcame me. It was just a tad too much to bear.

&& after all has been said and done, I think to myself: "Why do I bother leaving?"

I cannot but look away.

2008-02-17T22:16:00.008+08:00

With you I could bring out all the love, that I have
With you there’s a heaven, so earth ain’t so bad
And tell me
When will our eyes meet, when can I touch you?
When will this strong yearning end
And when will I hold you again?

(Been a long time since I updated. Unfortunately it's 'cuz I'd left my camera with someone by accident; thus the camwhorage is badly lacking. And hence, this post is dedicated to that person.)

Have I ever mentioned how connected we are?

This post is dedicated to you, only 'cuz you're one of the best-est of all 'em babes :] Honestly, I must thank God for having put you in my life for such a long time now; we haven't always been talking but sometimes I guess presence of existence is more than enough.

(And as if this public declaration is not sufficient.)

I wonder: How many "nice, miss-able, funny, smart, petite, soccer-loving, lovable, small but cute & sexy-voiced" people are there in this world?

Surely more than one, but she knows she's special.

Thank you, ♥

-

Tomorrow's the last day of PAE at NYJC. I'm going to miss everything a hell lot.

)':

2008-02-13T23:48:00.001+08:00

And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you?
Would you tell me
"How could it be any better than this?"

(8 hours, 3 batches, 72 brownies & 1,000,000+++ portions love of later...)

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY, in advance ♥

2008-02-12T21:43:00.000+08:00

The sheets are engulfing you
Know that I need you, I want you, I'm dying for you
Here in my heart where my veins are combusting for you
All that I've learned
I'm learning I'm falling for you, now

OG27 ♥

Today was our last CT together as an OG, 'cuz next Tuesday our JAE Posting Results will be out. Was held in the canteen, as an informal setting kind-of-thing.

Other OGs were so happening - they'd ordered Pizza and everything to "celebrate". We seemed pretty miserable so Mrs Lee treated each of us to a cup of Milo! :] Awh. (HAHA, but anyway our real party is on the 23rd; looking forward to it, yo.)

Geography Lecture was cancelled today 'cuz our Human Geog Lecturer - a.k.a. Mr Metrosexual - was on Sick Leave. School ended freaking early, like after CT. Didn't feel like going home. It's stupid to be home at 2pm when you're a JC student, hahaha. Hung around with GFP, Sister and Fatty. It was sianzationxzxz to the max (ttm)!

That aside, can't wait for tomorrow (again). 'Cuz I'll be rushing home straight after Assembly in order to bake BROWNIES for all 'em lucky people who will be receiving my Valentines' Day gift! :] My current Valentines' Day List amounts to about 70 people, so you had better hope your name's included in there! HAHAHA. But this gig also means I'll have to skip training and that's leaving me so torn. Gahhhh.

Valentines' is on it's way & lovelovelove is in that air! Going out with EXCO on Thursday 'cuz they're people I love ♥

My sorethroat is getting so bad even though I feel fine ): By afternoon I started to sound really hoarse. And now, I just totally sound like a guy! My Mom called back just now and when I answered the phonecall she was like, "Eh? How come your voice turn so sexy ah?" D:

Tsk, so I bet now with my "sexy get-out-of-bed hair" - or so Shah puts it - and this super sexy voice of mine.. I MUST BE THE ULTIMATE, RIGHTRIGHTRIGHT? :] Oh goodness me, the way I fuel my ego is just amazing. (A to the Z to the G, man!)

And now I've an announcement to make! On the 14th of February, this Thursday, I'll be taking part in the Literature Poetry Recital at NYJC. It's held during CLB at the Library :] Ohmysheesh, I am so totally freaking out. Can't believe that I got chosen to recite my poem. ~~And best part is I'm doing it alone~~. The only thing I take consolation in is that my Lit HOD actually liked the poem I'd composed :] Wow.

&& NOW I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HIGH, TTM.

Because you're worth every love song, ♥

2008-02-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

Don't act like an angel

You're fallen again
You're no superhero
I've found in the end
So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright

Tied-up,

in strings her heart is.

Today was hardly disappointing. I'd fun, to say the least! Didn't camwhore as much, but I guess 41 photos - though not all with me inside, doh! - for a day is quite a number, hah D: Gay FMSS Person and I did spend good time together. And it was well-spent, might I add. Mhm.

My flu is getting worse. Hence, I ought to sleep more tonight. (Alright, there goes a mental note.)

Okay now, random fact:

Shahrin. says:
you're a sprinter whattt.

Shahrin. says:
you have lightning legs.

&

[Fern And O] Soccer and sleeping. says:
hahaha

[Fern And O] Soccer and sleeping. says:
u can be some like lightning winger

HAHAHA people actually like to use the word "lightning" (?!) on me :] Woohoo, does that mean I'm fast? Why, thank you.

Anyhoo, couldn't resist the temptation to play Soccer today. Staying away from the ball is just.. WRONG ): And it's impossible. Oh bugger, no stuffy nose is going to stop me, mannnn ♥

(Tomorrow will be another _______ day)

This heart, fond of one too many. ♥

2008-02-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue 'til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you
That I spent these last few months in my own hell

Strike a pose,
if you may.

Don't have much time to blog 'cuz my parents are chasing me off to bed. And it doesn't help that I'm ill ):

All I can say is, somehow, I'm glad Monday is here! In just a few hours. No OG breakfast tomorrow, thanks to the Angel & Mortal briefing we're having in school. But nonetheless, I've an extremely exciting appointment tomorrow :]

Tell me something I wanna hear. ♥

2008-02-09T18:21:00.000+08:00

Lean into my kiss
And close those deep-blue-need-you eyes
Don't know what I did
To earn a love like this
But baby, I must be doing something right

Sultry;
'Cuz she knows that's all you'd ever want her to be.

Just spent a gazillion hours on the computer trying to edit my blogskin. Finally, it's done. (Can't say it's a masterpiece but, it's kind of my first try!) Oh bugger, am I glad D:

Monday's coming and that can only mean one thing: SCHOOL. Still, am eagerly waiting for the little appointment set by the gay FMSS person and I. Much fun, it shall be. And I just choose to believe so. HAHAHA. Lessons, will prolly have to wait :B

Have developed a sorethroat thanks to all that sleeping late ): And to think I've hardly eaten any CNY goodies this year! This is annoying me to the maxxxx. Speaking of sleeping, all of us did sleep last night, in the end. I mean, we (obviously) failed to "stay up all night". How loser, nyehhhh :]

Relatives coming over again this evening - which is, right about now, p'haps - for Karaoke and the ilk. Mhm, so I guess this is what the Lunar New Year is all about: Familyfamilyfamilyfoodfamilyfamilyfamily ♥

The secret of the world,
Is written in the stars.

2008-02-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Well, we could carve hearts out of falling stars
Chase the wind down the winding streets
Ride in cars for hours to nowhere
We're a mess, but that's fine, 'cause it's you and me
We're a mess, but that's fine

One of the many photos we took today :]

Day 2 of CNY Celebrations. Maternal's side.

This year was boring-er than ever, kind of. (Other than the fact that my cousin and I managed to find joy in camwhoring, of some sort!) ♥

Will prolly put up a collage soon, I guess. If I find the time to create one, that is. Oh and that reminds me: the photos have to be put up onto FB as well. Damn ):

My cousins are over for a sleepover stroke slumber party stroke stay-up-all-night gig! :] WONDERFUL. And dearest Athalie is sitting beside me now, telling me what to blog. (Dictating, I'd say.) I guess, that's why I can't think straight D: Heh.

Anyhoo,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DEAREST DEBORAH YEW! :D
(Don't forget our Happy Baked Beans; he still loves you to the maxxxx.)

P/S. I Love You ♥

2008-02-08T01:44:00.000+08:00

Had it been another day
I might have looked the other way
And I'd have never been aware
But as it is I'll dream of you tonight
♥

Let's just say, "it's alright".

2008-02-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

Let's say we're happy even though
We know we're both done trying
How would we know
That we'd both end up crying
They say let go
I guess we're still stuck trying

Wednesday

Steph dearest! ♥

Woke up to go to school for the Lunar New Year Celebrations. As I was walking into NYJC, I saw Joshua walking out. He was going to Xin Min. Haha, that made me want to go back to Cedar. But in the end I stayed in NY. Fickle-minded, I am.

Celebrations were funky. Guess the part that differed from Secondary School is that the teachers actually perform as well, hah. The CL Dept tried to put up some performance. And at the last part, Mr Kwek's speech blew us away (again, and as usual!) He totally rocks to the max :]

We were released at 0915h! Amazing, I'd say.

In the afternoon, met Chenyang and the rest at Somerset. Was pleasantly surprised to see Ms Jau! She'd flown back from Sydney :] Ahhh, sure felt like the good ol' days.. 5 years ago when we were all 12!

Those who were present: Me, Cheryl, Audrey, Kimberley, Chenyang, Kirk, Wee Tseng & Ms Jau.

Group shot of those who turned up :]

Ate at Hong Kong Cafe in Cine, then roamed around for a bit. The catching up part was good; somehow, it warms the heart to know that even after so long we're still able to talk like good friends.

Also, meeting some of our Primary School friends in our respective JCs now also serves as timely reminder, how small Singapore - and this world, for that matter - is.. Some way or another, we're all intertwined in this big mass (mess) of a human race. The only thing that keeps us apart (or brings us back together again) is time ♥

Photos for both the above mentioned events up on FB.

Today

With the Aunts (on my Dad's side) :]

Visitations ended slightly earlier today, I guess.

Was just talking to the gay FMSS person online and we agreed that, as we grow older the spirit for stuff just dies down so easily. Mehhh. This CNY just feels slightly different (save for the unusually chilly weather), and so was the recent Christmas season.

Oddly enough.

Nevertheless, am thankful for the break from school. Thinking about the fact that there are only 6 more official school days before the JAE Posting Results freaks me out. Not so much the outcome of where I'm posted to - no, not at all - but more so that I'm leaving NYJC.

(In my own quiet ways, I hate myself for choosing to go. Everything is a risk taken, I know. But the struggle - endless. We all have to move on sometimes.)

2008-02-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

Do you remember how it was oh all night
While I sang my song, till our songs were done?
It's just nice to be near you
Till the sun breaks our city street through

Daryl (Fatty) Tan Jin Hua, Me & Zachary (Mary Peter) Thio Si Kuan ♥
I like, I like.

Today was a crazy day.

Skipped Econs Seminar early in the morning; prolly all of us were still experiencing some sort of a hangover from the previous night's "The One" Finals. Went to the library with Carlton and Joshua to slack. We ended up sleeping on the floor. Took photos - they'll be up on FB some time.

