"I love you".
Inferiority complex.
Just because you don't know what it's like to feel like shit. You, so high up there. And I admit to this premiditated distancing. There is such intense need for it - only because I feel safe, like this. I don't blame them; it's not a crime to be so able.
It's just me, and this prodigious inability (which I'll prolly never get 'round).
To you, one of many: You used to tell me we're in the same sampan. But babe, it don't work that way no more. (Did you push me in or did I just fall over?) 'Cause now I'm drowning and the water's up to my lips; yet you're turning to row away. Far, far away.
I'd never trust those words again. 'Cause they're so lethal, so suicidal.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 | 11:41 PM
Tears run down like razorblades.
Am getting 31 free days in the year of 2008. Isn't that sheer brilliance?
You work so damn hard, improve, but it's still not enough - that's when you feel like shit. And so I've come to realise the pathetic, disillusioned state I've been dwelling in for the past 16 years.
'Tis so f'ed up. (And why do I wish I were in Maris Stella all of a sudden?) Damn, I need a moderation of "10 multiplied by the square root of x", if you please.
Am getting 31 free days in the year of 2008. Isn't that sheer brilliance?
You work so damn hard, improve, but it's still not enough - that's when you feel like shit. And so I've come to realise the pathetic, disillusioned state I've been dwelling in for the past 16 years.
'Tis so f'ed up. (And why do I wish I were in Maris Stella all of a sudden?) Damn, I need a moderation of "10 multiplied by the square root of x", if you please.
Monday, September 24, 2007 | 10:57 PM
Here we lie again, on two separate beds.
After today's Career Talks, reckon I'm finally sure of what I want. A direction, at the very least.
Which means, even if I don't become a journalist (which is really specialized, actually), I'll be venturing into the exciting world of Corporate Communications :D The presenter is - believe it or not - an ex-Cedarian who's by now 46 years of age. But she's my role model. Simply 'cause I can see myself carrying out her jobscope. For real.
Am afraid for tomorrow, because it's now beyond my control. And I do believe I'll scrape 20. But still,
it's always Hope I'll hold on to.
"Never Lose Hope", you say. & so I shan't.
Today I spoke to S, after a long long while. S told me: Let's bring back the parabola in all its glory. Let's make it the greatest we've ever seen. Let's make it ours, for all eternity.
Thus, I could not, but comply.
After today's Career Talks, reckon I'm finally sure of what I want. A direction, at the very least.
Which means, even if I don't become a journalist (which is really specialized, actually), I'll be venturing into the exciting world of Corporate Communications :D The presenter is - believe it or not - an ex-Cedarian who's by now 46 years of age. But she's my role model. Simply 'cause I can see myself carrying out her jobscope. For real.
Am afraid for tomorrow, because it's now beyond my control. And I do believe I'll scrape 20. But still,
it's always Hope I'll hold on to."Never Lose Hope", you say. & so I shan't.
Today I spoke to S, after a long long while. S told me: Let's bring back the parabola in all its glory. Let's make it the greatest we've ever seen. Let's make it ours, for all eternity.
Thus, I could not, but comply.
Saturday, September 22, 2007 | 10:57 PM
Don't look back at the spot where I fell.
Woke this morning, only to see Sean Kingston shaking his fats off in the music video of 'Beautiful Girls' D: Tsk. But no matter, I still like him. His songs are like Akon's - annoying, but somewhat addictive.
Tuition was a total bore. But revision's in full-swing now. Ought to be anyway; Finals are in less than 3 weeks. Don't wish to face reality next week with the results. (And I repeat, for the benefit of those all-too-eager: DON'T WISH TO.)
A got me reading my archive again. It's funny, to see how much I've changed.And I thought they say, "seasons change, people don't"? 'Tis good to feel 16: A little older, a little more mature. But even then, she gets older but she's still young. Sure, p'haps she was emo then (or acting?) and I've to say she's better now. Washed her hands off that emotalk and pessimistic shit, but she must admit she misses it, quite a bit.
At least, it felt like she fitted in somewhere, amidst the countless insecurities. Now, prolly just another soul drifting: useless, meaningless, aimless. Have you ever considered, p'haps, keeping that downcast aura is a profession? Even, a passion. There was purpose. Akin to that of a theme. But now, things shape her emotions, not the other way 'round. And for that, I mourn. Can't help but feel, it's like the death of something so vivacious, so headstrong. Come to think, she had character, only then.
But I've lost touch with that side of me now. The odds are too much to battle; though at times the notion of returning back there is so enticing. Succumb not to temptation, I scream. Am out of that phase,
but somehow or another the scars they never leave.
Will you be the same as when I saw you last? And when I next come 'round knocking on your door, tell me how much time has past. S, we've got a lot of catching up to do ♥
Woke this morning, only to see Sean Kingston shaking his fats off in the music video of 'Beautiful Girls' D: Tsk. But no matter, I still like him. His songs are like Akon's - annoying, but somewhat addictive.
Tuition was a total bore. But revision's in full-swing now. Ought to be anyway; Finals are in less than 3 weeks. Don't wish to face reality next week with the results. (And I repeat, for the benefit of those all-too-eager: DON'T WISH TO.)
A got me reading my archive again. It's funny, to see how much I've changed.
At least, it felt like she fitted in somewhere, amidst the countless insecurities. Now, prolly just another soul drifting: useless, meaningless, aimless. Have you ever considered, p'haps, keeping that downcast aura is a profession? Even, a passion. There was purpose. Akin to that of a theme. But now, things shape her emotions, not the other way 'round. And for that, I mourn. Can't help but feel, it's like the death of something so vivacious, so headstrong. Come to think, she had character, only then.
But I've lost touch with that side of me now. The odds are too much to battle; though at times the notion of returning back there is so enticing. Succumb not to temptation, I scream. Am out of that phase,
but somehow or another the scars they never leave.Will you be the same as when I saw you last? And when I next come 'round knocking on your door, tell me how much time has past. S, we've got a lot of catching up to do ♥
Thursday, September 20, 2007 | 9:47 PM
And we'll walk from this darkroom for the last time.
