I wanted to be two, but more than one
I only thought that I could be so dumb
Crush my heart with your new heels
I'd beg for you, but I dont kneel
I only thought that I could be so dumb
Crush my heart with your new heels
I'd beg for you, but I dont kneel
I've changed.My 564th post on this blog. How far I've come.
It's the last day of the year today. Naturally, nostalgia sets in. 2007 has been different. Blatantly so. Being 16 is an odd thing, though pretty dandy at times.
Though, also, it's when you realise that you've become older. Aging comes into play; many things take their toll and you experience sudden revelations, realizations.. Like the break of dawn. Mistakes galore, but they aid you in the learning process.
I remember as a little kid, there was so much eagerness to grow up. Humans are ironic, and never satisfied. Being young, you long to be old(er); being mature, you desire to to turn back time. But everything is a new experience.
I recall.. How taking the school bus meant you were a Primary School kid. How, over the years, as games of hopscotch and catching were taken over by the computer/Gameboys, and penmanship evolved into compositions, it brought us through to age 12. Then came the Secondary School ez-link card - it made us feel older. Afterwhich, streaming in Secondary 2, which (to some extent) decided our path of education for the rest of our lives. The following year, we made our ICs, certifying our citizenship with this country.
And finally, where I am now: With my 16th birthday past, NC16 flicks within reach and standing at the edge of what would be a new chapter as I plunge into JC life.
Interesting, it all sounds.
Wouldn't have gotten thus far, if not for the fact of His Grace in delivering me. And not forgetting friends (and family), of course. Never more than 2 steps away.
Right now, I honestly wonder if I'm ready to face it all. All 'em challenges life is ready to hurl at me. But the notions of winning and losing are relative; there is no victory without loss. Surrender.
"The problems we experience now are temporal. All things, in the end, will work for good." I believe this now.
And when I next hear the clock tick, I'll remember all the things that I have experienced, for they far outnumber the seconds that have elapsed while I was through it. Just this morning, someone told me, "Well done, Elyssa."
Indeed, well done.
Sunday, December 30, 2007 | 9:31 PM
And this is for the ones who have lost it all
When all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away
How can I say
Say I'll be okay?
When all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away
How can I say
Say I'll be okay?
Alicia's birthday [:Celebrated Alicia's birthday today after Service. Just a small cake, birthday song and that was it.
The photo we took (see above) was so similar to that which we posed for, 4 years ago. How time flies. We've been together as a YD Class for so long now. It's these little things that remind you, "Hey, you've grown." Sure have, Ely, sure have.
Yesterday's YF was pretty okay. Went earlier at 12nn to help out with getting the Clubhouse ready for use. I enjoyed the moments of mopping {: YF itself, we watched Narnia. Couldn't complete it, though, due to the lack of time.
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♥Hear us falling. says:
But don't worry, most of the time it's just about me being too inadequate.
Killswitch Engage says:
u inadequate?
Killswitch Engage says:
yayaya
♥Hear us falling. says:
It's the truth, really.
Killswitch Engage says:
okayy
Killswitch Engage says:
ur not inadequate lah
♥Hear us falling. says:
[: Thanks.
Encouragement from a 15 year old can prove to be so strangely heartwarming at times.
That's enough for now, Ely; you can't expect everyone to bother.
Friday, December 28, 2007 | 12:46 AM
Through open eyes I sense a feeling
Painted black that lines your heart
It's bleeding through just like
The colors that I've seen right from the start
And if I had the choice to do this all again
Painted black that lines your heart
It's bleeding through just like
The colors that I've seen right from the start
And if I had the choice to do this all again
Love you, Babe.Manicure/Pedicure Session yesterday sure was some experience. Shan't elaborate, though, on how my fingers and toes were freezing off.
Guess the colour my nails are in now! Hawhaw.
LOVE 'EM TO BITS ♥That aside, my Mom was comparing my cousin and I again, as usual. Fine, fine, I know she's damn tall and skinny and has a smaller waist than me. And it's my fault for having joined Track & Field resulting in the hugest legs and hips in the entire universe. Still, it's not fair to say I've got a waist of "25 to 27 inches"; I can very well fit into my Cedar school skirt which is size 24, thank you.
After a certain incident this morning that brought back certain bad memories and deja vu of the awful past, have decided Elyssa needs punishment.
Today, have got plans I have to do away with. Like I mentioned to TOOWMS: "To rot at home is an imperative". Most certainly.
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And an sms just came in. It read: "Hey um i guess i just wanna thank you again for taking some time to hear all that shit from me? (:"
You're welcome, you.
All this is so fake, I find myself jaded. (And can you tell I'm trying so hard not to sound.. MEHHHH.)
