RMUN 2007 Day One. For us first-time MUNers, felt so much like a trial, that's all. Debates are going round in circles. And apparently it's the same across most councils, so I guess GA(I) is safe. Hah.
We're the lovey-dovey GA! Analogies brought up today were, interesting. (Recall: Multi-storey carparks, roses, white miniskirts and icecream!) At least, they kept most of us awake. We'll be needing much more tomorrow, I bet. Looking forward to the tension! Intensity's gonna take a steep hike. Bring it on, people. The delegate of Panama will try her best to comply, with whatever. Gah, I hope.
"Are you okay? Are you okay?" Am fine, thanks. And I guess that's it, huh. This is the way you choose to have it. Not even a smile; that really breaks me. Was being retarded with PPG clique. Blossom ;D
I love you, Bubbles ♥
Listening: Who Am I - Casting Crowns
Monday, May 28, 2007 | 11:52 PM
The world outside leaves me behind by myself.
Shopping on Sunday was fulfilling. Only to the soul, that is. Because I didn't exactly get the dress (but rather my Mom and I got distracted by other stuff) so, yeh.
Am so deranged, don't think I can remember anything that has happened over the weekend. That's good, no? Love losing my memory. Shall consider getting my head knocked against the table onebillionthreehundredsixtythousand times so I end up in suffering amnesia. Or, a coma, if I'm lucky.
Tomorrow's RMUN. Going there naked - no working paper, no security? That aside, the rest of my class's going to be in school drowning with extra classes while I'll be enjoying the air-conditioned environment in RJC. Right, and racking my brains off (or not, if I decide to be a slacker).
Whatever, I've a new BFF now. Yay Naomi♥! And lovelovelove Powerpuff Girls. We'll have a hell of a good time tomorrow. I hope.
I miss MES ):
Listening: There And Back Again - Daughtry
Shopping on Sunday was fulfilling. Only to the soul, that is. Because I didn't exactly get the dress (but rather my Mom and I got distracted by other stuff) so, yeh.
Am so deranged, don't think I can remember anything that has happened over the weekend. That's good, no? Love losing my memory. Shall consider getting my head knocked against the table onebillionthreehundredsixtythousand times so I end up in suffering amnesia. Or, a coma, if I'm lucky.
Tomorrow's RMUN. Going there naked - no working paper, no security? That aside, the rest of my class's going to be in school drowning with extra classes while I'll be enjoying the air-conditioned environment in RJC. Right, and racking my brains off (or not, if I decide to be a slacker).
Whatever, I've a new BFF now. Yay Naomi♥! And lovelovelove Powerpuff Girls. We'll have a hell of a good time tomorrow. I hope.
I miss MES ):
Listening: There And Back Again - Daughtry
Saturday, May 26, 2007 | 5:08 PM
As long as I'm not aware of change.
Am so saturated, think I might need to binge on some Kinder Bueno.
So much for getting what I want; didn't shop today. Like how annoying can they get? Damn, looks like I'll never be able to fulfill my secret bimbo dreams. Tsk. Okay, snap out of that. On a more serious note, there's another appointment scheduled for tomorrow. It'd better happen. (Ooh, sounds threatening, don't it.) That's like redemption. Considering I worked for today. And so hard, at that. I know I deserve this, rawr.
Slow, sad Saturday afternoon. Typical. And it's about to rain on this one. Can't mention this enough: I absolutely hatehatehate Saturday afternoons at home. Never fails to remind me the world's coming to an end, somehow. And I'm so afraid of reconciling with my inner self, it's almost like a phobia. But being alone at home isn't all that bad. It's nice to feel this way - forgotten and not needed. While the world's just every place else busying themselves with every other thing I'm just here, putting on some extra weight and fantasizing about Liverpool's next win; taking in the flurry of all the excitement. Brilliant.
Let the thousand flowers bloom. And then we can purge those who blaspheme.
Right, too much History there.
Listening: First We Get The Khakis Then We Get The Girls - Play It By
Am so saturated, think I might need to binge on some Kinder Bueno.
So much for getting what I want; didn't shop today. Like how annoying can they get? Damn, looks like I'll never be able to fulfill my secret bimbo dreams. Tsk. Okay, snap out of that. On a more serious note, there's another appointment scheduled for tomorrow. It'd better happen. (Ooh, sounds threatening, don't it.) That's like redemption. Considering I worked for today. And so hard, at that. I know I deserve this, rawr.
Slow, sad Saturday afternoon. Typical. And it's about to rain on this one. Can't mention this enough: I absolutely hatehatehate Saturday afternoons at home. Never fails to remind me the world's coming to an end, somehow. And I'm so afraid of reconciling with my inner self, it's almost like a phobia. But being alone at home isn't all that bad. It's nice to feel this way - forgotten and not needed. While the world's just every place else busying themselves with every other thing I'm just here, putting on some extra weight and fantasizing about Liverpool's next win; taking in the flurry of all the excitement. Brilliant.
Let the thousand flowers bloom. And then we can purge those who blaspheme.
Right, too much History there.
Listening: First We Get The Khakis Then We Get The Girls - Play It By
Friday, May 25, 2007 | 9:48 PM
Inside this room, time will stand still.
Today's the first day of the GSS, oh rejoice. Am looking forward to tomorrow. Mom's going to take me shopping yay I love you Mom! Tsk, I'm being some superficial plastic bimbo suck-up here. Oh well, whatever. Balmnail will just tell me I'm just being versatile! - Yeah, there's a moment for everything. Balmnail's so nice, always so accomodating and she never criticizes anyone. Well, almost never. I know one person she does. But shh, that's a secret.
Maybe it was a good thing after all, the fact that I didn't attend school yesterday. Owing to Liverpool's ugly match, I would've been gloated at by Abi just 'cause her Kaka won, rawr! ): And the fact that his big smiling face is on the front cover of today's Life section don't make it any better. You should've seen Crouch's expression when the game ended. (Isn't it always the same one, anyway?) That "Damn, what the hell did I do wrong again this time" mouth-opened shock painted all over. Like, literally. Poor Gerrard; I know Tammy must be so upset.
After school, had a 'surprise' SPA test. Wow? Gah. Was so unprepared, damn. Thank God I managed to scrape through, though taking it with 4S was totally odd and made me feel so out-of-place 'cause I was the only one from 4O around. Comforting to know that I got what most of my classmates did, after clarifying with Arty. Saved.