Then I waved goodbye to you, from fields of white flowers.
Went back to school today.
Celebrated BUDDY's 16th birthday, in spite of the dampened mood (am sorry, dearest). We had cake, anyhow. And time with EXCO again. As always, when we're in our own world; when we can put everything else aside.
Visited Mt Vernon Funeral Parlour in the afternoon. Can't say I was ready for it, but I had to see her, just one last time. And so I did. It was overwhelming - the look on her face the same as ever, p'haps just more at peace. But I broke down, after exiting the parlour. It was too much to take.
Sometimes, I still feel like it's too surreal. Like it never, could not have, happened. But He does all things for a reason.
With every passing bringeth new hope. She's left us for a Better Place. May our souls find rest in Him alone; God is our Rock and our Fortress, He will give us the strength to carry on. And so we will, for the world still spins.
Everyday, the Angel of Death sweeps across the nations, collecting the saints to return into the Mansion. But it's just so strange, how those that we know all go at once. (To P: Just believe, today He took her, to be with Ray.)
And I'd be strong, and I'd whisper a little prayer for you.
Then I waved goodbye to you, from fields of white flowers.Went back to school today.
Celebrated BUDDY's 16th birthday, in spite of the dampened mood (am sorry, dearest). We had cake, anyhow. And time with EXCO again. As always, when we're in our own world; when we can put everything else aside.
Visited Mt Vernon Funeral Parlour in the afternoon. Can't say I was ready for it, but I had to see her, just one last time. And so I did. It was overwhelming - the look on her face the same as ever, p'haps just more at peace. But I broke down, after exiting the parlour. It was too much to take.
Sometimes, I still feel like it's too surreal. Like it never, could not have, happened. But He does all things for a reason.
With every passing bringeth new hope. She's left us for a Better Place. May our souls find rest in Him alone; God is our Rock and our Fortress, He will give us the strength to carry on. And so we will, for the world still spins.
Everyday, the Angel of Death sweeps across the nations, collecting the saints to return into the Mansion. But it's just so strange, how those that we know all go at once. (To P: Just believe, today He took her, to be with Ray.)
And I'd be strong, and I'd whisper a little prayer for you.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007 | 4:07 PM
I could write it better than you ever felt it.
Am here to post about the things that matter.
Yesterday marked the end of Prelims '07. Fast, indeed. Went out after History Elective paper, which lasted only 1.5 hours so we were out on the streets by 1030h. P'haps we were given weird stares 'cause others were under the impression that we'd pon-ed school. But only the most daft people on earth would pon in school uniform.
Love, you're the one for me.
And even though I was feeling a little down, slight turn at the end of the day. This is what I call Girlfriend Therapy.
I love you, Girlfriends ♥
In the evening, celebrated my 16th birthday with my family. Just ceremonial, I guess. Considering the real day was a week ago. Went to MFM in PS. Good food. Now, I'm really 16.
A week ago on 11 September I was mugging. And never would I have thought I'd spend my 16th birthday with you. (Do you know why I was avoiding your gaze? Because I knew if I looked into those eyes I'd find so much comfort that the sadness in mine would just burst forth as tears.) Strangers, yet so much like friends. Or was it the other way 'round? And I've learnt - you don't get the world on your birthday.
(They say things change when you turn 16.) But I guess taking papers isn't any different, after all. Can't say I've become wiser; I haven't. Still, that is behind me now. Rather not remember. So it lay upon their shoulders to make my day. Sure enough, deliverance ♥
-
Today was EXCO outing.
And we'll reach up high.
EXCO, I love.
Your company transcends time. Thank you: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. Love each and every one of you, for all the things we've been through together.
-
And now I feel so empty, like somewhere some part of me is missing.
It's not about how much she meant, or if I loved/hated her; people pass everyday every hour but it's different when you know them. (Looking back, at 1 November 2006. And I'll use those words I ever once wrote to console myself now.)
Did I ever thank her? I want to say how much I love her. I want to bawl my eyes out to bring her back.
'Cause that's everything you were.
And today, you taught me the meaning of sacrifice, commitment and of love. Invaluable lessons, indeed.
Listening: Radios In Heaven - Plain White T's
Am here to post about the things that matter.
Yesterday marked the end of Prelims '07. Fast, indeed. Went out after History Elective paper, which lasted only 1.5 hours so we were out on the streets by 1030h. P'haps we were given weird stares 'cause others were under the impression that we'd pon-ed school. But only the most daft people on earth would pon in school uniform.
Love, you're the one for me.And even though I was feeling a little down, slight turn at the end of the day. This is what I call Girlfriend Therapy.
I love you, Girlfriends ♥In the evening, celebrated my 16th birthday with my family. Just ceremonial, I guess. Considering the real day was a week ago. Went to MFM in PS. Good food. Now, I'm really 16.
A week ago on 11 September I was mugging. And never would I have thought I'd spend my 16th birthday with you. (Do you know why I was avoiding your gaze? Because I knew if I looked into those eyes I'd find so much comfort that the sadness in mine would just burst forth as tears.) Strangers, yet so much like friends. Or was it the other way 'round? And I've learnt - you don't get the world on your birthday.
(They say things change when you turn 16.) But I guess taking papers isn't any different, after all. Can't say I've become wiser; I haven't. Still, that is behind me now. Rather not remember. So it lay upon their shoulders to make my day. Sure enough, deliverance ♥
-
Today was EXCO outing.
And we'll reach up high.
EXCO, I love.Your company transcends time. Thank you: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. Love each and every one of you, for all the things we've been through together.
-
And now I feel so empty, like somewhere some part of me is missing.
It's not about how much she meant, or if I loved/hated her; people pass everyday every hour but it's different when you know them. (Looking back, at 1 November 2006. And I'll use those words I ever once wrote to console myself now.)
Did I ever thank her? I want to say how much I love her. I want to bawl my eyes out to bring her back.
'Cause that's everything you were.And today, you taught me the meaning of sacrifice, commitment and of love. Invaluable lessons, indeed.