Thursday, December 27, 2007 | 11:46 AM
And from the ballroom floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
♥ [:Had to skip Sydney's Outing (bowling) yesterday morning. Was made to pack my room ): But for that, I earned the chance to attend Jo's BBQ! 'Cuz my Mom was - and I quote - "impressed" with what I'd done. Yay, 3 cheers for Ely.
Met the person obsessed with my shadow and went to CQ. Haha, good talking, as always. Then was brought to Sin Ming Avenue, where Jo lives. Almost slept on the bus, and that made me so exhausted thereafter. All that was going through my mind was "SLEEPSLEEPSLEEP" O:
The night was merry. Not so much the food, the place or the games. Fundamentally, the fellowship. Thanks Sydney, for everything! Photos here {:
Okay, today what I have in store is a Manicure/Pedicure Session scheduled for the evening. Haha, birthday treat from my Aunt.
Before that, though, still deciding if I should go back to Cedar. It's Orientation Day Two today! (How is it I don't know anything, huh. Oh the juniors..) Oh well, I do miss the school, in many ways. But it's not in the old premises. Mehhh.
Narrative, narrative shitz.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007 | 1:28 PM
'Cause in my head there's a greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
Where they're far more suited than here
Where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
Where they're far more suited than here
Time to go.Okay so this is how we do:
So typically, typically - stitch my newly ripped jeans and sew 'em tight; I've got too many scarred knees from too many fights.
It's time to get up, get out, get away & get over it ♥
And that's the beauty of it. When you lose your way, just close your eyes and go to sleep.. Wake up to another day.
This is also otherwise known as "Escape".
Tuesday, December 25, 2007 | 10:24 PM
Yet in thy dark streets shineth
The Everlasting Light
The hopes and fears of all the years
Are met in Thee tonight
The Everlasting Light
The hopes and fears of all the years
Are met in Thee tonight
Shermaine! [:Paternal's celebration last night.
Was okay, though as the years go by it's really so much of realizing how you've grown; how much you don't enjoy playing at the playground and lighting sparklers as you used to. Sat on the swing most of the time. It was a lot about reminiscing - more so than being emo.
Photos!:
Christmas Dinner {:
Prayer before partaking the food.
Playing with the sparklers!
Swing swing swing (from the tangles of my heart).
I hope I look happy. Then I tried eating the biggest piece of cheesecake EVER! Ahhh, it was crazyyyyy man. But hey, no fear, when you have Elyssa the Cheesecake
It's HUGE! O:
Attack, Ely, attack! [:But in the end I failed. I left some bits for my brother ): Gahhhh. But hey, that's enough calories to last me the next few months. People say "Christmas is the time to stop counting all those calories and just indulge". But wtcd, no way!
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Today's Christmas!
Somehow didn't feel like it, though. This year Christmas is very much different from those in the past. P'haps familiarity has ruined it all. Tragic.
Went for Service in the morning. Afterwhich, exchanged gifts and cards at the Upper Sanctuary together with all the YFers. Thanks for the presents and notes, all you who gave 'em to me! Lovelovelove ♥
Then, "The Paedophile Association" - headed by Shermaine with me as Vice - brought the kids out for their monthly outing. (Okay this is all crap and I just created this organization today, I swear.) Caught the flick "I Am Legend" at j8. The show is plain weird. Abe and my brother were laughing throughout, Zac was expressionless, Kevin kept eating, Kok Weng was getting all cozy while I, was afraid. Stupid.
We were cheap thrilling at the Interactive Mat thereafter! Haha, super retarded. I took a video of Abe fooling around. Should prolly post it up on Youtube [:
Being childish & playing with the kids!After most of them left, Zac, Abe, Greg, my brother and I went to SONY to check out Guitar Hero III. Tsk, the guys were playing. When they asked me to I foolishly agreed but got owned. Oh well. Anyway, my main role was to take photos, while Greg's was to be a good audience.
Abe playing it.
Zac.
My brother.No special presents this year from my parents, I think. Ah well, it's difficult to break out of tradition in this manner. But I guess the older we get, the less they see the need to give us stuff. Brilliant.
All I want for Christmas is to be a kid again.
Monday, December 24, 2007 | 12:30 PM
This feeling is lonely
Sending me slowly
Hits me so deep
It cuts my bone
Fills my heart
Burns me up
Hits me so deep
It cuts my bone
Fills my heart
Burns me up
YD Class ♥Haven't posted in 2 days, oh the horror D:
Saturday
Was awake early, but nevertheless I didn't go for Captain's Ball at Gardens. Hah, I kept my promise!