CT was awesome. We were intending to continue our games from last week. But time was set aside to plan an OG Outing/Farewell. (How thoughtful of the school; I think Mr Kwek rocks NYJC upside down!) And so we did come together to discuss. Farewell Party's most prolly going to be at Leonard's, on the 23rd of February :]

Just as I was waiting for Geog Lecture to arrive, my Mom called. She asked me to go get my hair done for CNY and pon lessons instead. FUNKY TO THE MAX. And so I did, hahaha.

Now that my hair's been cut & treated, it's super straight. Have got a new look as well. And I think the fact that I've a fringe now, Joshua and Leonard the 2 idiots I love so much as Buddies had better include me in the "chio girls list", HAHA! (Wtcd, I am like so totally one kind.) Nyehhhh.

I've a P6 Gathering (Lunch) tomorrow at j8. Remind me again how cool we really are? 4 years since we left Rosyth. Wow.

The Lunar New Year is here. How soon. I'm going to miss it all, I know.

Your Love pulls me down like gravity; ♥

2008-02-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

I was hoping you’d show me something
What you gave me was black
And I’m giving it back
And you haven’t changed
And I wasn’t lying, I wasn't lying

Yinxue and us, at the Finals of "The One" :]

I got a pretty Green Balloon ♥

(This was supposed to be yesterday's post but I was too tired after reaching home at 11plus, post-concert.)

TAY YINXUE of Cedar Girls' Secondary won the NYJC Singing Competition "The One" organized by the 30th SC. She rocks to the maxxx! ♥

During the concert the Cedarians + all other Yinxue supporters were being so high and everything :] Only 'cuz Yinxue's really really good! She has a Voice of Gold, and will serenade you, I swear. The sound will just penetrate right through your chest and melt that heart of yours, that you'll be compelled to vote for her (in every other competition). It's almost - dare I say - hypnotizing D:

Anyhoo, had a helluva time and my crazy idea of running up on stage when Yinxue won was quite well pulled off. For one, people around school now look at us Blue & Grey beings in a much different light - we are high & hiiiigggghhhhhh :]

Photos uploaded onto Facebook; access 'em via the link on the right-hand side column!

Rushed home after the concert with Joshua 'cuz it was my Mom's birthday. Had to make up for when I'd pangseh-ed him earlier on in the day by pon-ing PE and going out with his OG Mates instead. (Weird, huh?) Heh D: Rachel dearest went, so I followed her! And Fernando was around too, hah.

When I got home, my Mom was half-asleep already. Mehhhh, had to get her more alive for our Birthday Song, photo-taking and cake-cutting. Just since I always do this ceremoniously for people,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM! :]

2008-02-03T16:43:00.000+08:00

Like a million parachutes, the snow's coming down

I'll lock up the front door and turn the lights downI'll put on some records and wait for the light
All those million parachutes now a blanket of white

THE LATEST FASHIONISTA LOOK! :]
(Trend set by Jocelyn - centre person of top row)

Haven't posted for days. Somehow, each time I get to the 'Create Post' page, I blank out and get distracted by other things like my MSN Conversation windows D:

Nevertheless, been an eventful weekend of some sort. Based on what I can remember:

Friday

Zachary (Mary Peter) Thio Si Kuan brought friends from SAJC to crash NYJC! And guess what, Carlton, Morgan and I were in the canteen when all of a sudden this familiar-looking Marist walked up to Carlton. IT WAS JONATHAN HAHAHA. Amazing, indeed. One kind of small, this world is.

Rachel - or so that girl who was with them is called - is planning to come to NYJC! Prolly that's why she crashed. But the other Marist guy, he's too smart for all this. TJC is his calling, I believe. And hence, he came just for the fun of it, and ended up sleeping during Geog Lecture. (I took photos as usual, mwahahah.)

Him, ZMPTSK & me at the back in blue!

Met my Dad for lunch at AMKHub after school. First time I'd left school so early, at 1230h. There wasn't training either. (Pity, 'cuz I miss training.) Honestly, I'd plans to crash VJ but decided it wasn't worth it D:

Saturday

Soccer Tournament Match #3! :]

Acting zai, NYJC Girls' Soccer ♥

We lost to UWCSEA, as expected. But we weren't bitter about it, at all. Have never been, anyway. It's always more of how we play the Game, and how much we enjoy it that matters.

And I must say, we all played well. It's almost as good as the J2s' last match. Pretty sad, it was. But that's also why they were determined to go all out. (Possibly even with the intention of earning themselves a Yellow Card, should the need arise?)

The Aussies were HUGE. But I got rough and starting running into them like some crazed woman, hah. Couldn't be bothered, really. Though it was clear they were too formidable. It'd be impossible for me to knock any of 'em down! D: Especially the one I deemed "Giant" - she's prolly 180cm and bigger than my 19 year old brother. Freaky, to the max.

Reunion Dinner at night, was okay. Paternal's side. Yummy MSG-free food was prolly the best part of it all :]

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Random thought: I've only got 'bout 7 more school days in my Blue & Grey. Damn, I'm going to miss it so very much ):

And,
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH, AVERY! :]
I'll flap 'em Chicken Wings, just for you :] Hah.

2008-01-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

Complete and total adoration
My gift to you, my heart was yours
In ten weeks you shaped it
In one night you murdered it
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet

Jessica's birthday celebration!

Today was a tiring day, but I'd loads of fun ♥

I'm not exactly thinking now; my brain's currently malfunctioning ): Mehhhh. But yes, the 2 main highlights today are:

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, JESSICA :]

OG27 celebrated it for her after school at LDF. We'd a cute cake and everything. The present was this plushie we'd shared the cost for.

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The other highlight happened after school!

NYJC Girls' Soccer Team ♥

Soccer Tournament Match #2. Played against GESS today - the German girls. They're so good, I tell you ): We were thrashed, 10-0! Yes, believe it. HAHA. Nevertheless, it was a Good Game, and I mean it :]

Coach said we played better. And so did our Captains. Plus, right now I'm feeling so egoistic just 'cuz Coach praised me. "Good running", was what she said :] And I'm sure, la! I mean, today was the first time ever since I stopped training in Cedar that I'd sprinted so hard.

Good push today, though. The player I was marking was crazily fasttttt. Some kind of Speed Machine ):

Okay I need sleep, pronto. Stupid Econs Test.

2008-01-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

Now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free
Ain't it the truth?

Sarah, I miss you! D:

School's been pretty much okay, though recently, it's turning into a nightmare. Mini one, thankfully. (But even then.)

Can't think straight right now. The few ~~random~~ points in my mind:
1. Soccer Tournament Match 2 tomorrow!
2. Today was a helluva day.
3. Betrayal is the last thing I need.
4. Commend me for not skipping Geog Seminar today :]
5. Can't wait for Jessica's Birthday Celebration thing.
6. Joshua Tan if you're here, I'm angry so go awaaayyyyyy ):
7. ____ Trouble, Burst My Bubble.

Stupid Econs test on Thursday. After tomorrow's Match I won't have time to mug. I can just go and die now.

(I hate the way I've been blogging.)

Anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD :]

2008-01-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

Happy 17th, Wanping! ♥

Love you so much, BFFAEZXZXZ!

Babe, you mean too muchhhhh.
You, Me, Us, Time :]

2008-01-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

And the moment I clicked "Submit", the struggle was over.
SAJC: Here I come ♥

Thank God for wisdom.

2008-01-27T15:19:00.000+08:00

I've got these perfect pictures in my head of possibility
It was the words you whispered then
They led me to believe
You led me to believe
But it's not right and you know it

Michelle, my Soccer Buddyyyy :]

Yesterday morning, had first match of the Soccer Tournament. Played against SRJC. Lost 1-0 to a penalty kick (in which the referee wrongly gave!). Aye, but nevertheless, we'd fun.

Was pretty surprised Coach played me for the entire Second Half. Actually, it's amazing how I even got chosen into the 2nd Team. Good for Rachel and Peiqi; the only 2 J1s who played as part of the first 11!

Centre mid, I was. Oh bugger, other than having to run so much - which I actually don't really mind - I was put up against SR's mid-fielders. And they are all J2s ): How freaky and big. I didn't dare be that aggressive. There's this person called Farah (#8) she's so hiong, she kicked my ankle when I intercepted the ball. Now there's this bruise, oh what in the world.

Can't wait for Monday's training. Which is, tomorrow! HAHAHA :]

(Photos are uploaded onto FB. Click on the link in the right-hand side column under 'Picture-Perfect'!)

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After the match, headed down to Dhoby Ghaut, PS with some of the seniors. Went to DAISO to buy stuff for Ke Li's birthday present! The seniors were getting so excited with all the cute things we found there. Think though it might seem inexpensive that everything's just $2, at the rate they chucked stuff into the basket, it'd easily amount to a fair sum D:

Met OGMs (and 1 OGL) for lunch. Morgan, Carlton, Cheryl and Albert. Nigel came later on, when I was about to leave for YF!

Ewww, I look ugly next to Morgan Estee Kek Yashi ):

Check out the dressing, yo!
(I refuse to believe Nigel is a 17 year old to-be.)

Some kind of illusion?
Nawww, it's just Carlton proving Albert's short! :]

Have got no idea what in the world they did after I left for Bishan at 1530h. Think they managed to find something to do. Lunch was short but our conversation was pretty okay. Centred mainly on Soccer and JAE Choices. Well.

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YF Camp Echo was good :]

Catching up with Sydney and all! Though not everyone was present. Oh well. Anyway, seeing Just reminded me of a very important announcement I forgot to make a few days ago D:

THE ARMY GUYS ARE BACK. FINALLY, AFTER 2 WEEKS. MY BROTHER'S BACK, TOO! BUT HE'S ILL ):

Okay, that aside. Prayer was good, with Junipher. We'll keep each other in prayer :] Stay strong, you. 'O' Levels, no biggggg ♥

Anyway I'm still so confused about where to go for JAE. My shitty results ain't giving me much choice. My fault, I'm sure. Spoke to some of the YFers after YF ended. Bob and Just were obviously asking me to go to SA, mehhhh.

Edric was being nice and encouraging :] He shared with me his 'O' Level results and said mine really weren't all too bad. I guess so. Thanks, you! But right after that he and Shaun were like going "ALAMAKKKK" (in that manner) when I told them I was in Girls' Soccer -.- Stupid. Cannot believe I am so cool, I know D:

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At night, went for a Special Dinner with my family.

Celebrated my Dad's birthday, my results (?!) and the fact that my brother's back. Actually my Dad's birthday's on the 29th, but since my brother's going to Camp tonight, it's got to be done earlier.

(Speaking of results. I can't help but think about it so much. My parents were talking about my cousin's again today and I felt like shit. I know I suck so bad. I suck worse than a straw. Sometimes I wish I could tell them all to 'shut up' and that I'm going to prove them otherwise in 2 years. But I won't. I'll wait, for the right time to shine. ~~Keeping it inside can be such a burden, but I don't give a shit. Let me diediedie~~.)