Had to give both the RMUN meeting with Ms Ng and my Forever21 sale a miss, thanks to SPA and my sucky results. I know I'm so doing sub-standard, and it'd better be the case anyway. Or, I'm really screwed. Can't wait to mugmugmug in June but MES will be away at Cambodia 'til the 4th! Ah, who's going to help me, then.
This post is all about pointless, worthless incessant ranting from someone who's currently in "BIMB MODE". Bye.
P.S. Yay, Zac's back! (: But today Jia Ling's gone and tomorrow MES plus my brother will both be away for BB stuff. One to Cambodia, the other to Malaysia. Will miss 'em ♥ Why is everyone going somewhere and throwing me behind I want to go some place too. Say, Emo-topia?
Listening: A Lack Of Colour - Death Cab For Cutie
Today's the first day of the GSS, oh rejoice. Am looking forward to tomorrow. Mom's going to take me shopping yay I love you Mom! Tsk, I'm being some superficial plastic bimbo suck-up here. Oh well, whatever. Balmnail will just tell me I'm just being versatile! - Yeah, there's a moment for everything. Balmnail's so nice, always so accomodating and she never criticizes anyone. Well, almost never. I know one person she does. But shh, that's a secret.
Maybe it was a good thing after all, the fact that I didn't attend school yesterday. Owing to Liverpool's ugly match, I would've been gloated at by Abi just 'cause her Kaka won, rawr! ): And the fact that his big smiling face is on the front cover of today's Life section don't make it any better. You should've seen Crouch's expression when the game ended. (Isn't it always the same one, anyway?) That "Damn, what the hell did I do wrong again this time" mouth-opened shock painted all over. Like, literally. Poor Gerrard; I know Tammy must be so upset.
After school, had a 'surprise' SPA test. Wow? Gah. Was so unprepared, damn. Thank God I managed to scrape through, though taking it with 4S was totally odd and made me feel so out-of-place 'cause I was the only one from 4O around. Comforting to know that I got what most of my classmates did, after clarifying with Arty. Saved.
Had to give both the RMUN meeting with Ms Ng and my Forever21 sale a miss, thanks to SPA and my sucky results. I know I'm so doing sub-standard, and it'd better be the case anyway. Or, I'm really screwed. Can't wait to mugmugmug in June but MES will be away at Cambodia 'til the 4th! Ah, who's going to help me, then.
This post is all about pointless, worthless incessant ranting from someone who's currently in "BIMB MODE". Bye.
P.S. Yay, Zac's back! (: But today Jia Ling's gone and tomorrow MES plus my brother will both be away for BB stuff. One to Cambodia, the other to Malaysia. Will miss 'em ♥ Why is everyone going somewhere and throwing me behind I want to go some place too. Say, Emo-topia?
Listening: A Lack Of Colour - Death Cab For Cutie
Thursday, May 24, 2007 | 10:36 PM
And memories of distant days come to life again.
Ms Ng must be right. Am getting sick too often that even she's beginning to analyse me like I'm some source for History SBQ. And apparently she went 'round telling people about how stressed I must be. I think Ms Ng is funky. Like how all the teachers are - and were, during 50th Anniversary prep. Hah.
Have been mugging hard the whole day today; am so saturated now. Seems like I missed so much by not attending school. And I'm starting to wonder if today's absence was deliberate. Forget it, let's not go into that. There's so much to be grumbling over anyway, so where does 'school' come in? Besides, today was meaningless, or so I heard. And I do believe I wouldn't have been in the right state of mind to take the Physics SPA. Guess "Operation Anti-Social Hermit" was a success.
Yesterday I felt like a superhero. A superhero who changed the world. The world around me, at least. Had to save someone, and kill another. Oh the drama. All part of a day's work? I think not. Both weren't easy, but you'll see it's for your good. Superheroes are good people. They risk their lives for the betterment of the human race. And that's just what I did yesterday. You've to forgive my mistakes; do superheroes make mistakes?
At this point in time, it's just the big Goal. I've resolved to stay away. Or perhaps, take the other route and B will tell me, "Welcome, join the Club, darling." The Hwa Chong talk held in school yesterday was good. Has made me more focused now. And I think everyone was brainwashed by it. The other JCs had better bring on some competition! Hah, they're expecting more Cedarians in next year's intake, anyway. Considering how our position has risen. But for now, my options are still open.
On a side note, Caroline's in China and Zac's in Malaysia. Miss 'em both! Come back soon ♥
Listening: Numbers - Pompeii
Ms Ng must be right. Am getting sick too often that even she's beginning to analyse me like I'm some source for History SBQ. And apparently she went 'round telling people about how stressed I must be. I think Ms Ng is funky. Like how all the teachers are - and were, during 50th Anniversary prep. Hah.
Have been mugging hard the whole day today; am so saturated now. Seems like I missed so much by not attending school. And I'm starting to wonder if today's absence was deliberate. Forget it, let's not go into that. There's so much to be grumbling over anyway, so where does 'school' come in? Besides, today was meaningless, or so I heard. And I do believe I wouldn't have been in the right state of mind to take the Physics SPA. Guess "Operation Anti-Social Hermit" was a success.
Yesterday I felt like a superhero. A superhero who changed the world. The world around me, at least. Had to save someone, and kill another. Oh the drama. All part of a day's work? I think not. Both weren't easy, but you'll see it's for your good. Superheroes are good people. They risk their lives for the betterment of the human race. And that's just what I did yesterday. You've to forgive my mistakes; do superheroes make mistakes?
At this point in time, it's just the big Goal. I've resolved to stay away. Or perhaps, take the other route and B will tell me, "Welcome, join the Club, darling." The Hwa Chong talk held in school yesterday was good. Has made me more focused now. And I think everyone was brainwashed by it. The other JCs had better bring on some competition! Hah, they're expecting more Cedarians in next year's intake, anyway. Considering how our position has risen. But for now, my options are still open.
On a side note, Caroline's in China and Zac's in Malaysia. Miss 'em both! Come back soon ♥
Listening: Numbers - Pompeii
Tuesday, May 22, 2007 | 11:02 PM
I want to be where love is real.
Today I'm going to whine like a dog, you can take my word on that.
Bad day. Amath totally spoiled everything. It's so clear that I'm just being picked on. And if you think about it, it's worse than for those who are arrowed during English lessons. At least, those come in numbers. This is just me. One. I'm getting really annoyed; don't make me proclaim you're an ass. It's just because I'm such an idiot that I can't pass, it's just because I don't do 13s, it's just because I prolly look like a faggot or am a pain in the neck.. I know, it's just because I am Chua Jiawen, Elyssa.