Lunched then headed to Cindy's. We were cheap thrilling, HAHA {: Super fun, though. All those games we made up! When Timmy came back he set up the new Wii. Ahhhh, that thing is so entertaining 'cuz of all that moving and boxing yada yada.
Trying out the games {:
The audience, haha.In the evening, had to give YF a miss and attended my maternal's Christmas celebration! Was supposed to help the ladies cook but I ended up taking photographs
And as with all other Christmas's past and present:
THE LADIES WORK WORK WORK!
WHILE THE GUYS SLACK SLACK SLACK!Tsk, ah well D: Guys are born to slack! (Ooh, feminist comment, yeshiz.)
Sunday
Woke for 8.30am Service! YES, I MADE IT. But damn tired the whole day ): Even during caroling I was so exhausted. Plus half the time I was struggling to not look like my head was spinning D:
First ever caroling was much fun!
Sam made it for my first caroling [:
Oh what JOY, for me [:
Jo! ♥He's so cute so cute so cute! I feel like a true paedophile now. Ah well, the little guy will willingly admit to being my brother. So why not? Hah.
(& I hereby declare I have a certified stalker stalking me. Freaky, not. Period.)
Friday, December 21, 2007 | 11:54 PM
I am slipping through, I am slipping through
I am slipping into the airwaves
(The static's where you'll find me)
And this is nothing new, you are slipping through
My fingers and into the airwaves
I am slipping into the airwaves
(The static's where you'll find me)
And this is nothing new, you are slipping through
My fingers and into the airwaves
Zachary (all-too-shy) & Abraham [:Had to shepherd all the junior guys today - Zac, Abe, Joel, his brother and my brother. Boy, that sure made me feel old. For once.
Joel was s'pposed to be my date for tonight to the Musical! But even at 1905h he was still at home having dinner D: Oh bugger. In the end, met the Sec 3 guys + my brother at Chomp Chomp. Walked into Church in the rain and waited for Joel there.
The Musical was good, pretty much. Short and sweet, yet still able to bring the message across.
When we had refreshments, all the Gardens' people said about the same things to me:
1. "How come you're here? I'm quite shocked that you actually came."
2. "What happened to your specs? So vain ah today, wear contacts."
3. "Eh, so how? Coming Gardens' YF or not?"
Wtcd, seriously. This is called "same pattern". HAHAHA.
Tomorrow morning at 10 there's Captain's Ball at Gardens'. Tsk, Edric Kwok is making me go. But I will not, despite living so near that Serangoon Gardens is only next door D: Thereafter at 1300h I've got YD Gathering at Cindy's. YF at 4-6pm but don't think I'd be able to make it.
Have got maternal side's Christmas celebrations in the evening. Ahh, pity - me wanted to go for YF Sports' Day ):
It's okay, Ely. P&P @ 0830h on Sunday, plus Carolling there after at 3pm [: Sweet.
| 2:42 PM
I am aware, I've been misled
I disconnect my heart, my head
Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Except that I am finding the words to say
Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Except that I am finding the words to say
So far away now.Christmas is coming! Am excited [:
Ahh, there you have it - something that makes me happy. Hah. It's the best time of the yearrrrr. Cannot wait, cannot wait.
Though this year I'm settling into the Christmas mood pretty late. Nevertheless.
Am waiting for my parents to say they're ready to go out shopping so that I can follow them. Honestly, this Christmas I think I can expect a new iPod. HAHA okay actually I really have no idea. All I know is that I need to get out of the house.
Some people are under the impression that I shop a lot. But I must correct you at once. False, they are; am the real "noob".
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Tonight's Outreach Musical at Gardens.
Will be there with my brother, the Sec 3 guys and many other people (like JUSTIN CHEONG). Haha.
Am not thinking straight now. Cranky mode: ON.
Thursday, December 20, 2007 | 3:06 PM
Dark and dangerous like a secret
It gets whispered in a hush
And when I wake
The things I dreamt about you last night make me blush
(Don't tell a soul)
It gets whispered in a hush
And when I wake
The things I dreamt about you last night make me blush
(Don't tell a soul)
It's hardly depression;merely reality.
Now I see your face before me
I would launch a thousand ships
To bring your heart back to my island
As the sand beneath me slips
I burn up in your presence
And I know now how it feels
To be weakened like Achilles
With you always at my heels
♥
I would launch a thousand ships
To bring your heart back to my island
As the sand beneath me slips
I burn up in your presence
And I know now how it feels
To be weakened like Achilles
With you always at my heels
♥
Wednesday, December 19, 2007 | 11:06 PM
She's got everybody up in arms
Says it's only for love
Skin touching mine in a crowded room
Shoulder to shoulder we are
She's in stereo
Says it's only for love
Skin touching mine in a crowded room
Shoulder to shoulder we are
She's in stereo
Outside looking in,It is really because of life on earth, that I am compelled toward the prize which is in Heaven.
