my whole mood is spoilt. grahhs-.
i guess i'm really at this lowpoint right now. sorry, there's nothing you can do to make it better. i felt so stressed today before the tests; so stressed cel and i went high during CE. oh yay. sometimes it just isn't worth it. everything just isn't. i don't know what i don't know. it isn't worth studying. i realised i'm studying not for myself, instead, for a piece of paper. like what's that supposed to mean. this is crap.
nothing's really working out. i am physically drained. i know 3/O rocks but sometimes it's really unfair. i'm going to be very frank here. y'all treat us like.. i don't know how to explain it. toys? hm. us, refering to cel wenyi nikita me. it is so annoying. you know how much we have put in for sports day. i forgot to mention. running, jumping and throwing isn't as easy as run jump throw. no. it's more than that. you know how hard it is on us mentally? hah, i guess you'll never understand anyway. i don't know why i care so much about my studies, but it's just wrong that i'm sacrificing it for this class. cause you don't appreciate it at all. i mean, i'm sorry - maybe it's just the case that when you are good you expect people to be the same way. you become intolerant. i guess. but honestly, who gives a damn, the fact that we have been gaining points for you and ole. hah, i bet no one. and you just excuse yourselves from the heats whenever you want. freaks. just freaks. i'm doing this for the class, at the expense of my education. great, just great. i'm not asking for anything in return. just don't use us in this way, please.
in actual fact, i can't even run. i don't even know why i am a tracker. haha. member by name, not by actions. whatever. and cel, I HAVE BIG ANKLES. heck it all. i'm just not at the right mood right now to be happy about anything. you know what it is like to be depressed. i don't want to face this world anymore. sec 3 life is a killer.