All the clichéd shit about being biased and everything is going to spill forth, and I'm so sure you wouldn't want that to happen. Whatever the case, to those who actually didn't complete the assignment though he claimed you did: I'VE NOTHING TO SAY TO YOU.
Prelim Oral was really screwed up. I'd rather much swop the marks with the Mids'. Was unsuccessful in making Joshua Sng laugh. Not even a snigger, or a change in expression. Shit. Anyway, I think if I'd spoken to him about Arsenal I would've just gone "Y'know, Arsenal really sucks.." as my beginning sentence for the conversation and I can bet on it that immediately he would've blown that whistle like a referee, and flash - out of nowhere - a Red Card in my face. And then, it'd be over. Like, gameover.
Thankfully though, the day was saved with the little escapade we made 'round town. Was looking for a suitable dress for D&D. And, possibly the Frilly Pollera as well. Gah, why do the Panamanians wear such weird stuff. Losers. Go get a banana bath, yo.
Oh, and my parents changed the password to the computer lock again. Damn it. Why are they always doing such things. I've to express my freedom of speech like through blogging, y'know. And, my freedom of movement and my freedom of choice.. Basically, FREEDOM. It's getting me so pissed off. I hate being controlled. It's not a Communist society we run here in Singapore, for goodness' sake. I'm 16 and that's a third of your age and I think I need to possess more liberty, rawr.
Okay, I think I've kept my promise. Though time wouldn't permit for more. I've completed my assignments for today. Absolutely great. Love the sense of achievement. Now, sleep.
Listening: Remedy - Seether
Today I'm going to whine like a dog, you can take my word on that.
Bad day. Amath totally spoiled everything. It's so clear that I'm just being picked on. And if you think about it, it's worse than for those who are arrowed during English lessons. At least, those come in numbers. This is just me. One. I'm getting really annoyed; don't make me proclaim you're an ass. It's just because I'm such an idiot that I can't pass, it's just because I don't do 13s, it's just because I prolly look like a faggot or am a pain in the neck.. I know, it's just because I am Chua Jiawen, Elyssa.
All the clichéd shit about being biased and everything is going to spill forth, and I'm so sure you wouldn't want that to happen. Whatever the case, to those who actually didn't complete the assignment though he claimed you did: I'VE NOTHING TO SAY TO YOU.
Prelim Oral was really screwed up. I'd rather much swop the marks with the Mids'. Was unsuccessful in making Joshua Sng laugh. Not even a snigger, or a change in expression. Shit. Anyway, I think if I'd spoken to him about Arsenal I would've just gone "Y'know, Arsenal really sucks.." as my beginning sentence for the conversation and I can bet on it that immediately he would've blown that whistle like a referee, and flash - out of nowhere - a Red Card in my face. And then, it'd be over. Like, gameover.
Thankfully though, the day was saved with the little escapade we made 'round town. Was looking for a suitable dress for D&D. And, possibly the Frilly Pollera as well. Gah, why do the Panamanians wear such weird stuff. Losers. Go get a banana bath, yo.
Oh, and my parents changed the password to the computer lock again. Damn it. Why are they always doing such things. I've to express my freedom of speech like through blogging, y'know. And, my freedom of movement and my freedom of choice.. Basically, FREEDOM. It's getting me so pissed off. I hate being controlled. It's not a Communist society we run here in Singapore, for goodness' sake. I'm 16 and that's a third of your age and I think I need to possess more liberty, rawr.
Okay, I think I've kept my promise. Though time wouldn't permit for more. I've completed my assignments for today. Absolutely great. Love the sense of achievement. Now, sleep.
Listening: Remedy - Seether
Monday, May 21, 2007 | 9:05 PM
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true.
I think the long hours of sleep last night helped me through the day. Was really energized today, there wasn't even once when I found myself dozing off. Great. I hope there'll be more of such days to come. My mom said I look so much better. I hope she's right, 'cause some things just don't show on face value.
After school I'd to stay back and complete the HMT composition. Took 3 hours at it. I hate Chinese compositions ): And I'm going to die during the Examinations 'cause it's supposed to be done in half the time I took today, rawr. Thank God it's done now, and technically I did submit it on 21 May, though I've a sneaky feeling at 5pm on a Monday Han lao shi would've gone home.. ): Aish. Oh, tomorrow's Prelim Oral. Yay, Joshua Sng. I'm so gonna look him in the eye and talk about Arsenal. Gah.
I can't ask any more of you; just knowing you're alive in this world makes me feel all warm inside. And I'd rather you cut me open with your words, than for me to seal these up with my pain. You know I wouldn't put my emotional status on the line for anything else in the world, other than for the one who fills up my senses.
It's time I came back begging;
On my knees I think clearer.
Listening: Chocolate - Snow Patrol
I think the long hours of sleep last night helped me through the day. Was really energized today, there wasn't even once when I found myself dozing off. Great. I hope there'll be more of such days to come. My mom said I look so much better. I hope she's right, 'cause some things just don't show on face value.
After school I'd to stay back and complete the HMT composition. Took 3 hours at it. I hate Chinese compositions ): And I'm going to die during the Examinations 'cause it's supposed to be done in half the time I took today, rawr. Thank God it's done now, and technically I did submit it on 21 May, though I've a sneaky feeling at 5pm on a Monday Han lao shi would've gone home.. ): Aish. Oh, tomorrow's Prelim Oral. Yay, Joshua Sng. I'm so gonna look him in the eye and talk about Arsenal. Gah.
I can't ask any more of you; just knowing you're alive in this world makes me feel all warm inside. And I'd rather you cut me open with your words, than for me to seal these up with my pain. You know I wouldn't put my emotional status on the line for anything else in the world, other than for the one who fills up my senses.
It's time I came back begging;
On my knees I think clearer.
Listening: Chocolate - Snow Patrol
Sunday, May 20, 2007 | 10:25 PM
I want to be somewhere I can see the roads.
Today was another one of those slow, boring days that makes you mope around. And you start thinking about so many other things, getting distracted despite the huge pile of homework that's staring you in the face. You refuse to do 'em, simply because your mind tells you "I'm not working now".
I took the afternoon pretty bad, as nostalgia set in heavily. My mind was drifting somewhere in between the Kinematics assignment and those memories. I remember the happy ones.