Bring it on, Sweetheart ♥
| 5:44 PM
Lord, my heart is prone to wander
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart
Lord, take and seal it
Seal if for Thy courts above
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart
Lord, take and seal it
Seal if for Thy courts above
Zonked out.Or as Junipher would say, "ZOUKED OUT"? Haha okay no. Am kidding.
Back from CPB Sec 4 Farewell Chalet. Slept only 40 minutes and that was at about 0700h. The rest had collapsed after returning from breakfast at Macs at 4am. Carbohydrates are the equivalent of sleeping pills, I swear.
Since I didn't eat, stayed up. For no particular reason at all.
Was fun, though. Photos here.
Recently Russ got his 'N' Level results. Not too bad, with 4 points! Rock on, cariño! Then when I got home I distracted myself and tried to stay awake and waited for this other set of results 'cuz I owed KY time.
Aye, everyone's getting results of some sort - with Joel getting into Maris Stella and Tymon into Presbytarian High - that I'm reminded of my own PAE posting. Gah, I don't want to go to NY ): Will be crashing another JC every other day. Tsk D:
Okay my brain is really dead now.
"Heaven is a wonderful place/Filled with glory and grace/I want to see my Saviour's face/Heaven is a wonderful place" {:
Keep that in mind, Ely.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007 | 10:32 AM
You held my hand and walked me home, I know
Why, you gave me that it kiss it was something like this
It made me go "Oh oh"
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?
Why, you gave me that it kiss it was something like this
It made me go "Oh oh"
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears
Why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough, just to take up some of my love.Am feeling lazy today.
To start off today's post, I shall put up an MSN conversation that took place last night and there's something in it I want to illustrate:
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
Anyway, I'd better go.
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
Parents chasing me, 'cuz I'm 16 haha wtc.
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
):
Just says:
I win you?
Just says:
heh
Just says:
goodnight!
Just says:
I'm 18 and I often forget I can buy cigarettes and alcohol
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
HAHAHA
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
RETARDED
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
YOU ARE TOO GUAI FOR THAT
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
GOOD.
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
{:
Just says:
heh how would you know whether I do?
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
I'm telling you to.
♥In a flash, her heart is slain. says:
It's not a choice.
Here is an excellent example that it's not impossible to break through the age barrier, HAHAHA. Even if you're 16, you can order an 18 year old around D: (Right, okay now I will die if Justin sees this!) Nevermind, it's worth it {:
CPB Chalet. Supposed to leave now for EXCO Outing before heading to Coasta Sands. But wtcd, my Mom is at work, unreachable, and my Dad is in LaLaLand ): Does this really mean I've to wait?
Yes, and only 'cuz I'm a super-guai-'til-you-can't-stand-it-you-have-to-sit-down 16 year old.
Monday, December 17, 2007 | 10:53 PM
So you're standing on a ledge
It looks like you might fall
So far down
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping
Now you could have it all
It looks like you might fall
So far down
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping
Now you could have it all
Miracle: Need It.Today was supposed to be boring.
Still trying to settle back into life - life out of the YF Camp routine ): This is called the "post-YF Camp blues", haha.
Had to get presents for tomorrow's CPB Sec 4 Farewell Chalet. BFFAEZXZXZ had Choir Practice so she got it herself later on. Was thus left without anyone to go with and (almost) pathetically attempted scouting Town alone.
Thank God for KY though; being my tour guide and all {: We met at AMK then headed to Town. Don't ask me where we went 'cuz I seriously have no idea. My job was easy: Just say what I want to get and I will be miraculously led to some place where I can find it. HAHAH, it's like Live GPRS. Wtcd? Tsk.
Funny how it is the way things work out. God has plans for each of us.
Be it a "trustworthy, 7th-day" friend or a "Day One" friend, I really marvel all the same.
Sunday, December 16, 2007 | 11:57 PM
Heartbreaking,
despite the fight.
I want no part in this, anymore.
Charging straight for it.
Managed to wake for YD and Service today. Haha, the ownage is good {:
Sat with Joy and Sam. What the crap, dey - Andrew made my brother and I smile super widely to pose for a photo. He just wanted to "see the resemblance". But I think there's hardly any? Hah.
Liverpool v Manchester United tonight, 2130h.
Parents didn't allow me to go watch it with Shawn. Damn, I hate being a girl sometimes. What with the being over-protective and all.