Saturdays are busy days.

2008-01-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

Say "nighty-night" and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

The day we declared it a "Non-School Day";
♥

Those pictures were taken on the last day ever I thought I'd live to see myself happy: 23rd January 2008. Mehhhh.

Anyhoo, I pon-ed every single Lecture and Seminar that ran, on the Wednesday before the fateful Thursday D: It was, some kind of an experience. But it's when you realise what good friends you've come to make, albeit temporal (or so I do believe). ~~But sometimes all we need is trust. Trust, Ely~~.

Zhiwen, Jessica & Morgan: Thanks for all 'em memories. Playground and all :] Love.

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Match tomorrow. Suddenly I'm getting butterflies in my stomach ):

TOOWMS told me: "Like any other soccer fan, go in there and be your favourite soccer player." Oh, how in the world? Bummer, I sure wouldn't want to have to do the Robot Dance when I do score. Even though it's cool, I admit. (HAHAHA Crouch I love youyouyou! ♥)

Tomorrow's going to be a busy day. Hopefully I can (finally) make it for an OG Outing :] Then it's YF Camp Echo thereafter! Sydney Sydney is the besttttt. Amazing I can still get this excited over everything. Carlton told me not to be emo. I won't, okay?

That's why, darling, it's incredible - how someone so unforgettable, would find me unforgettable,
too.

2008-01-25T14:39:00.000+08:00

And when he said this to me:

"you'll be okay. take that piece of paper out, the paper that reads "HOPE". hold on to that, for we've done our best. it's not the results, it's the process. now i believe that claim. Doubt not, for you're adequate."

Tears down my cheeks; why, oh why.

But you fill me up, just like a balloon. ♥

2008-01-25T09:49:00.000+08:00

When you sail across the ocean waters

And you reach the other side safely
Could you smile a little smile for me?
'Cause I'll be thinkin' about you
I'll be thinkin' about you

Earth hath no sorrow Heaven cannot heal.

Despite having this hangover feeling - prolly from getting drunk with grief - I'm pretty much okay. Am learning to get over it, and to be thankful for what He has given me. After all, I've thought about it, and it's true; my results are merely a painful reminder of the past. It's a punishment for the shit I've done in Secondary School. I know now.

(If at this point of time you don't already know how it turned out for me, don't bother asking. I'm sick of those questions already. You're going to make me feel worse than I already do. And take my word for it, I will screw you over so bad. Basically, STAY AWAY.)

Results aside, am thankful for friends. On the way to school, Sam messaged me. He was encouraging and told me, "Don't worry because it will not take away the burden, but instead the strength for tomorrow". Thanks, Sam ♥

Also, was good to be back in Cedar. I miss the school so much - both place & people. Friends, teachers, juniors, values, stories, moments, practices, memories.. LIFE.

The new Prefects' Room (PR) is so nice,
like twice the size!

EXCO and our coloured socks O:

& I miss taking photos of Eunice, Inez and Deborah like this,
like how I used to.

Cedar's excellent results :]
(Click for enlarged view.)

4/O's table of ~~impending doom~~ D:

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My supposed EXCO Outing thereafter was a bit screwed up. Abi, Vicky and Arica all had other commitments so it was left with Sin, Jen, Ping and I. Caught the flick "27 Dresses" (actually we'd chosen it really because of Vicky but in the end she didn't come?!). Thought it'd be bimbotic but. Turned out to be pretty romantic [:

I teared at the end, when she got married. And it's pretty rare I actually cry at the movies, mind you. Well. P'haps it was just that I was already emotional yesterday, to begin with D:

I just miss EXCO, this much ♥

& to You, my Stalker:
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key;
Sing me anything,
We're glad for what we've got.
♥♥♥

2008-01-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

There must be something wrong with me
My mind is just a sickly little alibi
And why am I surprised you're giving up on me?
"Goodbye", the word you're wielding like a knife

Happy moments, exist.

I feel sorry.

Dying to finish off this sorry self.

Results tomorrow. I feel angsty. But perfect timing, you do have. Was it intentional? Or was the blade just attracted to the dummy. I honestly cannot tell.

(Stupid idiot egghead mehhhface) D:
Oh just kill me now.

2008-01-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

'Walking on a tightrope says:
i've got a confession to make

♥Thy, my Knight of all. says:
Yes?

'Walking on a tightrope says:
didnt see you around in school these few days and i kinda missed you :D

Steph is so sweet! Thanks, Babe [:

It's what the Night does, I swear. I feel like shit now - useless, small, paltry.. And the list goes on.

So here's my hand; pull me up ♥

2008-01-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

Wait outside I hope the air will
Serve to remind you that my heart is
As cold as the clouds of your breath
And my words are as timed
As the beating in my chest

Janelle, at the Grand Stand.

Oh, and did I forget to mention: I wore Cheryl's SNGS pinafore today. Felt pretty weird in one; haven't put on something like that since 4 years ago (the Rosyth uniform). Still, enjoyed prancing around in a dress-like thing. But pretty annoying when the wind blows, mehhhh D:

Didn't manage to find my boots. Am going to Queensway tomorrow. But now I have CH telling me he can get me a 30% discount for Adidas boots. What in the world? This is confusing the shit out of me ): As it is, dragged my sick self around Singapore today just looking for a pair of shoes. Bummer.

Will be going to school tomorrow. Even though Leonard told me, "Eh if you're sick tomorrow don't act man and come school okay. Later you halfway go back again". Heh, I was never acting "man", okay! (Have always been part-guy, hahaha.)

Help, Econs Tutorial nowwwww.

2008-01-21T14:04:00.000+08:00

I've got no place in my heart for a criminal like you
To dwell in this endeavor, make this last forever
I'm just delirious, you can't be serious
You're so infamous for leaving me a mess

'Cuz you girls make me so happy ♥

We had our NY Cedarians' Birthday Celebration kind of thing this morning. It was so much fun, though I'd overslept 40 minutes and hence missed the crux: THE BIRTHDAY SONG, (Cedar Version)! Oh dangit ):

Nevertheless, all 'em other Blue & Grey people were waiting for me in the Tennis Court. We did Billy Banja and made Yin Xue sing for us. Cedarians are always noisy and loud and we attract attention (or so some say), but who gives a damn? It's the passion and verve we actually feel, deep down inside of us all [: Plus, wearing the uniform just makes it all the more better.

(& I'm sorry Babes, I know the Blue & Grey is sacred and I shouldn't have lent it out. Butbutbut.. Okay nevermind, just don't kill me. Anyway, if it makes y'all feel better, I know how hard it is, having earned our way to wearing only the nicest uniform on Earth. If you're not a true Cedarian, it sure looks weird on you. So yes, we're the only deserving ones, yeh? D: Bugger.)

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That aside, I'm blogging at this time only because I came home early from school. Was having super bad diarrhoea tendencies. Carlton and Morgan walked me out of school. Morgan gave me the sweets (as promised!) and Carlton was so sweet. He carried my bag for me and flagged the cab. Even offered to pay for the fare but naturally I refused, even though he chucked $20 into my hands and sent me off D:

The only thing that has made me happy today is the Cedar Celebration. Everything else was screwed up.

Am playing Peacemaker for the OG. What kind of shit has arose, I've no idea. To think I thought my shit this morning - literally - was bad enough. Nyehhhh.

Have got to rest, so that I can recover for Lectures/Seminars tomorrow, Games' Day this Wednesday, training/results on Thursday, results on Friday and the Tournament Game on Saturday.

Soccer boots' shopping today. UK 7.5 [:

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Anyhoo, this is going to be so random but, I just realised my blog looks ugly on IE. Please, for all your eyes' sake, DON'T VIEW MY BLOG ON IE. Use FF, okay? Pretty, pretty please, with a durian on top ):

P/S. If you don't understand what I just said about 'IE' and 'FF', you seriously need to brush up a bit on your Computer Language. Try taking up Computing as a H2 subject, maybe? D: Or better, go find out.

2008-01-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
Recall the moments that once have
Retract the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you

Calvin is so cute.

(Made my day)

I've come to post with a few announcements.

#1 - EXPECT TO SEE ME IN SCHOOL TOMORROW Y'ALL :B I don't care.

#2 - I'M TAKING MY BRACES OFF ON TUESDAY, 22nd JAN. Hence, any photo requests with this Braceface had better be done, pronto. (Don't say I didn't inform you!)

#3 - THINK FOR JAE, I'LL BE SIGNING UP FOR COUNCIL. Whichever JC I go, it don't matter. Elyssa has a Council face, and is totally Council-like. She cannot resist it any longer ): Damn.

P/S. Couldn't find my size for Soccer boots. Getting 'em tomorrow, some place else, after school.

And I've got You, to make me feel stronger ♥

2008-01-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming?
No one's listening anyway

Just a little bit.

Have taken ill since Saturday morning.

It's the result of training and rushing into an air-conditioned LT without food for more than 2 hours. The stupid Parents'/JC Talk thing does wonders, I swear. I mean, surely you've to call one night of that and getting sick the next day.. A TOTAL MIRACLE? D: Mehhhh.

Being this ill sucks. Threw up yesterday evening. Finally, after trying to do so the whole day. The entire process was too surreal; I felt like I could die. 'Cuz I couldn't breathe for a moment. It was freaky, trust me ):

Nevertheless, still feeling light-headed. Have thought about not going to school tomorrow. Taking a break, of some sort. But ack, I've made too many commitments for Monday. Am going to have to miss Soccer, shit ): I know quite a few will be upset if I'm not around. Here's an MSN conv to prove it:

Pez. said:
tmr i give you sweet k

Pez. said:
then you'll get better

♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Okay [:

Pez. said:
life without elyssa feels weird even though im not close to you

♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Thanks for saying that, Morgan. Haha, at least I know I've made an impact somewhere..

♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
[:

♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Warms the heart, it does. Haha.

Pez. said:
heh

Awh, Morgan! ♥ And Leonard said if I don't go to school tomorrow he's going to miss me too D: My friends are so cute, haha.

And also, tomorrow morning's our NY Cedarians' Birthday Celebration (random) kind of thing! Cannot miss it ): Our photoshoot day as well.
Note to self: CAMERA 8)

Hopefully I can get my Soccer boots by tonight :B

2008-01-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

Goodbye, goodnight my weary, weary world
I wish I had something I could leave you behind
But wind grows colder and the pain grows duller
Did you ever really care about me?

& I miss it so much I could cry ):

Ever since JC life started, everything's been flashing past. Almost in a whirl.

But there's never a day that goes by that I miss out on missing Cedar. Despite all the "negative" parts of the culture - like the discrimination, even elitism at that - there's no doubt it's a place I call 'Home'. 4 years I've spent there, and like Quincy said: It's etched. (And I've got 'em scars to prove it.)

NYJC is homey, rather. But it's just not the same. At all. No doubt. I miss 'school', as I've come to know it.