And now even all the F9s in the world cannot bring me to tears, because only the thought of you can break me. Someone's got to send me to a soul asylum. For 3 months and 15 days later I'm still the same. As I was back then. You don't have to stay forever, I'll understand. Haven't cried so badly in a long time; it's really draining. But I can't, shouldn't and will not forget.
"You're nothing to me anymore. A memory, an experience. That's all. That's all."
Because that hurt so bad, you'll never know.
Have you ever considered, that perhaps, you should've used a pencil when you wrote the words "ILOVEYOU" on this heart?
Listening: Something To Sleep To - Michelle Branch
Today was another one of those slow, boring days that makes you mope around. And you start thinking about so many other things, getting distracted despite the huge pile of homework that's staring you in the face. You refuse to do 'em, simply because your mind tells you "I'm not working now".
I took the afternoon pretty bad, as nostalgia set in heavily. My mind was drifting somewhere in between the Kinematics assignment and those memories. I remember the happy ones.
And now even all the F9s in the world cannot bring me to tears, because only the thought of you can break me. Someone's got to send me to a soul asylum. For 3 months and 15 days later I'm still the same. As I was back then. You don't have to stay forever, I'll understand. Haven't cried so badly in a long time; it's really draining. But I can't, shouldn't and will not forget.
"You're nothing to me anymore. A memory, an experience. That's all. That's all."
Because that hurt so bad, you'll never know.
Have you ever considered, that perhaps, you should've used a pencil when you wrote the words "ILOVEYOU" on this heart?
Listening: Something To Sleep To - Michelle Branch
Saturday, May 19, 2007 | 11:58 PM
I'm restless from the silence in the air.
In the morning had RMUN 2nd briefing + Presentations. Think we were all freaking out so much ): The rest were - and still are - so intimidating! Rawr, what with all their past experiences in other MUNs. Well, sometimes we get real bitter over double-crossers and sometimes we judge people way too early before we even get to know them. Mistakes, in both cases. Presentations were average, with just a 'lil screw ups here and there, but I guess that's inevitable.
HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAY, CEDAR! ♥
Yay, The Golden Jubilee was a total blast ;D Had so much fun running around and getting ourselves so involved in the jubilant atmosphere of it all. Over the past few days, just watching the teachers rushing and preparing for The Big Day got me so excited. 50th sure is a big thing. EXCO has promised to come back for 75th and 100th! And on the 100th, we'd come back to meet Mr Tay ;D There's going to be so much Cedar spirit, whoohoo. Haha.
It's been the grandest thing I've ever witnessed in Cedar. And makes me think back on how I've seen so many events through, successfully ;D EXCO '07 is really fortunate; BUDDY is the best! She's going to appear in all the photos, which will prolly go into the Cedar Gallery for 100th Anniversary. Haha, then people will look back, and remember the Head Prefect Councillor doing the toast with Minister of Education Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam, our Principals (both ex-s and current), and VIPs. Ownage.
I think the Cedar Gallery was totally amazing. All the trophies and displays and achievements. Mannequins of the different uniforms and PE attires and CCUs from the past to present. The highlight of the homecoming tour is the Old Bitumen Track! Sad, about it's current condition. But still, all these elicits so much nostalgia. And to the current Cedarians, it brings about so much pride ♥ THE CEDAR VIDEO IS LOVE. All the teachers worked so hard for it, and it's entirely what they envisioned it to be. Amelia is now Cedar's star. The centre of all attention. I want a copy of that video!!
Then, there was the Fashion Parade, yay! ;D Think I screwed it. But with my super 1960s appearance, all the old girls were practically going crazy. HAHA. I was taking so many photographs with unknown people after the whole event. It's so much fun listening to the ex-Cedarians recall about their schooling days in Cedar, finding out how so much has changed from then 'til now. And they were all musing over the fact that I actually look like how they used to, ages ago. Sheesh, weird. And can you believe that the Minister commented the old Cedar uniform is "attractive"?!
Listening to inspirational success stories of Cedar graduates really tugs at the heartstrings. So cliche, but amongst these are the likes of stars like Teo Ser Lee, Jacelyn Tay and Candice Toh. Well, sadly I only managed to snap a photo with Jacelyn. Ah, all my photos are in so many people's cameras and they are all over the place. I've to collect the photos, rawr! But I've got one now, 'cause it's in my dad's camera. Haha. YOU GET TO SEE ME IN THE '60s UNIFORM! :O
All heil retro! HAHA.
And thanks to this uniform, I'm going to be appearing in The Straits Times. Yay. The photographer for the press even took down our names and our age. Tsk, it's going to be so exciting. This is so gonna make me read every single page of the newspapers ;D Heh.
I absolutely adore such school events. It brings back all the pride in you. And you really feel what it's like to be part of such a family. The Cedar Family.
50 years of Excellence, and many more to come.
Listening: We Are The Champions - Queen
In the morning had RMUN 2nd briefing + Presentations. Think we were all freaking out so much ): The rest were - and still are - so intimidating! Rawr, what with all their past experiences in other MUNs. Well, sometimes we get real bitter over double-crossers and sometimes we judge people way too early before we even get to know them. Mistakes, in both cases. Presentations were average, with just a 'lil screw ups here and there, but I guess that's inevitable.
HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAY, CEDAR! ♥
Yay, The Golden Jubilee was a total blast ;D Had so much fun running around and getting ourselves so involved in the jubilant atmosphere of it all. Over the past few days, just watching the teachers rushing and preparing for The Big Day got me so excited. 50th sure is a big thing. EXCO has promised to come back for 75th and 100th! And on the 100th, we'd come back to meet Mr Tay ;D There's going to be so much Cedar spirit, whoohoo. Haha.
It's been the grandest thing I've ever witnessed in Cedar. And makes me think back on how I've seen so many events through, successfully ;D EXCO '07 is really fortunate; BUDDY is the best! She's going to appear in all the photos, which will prolly go into the Cedar Gallery for 100th Anniversary. Haha, then people will look back, and remember the Head Prefect Councillor doing the toast with Minister of Education Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam, our Principals (both ex-s and current), and VIPs. Ownage.
I think the Cedar Gallery was totally amazing. All the trophies and displays and achievements. Mannequins of the different uniforms and PE attires and CCUs from the past to present. The highlight of the homecoming tour is the Old Bitumen Track! Sad, about it's current condition. But still, all these elicits so much nostalgia. And to the current Cedarians, it brings about so much pride ♥ THE CEDAR VIDEO IS LOVE. All the teachers worked so hard for it, and it's entirely what they envisioned it to be. Amelia is now Cedar's star. The centre of all attention. I want a copy of that video!!