We're burning them for sure.
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And maybe yesterday, I could get away; but today, I'm drowning in sanity.
I thought we were ready, only 'til emotion hit the floor.
(My life is henceforth changed forever.)
Do everything in Love ♥
Back from ZYF Camp 2007: Consider Christ.
Awesome camp, haha. Coupled with the new friends, bonds and stuff. On the whole, spiritually rejuvenating. Worship was always one of my favourites on the agenda.
Thanks to the Camp Committee, and Sydney, especially. Glad our group worked out! {:
Slept from 1430h to 2000h. Cannot imagine how some people can sleep from after camp 'til tomorrow morning? Like seriously, what the crap, dey.
And people, for the last time, Christl and I are not twins. Hah.
Christmas Choir Performance at Bishan Home on Saturday went by okay.
It's always a blessing to be able to bless the less fortunate, whether it be by our voices, words, actions or more. Can't wait for caroling on the 23rd.
Zion YF Camp tomorrow, 'til Saturday the 15th. Time for another round of spiritual refreshment. That's what I look forward to most.
Drop an sms if necessary.
Am not really bothered if I'll be missed.
despite the fight.
I want no part in this, anymore.
| 6:45 PM
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
While you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes
What's your fantasy?
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take
While you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes
What's your fantasy?
Charging straight for it.Managed to wake for YD and Service today. Haha, the ownage is good {:
Sat with Joy and Sam. What the crap, dey - Andrew made my brother and I smile super widely to pose for a photo. He just wanted to "see the resemblance". But I think there's hardly any? Hah.
Liverpool v Manchester United tonight, 2130h.
Parents didn't allow me to go watch it with Shawn. Damn, I hate being a girl sometimes. What with the being over-protective and all.
We're burning them for sure.
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And maybe yesterday, I could get away; but today, I'm drowning in sanity.
I thought we were ready, only 'til emotion hit the floor.
(My life is henceforth changed forever.)
Saturday, December 15, 2007 | 11:05 PM
Consider Christ, that He could trust His Father
In the Garden of Gethsemane
Though full of dread and fearful of the anguish
He drank the cup that was reserved for me
In the Garden of Gethsemane
Though full of dread and fearful of the anguish
He drank the cup that was reserved for me
Do everything in Love ♥Back from ZYF Camp 2007: Consider Christ.
Awesome camp, haha. Coupled with the new friends, bonds and stuff. On the whole, spiritually rejuvenating. Worship was always one of my favourites on the agenda.
Thanks to the Camp Committee, and Sydney, especially. Glad our group worked out! {:
Slept from 1430h to 2000h. Cannot imagine how some people can sleep from after camp 'til tomorrow morning? Like seriously, what the crap, dey.
And people, for the last time, Christl and I are not twins. Hah.
Sunday, December 09, 2007 | 10:20 PM
If I had just one bullet and a trigger, I'd pull it
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings, and gouge out his eyes
And thank him for nothing
'Cause that's all that he gave to me
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings, and gouge out his eyes
And thank him for nothing
'Cause that's all that he gave to me
Christmas Choir Performance at Bishan Home on Saturday went by okay.
It's always a blessing to be able to bless the less fortunate, whether it be by our voices, words, actions or more. Can't wait for caroling on the 23rd.
Zion YF Camp tomorrow, 'til Saturday the 15th. Time for another round of spiritual refreshment. That's what I look forward to most.
Drop an sms if necessary.
Am not really bothered if I'll be missed.
Saturday, December 08, 2007 | 4:26 AM
Difficulty to obtain sufficient sleep, or to stay asleep.
It's called, insomnia.
So empty, they are.
There's always been something about buses and bus interchanges that grips me. Fascination - hardly as a child, but more so now.
The way the buses come, park, rest; whilst at the same time others go, run.. Almost as if they enjoy plunging into the freedom of movement, even expression. But not for long. For soon after, they return. The Captain gets tired, shifts have to be rotated, taken.
But journeys you take, each different, special in its own way. Imitated, emulated, but never replicated. Impossibly so, despite the fact that it seems all too easy to slide into that. Sloppy work, it's called. Reserved for the languid.
It goes on and on, refusing to acknowledge composure. P'haps, you'd prefer to try another number this time?
Lesson learnt, though. Even joyrides have to end, somehow.
It's consuming, believe me.
Especially after discovering the online streaming, in huge part thanks to HL. Haha, it seems it's not only the music library now, but the vids library as well. Brilliant :D
And so, today was spent entirely in that manner. Think I've learnt the way of KK, or some part at least. STONING (in front of the computer). Except, I am concentrating on watching.