Listening: Radios In Heaven - Plain White T's
Sunday, September 16, 2007 | 11:35 PM
The one you should call, was standing here all along.
And it's this atypical compulsion to blog that has resulted in my face toward the "Create Post" page on my computer screen, and my fingers touching the keyboard while my brain is half-dead, cloudy with all that shit on the failure of Russia as a whole. Though, honestly, there is no apparent purpose for my presence. (And it's the 3rd post; can't see why I seemingly haven't gotten enough.)
Looks like you might fall.
Right at the edge and I'll watch it unwind.
And it's this atypical compulsion to blog that has resulted in my face toward the "Create Post" page on my computer screen, and my fingers touching the keyboard while my brain is half-dead, cloudy with all that shit on the failure of Russia as a whole. Though, honestly, there is no apparent purpose for my presence. (And it's the 3rd post; can't see why I seemingly haven't gotten enough.)
Looks like you might fall.Right at the edge and I'll watch it unwind.
| 6:29 AM
Will you walk with me? 'Cause I can't see, just where I'm meant to be.
And I'm going to miss them so much.
Why must everything I do seem so wrong. Something's going to happen and I know it. I'm going to get into deep shit. And that's making me so afraid, so fucking afraid.
Even you can't save me now.
And I'm going to miss them so much.
Why must everything I do seem so wrong. Something's going to happen and I know it. I'm going to get into deep shit. And that's making me so afraid, so fucking afraid.
Even you can't save me now.
| 12:40 AM
You cry like a child but you kiss like a sinner.
There was supposed to be happy things to post today, but negativity has evaded all. Down to nil.
(Is that meant to be sarcasm? 'Cause I don't think I feel it all that much.)
It's so difficult sometimes, keeping relationships. Wish I knew what to say, when and how. But I know we're going to hold out; with each time we fall we bounce back higher, faster and with so much more vigour. Just gets better everytime, when you know my love for you intensifies.
Love, I know we're in a rough patch but it'll turn out fine. Everything will be like it was before.If only it was that easy. 'Cause you know you're not easy to appease.
& how did we end up like this?
You've so little faith; too little, in me.
There was supposed to be happy things to post today, but negativity has evaded all. Down to nil.
(Is that meant to be sarcasm? 'Cause I don't think I feel it all that much.)
It's so difficult sometimes, keeping relationships. Wish I knew what to say, when and how. But I know we're going to hold out; with each time we fall we bounce back higher, faster and with so much more vigour. Just gets better everytime, when you know my love for you intensifies.
Love, I know we're in a rough patch but it'll turn out fine. Everything will be like it was before.
& how did we end up like this?You've so little faith; too little, in me.
Saturday, September 15, 2007 | 7:22 AM
I want so much to open your eyes, 'cause I need you to look into mine.
I know I'm not supposed to be here, but the temptation was too hard to resist. Blogging is one thing that keeps me alive; am real sorry to thehuge mugger side of me. (I promise to type at lightning speed.) And I know Stalin, Hitler, Mao and Gorby need my attention now BUT this seems more enticing D:
Papers have been average. Can't say much; I can only hope to do better than Mids. But really, Mids was so bad I do believe the only way to go is up. That, or nothing.
(Everything else has to wait 'til after Prelims.)
& you just might be the one;
but I'll never know.
'Til then, Baby, we wait.
I know I'm not supposed to be here, but the temptation was too hard to resist. Blogging is one thing that keeps me alive; am real sorry to the
Papers have been average. Can't say much; I can only hope to do better than Mids. But really, Mids was so bad I do believe the only way to go is up. That, or nothing.
(Everything else has to wait 'til after Prelims.)
& you just might be the one;but I'll never know.
'Til then, Baby, we wait.
Friday, September 14, 2007 | 3:00 PM
With love strong as death.
Here we go.
Just 4 more days, for the sake of all humanity ♥
There's no sense in playing games.
Here we go.
Just 4 more days, for the sake of all humanity ♥
There's no sense in playing games.
Sunday, September 09, 2007 | 9:35 AM
There are many things I would like to say to you but I don't know how.
Goodbyefor now;
this will prolly be the last time I'm blogging 'til after Prelims (or more?).
Simply because I don't want to see less than 11+4.
All the best, Elyssa ♥
Goodbye
this will prolly be the last time I'm blogging 'til after Prelims (or more?).
Simply because I don't want to see less than 11+4.
All the best, Elyssa ♥
Saturday, September 08, 2007 | 8:32 PM
Maybe, you're going to be the one that saves me.
Saturdays have never been good days to mug, anyhow. Just tuition and more tuition. OVERLOAD, alert!
Was on 73 on the way to AMK when these 2 little boys (brothers, I believe) boarded the bus with their mom. So cute, I tell you D: And the younger brother kept staring at me with that handsome face (♥!) and wide wide eyes. I like.
Intended to study at the library with P. But figured there wouldn't be space anyway since it was already 12. Ended up at some nice little shop in Jubilee. Prolly 'cause we haven't met in a week, our "studying" session quickly turned into a "how-have-you-been" talk. Emo.
At tuition Zhao Xuan became a farmer who tried killing his plants with excessive acid (we were on nitrogen and fertilisers..) while I transformed into this First Aider who was supposed to force my patient (with excess hydrochloric acid in her stomach) to drink HL milk. Funny. But really, I doubt I'll ever grow up to be a nurse. 'Cause journalism - or photojournalism, while we're at it? - is just too enticing :D
Hwans brought her so-called Rubik's cube to tuition. Prolly the most comical part of it all was that it was a SHINHWA cube! Oh my goodness, look:
It's disfigured! HAHA.
Then we tried to plan out Arica's life, 'cause she was being annoying by going "I WANT TO MARRY AT 18" every 10 minutes.
It looks like it's on a scroll; but it's really just a receipt D:
(Click for enlarged view.)
Our only advice to her was to start looking for that future husband now, or she'll never make it in time. But apparently, she thinks he'll come to her. Great, so we started talking about mermaids (?!) and she's going to settle for this guy:
Oh sure, charming indeed.