Then, there was the Fashion Parade, yay! ;D Think I screwed it. But with my super 1960s appearance, all the old girls were practically going crazy. HAHA. I was taking so many photographs with unknown people after the whole event. It's so much fun listening to the ex-Cedarians recall about their schooling days in Cedar, finding out how so much has changed from then 'til now. And they were all musing over the fact that I actually look like how they used to, ages ago. Sheesh, weird. And can you believe that the Minister commented the old Cedar uniform is "attractive"?!
Listening to inspirational success stories of Cedar graduates really tugs at the heartstrings. So cliche, but amongst these are the likes of stars like Teo Ser Lee, Jacelyn Tay and Candice Toh. Well, sadly I only managed to snap a photo with Jacelyn. Ah, all my photos are in so many people's cameras and they are all over the place. I've to collect the photos, rawr! But I've got one now, 'cause it's in my dad's camera. Haha. YOU GET TO SEE ME IN THE '60s UNIFORM! :O
All heil retro! HAHA.And thanks to this uniform, I'm going to be appearing in The Straits Times. Yay. The photographer for the press even took down our names and our age. Tsk, it's going to be so exciting. This is so gonna make me read every single page of the newspapers ;D Heh.
I absolutely adore such school events. It brings back all the pride in you. And you really feel what it's like to be part of such a family. The Cedar Family.
50 years of Excellence, and many more to come.
Listening: We Are The Champions - Queen
Thursday, May 17, 2007 | 8:12 PM
Stay awake with the sound of my voice.
Reached home 20 minutes after school ended today. Gastric flu's really bad. Why now? Prolly they're right, I'm so weak I break down every time stress comes knocking. This body just has to fail me somehow.
I want to stay home tomorrow. I don't want to break before Saturday. But I can't.
I dreamt of you. It's strange how surreal it was; I remember everything. Isn't it always me waiting, only to be disappointed? I'm sorry I cried so bad; it's foolish to be missing after all this while.But you still hold my heart in your hand.
Wish you'd read this. But I don't even have the chance to make it up.. forgive me. Please, just tell me how to keep myself from going insane.
And it's when I'm suffering so bad that I have the tendency to think, even more. I know if you were here, it'd be all okay.
You'd make me feel it's okay.
Everything's okay.
Listening: Here By Me - 3 Doors Down
Reached home 20 minutes after school ended today. Gastric flu's really bad. Why now? Prolly they're right, I'm so weak I break down every time stress comes knocking. This body just has to fail me somehow.
I want to stay home tomorrow. I don't want to break before Saturday. But I can't.
I dreamt of you. It's strange how surreal it was; I remember everything. Isn't it always me waiting, only to be disappointed? I'm sorry I cried so bad; it's foolish to be missing after all this while.
Wish you'd read this. But I don't even have the chance to make it up.. forgive me. Please, just tell me how to keep myself from going insane.
And it's when I'm suffering so bad that I have the tendency to think, even more. I know if you were here, it'd be all okay.
You'd make me feel it's okay.
Everything's okay.
Listening: Here By Me - 3 Doors Down
Tuesday, May 15, 2007 | 10:51 PM
Someday I know I’ll find a way to keep myself from holding on.
Numb.
Going crazy. I just want to do Amath. Nothing else. RMUN can screw off. I hate games. No, maybe I love them. Bring 'em on, people.
I hate NAPFA. Was so not prepared today. I got a D for Sit and Reach. Ohmygosh that's so freakin' embarassing. And Eunice and I are from Sports & Games. Best. Thursday's 2.4km. Shit.
I don't want tomorrow to come.
Killing me with these thoughts,
Of sunsets in blue skies.
Listening: Crazy People - The Wreckers
Numb.
Going crazy. I just want to do Amath. Nothing else. RMUN can screw off. I hate games. No, maybe I love them. Bring 'em on, people.
I hate NAPFA. Was so not prepared today. I got a D for Sit and Reach. Ohmygosh that's so freakin' embarassing. And Eunice and I are from Sports & Games. Best. Thursday's 2.4km. Shit.
I don't want tomorrow to come.
Killing me with these thoughts,
Of sunsets in blue skies.
Listening: Crazy People - The Wreckers
Monday, May 14, 2007 | 11:33 PM
Where all of our precious dreams remain.
So random, but today's the first day my Dad's enjoying retirement. Hah, funny. But I'm envious. Retirement is like escape. Stepping into a whole new phase. And the best part is, you're free from everything else. It's like knowing you've done all you possibly can, you've contributed to your fullest and now you deserve a good break. Guess I get rests like these from time to time, but I'm in need of a long permanent one. To get away from it all.
Results today were even suckier than ever. I hate school. I think. It's destroying me, as a person. All that demoralization and low spirits. Talk about my L1R5 - I'm not even going to make it to a Polytechnic, now how 'bout that?
Though thank God for RMUN. Somehow it's getting exciting. Go PANAMAAAA. We love bananas ;D
I want to be there, but you won't allow.
Listening: Illusion - Cedar Avenue
So random, but today's the first day my Dad's enjoying retirement. Hah, funny. But I'm envious. Retirement is like escape. Stepping into a whole new phase. And the best part is, you're free from everything else. It's like knowing you've done all you possibly can, you've contributed to your fullest and now you deserve a good break. Guess I get rests like these from time to time, but I'm in need of a long permanent one. To get away from it all.
Results today were even suckier than ever. I hate school. I think. It's destroying me, as a person. All that demoralization and low spirits. Talk about my L1R5 - I'm not even going to make it to a Polytechnic, now how 'bout that?
Though thank God for RMUN. Somehow it's getting exciting. Go PANAMAAAA. We love bananas ;D
I want to be there, but you won't allow.
Listening: Illusion - Cedar Avenue
Friday, May 11, 2007 | 11:05 PM
Far past these roads there is a place.
So much crying today, but it was all done in the inside. It's strange how with each passing Examination you just get more and more numb. Lacking in emotion t'ward everything. These wounds - cut deeper and deeper - only serve the purpose of containing the salt.
Unfortunately enough, they elicit entirely contrasting emotions. We were so high today after getting our papers. Talk of Hou Liang teaching Chemistry in Chinese, LKC with her "I don't need you, you need me" ego + her endless "shen jing bing"s due to our disastrous performance for Social Studies, Mike Chia being such an ass up on stage and for the great work he has done with his 3 Chemistry classes (more than half failed for each of these classes: Oh the horror!), Mr Tay with his attempts at lame jokes..