Moving on leaves one empty, if you look at it pessimistically. It's not a new beginning, it's another end. Another memory that p'haps most deem fitter to leave to the deepest recesses of one's mind. But I beg to differ.

After being in Cedar, there's this need to see the Life in action. Once more; no, all the time. Constantly and surely, like it's something to be fed upon. It's the drug I need in my veins. The very veins that pump this heart. For the heart, itself, sustains life.

Attending school everyday just reminds me of Cedar. Every time I look myself in the mirror, or see the other Cedarians walking around school in the Blue & Grey, I just wish I'd never have to change out of my uniform. It's what gives me identity. Security. Knowing we belong to somewhere or something, and knowing that somehow we are of worth is the basis of what keeps us going. People need to feel acceptance.

Can't things just stay this way? With the GCE 'O' Level results set to be released next week, I don't know what to think anymore.

Everything is coming together. But not in harmony.

2008-01-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

Damn, it's 10pm and I feel like crap.

ELY. LIT. NOW.
& I will my quietus make, with a bare bodkin ♥

2008-01-15T22:02:00.001+08:00

And if you don't love me, let me go
And I am a writer, a writer of fictions
I am the heart that you call home
And I've written pages upon pages
Trying to rid you from my bones

Awhhhh :D

Time for some Picture Description/Interpretation:

This is Joshua.
Joshua is hugging Kevin.
Kevin likes being hugged.
Joshua loves Kevin.
(I think) Kevin loves Joshua.
Joshua and Kevin look cute together.
Joshua intends to spend more time with Kevin.
& vice versa ♥

Okay face it, Ely - you're cranky.

Tutorials galore, with little time. The need to rest, is looming over me like some huge, grey, threatening thundercloud. It's going to cause a storm much worse than the one I'd witnessed 2 days ago.

... Oh, what Tragedy ):

2008-01-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

Some, would do good.

Am feeling bummed. (Guess this is when it all starts to settle in, huh?)

Had a pretty long day, coupled with training from 5-7plus. This is the real JC life that one should be made to experience. The first week after Orientation was easy, but it'd cut us way too much slack. Jaded, in a nutshell.

Thankfully, though, I've got friends to get me through the day. In the same Seminar Group as me are Leonard, Seow Hwee, and Joshua [: But mostly, I hang with the guys, haha. Had some time playing ball passing today, between classes. Soccer is going to start meaning much more to me, in time to come; sense of purpose and fulfillment awaits.

During training we played a game at the Parade Square. My team won with a 2-1 score! And guess who scored one of the 2 goals. (Mwahahah, I rock your house down, I knowwwww.) The other was brought home by Magdeline, GG O:

Tomorrow's supposed to be my short day, 'cuz today's my long day. It has to work like that. But it ain't, so I've concluded the timetable is prolly screwed up ): When I complained to Joshua, the conversation went like this..

joshua, no longer says:
ermm..

joshua, no longer says:
coscos ur sleepy!

joshua, no longer says:
and ur experiencing a biological process

joshua, no longer says:
:P

♥The salt of most unrighteous tears. says:
Okay.

♥The salt of most unrighteous tears. says:
Good enough an answer ):

In the week to come - and for much longer than that, prolly even the rest of my life - I am to feel the tragedies in life. Act like Jean Grey. Concentrate for a while. Start getting weaker. Go, "Oh Scott!" and faint. ~~Into the arms of Romeo~~.

'Tis such be of a Literature student; hardly "a consummation devoutly to be wish'd".

To die, to sleep; to sleep: perchance to dream.

2008-01-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

This bitter pill to swallow is the silence that I keep
It poisons me I can't swim free the river is too deep
Though I'm baptized by your touch I am no worse at most
In love with your ghost

The highlight of all the lectures last week D:
(Click for enlarged view.)

Yesterday, went to Church earlier to help Joy with the organizing of the Clubhouse. This is prolly like, Round Two. But this time, with lesser "comrades" mobilized. 'Cuz apparently most of those who helped in Round One were not free. In the end, only Sam Tan, Charles and I were there.

YF was Team Launch! The workshop was pretty fun. I mean, with Sam Tan as group leader, how in the world can you go wrong? Tsk. Anyway, Sam is supposed to stand in the hugging position 'til this morning 1030h. (Right, Joy? -Inside joke.) But in the end I didn't even see the "friend". Who's that, again? Sharon? Rachel? Sarah..? Okay nevermind, I give up D:

-Okay I got lost in my train of thoughts.- ):

Basically, somehow I don't seem all that excited for school tomorrow. Have got to find a poem for Lit. But I still love Lit, tsk.

PE and Soccer tomorrow, one after the other. I will be stick-skinny come post-8pm [: YAY? Hahaha.

Credit the moodswings, all strange & jumpy behaviour to my period. PERIOD.

2008-01-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

This story's getting old
The home wrecker with a heart of gold
Keep you locked up in the trunk in my mind
Keep, keep talking
Keep this alive

Thursday

Meant to skip PE and meet Leonard at 11am, to make it in time for Math Lecture. (Which was, apparently, the only lecture I had that day.) But in the end my conscience got the better of me and I went to school.

Pangseh-ed Leonard though; I forgot to tell him I was going to school, tsk. Anyway, if it made him feel any better, I was alone when the rest of the OG went for Chem Lecture. Spent time in the library studying Lit. Was so immersed that I ended up skipping PE all the same. 3 hours of studying Critical Terms for Literature. Loved it [:

After school there was supposed to be Mass Dance at the Atrium. But only the J2s seemed to be there. Besides, the OG guys wanted to play Soccer. They asked me to join just 'cuz I said I was going to join Girls' Soccer. Tsk, what the crap.

Met MES for lunch instead. Went to RJ, hahaha. Saw quite a few Cedarians, 'cuz our uniform is so prominent! (All the more, amongst the sea of white/RI and navy blue/RGS.) Stupid MES kept claiming that I'd crashed RJ when all I did was to step into the canteen for barely 10 minutes -.- HAHA.

At j8, saw Abraham! He said Cedar uniform looks nice. Oh, but of course [: He's merely stating the obvious so don't mind him, really. Hah. Then, met An Shing at the Food Court. He's one kind of damn idiotic, wtcd. Kept talking about Japheth and I. Excuse me, wait 'til I start on your -ahem- Jennifer AND Rachel, then we'll see what you have to say. (Don't think just 'cuz you're RI/RJ then can suan me!) Nyehhhh O:

Thereafter, had a good long story-telling session with TOOWMS. It was two-way, so yeh.
Thanks for that, you.

Friday

My brother went into the Army today ):

Am pretty sad. Honestly, have thought about this day quite a bit. Especially since I entered Upper Secondary, with the study of Social Studies - I swear, the propaganda is like shit - I became much more aware. It seemed rather far away then, though. But now that it has happened, it's a strange feeling. I miss my brother ):

(Oh and I went to the Ceremony today. Pon-ed school; the FIRST TIME in my entire life! The camp site is better than I expected. Not too bad, I reckon. And guess who I saw! Theodore, HAHAHA. He was made to sweep leaves D: And when I called him, he looked sad. He just shook his head and didn't smile. Mannnnn.)

Serving the country is something every Son of Singapore should be proud of [: But the training is tough, I must say. All the best, y'all. Will be keeping every one of you in prayer.
Korkor: Takecare and trust in Him. Love.

-

First Soccer training today!

NYJC Soccer is like, D: Sheesh. Especially for Girls' Soccer, it's much more of a recreational than competitive CCA. Still, it's fun. Playing games and all that.

There's more in store, I'm sure. Cannot wait, cannot wait [:

All that aside, we're assigned to our Seminar Groups already. Am in S2A, together with Leonard and Seow Hwee. The new timetable is screwed up ):

2008-01-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

And I'm lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride
But I'm not getting stronger

I love Love;
Being in Love.

And dare I say, I don't care what it does to me?

Over & over, but p'haps just not enough.
But save your breath and keep that knife.
My skin is tough; your blade just might not cut.
Oh, my Love, wouldn't we be attractive?
With eyeglasses full of stars, and plenty of paper for scenery paintings.

I've seen angels fall from blinding heights,
But you yourself are nothing so divine;
Just next in line.

'Cuz you don't know what you do
to me.
♥♥♥

2008-01-09T19:03:00.000+08:00

It's out with the old
And in with the new
Goodbye clouds of grey
Hello skies of blue

During Math Lecture today.
It's blur ):

Today was one of the busiest days so far, and will be the busiest I've got all week. Thank God I've survived it. It's like, Admin Talk, Lit, Geog, Math and GP. Oh bugger, that was a hell lot to digest.

Nevertheless, school's very much enjoyable {:

CCA Bazaar after school. Frankly, the Co-Curricular Activities in NYJC are pretty pathetic. Not that I'm trying to be judging here (hell no), but it's the bitter truth D: Guess they're just not really so much into the CCA culture as was back in Cedar.

Had a hard time deciding what to join. Currently, am torn between Touch Rugby & Soccer. TOOWMS is encouraging me to join Soccer. (But that's like, a "doh!" kind of thing, tsk.) Touch Rug is fun, mud aside. Aye, either way, it's the field and mud. Only difference between the two: Feet, or Hands. Hah. Will make a choice come Saturday, though.

During the 30 minutes break before Math Lecture, most of OG27 spent time mugging at LDF. Mugging is the shit, man ♥

But, we got distracted.. With Leonard's quest to be "known by many names". (Nyehhh, like he's that popular!) D: Started lending him all our nametags. But all the names were that of the girls' -.- Tsk. And hence, here begins the pinning process:

Okay, this looks totally wrong. HAHAHA.

YAAAYYYYY :D

(Click for enlarged view.)

& I like this photo, so [:

Prolly pon-ing school on Friday. First time in my entire life. It's to send my older brother off to NS. The enrollment ceremony, I think. Well.

Random, now:
jasmine said:
alright im off to bathe and mug now!
jasmine said:
see you around (:

This MJ girl scares the shit out of me ): Now, am determined to be more mugger-like. Thanks for the 'encouragement', Jasmine ): Mehhhh.

P/S. Photos for NYJC Orientation One 2008 is up on Facebook. Here are the links: One, Two, Three. P+ty.

2008-01-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

Hey, Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

In Strawberry Fields, forever ♥

Am lazy to upload the photos I took during Econs Lecture today, tsk.

(Short post, today's will be.)

School is fun. Mugging is fun. All the shitz we experience is fun. Basically, just be hiong and chiong and it will be fun. Lectures aside, free periods are spent in the library. Studying [: Oh, what funnnnnn.

Went out after school today. Caught "Across The Universe"; my first NC16 flick! IT'S A GOOD MOVIE, REALLY. WATCH IT {: It's cute & musical-like. And Lucy is so pretty.