Other than that, been talking with OIDC members. Much fun. #1 showed me this funny vid on Youtube; here's the link. It's funny. Do watch.
Subsequently, some time in the evening, I called #2 an "egghead". (M, it's your word, I know. But I stole it, Dude. Too bad.) Being the usual stoner cum having-too-much-time-on-my-hands person, #2 found the definition on Urban Dictionary dot com. HAHA. All meanings apply, save for the "serial rapist" one. Surely it can't be..? D:
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We all love the safety and comfort of assurance.
It's what some live for.
"Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness?" - 2 Corinthians 6:14
But I say, challenge not the Word. Down, you will fall.
& Break.
(Some) Leaders!
Back from OAL Chalet.
There weren't many Leaders there! And the rain practically spoiled everything. We had to eat like BBQ+rainwater food ): How sad, really. Poor juniors, Kelly, Sharron, Peichun, Miang, Mu who were in the rain. (Did I leave anyone out?)
Photos up on FB soon. Am tired.
On the way home, made a 'pit stop' at Bishan. Haha, it's near BFFAEZXZXZ house anyway [: Walked around j8 with Davin and BFFAEZXZXZ. We were, uh, just "hanging out". Tsk, coming home was like so not what I desired. Started getting high and talking shitz, scandals galore. Afterwhich, Davin walked me home.
Now, let's retrace it.
Before the Chalet, met OIDC members for lunch. I stared at food (again). Hahaha, bet KK thinks I'm seriously anorexic. NO, I AM NOT. And I maintain that stand [:
On the train, watched vids. Like, the James Blunt 'You're Beautiful' Parody. Stupid shitz, I tell you. And KK's weird seniors who act like they know karate. Tsk. Anyhoo, we parted as they left for Esplanade and I for the Chalet. Ohhhh, you guys are so much fun! Looking forward to our more-often meetings - Friday, yeh? ♥
Eventful day. At least, something. Finally.
And it's only 'cuz I choose what I want to happen, and when it does. Today, I made myself go through the unconventional. Felt good.
Sure did.
'Cuz that's the way it goes.
"Sweet in theory, but insulting in practice."
All of sudden I miss S so much. More of, than the 'used-to-be's. Now, it's all but dull.. Even dead. Dead white.
There was a sign; it did not come without warning. It came, and was embraced. I want it back so badly now. And for that I'll write, better than before.
My heart knows I'm a poet.
Just bring it all back.
It's called, insomnia.
Friday, December 07, 2007 | 10:56 PM
We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away
So empty, they are.There's always been something about buses and bus interchanges that grips me. Fascination - hardly as a child, but more so now.
The way the buses come, park, rest; whilst at the same time others go, run.. Almost as if they enjoy plunging into the freedom of movement, even expression. But not for long. For soon after, they return. The Captain gets tired, shifts have to be rotated, taken.
But journeys you take, each different, special in its own way. Imitated, emulated, but never replicated. Impossibly so, despite the fact that it seems all too easy to slide into that. Sloppy work, it's called. Reserved for the languid.
It goes on and on, refusing to acknowledge composure. P'haps, you'd prefer to try another number this time?
Lesson learnt, though. Even joyrides have to end, somehow.
Thursday, December 06, 2007 | 10:16 PM
Your quiet eyes, your mouth that never tells lies
You've got one hour, it's time you told your story
Eighteen alone, in love with the answer phone
And too afraid, you're too afraid to fall for anything
Eighteen alone, in love with the answer phone
And too afraid, you're too afraid to fall for anything
It's consuming, believe me.
Especially after discovering the online streaming, in huge part thanks to HL. Haha, it seems it's not only the music library now, but the vids library as well. Brilliant :D
And so, today was spent entirely in that manner. Think I've learnt the way of KK, or some part at least. STONING (in front of the computer). Except, I am concentrating on watching.
Other than that, been talking with OIDC members. Much fun. #1 showed me this funny vid on Youtube; here's the link. It's funny. Do watch.
Subsequently, some time in the evening, I called #2 an "egghead". (M, it's your word, I know. But I stole it, Dude. Too bad.) Being the usual stoner cum having-too-much-time-on-my-hands person, #2 found the definition on Urban Dictionary dot com. HAHA. All meanings apply, save for the "serial rapist" one. Surely it can't be..? D:
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We all love the safety and comfort of assurance.
It's what some live for.
"Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness?" - 2 Corinthians 6:14
But I say, challenge not the Word. Down, you will fall.
Wednesday, December 05, 2007 | 11:57 PM
I remember it
Like it was yesterday
It's on continuous play
In my mind, in my mind
All of the good times we had
Like it was yesterday
It's on continuous play
In my mind, in my mind
All of the good times we had
(Some) Leaders!Back from OAL Chalet.