Bet he's still trying to swim up to Earth and all the way to Singapore, that's why she's still waiting. Patience, my dear. It's a virtue D:
Caught Hwans vandalizing on the white board again. But I think she looks cute, so hard at work while she's at it:
(Click to see the message for Mr Tay.)
P thinks my hair is fake and I wear a wig just 'cause my hair so much straighter than hers! Oh, I'm sure.
& just because the sky looks so pretty tonight;
I lie awake, I drive myself crazy wanting you the way that I do. But it's over.
Saturdays have never been good days to mug, anyhow. Just tuition and more tuition. OVERLOAD, alert!
Was on 73 on the way to AMK when these 2 little boys (brothers, I believe) boarded the bus with their mom. So cute, I tell you D: And the younger brother kept staring at me with that handsome face (♥!) and wide wide eyes. I like.
Intended to study at the library with P. But figured there wouldn't be space anyway since it was already 12. Ended up at some nice little shop in Jubilee. Prolly 'cause we haven't met in a week, our "studying" session quickly turned into a "how-have-you-been" talk. Emo.
At tuition Zhao Xuan became a farmer who tried killing his plants with excessive acid (we were on nitrogen and fertilisers..) while I transformed into this First Aider who was supposed to force my patient (with excess hydrochloric acid in her stomach) to drink HL milk. Funny. But really, I doubt I'll ever grow up to be a nurse. 'Cause journalism - or photojournalism, while we're at it? - is just too enticing :D
Hwans brought her so-called Rubik's cube to tuition. Prolly the most comical part of it all was that it was a SHINHWA cube! Oh my goodness, look:
It's disfigured! HAHA.Then we tried to plan out Arica's life, 'cause she was being annoying by going "I WANT TO MARRY AT 18" every 10 minutes.
It looks like it's on a scroll; but it's really just a receipt D:(Click for enlarged view.)
Our only advice to her was to start looking for that future husband now, or she'll never make it in time. But apparently, she thinks he'll come to her. Great, so we started talking about mermaids (?!) and she's going to settle for this guy:
Oh sure, charming indeed.Bet he's still trying to swim up to Earth and all the way to Singapore, that's why she's still waiting. Patience, my dear. It's a virtue D:
Caught Hwans vandalizing on the white board again. But I think she looks cute, so hard at work while she's at it:
(Click to see the message for Mr Tay.)P thinks my hair is fake and I wear a wig just 'cause my hair so much straighter than hers! Oh, I'm sure.
& just because the sky looks so pretty tonight;I lie awake, I drive myself crazy wanting you the way that I do. But it's over.
Friday, September 07, 2007 | 11:57 PM
For: Kevin.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
And I also said "He's just damn funny. You look at him and you want to laugh."
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
REMEMBER YESTERDAY!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
You make me laugh, man (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
Haha is that a good thing!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
To me, it is (:
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
And to you, if you don't mind being a SOURCE OF LAUGHTER (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
haha i don't mind, i guess
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES, GOOD.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
MY WALLPAPER MAKES ME LAUGH (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
is it still there eh send me the pic! hahaaha
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
You look retarded!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Are you sure about this!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
just send! haha i look retarded anyway right!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. sends:
"Kevin.JPG"
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
okay haha that's retarded me
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES THERE YOU ARE D:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
as usualy
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
as usual
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Okay, if you say so (:
Transfer of "Kevin.JPG" is complete.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
USE IT AS YOUR DP!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
IT'S SO CUTE.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
QUICKQUICKQUICK (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
SEESEESEE WE HAVE THE SAME DP YES!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
omg retarded
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES I LOVE MY PM
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA I DO NOT LOVE IT!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
it looks uigly
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
ugly
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
and freaky
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
HAHAHA NOOOO.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
and my hair looks disgustingly out of shape haha
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YOU WERE CAUGHT IN ACTION.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
THIS IS CALLED SPONTANEOUS POSING.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Or something.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
NOT POSING I DIDN'T POSE!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
HAHAHA YES YOU DID.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
OR MAYBE I JUST CATCH YOU AT ALL THE RIGHT TIMES!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
MAYBE (:
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Okay, this conversation is so going up my blog (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
NO HAHA NO NO NO
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES YES YES.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
NO NO NO HAHA IT CANNOT
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
FOR MY SAKE : D
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Your face is so funny it deserves a 2nd presence on my blog (:
And yes, people. Here's the man, for you:
Love, really. LOVE! ♥
If you recognize him along the streets somewhere in Bishan, do not approach :D
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
And I also said "He's just damn funny. You look at him and you want to laugh."
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
REMEMBER YESTERDAY!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
You make me laugh, man (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
Haha is that a good thing!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
To me, it is (:
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
And to you, if you don't mind being a SOURCE OF LAUGHTER (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
haha i don't mind, i guess
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES, GOOD.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
MY WALLPAPER MAKES ME LAUGH (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
is it still there eh send me the pic! hahaaha
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
You look retarded!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Are you sure about this!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
just send! haha i look retarded anyway right!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. sends:
"Kevin.JPG"
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
okay haha that's retarded me
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES THERE YOU ARE D:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
as usualy
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
as usual
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Okay, if you say so (:
Transfer of "Kevin.JPG" is complete.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
USE IT AS YOUR DP!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
IT'S SO CUTE.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
QUICKQUICKQUICK (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
SEESEESEE WE HAVE THE SAME DP YES!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
omg retarded
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES I LOVE MY PM
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA I DO NOT LOVE IT!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
it looks uigly
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
ugly
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
and freaky
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
HAHAHA NOOOO.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
and my hair looks disgustingly out of shape haha
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YOU WERE CAUGHT IN ACTION.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
THIS IS CALLED SPONTANEOUS POSING.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Or something.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
NOT POSING I DIDN'T POSE!
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
HAHAHA YES YOU DID.
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
OR MAYBE I JUST CATCH YOU AT ALL THE RIGHT TIMES!