But haha, seriously have got no idea what the excitement is all about.. With all 15 year olds so eager to turn 16. But sheesh, even though I'm supposed to be 17 this year, I don't think people will actually believe I am of age. Still, they didn't bother checking today and I feel proud of myself for that [: Tsk.

Oh, and we went to NUM. The guys working there are basically all just gay. Like, downright gay ): Why, why, why? I see them and then I think to myself, "Where in the world have all the men gone?" D: Plus, being gay is one thing. Trying to engage in a conversation with me is another thing. Ugh.

Excuse me, I am a vulnerable young woman, okay.

Right, am too high for my own good. It's a no wonder I feel tired. Too much energy burned. And recently my odd eating habits have returned. It's a disorder, I swear.

Lit tomorrow = ♥!

2008-01-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds that will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been

Here to post about yesterday & today.

Recently, life has been "mundane" in terms of the emotional platform. Can't say much. Please, y'all, bear with the narrations. It's not something I enjoy all that much either. (And as for S.. I've neglected you so so much. I miss you.)

Sunday

Managed to attend 8.30am first ever official Service, with the Message included. Overslept, actually. But thank God for my father and a car. Hah.

First YD at 1030h as well. And it's not longer Cindy & Debbie ): Xinyan is nice, though. Like the way her voice sounds. For the first lesson, we had those ice breaker sort of games. But was kind of pointless 'cuz all the people there were from my YD previously, save for Sarah! [:

The early birds took a photo!

Haha, managed to do a TM shot by placing my camera above this projector that was on the floor. Funny how the angle worked out. I must be becoming a rather successful photographer HAHAHA.

Monday

Met for OG27 Breakfast this morning! Initially it was meant to be at the field near Serangoon MRT. (We desperately wanted to be extra/unique/crazy/AA.)

But well, in the end we ended up at Central Macs. There were enough seats to house all of us, surprisingly! Even with so many other Athena OGs there and the Athena OGLs. Tsk. But in the end, since we'd already brought food and Macs was like, so unhealthly, we decided to eat outside at the playground [:

We are damn happening, I swear.

We look good ♥

All the different uniforms look nice when they come together. Think no two of us are in the same school; that's pretty awesome. The only identical ones are Doris, Chloe & Chuen Hwee (doh!). Pity, though, Steph wore NY Orientation shirt. And I think in the photo my eyes are closed, shit mannnn ):

Lectures today were alright. GP, Math and Lit for me. Ended at 1200nn whilst the rest of them - other than Leonard - had Chem! Thank God I'm spared from that. Met CH 'cuz he was having his break. He brought Leonard and I 'round on a school tour.

Ran into Joshua on the way! Sheesh, I seem to be seeing Joshua everywhere. In the morning while waiting for the bus at the bus stop as well; almost forgot we lived near each other D:

Tomorrow, 1.5hr PE. What kind of damn shit?! HAHA. But other than that, it's only Econs Lecture [:

P/S. The OG27 Video is up on Youtube! Thanks to Zhiwen. Here it is:

I keep watching it -.-

Alrightyyyyy, enough of my shitz already ):

2008-01-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

Melt down

It's not a crush
In a hot, hot room
We're in a rush
Headstrong, can you feel the beat?

OG27 ♥

NYJC Orientation One 2008 [:

Day 3 was all about funfunfun. The ownage is good, people. It's so damn good.

Cheered 'til my throat's sore. (Still is, now.) But it's all worth it, aye! A-A-ATHENA! A-A-ATHENA! Hahaha.

The Dance Competition was crazyyyy. The contestants seriously can dance. In a way, then, thank God Sara and I got eliminated. Or I would've totally died during the Freestyle Round D:

Cheering Competition was fun! Felt like Cedar, but different, of course. Volunteered as one of the OGM Leaders. Couldn't help it, I swear. The enthusiasm was just bursting out of me, really. Anyway Rupini was there, cheering with me! [: Yay, go Cedarrrrrr.

Disco Night was a blast. Went cranky, similar to that of RMUN's D&D last year. Steph, you rock, babe!

Went for OG Supper at RK House in Gardens thereafter. Lots of stupid incidents. Albert even suggested going to the park to do Mass Dance -.- Wl, that kind is too high already. HAHAHA.

But anyhoo, being the overtly-enthusiastic person that I (usually) am, I spent today creating a video for OG27! Ask me to send you the vid, if you want it; Youtube hates me, so yeh. Love y'all to bits. WE'RE THE BEST ATHENA OG [:

OG Breakfast on Monday! Picnic at Serangoon MRT, tsk D:

2008-01-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

Two to one
Static to the sound of you and I
Undone for the last time
And don't you think
I wish I could stay
Your lips give you away

First day of school today.

Somehow, by the day before yesterday, I managed to hype myself up for PAE at NY. It turned out to be everything I'd imagined - what with the cheena culture and all.

But in spite of that, am glad to say it ain't all that bad. Cheena, but I'm surviving. Have found myself quite a few English-speaking friends {: Even with the overwhelming numbers of students hailing from schools like Chung Cheng and Nan Chiau (in large part due to the affiliation), those like me still manage to live with it.

One of the strangest things is prolly going to school and seeing GUYS around. It's something I haven't experienced for the past 4 years. Besides, Primary School is really nothing. Because the guys are more childish then. (Still are, now.) Tsk.

Am in Athena/OG27. Thanks to the whole "Cedar upbringing", was prolly the most enthu in the group {: Can't help it, really. Aye, I miss the Cedar atmosphere, many! ):

On a side note, Morgan rocks my world! First ever person to tell me I have slender legs. Lie, factually. But a true opinion, I respect. HAHAHA.

Tomorrow, Sentosa trip for us! And prolly OG Dinner after.

Am tired. Have got to rest for tomorrow D:

2007-12-31T14:25:00.000+08:00

I wanted to be two, but more than one
I only thought that I could be so dumb
Crush my heart with your new heels
I'd beg for you, but I dont kneel

I've changed.

My 564th post on this blog. How far I've come.

It's the last day of the year today. Naturally, nostalgia sets in. 2007 has been different. Blatantly so. Being 16 is an odd thing, though pretty dandy at times.

Though, also, it's when you realise that you've become older. Aging comes into play; many things take their toll and you experience sudden revelations, realizations.. Like the break of dawn. Mistakes galore, but they aid you in the learning process.

I remember as a little kid, there was so much eagerness to grow up. Humans are ironic, and never satisfied. Being young, you long to be old(er); being mature, you desire to to turn back time. But everything is a new experience.

I recall.. How taking the school bus meant you were a Primary School kid. How, over the years, as games of hopscotch and catching were taken over by the computer/Gameboys, and penmanship evolved into compositions, it brought us through to age 12. Then came the Secondary School ez-link card - it made us feel older. Afterwhich, streaming in Secondary 2, which (to some extent) decided our path of education for the rest of our lives. The following year, we made our ICs, certifying our citizenship with this country.

And finally, where I am now: With my 16th birthday past, NC16 flicks within reach and standing at the edge of what would be a new chapter as I plunge into JC life.

Interesting, it all sounds.

Wouldn't have gotten thus far, if not for the fact of His Grace in delivering me. And not forgetting friends (and family), of course. Never more than 2 steps away.

Right now, I honestly wonder if I'm ready to face it all. All 'em challenges life is ready to hurl at me. But the notions of winning and losing are relative; there is no victory without loss. Surrender.

"The problems we experience now are temporal. All things, in the end, will work for good." I believe this now.

And when I next hear the clock tick, I'll remember all the things that I have experienced, for they far outnumber the seconds that have elapsed while I was through it. Just this morning, someone told me, "Well done, Elyssa."

Indeed, well done.

2007-12-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

And this is for the ones who have lost it all
When all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away
How can I say
Say I'll be okay?

Alicia's birthday [:

Celebrated Alicia's birthday today after Service. Just a small cake, birthday song and that was it.

The photo we took (see above) was so similar to that which we posed for, 4 years ago. How time flies. We've been together as a YD Class for so long now. It's these little things that remind you, "Hey, you've grown." Sure have, Ely, sure have.

Yesterday's YF was pretty okay. Went earlier at 12nn to help out with getting the Clubhouse ready for use. I enjoyed the moments of mopping {: YF itself, we watched Narnia. Couldn't complete it, though, due to the lack of time.

-

♥Hear us falling. says:
But don't worry, most of the time it's just about me being too inadequate.

Killswitch Engage says:
u inadequate?

Killswitch Engage says:
yayaya

♥Hear us falling. says:
It's the truth, really.

Killswitch Engage says:
okayy

Killswitch Engage says:
ur not inadequate lah

♥Hear us falling. says:
[: Thanks.

Encouragement from a 15 year old can prove to be so strangely heartwarming at times.

That's enough for now, Ely; you can't expect everyone to bother.

2007-12-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

Through open eyes I sense a feeling
Painted black that lines your heart
It's bleeding through just like
The colors that I've seen right from the start
And if I had the choice to do this all again

Love you, Babe.

Manicure/Pedicure Session yesterday sure was some experience. Shan't elaborate, though, on how my fingers and toes were freezing off.

Guess the colour my nails are in now! Hawhaw.

LOVE 'EM TO BITS ♥

That aside, my Mom was comparing my cousin and I again, as usual. Fine, fine, I know she's damn tall and skinny and has a smaller waist than me. And it's my fault for having joined Track & Field resulting in the hugest legs and hips in the entire universe. Still, it's not fair to say I've got a waist of "25 to 27 inches"; I can very well fit into my Cedar school skirt which is size 24, thank you.

~~Mommy Dearest, this ain't working out for the esteem~~. Damn it.

After a certain incident this morning that brought back certain bad memories and deja vu of the awful past, have decided Elyssa needs punishment.

Today, have got plans I have to do away with. Like I mentioned to TOOWMS: "To rot at home is an imperative". Most certainly.

-

And an sms just came in. It read: "Hey um i guess i just wanna thank you again for taking some time to hear all that shit from me? (:"
You're welcome, you.

All this is so fake, I find myself jaded. (And can you tell I'm trying so hard not to sound.. MEHHHH.)

2007-12-27T11:46:00.000+08:00

And from the ballroom floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well

♥ [:

Had to skip Sydney's Outing (bowling) yesterday morning. Was made to pack my room ): But for that, I earned the chance to attend Jo's BBQ! 'Cuz my Mom was - and I quote - "impressed" with what I'd done. Yay, 3 cheers for Ely.

Met the person obsessed with my shadow and went to CQ. Haha, good talking, as always. Then was brought to Sin Ming Avenue, where Jo lives. Almost slept on the bus, and that made me so exhausted thereafter. All that was going through my mind was "SLEEPSLEEPSLEEP" O:

The night was merry. Not so much the food, the place or the games. Fundamentally, the fellowship. Thanks Sydney, for everything! Photos here {:

Okay, today what I have in store is a Manicure/Pedicure Session scheduled for the evening. Haha, birthday treat from my Aunt.