By not feeling anything, I feel so wrong.
Haven't let my parents in on the sucky grades. I'll be screwed the moment they find out.
Tomorrow's 50th Anniversary Celebration Full-Dress Rehearsal. It's going to be so interesting. Especially the Fashion Show ;D Will be taking photos at the Rehearsal tomorrow! Hah, I just absolutely adore the old Cedar uniform.. Not.
For now, let's just put it aside. Don't look.
Listening: Midnight Highway - Daphne Loves Derby
So much crying today, but it was all done in the inside. It's strange how with each passing Examination you just get more and more numb. Lacking in emotion t'ward everything. These wounds - cut deeper and deeper - only serve the purpose of containing the salt.
Unfortunately enough, they elicit entirely contrasting emotions. We were so high today after getting our papers. Talk of Hou Liang teaching Chemistry in Chinese, LKC with her "I don't need you, you need me" ego + her endless "shen jing bing"s due to our disastrous performance for Social Studies, Mike Chia being such an ass up on stage and for the great work he has done with his 3 Chemistry classes (more than half failed for each of these classes: Oh the horror!), Mr Tay with his attempts at lame jokes..
By not feeling anything, I feel so wrong.
Haven't let my parents in on the sucky grades. I'll be screwed the moment they find out.
Tomorrow's 50th Anniversary Celebration Full-Dress Rehearsal. It's going to be so interesting. Especially the Fashion Show ;D Will be taking photos at the Rehearsal tomorrow! Hah, I just absolutely adore the old Cedar uniform.. Not.
For now, let's just put it aside. Don't look.
Listening: Midnight Highway - Daphne Loves Derby
| 12:05 AM
Walking on a cloud of dust to get to you.
Blogger's been screwing up a lot lately, wonder why. The retarded thing just goes into this weird mode.. All the way from the Dashboard to the New Post. Gah. There's so much to post but this is giving me trouble.
Mids is over. Yay? Guess not. 'Cause after Mids everything's back to normal. Life, as usual. The hectic, fast-paced one that makes my vision blur. Like, WHOOSH. I'd rather much prefer Exams all the time, then. Nothing but mugging, sweet 'ole mugging ♥ All these "realities", they're far too complicated for me. RMUN, Head Prefect Councillor elections, 50th Anniversary Celebration, training.. Am going to run away someday.
Tomorrow's Doomsday. Papers, results,tears? Yeah, prolly. It's time to pay those debts, anyway. Had it coming; reckon I brought it on.
&We'll toss a coin:
Heads I win, Tails you lose.
I miss you.
Listening: There You'll Be - Faith Hill
Blogger's been screwing up a lot lately, wonder why. The retarded thing just goes into this weird mode.. All the way from the Dashboard to the New Post. Gah. There's so much to post but this is giving me trouble.
Mids is over. Yay? Guess not. 'Cause after Mids everything's back to normal. Life, as usual. The hectic, fast-paced one that makes my vision blur. Like, WHOOSH. I'd rather much prefer Exams all the time, then. Nothing but mugging, sweet 'ole mugging ♥ All these "realities", they're far too complicated for me. RMUN, Head Prefect Councillor elections, 50th Anniversary Celebration, training.. Am going to run away someday.
Tomorrow's Doomsday. Papers, results,
&We'll toss a coin:
Heads I win, Tails you lose.
I miss you.
Listening: There You'll Be - Faith Hill
Monday, May 07, 2007 | 6:58 PM
Trying to fit these pieces in.
Hello, I still can't help but remember. It haunts me from time to time, and strangely they're getting more frequent. Not like these thoughts can be controlled. They sneak up on me when I'm most vulnerable, making things worse.
But I'd have it no other way; I will never fail to reminisce. Hope, to a certain extent. But it's never within reach. Remember that "behind the plastic cover" concept I once spoke of? I guess, it never goes away. I'm helpless to this, bound by everything I have to stand for.. Sorry, for what I want to be but am incapable of.
So sad, but true - For me, it's only you.
& Here I dedicate this post to you. You, my dear.
Listening: The Day You Went Away - M2M
Hello, I still can't help but remember. It haunts me from time to time, and strangely they're getting more frequent. Not like these thoughts can be controlled. They sneak up on me when I'm most vulnerable, making things worse.
But I'd have it no other way; I will never fail to reminisce. Hope, to a certain extent. But it's never within reach. Remember that "behind the plastic cover" concept I once spoke of? I guess, it never goes away. I'm helpless to this, bound by everything I have to stand for.. Sorry, for what I want to be but am incapable of.
So sad, but true - For me, it's only you.
& Here I dedicate this post to you. You, my dear.
Listening: The Day You Went Away - M2M
| 12:26 PM
I'm against myself again.
It gets kind of annoying when you keep hearing someone complain about how screwed their papers are, only to find when the results are released that they scored an A. It's all the more demoralizing when the results come in halfway - during the exam period, still - because it just does so much to my confidence. Really sorry, I've to express this, or it'll never get off my chest. Too much of a burden. Anyway similarly, I'm not going to complain about Physics today. Though I can say that unanimously everyone (almost) agreed it was tougher than last year. I always seem to have the weirdest judgements for all papers; can't tell which year's the "easier" one. Prolly 'cause I never study enough to know the level of difficulty anyway.
Nonetheless, 7 down, 1 to go
Now it's more of getting through the papers than anything else; don't think I'm really giving it my all. To say that I can do better would be a total understatement, but on the other hand, it's very often just lip service and nothing more. When will I ever "wake", or so they say? It's really unnerving the fact that my parents - no, the world, actually - determines success in terms of academic grades. I'm incapable of perfect scores, yet I am sure I'm not the worse in this entire universe, contrary to what my parents make me sound like. It robs my esteem, and blame always goes to my "activities". No, these "activities" are not the cause of my poor scores. Can they not just be supportive, for once, about the things that I do best? People say that you do things best with passion. Certainly it cannot be a crime if I feel most attached to these.. "activities". To say I'm going to flunk Os is totally off, and it sucks all the more when I don't see anything coming out from them. Screw. The incident that happened on Saturday wasn't meant to be mentioned but I guess someone did today while we were going home so I just broke down again. Funny, how I cannot imagine myself to be so afflicted by it. Though I enjoyed the escape, away from everything and everyone. Maybe that's where I really find myself. Shall consider locking myself in and being anti-social when Os come 'round.