There weren't many Leaders there! And the rain practically spoiled everything. We had to eat like BBQ+rainwater food ): How sad, really. Poor juniors, Kelly, Sharron, Peichun, Miang, Mu who were in the rain. (Did I leave anyone out?)
Photos up on FB soon. Am tired.
On the way home, made a 'pit stop' at Bishan. Haha, it's near BFFAEZXZXZ house anyway [: Walked around j8 with Davin and BFFAEZXZXZ. We were, uh, just "hanging out". Tsk, coming home was like so not what I desired. Started getting high and talking shitz, scandals galore. Afterwhich, Davin walked me home.
Now, let's retrace it.
Before the Chalet, met OIDC members for lunch. I stared at food (again). Hahaha, bet KK thinks I'm seriously anorexic. NO, I AM NOT. And I maintain that stand [:
On the train, watched vids. Like, the James Blunt 'You're Beautiful' Parody. Stupid shitz, I tell you. And KK's weird seniors who act like they know karate. Tsk. Anyhoo, we parted as they left for Esplanade and I for the Chalet. Ohhhh, you guys are so much fun! Looking forward to our more-often meetings - Friday, yeh? ♥
Eventful day. At least, something. Finally.
And it's only 'cuz I choose what I want to happen, and when it does. Today, I made myself go through the unconventional. Felt good.
Sure did.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007 | 11:57 PM
Promote your flaws
Show your mistakes
6 feet underground
You dig your own grave
We'll cut harder
Show your mistakes
6 feet underground
You dig your own grave
We'll cut harder
'Cuz that's the way it goes."Sweet in theory, but insulting in practice."
All of sudden I miss S so much. More of, than the 'used-to-be's. Now, it's all but dull.. Even dead. Dead white.
There was a sign; it did not come without warning. It came, and was embraced. I want it back so badly now. And for that I'll write, better than before.
My heart knows I'm a poet.
Just bring it all back.
Monday, December 03, 2007 | 11:54 PM
Go on, think. Aren't you always doing that?
And you're not alone, at that. Trust me. 'Cuz everyone lies sometimes.
It's like a mystery to solve; ultimately a Game we all play.
&It's a mess, like that.
Though I miss us, I really do.
Promise me things'll lighten up a 'lil, and we'll all have time for each other, wouldya? Recently things haven't been all too good, save for soccer. (Liverpool rocks so hard I'm blown away ♥) But that aside, am taking it hard.
P'haps, when you're so freaking bored, you're most volatile. And vulnerable, might I add. Works the same as when you're packed to the max.
Sometimes, when it's over, you just got to let it go. Please start acting more like a friend to me than anything else in the world. I'd appreciate that.
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Oh and I just realised I've got OAL Chalet tomorrow 'til Thursday. How the hell did it slip my mind? And to think I thought I was free. Thereafter, YF Camp next week. And the following week, PC Chalet. Then Christmas!
Okay now I feel fully booked. But the holidays have hardly been well spent! ):
Sticky, sticky situation. (Chrys knows.) I LOVE CHRYS & KK ♥, okay that's a different story there.
"Yah mahhhnnn, GIVE ME A HIGH 5!"
Only 'cuz Liverpool kicks the most ass ever [:
Liverpool-Bolton a remarkable 4-0 win. After being bullied by Bolton in recent years, Liverpool finally sealed revenge by beating them. And guess what, now that makes us 3rd in the table, with Manchester United trailing at 4th position.
I could never be happier.
The 4 goals wered scored by Hyypia, Torres, Gerrard and Babel respectively. Tough game for Kewell though. Still, victory came through.
Haha, during the game I was sms-ing Shawn, also a Liverpool fan [: And towards the end of the game, our conversation went like this:
(And I quote our sms-es.)
Me: Lawl, Liverpool kicks ass, man. I think Campo is retarded, haha. Oh, we're game to take on Man U.
Him: Revenge for last season. To hell with Man U. Hahaha. Liverpool forever.
Me: You said it, mannnnn. We will burn 'em!
As for Song, he just called us "lucky" again. Lucky my ass, Man U.
P/S. It irks me whenever someone comments that there's a problem with girls + soccer. It is in no way a 'Boys Only' sport. It's the beautiful game, for all to enjoy.
All it takes.
Same words, different contexts -
What maketh thee of it?
Hear as I speak:
"Wait not upon it,
Though it pleases thy soul.
For it is a thing most wonderful,
Almost too wonderful to be.
It devours spirit,
As the breaking of dawn
Or the splendour of dusk.