Before that, though, still deciding if I should go back to Cedar. It's Orientation Day Two today! (How is it I don't know anything, huh. Oh the juniors..) Oh well, I do miss the school, in many ways. But it's not in the old premises. Mehhh.

Narrative, narrative shitz.

2007-12-26T13:28:00.000+08:00

'Cause in my head there's a greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
Where they're far more suited than here

Time to go.

Okay so this is how we do:

So typically, typically - stitch my newly ripped jeans and sew 'em tight; I've got too many scarred knees from too many fights.

It's time to get up, get out, get away & get over it ♥

And that's the beauty of it. When you lose your way, just close your eyes and go to sleep.. Wake up to another day.

This is also otherwise known as "Escape".

2007-12-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Yet in thy dark streets shineth
The Everlasting Light
The hopes and fears of all the years
Are met in Thee tonight

Shermaine! [:

Paternal's celebration last night.

Was okay, though as the years go by it's really so much of realizing how you've grown; how much you don't enjoy playing at the playground and lighting sparklers as you used to. Sat on the swing most of the time. It was a lot about reminiscing - more so than being emo.

Photos!:

Christmas Dinner {:

Prayer before partaking the food.

Playing with the sparklers!

Swing swing swing (from the tangles of my heart).

I hope I look happy. ~~Happy enough~~.

Then I tried eating the biggest piece of cheesecake EVER! Ahhh, it was crazyyyyy man. But hey, no fear, when you have Elyssa the Cheesecake ~~MONSTER~~ Queen {:

It's HUGE! O:

Attack, Ely, attack! [:

But in the end I failed. I left some bits for my brother ): Gahhhh. But hey, that's enough calories to last me the next few months. People say "Christmas is the time to stop counting all those calories and just indulge". But wtcd, no way!

-

Today's Christmas!

Somehow didn't feel like it, though. This year Christmas is very much different from those in the past. P'haps familiarity has ruined it all. Tragic.

Went for Service in the morning. Afterwhich, exchanged gifts and cards at the Upper Sanctuary together with all the YFers. Thanks for the presents and notes, all you who gave 'em to me! Lovelovelove ♥

Then, "The Paedophile Association" - headed by Shermaine with me as Vice - brought the kids out for their monthly outing. (Okay this is all crap and I just created this organization today, I swear.) Caught the flick "I Am Legend" at j8. The show is plain weird. Abe and my brother were laughing throughout, Zac was expressionless, Kevin kept eating, Kok Weng was getting all cozy while I, was afraid. Stupid.

We were cheap thrilling at the Interactive Mat thereafter! Haha, super retarded. I took a video of Abe fooling around. Should prolly post it up on Youtube [:

Being childish & playing with the kids!

After most of them left, Zac, Abe, Greg, my brother and I went to SONY to check out Guitar Hero III. Tsk, the guys were playing. When they asked me to I foolishly agreed but got owned. Oh well. Anyway, my main role was to take photos, while Greg's was to be a good audience.

Abe playing it.

Zac.

My brother.

No special presents this year from my parents, I think. Ah well, it's difficult to break out of tradition in this manner. But I guess the older we get, the less they see the need to give us stuff. Brilliant.

All I want for Christmas is to be a kid again.

2007-12-24T12:30:00.000+08:00

This feeling is lonely

Sending me slowly
Hits me so deep
It cuts my bone
Fills my heart
Burns me up

YD Class ♥

Haven't posted in 2 days, oh the horror D:

Saturday

Was awake early, but nevertheless I didn't go for Captain's Ball at Gardens. Hah, I kept my promise!

Lunched then headed to Cindy's. We were cheap thrilling, HAHA {: Super fun, though. All those games we made up! When Timmy came back he set up the new Wii. Ahhhh, that thing is so entertaining 'cuz of all that moving and boxing yada yada.

Trying out the games {:

The audience, haha.

In the evening, had to give YF a miss and attended my maternal's Christmas celebration! Was supposed to help the ladies cook but I ended up taking photographs ~~and sleeping~~ O: Heh.

And as with all other Christmas's past and present:

THE LADIES WORK WORK WORK!

WHILE THE GUYS SLACK SLACK SLACK!

Tsk, ah well D: Guys are born to slack! (Ooh, feminist comment, yeshiz.)

Sunday

Woke for 8.30am Service! YES, I MADE IT. But damn tired the whole day ): Even during caroling I was so exhausted. Plus half the time I was struggling to not look like my head was spinning D:

First ever caroling was much fun!

Sam made it for my first caroling [:

Oh what JOY, for me [:

Jo! ♥

He's so cute so cute so cute! I feel like a true paedophile now. Ah well, the little guy will willingly admit to being my brother. So why not? Hah.

(& I hereby declare I have a certified stalker stalking me. Freaky, not. Period.)

2007-12-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

I am slipping through, I am slipping through
I am slipping into the airwaves
(The static's where you'll find me)
And this is nothing new, you are slipping through
My fingers and into the airwaves

Zachary (all-too-shy) & Abraham [:

Had to shepherd all the junior guys today - Zac, Abe, Joel, his brother and my brother. Boy, that sure made me feel old. For once.

Joel was s'pposed to be my date for tonight to the Musical! But even at 1905h he was still at home having dinner D: Oh bugger. In the end, met the Sec 3 guys + my brother at Chomp Chomp. Walked into Church in the rain and waited for Joel there.

The Musical was good, pretty much. Short and sweet, yet still able to bring the message across.

When we had refreshments, all the Gardens' people said about the same things to me:

1. "How come you're here? I'm quite shocked that you actually came."
2. "What happened to your specs? So vain ah today, wear contacts."
3. "Eh, so how? Coming Gardens' YF or not?"

Wtcd, seriously. This is called "same pattern". HAHAHA.

Tomorrow morning at 10 there's Captain's Ball at Gardens'. Tsk, Edric Kwok is making me go. But I will not, despite living so near that Serangoon Gardens is only next door D: Thereafter at 1300h I've got YD Gathering at Cindy's. YF at 4-6pm but don't think I'd be able to make it.

Have got maternal side's Christmas celebrations in the evening. Ahh, pity - me wanted to go for YF Sports' Day ):

It's okay, Ely. P&P @ 0830h on Sunday, plus Carolling there after at 3pm [: Sweet.

2007-12-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

I am aware, I've been misled

I disconnect my heart, my head
Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Except that I am finding the words to say

So far away now.

Christmas is coming! Am excited [:

Ahh, there you have it - something that makes me happy. Hah. It's the best time of the yearrrrr. Cannot wait, cannot wait.

Though this year I'm settling into the Christmas mood pretty late. Nevertheless.

Am waiting for my parents to say they're ready to go out shopping so that I can follow them. Honestly, this Christmas I think I can expect a new iPod. HAHA okay actually I really have no idea. All I know is that I need to get out of the house.

Some people are under the impression that I shop a lot. But I must correct you at once. False, they are; am the real "noob".

-

Tonight's Outreach Musical at Gardens.

Will be there with my brother, the Sec 3 guys and many other people (like JUSTIN CHEONG). Haha.

Am not thinking straight now. Cranky mode: ON.

2007-12-20T15:06:00.000+08:00

Dark and dangerous like a secret
It gets whispered in a hush
And when I wake
The things I dreamt about you last night make me blush
(Don't tell a soul)

It's hardly depression;
merely reality.

Now I see your face before me
I would launch a thousand ships
To bring your heart back to my island
As the sand beneath me slips

I burn up in your presence
And I know now how it feels
To be weakened like Achilles
With you always at my heels

♥

2007-12-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

She's got everybody up in arms
Says it's only for love
Skin touching mine in a crowded room
Shoulder to shoulder we are
She's in stereo

Outside looking in,
~~Inside looking out~~.

It is really because of life on earth, that I am compelled toward the prize which is in Heaven.

Bring it on, Sweetheart ♥

2007-12-19T17:44:00.000+08:00

Lord, my heart is prone to wander
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart
Lord, take and seal it
Seal if for Thy courts above

Zonked out.

Or as Junipher would say, "ZOUKED OUT"? Haha okay no. Am kidding.

Back from CPB Sec 4 Farewell Chalet. Slept only 40 minutes and that was at about 0700h. The rest had collapsed after returning from breakfast at Macs at 4am. Carbohydrates are the equivalent of sleeping pills, I swear.

Since I didn't eat, stayed up. For no particular reason at all.

Was fun, though. Photos here.

Recently Russ got his 'N' Level results. Not too bad, with 4 points! Rock on, cariño! Then when I got home I distracted myself and tried to stay awake and waited for this other set of results 'cuz I owed KY time.

Aye, everyone's getting results of some sort - with Joel getting into Maris Stella and Tymon into Presbytarian High - that I'm reminded of my own PAE posting. Gah, I don't want to go to NY ): Will be crashing another JC every other day. Tsk D:

Okay my brain is really dead now.

"Heaven is a wonderful place/Filled with glory and grace/I want to see my Saviour's face/Heaven is a wonderful place" {:
Keep that in mind, Ely.

2007-12-18T10:32:00.000+08:00

You held my hand and walked me home, I know
Why, you gave me that it kiss it was something like this
It made me go "Oh oh"
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?

Guess it wasn't enough, just to take up some of my love.

Am feeling lazy today.

To start off today's post, I shall put up an MSN conversation that took place last night and there's something in it I want to illustrate:

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
Anyway, I'd better go.

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
Parents chasing me, 'cuz I'm 16 haha wtc.

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
):

Just says:
I win you?

Just says:
heh

Just says:
goodnight!

Just says:
I'm 18 and I often forget I can buy cigarettes and alcohol

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
HAHAHA

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
RETARDED

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
YOU ARE TOO GUAI FOR THAT

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
GOOD.

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
{:

Just says:
heh how would you know whether I do?

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
I'm telling you to.

♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
It's not a choice.

Here is an excellent example that it's not impossible to break through the age barrier, HAHAHA. Even if you're 16, you can order an 18 year old around D: (Right, okay now I will die if Justin sees this!) Nevermind, it's worth it {:

CPB Chalet. Supposed to leave now for EXCO Outing before heading to Coasta Sands. But wtcd, my Mom is at work, unreachable, and my Dad is in LaLaLand ): Does this really mean I've to wait?

Yes, and only 'cuz I'm a super-guai-'til-you-can't-stand-it-you-have-to-sit-down 16 year old.

2007-12-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

So you're standing on a ledge
It looks like you might fall
So far down
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping
Now you could have it all

Miracle: Need It.

Today was supposed to be boring.

Still trying to settle back into life - life out of the YF Camp routine ): This is called the "post-YF Camp blues", haha.