Someone with an extremely ostentatious nature told me recently to "keep life simple". Was overturned. Firstly, odd how it's coming from someone whom I'm not very sure does the same. Or prolly has been trying to change, so I can't judge. But more importantly, it made me consciously acknowledge some things about myself. My life, isn't simple and prolly will never be. It's horribly complicated yet, so empty. I momentarily forgot what I'm lacking.
It's not really easy to be motivated when everything else is just weighing me down now. Strange how I'm feeling so pressured. I appreciate the concern, but sometimes it's so difficult to say I'm more pressured by your intellect than anything else. You keep thinking it's the system, the content or the parents but hell no. Don't you see that your mere existence is cause for this hollow skull's breakdown? So I must be really daft, to be not able to join y'all at Hwa Chong or something. Damn it. I must really chew over the anti-socialism contention, 'cause soon enough I'll just die from all this stress. Everyday, everyone, everywhere.
That's a whole lot off me. No more tears on this face. Now time to prove.
It gets kind of annoying when you keep hearing someone complain about how screwed their papers are, only to find when the results are released that they scored an A. It's all the more demoralizing when the results come in halfway - during the exam period, still - because it just does so much to my confidence. Really sorry, I've to express this, or it'll never get off my chest. Too much of a burden. Anyway similarly, I'm not going to complain about Physics today. Though I can say that unanimously everyone (almost) agreed it was tougher than last year. I always seem to have the weirdest judgements for all papers; can't tell which year's the "easier" one. Prolly 'cause I never study enough to know the level of difficulty anyway.
Now it's more of getting through the papers than anything else; don't think I'm really giving it my all. To say that I can do better would be a total understatement, but on the other hand, it's very often just lip service and nothing more. When will I ever "wake", or so they say? It's really unnerving the fact that my parents - no, the world, actually - determines success in terms of academic grades. I'm incapable of perfect scores, yet I am sure I'm not the worse in this entire universe, contrary to what my parents make me sound like. It robs my esteem, and blame always goes to my "activities". No, these "activities" are not the cause of my poor scores. Can they not just be supportive, for once, about the things that I do best? People say that you do things best with passion. Certainly it cannot be a crime if I feel most attached to these.. "activities". To say I'm going to flunk Os is totally off, and it sucks all the more when I don't see anything coming out from them. Screw. The incident that happened on Saturday wasn't meant to be mentioned but I guess someone did today while we were going home so I just broke down again. Funny, how I cannot imagine myself to be so afflicted by it. Though I enjoyed the escape, away from everything and everyone. Maybe that's where I really find myself. Shall consider locking myself in and being anti-social when Os come 'round.
Someone with an extremely ostentatious nature told me recently to "keep life simple". Was overturned. Firstly, odd how it's coming from someone whom I'm not very sure does the same. Or prolly has been trying to change, so I can't judge. But more importantly, it made me consciously acknowledge some things about myself. My life, isn't simple and prolly will never be. It's horribly complicated yet, so empty. I momentarily forgot what I'm lacking.
It's not really easy to be motivated when everything else is just weighing me down now. Strange how I'm feeling so pressured. I appreciate the concern, but sometimes it's so difficult to say I'm more pressured by your intellect than anything else. You keep thinking it's the system, the content or the parents but hell no. Don't you see that your mere existence is cause for this hollow skull's breakdown? So I must be really daft, to be not able to join y'all at Hwa Chong or something. Damn it. I must really chew over the anti-socialism contention, 'cause soon enough I'll just die from all this stress. Everyday, everyone, everywhere.
That's a whole lot off me. No more tears on this face. Now time to prove.
Friday, May 04, 2007 | 8:34 PM
But does it really matter now if I do not know how to figure this thing out.
Guess slacking wasn't really the most appropriate thing to do yesterday, considering we're all in the midst of Examinations, anyway. And, in case I actually forget, it's Sec 4 Mid-years. Yeah, note to self: FOCUS, on the right things. Needless to say, Emath was damn screwed up. Left half the paper blank; sure I can expect half (or less) of the total marks as well.
Didn't intend to mug out today. Was looking forward to going home at 1030h, for the first time in ages. Prolly will do that on Monday, after Physics. But anyhow, left the Biology students to take their paper, while PAIL, RAHH, CA and I headed down to the jungle. Realised that somehow, I don't like mugging with such a big group. Yeah, two's just right ♥ But today was quite productive, on Physics. Finally tried the stupid Banana Java Chip Coffee Blended that we've been asked to for 7 days straight. Gah, how easily we give in to persuasion ): But it's good stuff, so hardly any regrets. The next time CA and I meet the gay behind-the-counter-people at PS Starbucks, we'll be taking photographs with 'em ;D And thanks CA, for making me feel so much better ♥
After CA and RAHH left, PAIL and I migrated into PS, Macs. Saw this cute little boy that looks like a Jap! A bit. Haha, with his bangs and all.
I actually sneaked a photograph of him despite the fact that his mom was right beside him. If she'd known, prolly would've reported me to the school for preying on little kids =O But he is so cuteeee! LOVE♥♥♥! Ohmygosh I am such a paedophile but who cares. Small boys are absolutely adorable. He looks so much like my cousin! Honest.
Had a long talk. It's nice to know that I can still do such. Just while time away and talk about the things that, really matter. Things that bother and bite and annoy. Aish, I've got to do this myself. Ironic, how who I have to be prevents me from being who I am. Or, want to be.
I was once the plate in your hands, the one you found ever-so-palatable. But now it's long over, and I join the rest as side dishes, passing by on the belt you threw me on. Half-eaten; scarred and unclean. Salvation is free, but it's not easy feeling new again. Who will you decide to devour next? I can only stand in line, waiting. And it's bewildering how everyone wants you - not a part, but in whole - while you take only a piece of them. The piece that matters most. I detest the spotlights we're placed under, 'cause I hate being misjudged. If ever I make it into __, it may well be Hell. Everyone, the whole __, will prolly just open their arms wide and say "Welcome Home". 'Cause it's like I reside there now. In name, not in person. And I owe it to you. Are they waiting?
This weekend's just going to be used for mugging. I must hold on. No, will.
Guess slacking wasn't really the most appropriate thing to do yesterday, considering we're all in the midst of Examinations, anyway. And, in case I actually forget, it's Sec 4 Mid-years. Yeah, note to self: FOCUS, on the right things. Needless to say, Emath was damn screwed up. Left half the paper blank; sure I can expect half (or less) of the total marks as well.