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
HAHA
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
MAYBE (:
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Okay, this conversation is so going up my blog (:
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
NO HAHA NO NO NO
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
YES YES YES.
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
NO NO NO HAHA IT CANNOT
kevin. 'the significance of colours ; says:
FOR MY SAKE : D
♥Baby, that's a bad case of a broken heart. says:
Your face is so funny it deserves a 2nd presence on my blog (:
And yes, people. Here's the man, for you:
Love, really. LOVE! ♥If you recognize him along the streets somewhere in Bishan, do not approach :D
| 11:30 PM
And I don't know where to look; please just save me from this darkness.
As the days go by, I do believe am degenerating and getting more and more unproductive. So much for exponential growth. Not like there's much time left anyway, seeing as today is already Friday.
Woke late, but it was a blessing in disguise. Firstly, I sure didn't want any of 'em early birds to recognize meas the girl who fell. Secondly, my tuition teacher came and that made me realise I'd tuition which I conveniently forgot. But how anti-climax it was, really. HMT Prelim is over and I hate HMT D: Sometimes I amaze myself, the fact that I even understand those seemingly foreign sounds that flow out of his mouth endlessly like a river.. ( 口 若 悬 河, you see) D:
Reached Bishan library 'bout 1. Think today was spent mainly being aunties, really. Went up to the "CH Hub" (4th level) so often, even I find myself annoying. Well, sorry to all you up there. Took such a long time trying to see who this damned guy called Jonathan is. Eileen's :D But she refused to tell us and denied their relationship. But Darling, it's plain for all to see.
Shermaine's friend (Yukang) was in a bad mood today. So we offered him Panadol and wrote him a note. But guess it was pretty obvious we were rejected. Great, to you who are so unappreciative. Really wonder who the hell Alex is. Prolly some guy dangerous with a highlighter, that's all. If you don't want 油, I will give you BITUMEN, see how you 加 D:
Anyhow, today we tried to be Secret Muggers!:
Yes, we're the Hoods' Gang ♥
And today I got my first birthday present :D
It's from HL. Thanks, Baby.
Tomorrow's already Saturday I feel like I can die. Monday comes and everything will just fall apart. Other than all those birthday presents I can look forward to :D
Okay, now random picture:
Nice colours, indeed. View from the bus window, approaching j8.
My right wrist hurts so bad. And it's so badly bruised/cut that I don't even dare to put the pictures up on my blog ):
Am blogging incoherent. This is bad, so damn bad.
As the days go by, I do believe am degenerating and getting more and more unproductive. So much for exponential growth. Not like there's much time left anyway, seeing as today is already Friday.
Woke late, but it was a blessing in disguise. Firstly, I sure didn't want any of 'em early birds to recognize me
Reached Bishan library 'bout 1. Think today was spent mainly being aunties, really. Went up to the "CH Hub" (4th level) so often, even I find myself annoying. Well, sorry to all you up there. Took such a long time trying to see who this damned guy called Jonathan is. Eileen's :D But she refused to tell us and denied their relationship. But Darling, it's plain for all to see.
Shermaine's friend (Yukang) was in a bad mood today. So we offered him Panadol and wrote him a note. But guess it was pretty obvious we were rejected. Great, to you who are so unappreciative. Really wonder who the hell Alex is. Prolly some guy dangerous with a highlighter, that's all. If you don't want 油, I will give you BITUMEN, see how you 加 D:
Anyhow, today we tried to be Secret Muggers!:
Yes, we're the Hoods' Gang ♥And today I got my first birthday present :D
It's from HL. Thanks, Baby.Tomorrow's already Saturday I feel like I can die. Monday comes and everything will just fall apart. Other than all those birthday presents I can look forward to :D
Okay, now random picture:
Nice colours, indeed. View from the bus window, approaching j8.My right wrist hurts so bad. And it's so badly bruised/cut that I don't even dare to put the pictures up on my blog ):
Am blogging incoherent. This is bad, so damn bad.
Thursday, September 06, 2007 | 9:03 PM
But both pockets have holes.
Stampede again today. Bad decision to trying rushing with the rest of them 'cause I ended up falling and suffering multiple cuts. Plus, total embarrassment to go with it. Damn ): But considering that I continued to stay in the library 'til 6, my skin must be so thick I bet even Gamma rays cannot penetrate.
Anyhow, everything was saved when I came to the knowledge that Albert had helped me get photos of "I'M HOT"! :D :D (Though he said he felt like a gay just taking those pictures but still.)
There you have it!! D:
But in order to protect his privacy, I shalll not put up the photo which has him in front view. Pity, huh? Sure y'all are so eager. But I can show you another guy, though! (Simply because nothing much will really happen to him.)
Behold!:
Kevin caught slacking! (Or should I say, SOCIALIZING?) :D
This guy really can't get down to studying! Kept picking up phonecalls and replying messages that Albert and I had to take the drastic measure of confiscating that phone. Even then, he started walking around the library looking forgirls people to borrow things. It got so bad that I'd started writing little reminders. Of the many, here are a few model templates!
"Kevin: You should be studying, not sms-ing! I know both start with an 'S' but there's a vast difference! Jiayou (:"
"Kevin: You should be working, not walking! I know both start with a 'W' but there's a vast difference! Jiayou (:"
"Kevin: You should be mugging, not making out! I know both start with an 'M' but there's a vast difference! Jiayou (:"
Haha, retarded D: But he left early and Albert and I had to periodically check on him. I wonder:
Is Kevin mugging now?
At Macs I saw this bunch of little boys! They'd tables reserved for them like they were having a small party or something. Naturally, that got me high (tsk) and I took a picture! But guess what, one of them caught me taking a picture and tried to block my view..
.. but obviously to no avail :D
Has been quite a fruitful day; completing Physics, almost all for Amath. But seeing Mugger Freaks made me feel so inferior! Though I can't believe I managed to sneak a shot of even them, despite the red light from my new 3.2MP D:
See the one on the extreme right? That's top of the cohort in CH. Sick ):
And I saw another person who fainted due to excessive "mugging". Just serves to prove further the negative side-effects of mugging, and how you don't reap any benefits. None at all, zilch. Except this time, it's prolly 'cause this guy's displaying the spirit of "活 到 老 , 学 到 老" because, as you can see for yourself..