Had to get presents for tomorrow's CPB Sec 4 Farewell Chalet. BFFAEZXZXZ had Choir Practice so she got it herself later on. Was thus left without anyone to go with and (almost) pathetically attempted scouting Town alone.

Thank God for KY though; being my tour guide and all {: We met at AMK then headed to Town. Don't ask me where we went 'cuz I seriously have no idea. My job was easy: Just say what I want to get and I will be miraculously led to some place where I can find it. HAHAH, it's like Live GPRS. Wtcd? Tsk.

Funny how it is the way things work out. God has plans for each of us.

Be it a "trustworthy, 7th-day" friend or a "Day One" friend, I really marvel all the same.

2007-12-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

Heartbreaking,
despite the fight.

I want no part in this, anymore.

2007-12-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
While you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes
What's your fantasy?

Charging straight for it.

Managed to wake for YD and Service today. Haha, the ownage is good {:

Sat with Joy and Sam. What the crap, dey - Andrew made my brother and I smile super widely to pose for a photo. He just wanted to "see the resemblance". But I think there's hardly any? Hah.

Liverpool v Manchester United tonight, 2130h.

Parents didn't allow me to go watch it with Shawn. Damn, I hate being a girl sometimes. What with the being over-protective and all.

We're burning them for sure.

-

And maybe yesterday, I could get away; but today, I'm drowning in sanity.

I thought we were ready, only 'til emotion hit the floor.

(My life is henceforth changed forever.)

2007-12-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

Consider Christ, that He could trust His Father
In the Garden of Gethsemane
Though full of dread and fearful of the anguish
He drank the cup that was reserved for me

Do everything in Love ♥

Back from ZYF Camp 2007: Consider Christ.

Awesome camp, haha. Coupled with the new friends, bonds and stuff. On the whole, spiritually rejuvenating. Worship was always one of my favourites on the agenda.

Thanks to the Camp Committee, and Sydney, especially. Glad our group worked out! {:

Slept from 1430h to 2000h. Cannot imagine how some people can sleep from after camp 'til tomorrow morning? Like seriously, what the crap, dey.

And people, for the last time, Christl and I are not twins. Hah.

2007-12-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

If I had just one bullet and a trigger, I'd pull it
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings, and gouge out his eyes
And thank him for nothing
'Cause that's all that he gave to me

Christmas Choir Performance at Bishan Home on Saturday went by okay.

It's always a blessing to be able to bless the less fortunate, whether it be by our voices, words, actions or more. Can't wait for caroling on the 23rd.

Zion YF Camp tomorrow, 'til Saturday the 15th. Time for another round of spiritual refreshment. That's what I look forward to most.

Drop an sms if necessary.

Am not really bothered if I'll be missed.

2007-12-08T04:26:00.000+08:00

Difficulty to obtain sufficient sleep, or to stay asleep.

It's called, insomnia.

2007-12-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away

So empty, they are.

There's always been something about buses and bus interchanges that grips me. Fascination - hardly as a child, but more so now.

The way the buses come, park, rest; whilst at the same time others go, run.. Almost as if they enjoy plunging into the freedom of movement, even expression. But not for long. For soon after, they return. The Captain gets tired, shifts have to be rotated, taken.

But journeys you take, each different, special in its own way. Imitated, emulated, but never replicated. Impossibly so, despite the fact that it seems all too easy to slide into that. Sloppy work, it's called. Reserved for the languid.

It goes on and on, refusing to acknowledge composure. P'haps, you'd prefer to try another number this time?

Lesson learnt, though. Even joyrides have to end, somehow.

2007-12-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

Your quiet eyes, your mouth that never tells lies

You've got one hour, it's time you told your story
Eighteen alone, in love with the answer phone
And too afraid, you're too afraid to fall for anything

It's consuming, believe me.

Especially after discovering the online streaming, in huge part thanks to HL. Haha, it seems it's not only the music library now, but the vids library as well. Brilliant :D

And so, today was spent entirely in that manner. Think I've learnt the way of KK, or some part at least. STONING (in front of the computer). Except, I am concentrating on watching.

Other than that, been talking with OIDC members. Much fun. #1 showed me this funny vid on Youtube; here's the link. It's funny. Do watch.

Subsequently, some time in the evening, I called #2 an "egghead". (M, it's your word, I know. But I stole it, Dude. Too bad.) Being the usual stoner cum having-too-much-time-on-my-hands person, #2 found the definition on Urban Dictionary dot com. HAHA. All meanings apply, save for the "serial rapist" one. Surely it can't be..? D:

-

We all love the safety and comfort of assurance.

It's what some live for.

"Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness?" - 2 Corinthians 6:14

But I say, challenge not the Word. Down, you will fall.

~~& Break~~.

2007-12-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

I remember it
Like it was yesterday
It's on continuous play
In my mind, in my mind
All of the good times we had

(Some) Leaders!

Back from OAL Chalet.

There weren't many Leaders there! And the rain practically spoiled everything. We had to eat like BBQ+rainwater food ): How sad, really. Poor juniors, Kelly, Sharron, Peichun, Miang, Mu who were in the rain. (Did I leave anyone out?)

Photos up on FB soon. Am tired.

On the way home, made a 'pit stop' at Bishan. Haha, it's near BFFAEZXZXZ house anyway [: Walked around j8 with Davin and BFFAEZXZXZ. We were, uh, just "hanging out". Tsk, coming home was like so not what I desired. Started getting high and talking shitz, scandals galore. Afterwhich, Davin walked me home.

Now, let's retrace it.

Before the Chalet, met OIDC members for lunch. I stared at food (again). Hahaha, bet KK thinks I'm seriously anorexic. NO, I AM NOT. And I maintain that stand [:

On the train, watched vids. Like, the James Blunt 'You're Beautiful' Parody. Stupid shitz, I tell you. And KK's weird seniors who act like they know karate. Tsk. Anyhoo, we parted as they left for Esplanade and I for the Chalet. Ohhhh, you guys are so much fun! Looking forward to our more-often meetings - Friday, yeh? ♥

Eventful day. At least, something. Finally.

And it's only 'cuz I choose what I want to happen, and when it does. Today, I made myself go through the unconventional. Felt good.

Sure did.

2007-12-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

Promote your flaws
Show your mistakes
6 feet underground
You dig your own grave
We'll cut harder

'Cuz that's the way it goes.

"Sweet in theory, but insulting in practice."

All of sudden I miss S so much. More of, than the 'used-to-be's. Now, it's all but dull.. Even dead. Dead white.

There was a sign; it did not come without warning. It came, and was embraced. I want it back so badly now. And for that I'll write, better than before.

My heart knows I'm a poet.
Just bring it all back.

2007-12-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

Go on, think. Aren't you always doing that?

And you're not alone, at that. Trust me. 'Cuz everyone lies sometimes.

It's like a mystery to solve; ultimately a Game we all play.

2007-12-03T18:34:00.000+08:00

Follow me home
Through the, the maze and on
I'll show you the road
That I led you the wrong way on

&It's a mess, like that.

Though I miss us, I really do.

Promise me things'll lighten up a 'lil, and we'll all have time for each other, wouldya? Recently things haven't been all too good, save for soccer. (Liverpool rocks so hard I'm blown away ♥) But that aside, am taking it hard.

P'haps, when you're so freaking bored, you're most volatile. And vulnerable, might I add. Works the same as when you're packed to the max.

Sometimes, when it's over, you just got to let it go. Please start acting more like a friend to me than anything else in the world. I'd appreciate that.

-

Oh and I just realised I've got OAL Chalet tomorrow 'til Thursday. How the hell did it slip my mind? And to think I thought I was free. Thereafter, YF Camp next week. And the following week, PC Chalet. Then Christmas!

Okay now I feel fully booked. But the holidays have hardly been well spent! ):

Sticky, sticky situation. (Chrys knows.) I LOVE CHRYS & KK ♥, okay that's a different story there.

2007-12-03T01:20:00.000+08:00

Be honest with me
Did you ever think
That these things that you did
Would come back to haunt you
And fail you again?

"Yah mahhhnnn, GIVE ME A HIGH 5!"

Only 'cuz Liverpool kicks the most ass ever [:

Liverpool-Bolton a remarkable 4-0 win. After being bullied by Bolton in recent years, Liverpool finally sealed revenge by beating them. And guess what, now that makes us 3rd in the table, with Manchester United trailing at 4th position.

I could never be happier.

The 4 goals wered scored by Hyypia, Torres, Gerrard and Babel respectively. Tough game for Kewell though. Still, victory came through.

Haha, during the game I was sms-ing Shawn, also a Liverpool fan [: And towards the end of the game, our conversation went like this:

(And I quote our sms-es.)

Me: Lawl, Liverpool kicks ass, man. I think Campo is retarded, haha. Oh, we're game to take on Man U.

Him: Revenge for last season. To hell with Man U. Hahaha. Liverpool forever.

Me: You said it, mannnnn. We will burn 'em!

As for Song, he just called us "lucky" again. Lucky my ass, Man U.

P/S. It irks me whenever someone comments that there's a problem with girls + soccer. It is in no way a 'Boys Only' sport. It's the beautiful game, for all to enjoy.

2007-12-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

But even could I see him die
I could but see a little part
Of that great love which, like a fire
Is always burning in His heart

All it takes.

Same words, different contexts -
What maketh thee of it?
Hear as I speak:
"Wait not upon it,
Though it pleases thy soul.

For it is a thing most wonderful,
Almost too wonderful to be.
It devours spirit,
As the breaking of dawn
Or the splendour of dusk.

There lies, beneath its shadow,
The place I claim as my abode.
O come, come and cheer;
Disperse these fleeting, motley emotions
To the monochromatic rays of hope.

Take the path that leads on high,
Stay far from the Valley of Destruction.
Let not kisses fool thee,
Neither words drenched in honey;
And no more let it rule."

(Pardon my sucky prose. Impulsive release.)

-

Today. My maternal grandfather's going to be admitted into hospital. He's got an op scheduled for tomorrow. Prostate problems, that come with age. Y'know?

On the other hand, it's my paternal grandfather's birthday. We're having a celebration in the evening. (Thus I've to miss CP's Birthday Dinner at Seoul Garden, Taka. Anyhow, HAPPY 16th, Babe ♥)

I'm torn.

2007-12-01T21:56:00.000+08:00

'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become

AG Food Hunt 2007 was pretty fun, I guess. First of it's kind, FTR.

Guess who led us around? My uncle.

This guy, HAHA.

We visited 4 places in total; all around the Jalan Besar area. I've never been there. Haha, p'haps a part of Singapore seldom visited by the likes of those like me. That place reminds me of Malaysia. Slightly less developed - you still see the shophouses and all that, everywhere. And it's quite rundown.

Then there was this huge signboard I saw, in front of a Nasi Lemak stall. Damn funny.

"GUARANTEE: No Lousy Fish" D: Tsk.

Oh, and there's like the Workers' Party HQ or something there, lawl.