There lies, beneath its shadow,
The place I claim as my abode.
O come, come and cheer;
Disperse these fleeting, motley emotions
To the monochromatic rays of hope.
Take the path that leads on high,
Stay far from the Valley of Destruction.
Let not kisses fool thee,
Neither words drenched in honey;
And no more let it rule."
(Pardon my sucky prose. Impulsive release.)
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Today. My maternal grandfather's going to be admitted into hospital. He's got an op scheduled for tomorrow. Prostate problems, that come with age. Y'know?
On the other hand, it's my paternal grandfather's birthday. We're having a celebration in the evening. (Thus I've to miss CP's Birthday Dinner at Seoul Garden, Taka. Anyhow, HAPPY 16th, Babe ♥)
I'm torn.
And you're not alone, at that. Trust me. 'Cuz everyone lies sometimes.
It's like a mystery to solve; ultimately a Game we all play.
| 6:34 PM
Follow me home
Through the, the maze and on
I'll show you the road
That I led you the wrong way on
Through the, the maze and on
I'll show you the road
That I led you the wrong way on
&It's a mess, like that.Though I miss us, I really do.
Promise me things'll lighten up a 'lil, and we'll all have time for each other, wouldya? Recently things haven't been all too good, save for soccer. (Liverpool rocks so hard I'm blown away ♥) But that aside, am taking it hard.
P'haps, when you're so freaking bored, you're most volatile. And vulnerable, might I add. Works the same as when you're packed to the max.
Sometimes, when it's over, you just got to let it go. Please start acting more like a friend to me than anything else in the world. I'd appreciate that.
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Oh and I just realised I've got OAL Chalet tomorrow 'til Thursday. How the hell did it slip my mind? And to think I thought I was free. Thereafter, YF Camp next week. And the following week, PC Chalet. Then Christmas!
Okay now I feel fully booked. But the holidays have hardly been well spent! ):
Sticky, sticky situation. (Chrys knows.) I LOVE CHRYS & KK ♥, okay that's a different story there.
| 1:20 AM
Be honest with me
Did you ever think
That these things that you did
Would come back to haunt you
And fail you again?
Did you ever think
That these things that you did
Would come back to haunt you
And fail you again?
"Yah mahhhnnn, GIVE ME A HIGH 5!"Only 'cuz Liverpool kicks the most ass ever [:
Liverpool-Bolton a remarkable 4-0 win. After being bullied by Bolton in recent years, Liverpool finally sealed revenge by beating them. And guess what, now that makes us 3rd in the table, with Manchester United trailing at 4th position.
I could never be happier.
The 4 goals wered scored by Hyypia, Torres, Gerrard and Babel respectively. Tough game for Kewell though. Still, victory came through.
Haha, during the game I was sms-ing Shawn, also a Liverpool fan [: And towards the end of the game, our conversation went like this:
(And I quote our sms-es.)
Me: Lawl, Liverpool kicks ass, man. I think Campo is retarded, haha. Oh, we're game to take on Man U.
Him: Revenge for last season. To hell with Man U. Hahaha. Liverpool forever.
Me: You said it, mannnnn. We will burn 'em!
As for Song, he just called us "lucky" again. Lucky my ass, Man U.
P/S. It irks me whenever someone comments that there's a problem with girls + soccer. It is in no way a 'Boys Only' sport. It's the beautiful game, for all to enjoy.
Sunday, December 02, 2007 | 2:58 PM
But even could I see him die
I could but see a little part
Of that great love which, like a fire
Is always burning in His heart
I could but see a little part
Of that great love which, like a fire
Is always burning in His heart
All it takes.Same words, different contexts -
What maketh thee of it?
Hear as I speak:
"Wait not upon it,
Though it pleases thy soul.
For it is a thing most wonderful,
Almost too wonderful to be.
It devours spirit,
As the breaking of dawn
Or the splendour of dusk.
There lies, beneath its shadow,
The place I claim as my abode.
O come, come and cheer;
Disperse these fleeting, motley emotions
To the monochromatic rays of hope.
Take the path that leads on high,
Stay far from the Valley of Destruction.
Let not kisses fool thee,
Neither words drenched in honey;
And no more let it rule."
(Pardon my sucky prose. Impulsive release.)
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Today. My maternal grandfather's going to be admitted into hospital. He's got an op scheduled for tomorrow. Prostate problems, that come with age. Y'know?
On the other hand, it's my paternal grandfather's birthday. We're having a celebration in the evening. (Thus I've to miss CP's Birthday Dinner at Seoul Garden, Taka. Anyhow, HAPPY 16th, Babe ♥)
I'm torn.