THE PATCH D: Sad.
Left with Albert, and I GOT AN ICE CREAM TREAT ♥
Strawberry sundae; thanks!
Now I have motivation to study - ice cream, K800i, study dates. What more can I ask for?
5 days, tomy birthday Phyiscs and Geog papers. Great.
Stampede again today. Bad decision to trying rushing with the rest of them 'cause I ended up falling and suffering multiple cuts. Plus, total embarrassment to go with it. Damn ): But considering that I continued to stay in the library 'til 6, my skin must be so thick I bet even Gamma rays cannot penetrate.
Anyhow, everything was saved when I came to the knowledge that Albert had helped me get photos of "I'M HOT"! :D :D (Though he said he felt like a gay just taking those pictures but still.)
There you have it!! D:But in order to protect his privacy, I shalll not put up the photo which has him in front view. Pity, huh? Sure y'all are so eager. But I can show you another guy, though! (Simply because nothing much will really happen to him.)
Behold!:
Kevin caught slacking! (Or should I say, SOCIALIZING?) :DThis guy really can't get down to studying! Kept picking up phonecalls and replying messages that Albert and I had to take the drastic measure of confiscating that phone. Even then, he started walking around the library looking for
"Kevin: You should be studying, not sms-ing! I know both start with an 'S' but there's a vast difference! Jiayou (:"
"Kevin: You should be working, not walking! I know both start with a 'W' but there's a vast difference! Jiayou (:"
"Kevin: You should be mugging, not making out! I know both start with an 'M' but there's a vast difference! Jiayou (:"
Haha, retarded D: But he left early and Albert and I had to periodically check on him. I wonder:
Is Kevin mugging now?
At Macs I saw this bunch of little boys! They'd tables reserved for them like they were having a small party or something. Naturally, that got me high (tsk) and I took a picture! But guess what, one of them caught me taking a picture and tried to block my view..
.. but obviously to no avail :DHas been quite a fruitful day; completing Physics, almost all for Amath. But seeing Mugger Freaks made me feel so inferior! Though I can't believe I managed to sneak a shot of even them, despite the red light from my new 3.2MP D:
See the one on the extreme right? That's top of the cohort in CH. Sick ):And I saw another person who fainted due to excessive "mugging". Just serves to prove further the negative side-effects of mugging, and how you don't reap any benefits. None at all, zilch. Except this time, it's prolly 'cause this guy's displaying the spirit of "活 到 老 , 学 到 老" because, as you can see for yourself..
THE PATCH D: Sad.Left with Albert, and I GOT AN ICE CREAM TREAT ♥
Strawberry sundae; thanks!Now I have motivation to study - ice cream, K800i, study dates. What more can I ask for?
5 days, to
Wednesday, September 05, 2007 | 11:24 PM
Everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life.
A dream has been realised :D
YES, I GOT MY K800i.
Like, finally. Time to kiss 2MP goodbye.
Woke late(r) today. Haven't experienced that kind of "I-don't-want-to-get-out-of-bed" feeling for a long time, but I just had to have that this morning. Bad.
Reached Bishan library at 0950h. And today I shall publicly post on my blog that the most kiasu people who form the first few rows everyday in eager anticipation of that rush of cold air as the doors open are from CH. Damn it, really. Someday I am so going to sprint faster than all 'em Sports Class people D:
Anyhow, managed to get a table. Despite my gracious behaviour and extremely slow pace (in comparison) of movement. Tsk, anyway Eunice and I couldn't run 'cause we were wearing school-based shirts and she had the five letters C E D A R huge. Unlike some other schools, really.
Weird things happened today. Ended up sitting opposite 3 NYGH girls. At least they are nice. Totally different from the HC guys that we occupying the table next to us. They were being outright asses. (I mean, seriously, if you want to look at girls please just don't make it so obvious. Either that, or don't wear a jacket that screams "HWA CHONG" so big behind la.) Trust that Adeline and Yuan Ting turned them on, seeing as they had to sit at the same table due to lack of space.
Then I saw this cute boy:
Sleeping on the floor in the same "box" as Miang!
Apparently his mom went goodness-knows-where and left him in the care of Miang. So she became a Mom, and I really can't blame the real mother 'cause Miang does have the 慈 善 妈 妈 kind of look (and you can't deny). Hah.
Speaking of boys, when I was at Macs getting Latte there were these 2 really cute boys about 9 years old or younger. Had a brief conversation with them and I was so shocked they actually responded D: They ended up asking for 2 BBQ Sauce, 1 Curry Sauce and 1 Chilli Sauce packets. How, adorable.
Best part of all was prolly this:
And it's what I call "MUGGING TOO HARD".
Honestly, would you just look at the state she's in! I swear she slept for the longest time. Head down since the moment she took over the seat. And she was diagonally opposite me, but totally oblivious to my sneaking a shot. Wonderful; she posed just like a model.
The HC guy that came to sit next to me was being annoying. He breathes so heavily that I can even hear it past my music. And why the hell did he have to choose this seat when the table next door had a freaking empty seat?! I wonder.
Albert made me high halfway when he told me about "I'M HOT". But unfortunately KangKang didn't manage to drag him down. Looks like knowledge of the bait/target's whereabouts isn't enough to satisfy "I'M HOT". Even my sms to KangKang didn't work. It read: "You NEED to bring him down. The library's so cold, we need some heat around here!"
Still hopeful for that photo, though! Someday your fans will meet you, Baby. There's no running away then >=)
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It's so hard to stay connected with another for a long time. That's why I have moments.
But it's different with You ♥
A dream has been realised :DYES, I GOT MY K800i.
Like, finally. Time to kiss 2MP goodbye.
Woke late(r) today. Haven't experienced that kind of "I-don't-want-to-get-out-of-bed" feeling for a long time, but I just had to have that this morning. Bad.