Close up of the sign, hawhaw.

And I took a picture to prove that I can be AH BENG okay! :[] Prepare yourself for it. (I swear I look weird.)

HAHAHAHA.

For the rest of the photos (and/or reviews), click this link.

Nowadays I get into random jumpy moods quite a lot. Bad.

My period came recently. But oh why am I not surprised?

2007-12-01T09:27:00.000+08:00

I can't take it
This welcome has gone and I've waited long enough
To make it
And if you're so strong
You might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

You Are 48% Emo

You're not emo, but you're plenty thoughtful, unique, and even a little angsty.

Looks like I can't make it, eh? Aish ]:

But no fear, 'cuz I saw this coolios video off Grace's blog! It teaches you HOW TO BE EMO. And, it's hilarious. Do watch.

HAHAHA, all I'll have to do is follow it and I bet I will be emo la. Though I must admit it left out quite a bit. Like, appearance and stuff. Ah well.

-

Today I'm going on a Food Hunt with my Action Group. Like Makansutra, p'haps? Tsk [: We'll be around Singapore sourcing out the best foods. Can't say I feel hungry now, though.

I'll take photos of ~~myself~~ the places, and upload 'em. Then I can host my own food show, lawl. Nawww, it's to share with all you foodies out there [:

Then, YF Pre-Camp Special 2007 at Bishan, 4pm.

2007-11-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

(Oh Baby, when I'm calling out)

Give me love and affection
Keep telling me, show me the way
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?

Just got back from RGS' Play.

OMI WAS SO CUTE! HAWHAW [: And I so totally agree with that Feminist. I shall start using some of her phrases against any chauvinistic pigs that dare suan me. (Song you're #1 on the list.)

My contact lens was out of place, or either that it was ripped ): Ugh, so I went around half-blind. And I'd to watch the whole Play feeling uncomfortable.

Well, well. That aside.

The guys, at Macs. (KangKang is shy!)

He messed up, wth?

Chrys & Cindy!

KangKang said, "Song looks like he's peeing!"
(LAWL, that was not intended. Honest.)

And I bet he's thinking, "Why, oh why, do you adore me?" [:

Me, Jappy, Stacey! (ex-ROSYTHIANS)

At the bus stop, after the Play. He's so cute when emo! ♥

Me, Chrys, Cindy, Kang, Victor, Jerrold [:

[edit] 2355h:

♥Just one taste, Muffin. says:
OH I FORGOT TO ADD IN THE GAY WALKING JAY WALKING THING

no such thing - spvn.wordpress.com says:
fine fine go add :P

♥Just one taste, Muffin. says:
Hahah, okay I will [:

♥Just one taste, Muffin. says:
Just a moment, now.

♥Just one taste, Muffin. says:
And it will go, "KangKang has serious hearing problems, I swear.."

no such thing - spvn.wordpress.com says:
-.-

♥Just one taste, Muffin. says:
[:

no such thing - spvn.wordpress.com says:
:'(

♥Just one taste, Muffin. says:
Don't cry, Dude!

no such thing - spvn.wordpress.com says:
"ELY BULLY ME!!!!" :'( :'( :'(

HAHA, here's the whole situation. When we were going off from RG, there was a pedestrian crossing we had to cross. And then Chrys decided to lead us to jaywalk! Oh the horror D: And the Red Man was flashing. So KangKang went, "Red Man's flashing, Red Man's flashing!" Then I was like, "Damn, I hate jaywalking!"

But he heard it as "Damn, you're GAYwalking!" And he thought it was directed at him. Mahhhhnnnn, hearing issues!

[/edit]

Some other things weren't as pleasant, though. No mentioning it here. Pity. But it's like, unspoken yet known. It rumbles through us all. Secretly, quietly.

No drama tonight, but oh what fun, still.

2007-11-30T09:20:00.000+08:00

All the perfect words they seem so wrong
She's gone
You wish that you could learn to see
The door is closed and you wish you could be
Alone with you, alone with me

Davin tagged me!

Favourites
Colour: YELLOWYELLOWYELLOWWW ♥ (If you know me you should know this!)
Food: Hm, I don't know. I think I'm picky. Recently I'm into bland stuff, being the weird me [:
Movie: LOTR? (This is a stupid question.)
Sport: Running, hah.
Day: Tuesdays WITH MORRIE
Season: Autumn!
Ice cream: Vanilla

Current
Mood: Screwed up
Clothes: Shirt, shorts, underwearrr
Time: 0928h
Surrounding: MESSY
Annoyances: (It's a secret.)

Firsts
Best friend: My cousin, in Kindergarten, LAWL. (Other than that, my Primary School BFF has since migrated.)
Crush: Some boy in Kindergarten my cousin and I both had a crush on. This is called sharing, HAHAHA.
Movie: Memory is failing me.
Music: Nursery rhymes?

Lasts
Drink: Iced Lemon Tea
Car ride: Monday/Tuesday, I can't remember.
Crush: (My lips are sealed.)
Phone Call: Songtard the DFS.
CD Played: The Goo Goo Dolls, Let Love In.
Gone Out With Friends: YESTERDAY.
Broken A Law: Jaywalking when forced to? D:
Been Arrested: NO.
Been on TV: Yes, partially. Long story la.
Kissed Someone You Don't Know: I am not FOC.

5 Things I'm Good At:
1. Making people laugh.
2. Smiling.
3. Being stupid.
4. Talking, when I feel like it.
5. RANDOM.
(**Evidence off FB.)

People To Tag:
CHRYS!, Sin, BASE, Cheryl (SNGS), Cel [:

I admit that meme was random, but it's totally in line with no.9 on my To-do List.

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Today's RGS' Play "Love Me, Hate Me, Kill Me Now" in the evening at 7pm. Will be meeting GA people. Haha, seems like I'd be ready to meet tons of people there later. Must remember camera; camwhore.

Tell me, who doesn't know an RG girl? It's full house.

2007-11-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

I see two roads ahead of you
One is wide, the other is narrow and long
Which is the one you'll choose?
Together we're walking side by side
I will fall and you will rescue me
Through all my darkest times
And what will define you?

Returned home safely an hour ago, despite Songtard stalking me home. Ass.

(AW if you are reading this, please do not believe him. And, please do not laugh. Or I will so kick you. He's the last person on Earth to date!)

Anyhoo, Song pangseh-ed me in the morning so I had to treat my journey from Serangoon to Queenstown as a joyride, turn the other way around, and meet Victor at Kallang instead. Idiotic freak, but I guess the STARBUCKS Bottled Frapp he gave me made up for that wrong [: Hahaha.

Soccer at The Cage was okay. Though it's still hard to believe you actually pay $50/hour to play in a WAREHOUSE. And mind you, that's only the Weekday rate before 6pm. After 6pm and on Weekends the damage incurred is $90/hour. Damn, these people make big bucks.

After the game we ate at Kallang KFC. Here's a retarded video. Don't blame me it's not censored. Song owes me 10 cents for every time he swears.

CHECK OUT THE CLASSIC LOOK MAHHNNNN. RIGHTEOUS. LAWL! I AM LAUGHING MY HEAD OFF.
(Do watch out for the part when Victor talks about Omi killing him for swearing. He goes, "And Naomi, you can see everything..")

Oh, and Liverpool won 4-1 so yay [: Just one more match to qualify.
ROCK ON ♥ Gerrard is the cutest thing ever. (Save for Crouch.) And I swear, Cronaldo is the real wanker. At least now I know there's someone else who agrees with me that Man U fans are the worst of all fans.

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chrys. says:
sorry. was feeding my friend alcohol

♥We need order, Hon. says:
HAHA FEEDING.

chrys. says:
YES

chrys. says:
FEEDING.

♥We need order, Hon. says:
D:

chrys. says:
she made me go out

chrys. says:
and get her a straw

Chrys has a weird friend. Imaginary? And how should I know.

2007-11-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

Maybe you’ve been through this before
But it’s my first time so please ignore
The next few lines because they’re directed at you
I can’t always be waiting, waiting on you
I can’t always be playing, playing your fool

There are times when I just feel so confused and screwed up.

Damn right, and that's when everything's just not going the way I want it to. Okay, I admit I sound wilful now.

Today was supposed to be a happy day. And anyway in the evening I got a Babydoll. That's supposed to make me happy. Lawl, HL managed to guess! (Other than me turning down Song's offer to go catch a movie.) But I guess, it ended up all the same as the days before.

I get so pissed when, to my parents, "Ely+Some Guy=Secret Date She's Never Told Her Parents About". Stupid shitz, y'know? I mean, where's the logic in that. Now you tell me.

Gah, M the Doofus or should I say Bobo the Pervert? Whichever, M called me today to make me talk. Okay, kidding. No such thing happened. M's a sad guy sometimes. Emo. Maybe. But hey, as a reader of my blog, you really didn't need to know that [:

Okay, I am going crazy. Currently mood swinging.

Tomorrow morning's The Cage for me. I'd be playing a Loser Spectator (see, I admit) and not some Loser Manager. Anyway, even though Benitez is a sucky manager, Ferguson can be such a shithead too. C'mon, just 'cuz y'all are somewhere up on the leader board don't give you a good enough excuse to screw around.

Same goes with my emotions.

2007-11-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

My heart is speeding up and slowing down
To know I know it's over, it's over
And can you die of heartbreak
To die for love lost young I pray to find it again
Oh again

Our butts look good!

Lawl, just got that photo off FB 'cuz Staf finally sent it to Eunice who finally uploaded it [: Anyway I think we do retarded things together. Hawhaw, love you two, Debbie&Eunnn! ♥

Today was boring. Intended for an AWE Outing but P's busy with work and BFFAEZXZX has Choir Practice in VJ ): I think I am prolly the only one who has no work, no rehearsals, no trainings.. NOTHING to do this holidays.

P'haps, after all, the holidays after 'O's ain't all that great.

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Anyhoo, some people are so laggy they actually never knew that I'm a Liverpool supporter. Tsk.

Song is an ass, 'cuz he supports Manchester United! D: Rawr, Victor and I will crush him, we swear. And we'll walk together, hahaha. (Never Walk Alone, get it?)

♥We need order, Hon. says:
AND HE'S ASKING ME TO RUB HIS ASS 'CUZ IT HURTS ):

♥We need order, Hon. says:
HE'S VIOLATING ME ON THE PHONE

<> I found lead, gold and Guns n Roses in the Heavy Metal section says:
ooh yucckkkkk

<> I found lead, gold and Guns n Roses in the Heavy Metal section says:
man, u gotta go wash ur phone man

♥We need order, Hon. says:
YAH

♥We need order, Hon. says:
AND MY BRAIN

<> I found lead, gold and Guns n Roses in the Heavy Metal section says:
haha totally

Song corrupts the minds of not only young children. It's safer to say: Practically Everyone.