Reached Bishan library at 0950h. And today I shall publicly post on my blog that the most kiasu people who form the first few rows everyday in eager anticipation of that rush of cold air as the doors open are from CH. Damn it, really. Someday I am so going to sprint faster than all 'em Sports Class people D:
Anyhow, managed to get a table. Despite my gracious behaviour and extremely slow pace (in comparison) of movement. Tsk, anyway Eunice and I couldn't run 'cause we were wearing school-based shirts and she had the five letters C E D A R huge. Unlike some other schools, really.
Weird things happened today. Ended up sitting opposite 3 NYGH girls. At least they are nice. Totally different from the HC guys that we occupying the table next to us. They were being outright asses. (I mean, seriously, if you want to look at girls please just don't make it so obvious. Either that, or don't wear a jacket that screams "HWA CHONG" so big behind la.) Trust that Adeline and Yuan Ting turned them on, seeing as they had to sit at the same table due to lack of space.
Then I saw this cute boy:
Sleeping on the floor in the same "box" as Miang!Apparently his mom went goodness-knows-where and left him in the care of Miang. So she became a Mom, and I really can't blame the real mother 'cause Miang does have the 慈 善 妈 妈 kind of look (and you can't deny). Hah.
Speaking of boys, when I was at Macs getting Latte there were these 2 really cute boys about 9 years old or younger. Had a brief conversation with them and I was so shocked they actually responded D: They ended up asking for 2 BBQ Sauce, 1 Curry Sauce and 1 Chilli Sauce packets. How, adorable.
Best part of all was prolly this:
And it's what I call "MUGGING TOO HARD".Honestly, would you just look at the state she's in! I swear she slept for the longest time. Head down since the moment she took over the seat. And she was diagonally opposite me, but totally oblivious to my sneaking a shot. Wonderful; she posed just like a model.
The HC guy that came to sit next to me was being annoying. He breathes so heavily that I can even hear it past my music. And why the hell did he have to choose this seat when the table next door had a freaking empty seat?! I wonder.
Albert made me high halfway when he told me about "I'M HOT". But unfortunately KangKang didn't manage to drag him down. Looks like knowledge of the bait/target's whereabouts isn't enough to satisfy "I'M HOT". Even my sms to KangKang didn't work. It read: "You NEED to bring him down. The library's so cold, we need some heat around here!"
Still hopeful for that photo, though! Someday your fans will meet you, Baby. There's no running away then >=)
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It's so hard to stay connected with another for a long time. That's why I have moments.
But it's different with You ♥
Tuesday, September 04, 2007 | 11:58 PM
I know we just got here but I think it's time to leave.
If yesterday=f(x), today must be equal to f-1(x).
Mundane, and a total waste of time and effort. Been trying so hard - and I really mean trying, since nothing much is really coming out of it - that my migraine's back. The same thing that always happens when I'msupposedly stressed D: Thanks, so now my head has split, akin to that of the Red Sea.
Shan't elaborate much. Today was mainly, of waking at 0630h, Macs, witnessing the stampede (of kiasu students) at Bishan library as the doors opened exactly at 1000h, Physics that kills brain cells, a particularly helpful University student (whom I happened to sit next to),retardedly smart CH guys and finally, a 3hour-long Amath lesson that ended at 11.
My brain is currently experiencing retardation.
Tomorrow morning have got a date with XR again. Will be smugging at Starbucks! Yes, I so need the caffeine. Severe case of addiction to stay alive.
And tonight someone told me: "You make Wonder Woman seem mediocre."
Thanks, Love. You made my day (in spite of all its agony) ♥
If yesterday=f(x), today must be equal to f-1(x).
Mundane, and a total waste of time and effort. Been trying so hard - and I really mean trying, since nothing much is really coming out of it - that my migraine's back. The same thing that always happens when I'm
Shan't elaborate much. Today was mainly, of waking at 0630h, Macs, witnessing the stampede (of kiasu students) at Bishan library as the doors opened exactly at 1000h, Physics that kills brain cells, a particularly helpful University student (whom I happened to sit next to),
My brain is currently experiencing retardation.
Tomorrow morning have got a date with XR again. Will be smugging at Starbucks! Yes, I so need the caffeine. Severe case of addiction to stay alive.
And tonight someone told me: "You make Wonder Woman seem mediocre."
Thanks, Love. You made my day (in spite of all its agony) ♥
Monday, September 03, 2007 | 10:45 PM
Don't answer me you'll break the silence.
Has been a rather remunerating day.
Unfortunately, this post will be relatively narrative. Prolly 'cause there's nothing else much, in terms of thought. (Who has time to think, when you're captivated by mindmaps? :D)
Woke at 0845h. Can't say it's early, but good enough for Day One! Ate at Serangoon Gardens' Macs with my parents. And there was this cute little boy *paedophile buzzer alert* but guess shall save the details and spare you mysick excitement D:
Meant to spend the day alone mugging at Woodlands Libary. But ended up going to Novena with Davin and Sherwyn. Guess who was there! Staf and Jialin. Ohmygosh, it's been some time since I last saw Jialin and I think she hasn't really changed all that much. At least I can recognise her. Other than that, there were so many other Cedarians there as well! Tsuwie, Eugenia and later on even Tiramisu and Cavewoman :D
At about lunchtime, the students were made to squeeze. Annoying, considering there were so many others slacking their lives off and they still get one huge couch for theirbig small butts >=( Anyway, it caused Kevin and Albert to join us. Isn't it amazing that I found out Albert's my Kindergarten classmate! Insane. Today was like school reunion for me: Staf my Secondary school classmate, Jialin & Sherwyn my Primary school classmates and Albert. This world is too small; now I feel big.
Mugged hard, was drawing nice little mindmaps for SS! But Starbucks is a humongous fridge. Was freezing, to the point that I started shivering as we left. Or rather, got chased away. 'Cause apparently the "studying hours" were up. Plain retarded, but still.
Staf and Jialin went to The Learning Lab for tuition class, Davin and Sherwyn headed home. Was left with Albert and Kevin. Went to Macs to mug even more; was so engrossed with my drawings ♥♥ Albert is so amused with this tissue-paper-that-was-made-to-look-like-whipped-cream thing. Hah, inside joke. And Kevin is just a social cat. He practically knows the world. (Exactly how my older brother describes me but I think his case is more severe. Honest.) It could prolly help him in terms of relations and stuff. Maybe he could conduct barter trade through FTAs or represent Singapore in the UN.. Rrrright, am saturated with SS.
Anyway, we were at Macs and in one sitting he spoke to 2 different people whom one he described as "my friend's brother" and the other "this guy I play soccer with". Never was there mention of the word "friend"; really wonder how hard someone has got to work to be granted title "friend"! D: But anyhow, got to thank him for that jacket.
Went home with Albert since we live so near each other. Yay, Spongebob and Youtube.
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Tomorrow will be a busy day. Am meeting 4 different people. I am loving this.
Seeing as this post cannot get any more wordy (and boring), I shall upload a random photo. Presenting the..
.. HARD CRUMPLER v1.0! It's so hard, it stands! D:
Okay I can just hear the SS textbooks calling out to me. This is amazing:
MUGGING IS FUN ♥
Has been a rather remunerating day.
Unfortunately, this post will be relatively narrative. Prolly 'cause there's nothing else much, in terms of thought. (Who has time to think, when you're captivated by mindmaps? :D)
Woke at 0845h. Can't say it's early, but good enough for Day One! Ate at Serangoon Gardens' Macs with my parents. And there was this cute little boy *paedophile buzzer alert* but guess shall save the details and spare you my
Meant to spend the day alone mugging at Woodlands Libary. But ended up going to Novena with Davin and Sherwyn. Guess who was there! Staf and Jialin. Ohmygosh, it's been some time since I last saw Jialin and I think she hasn't really changed all that much. At least I can recognise her. Other than that, there were so many other Cedarians there as well! Tsuwie, Eugenia and later on even Tiramisu and Cavewoman :D
At about lunchtime, the students were made to squeeze. Annoying, considering there were so many others slacking their lives off and they still get one huge couch for their
Mugged hard, was drawing nice little mindmaps for SS! But Starbucks is a humongous fridge. Was freezing, to the point that I started shivering as we left. Or rather, got chased away. 'Cause apparently the "studying hours" were up. Plain retarded, but still.
Staf and Jialin went to The Learning Lab for tuition class, Davin and Sherwyn headed home. Was left with Albert and Kevin. Went to Macs to mug even more; was so engrossed with my drawings ♥♥ Albert is so amused with this tissue-paper-that-was-made-to-look-like-whipped-cream thing. Hah, inside joke. And Kevin is just a social cat. He practically knows the world. (Exactly how my older brother describes me but I think his case is more severe. Honest.) It could prolly help him in terms of relations and stuff. Maybe he could conduct barter trade through FTAs or represent Singapore in the UN.. Rrrright, am saturated with SS.
Anyway, we were at Macs and in one sitting he spoke to 2 different people whom one he described as "my friend's brother" and the other "this guy I play soccer with". Never was there mention of the word "friend"; really wonder how hard someone has got to work to be granted title "friend"! D: But anyhow, got to thank him for that jacket.
Went home with Albert since we live so near each other. Yay, Spongebob and Youtube.
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Tomorrow will be a busy day. Am meeting 4 different people. I am loving this.
Seeing as this post cannot get any more wordy (and boring), I shall upload a random photo. Presenting the..
.. HARD CRUMPLER v1.0! It's so hard, it stands! D:Okay I can just hear the SS textbooks calling out to me. This is amazing:
MUGGING IS FUN ♥
Sunday, September 02, 2007 | 4:50 PM
I might be a fool, but you might be one too.
Internet was down yesterday. But climax of the would-have-been post:
"And Saturday nights always leave me feeling so hung up. Seeing twos so perfectly together makes me, alone, feel like an idiot. And I've come to realise it's notjust a game, but also, an asset. If you have it, congratulations. If you don't, then it really comes down to personality. But my heart tells me I'm a go-getter. Or maybe it's just me with this need, a secret obligation. It works the same way as when you see a cute guy and you wish he were yours.
Is the lovin' really gone? 'Cause I need it to get by."
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Sunday afternoons are always slow and certainly sleep-inducing. And today, things aren't really looking good much, with the rain and all. But I'm just glad to be in, instead of out. Love the smell of rain, the comfort it brings. What time for nostalgia to set in: of love, life and that ilk.
If only I could lay this heavy head down to rest.. But work is beckoning and I can't say I'm the least prepared to face what's ahead the following week - continuation of Prelims. Social Studies is the first paper up, accompanied by a whole string thereafter. Shocks this lifeless heart just thinking about it. And those negative images my mind creates are just threatening to materialise.
Have got to convince myself of this love: mugging is the shit.
And I say it not only with words.
To my textbooks (my Loves), I sing:
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
ELYSSA, GET DOWN TO MUGGING D:
"Be still, and know that I am God." - Psalm 46:10
Internet was down yesterday. But climax of the would-have-been post:
"And Saturday nights always leave me feeling so hung up. Seeing twos so perfectly together makes me, alone, feel like an idiot. And I've come to realise it's not
Is the lovin' really gone? 'Cause I need it to get by."
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Sunday afternoons are always slow and certainly sleep-inducing. And today, things aren't really looking good much, with the rain and all. But I'm just glad to be in, instead of out. Love the smell of rain, the comfort it brings. What time for nostalgia to set in: of love, life and that ilk.
If only I could lay this heavy head down to rest.. But work is beckoning and I can't say I'm the least prepared to face what's ahead the following week - continuation of Prelims. Social Studies is the first paper up, accompanied by a whole string thereafter. Shocks this lifeless heart just thinking about it. And those negative images my mind creates are just threatening to materialise.
Have got to convince myself of this love: mugging is the shit.
And I say it not only with words.To my textbooks (my Loves), I sing:
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
ELYSSA, GET DOWN TO MUGGING D:
"Be still, and know that I am God." - Psalm 46:10