Didn't intend to mug out today. Was looking forward to going home at 1030h, for the first time in ages. Prolly will do that on Monday, after Physics. But anyhow, left the Biology students to take their paper, while PAIL, RAHH, CA and I headed down to the jungle. Realised that somehow, I don't like mugging with such a big group. Yeah, two's just right ♥ But today was quite productive, on Physics. Finally tried the stupid Banana Java Chip Coffee Blended that we've been asked to for 7 days straight. Gah, how easily we give in to persuasion ): But it's good stuff, so hardly any regrets. The next time CA and I meet the gay behind-the-counter-people at PS Starbucks, we'll be taking photographs with 'em ;D And thanks CA, for making me feel so much better ♥
After CA and RAHH left, PAIL and I migrated into PS, Macs. Saw this cute little boy that looks like a Jap! A bit. Haha, with his bangs and all.
I actually sneaked a photograph of him despite the fact that his mom was right beside him. If she'd known, prolly would've reported me to the school for preying on little kids =O But he is so cuteeee! LOVE♥♥♥! Ohmygosh I am such a paedophile but who cares. Small boys are absolutely adorable. He looks so much like my cousin! Honest.Had a long talk. It's nice to know that I can still do such. Just while time away and talk about the things that, really matter. Things that bother and bite and annoy. Aish, I've got to do this myself. Ironic, how who I have to be prevents me from being who I am. Or, want to be.
I was once the plate in your hands, the one you found ever-so-palatable. But now it's long over, and I join the rest as side dishes, passing by on the belt you threw me on. Half-eaten; scarred and unclean. Salvation is free, but it's not easy feeling new again. Who will you decide to devour next? I can only stand in line, waiting. And it's bewildering how everyone wants you - not a part, but in whole - while you take only a piece of them. The piece that matters most. I detest the spotlights we're placed under, 'cause I hate being misjudged. If ever I make it into __, it may well be Hell. Everyone, the whole __, will prolly just open their arms wide and say "Welcome Home". 'Cause it's like I reside there now. In name, not in person. And I owe it to you. Are they waiting?
This weekend's just going to be used for mugging. I must hold on. No, will.
Thursday, May 03, 2007 | 7:35 PM
I cannot pretend that everything makes sense.
Emath, Physics and History Elective left, respectively.
5 down, 3 to go
Finally heavy day's over. Sounds so much like we're all having our periods. Well, speaking of periods, RAHH did get hers yesterday. The timing cannot be any more impeccable, I must admit. Anyway had killer papers today. Damn hardcore. Chemistry was kind of bad, and with Mike Chia breathing right down your throat - okay, it's exaggerated - while you're in the MPH don't make it any better. Pressure was at inextricably high levels. As for Geography, think I screwed up Physical Geography on Plate Tectonics. So much for all the preparation; this brain still failed me all the same.
Parents can be really difficult sometimes. Didn't really help much thinking how I broke down this morning, either. Never occurred before in the past through all Examinations and no matter how much stress, it was always "Bring It On". Haven't a clue how this time made it any different. Prolly the fact that I've been feeling so saturated lately. At 1326h today despite all the screw-ups in both papers, I managed a smile. 'Twas for the fact that I made it.
And with that burden off our chests (and minds), everyone sort of slid into slack mode. No one's even giving a damn about Emath. Screw it, we shall! Wenyi went home to indulge in TV programmes, inezlau got herself a nice Subway lunch, RAHH spent time in LaLaLand.. While CA and I resided in the secret jungle at Somerset. We'd migrated (internal migration!) from Dhoby, PS 'cause the presence of too much gay activity had just pissed us off. Home didn't feel homey anymore so. I must say the jungle's comfy. We've been eating lots lately and it's getting a little heavy on the wallet. But that's okay - done in the name of mugging ♥
The rest of the pictures, I'll prolly save 'em for another day.
We also found this nice walkway and new shopping place. When the money starts rollin' into these pockets I'll be heading down to get a hoodie or two :D And we're always passing by The Istana. Honestly it's really unkempt and I bet maintenance is hardly carried out. Just observe and see how bushy it has become. I'm sure if there's a topo map of The Istana, it'll be dominated with cultivation, shrubs, bushes and what-not greenery you got.
Y'know how much it sucks, the fact that I know I can do it, but I just didn't get the chance to. Watching myself make the same mistakes again, over; am really tired. No idea how just pure mugging can bring so much lethargy. It's the "pre-rigour", so Ms Ng says.
I don't feel like talking tonight. Everyone's a letdown. Just going to drown myself with Emath.
Emath, Physics and History Elective left, respectively.
Finally heavy day's over. Sounds so much like we're all having our periods. Well, speaking of periods, RAHH did get hers yesterday. The timing cannot be any more impeccable, I must admit. Anyway had killer papers today. Damn hardcore. Chemistry was kind of bad, and with Mike Chia breathing right down your throat - okay, it's exaggerated - while you're in the MPH don't make it any better. Pressure was at inextricably high levels. As for Geography, think I screwed up Physical Geography on Plate Tectonics. So much for all the preparation; this brain still failed me all the same.
Parents can be really difficult sometimes. Didn't really help much thinking how I broke down this morning, either. Never occurred before in the past through all Examinations and no matter how much stress, it was always "Bring It On". Haven't a clue how this time made it any different. Prolly the fact that I've been feeling so saturated lately. At 1326h today despite all the screw-ups in both papers, I managed a smile. 'Twas for the fact that I made it.
And with that burden off our chests (and minds), everyone sort of slid into slack mode. No one's even giving a damn about Emath. Screw it, we shall! Wenyi went home to indulge in TV programmes, inezlau got herself a nice Subway lunch, RAHH spent time in LaLaLand.. While CA and I resided in the secret jungle at Somerset. We'd migrated (internal migration!) from Dhoby, PS 'cause the presence of too much gay activity had just pissed us off. Home didn't feel homey anymore so. I must say the jungle's comfy. We've been eating lots lately and it's getting a little heavy on the wallet. But that's okay - done in the name of mugging ♥
Had U.S. Style Chocolate Muffin today. And see what it looks like.
versus
versus
I cut the top off and then it reminded me of an arch.. Was pure coincidence, the way it fell off the side. If I'd taken more photos as I ate, prolly you'd see how it eventually evolves into a stump! ;D
Ohmygosh I think I'm too Geoggyfied =O
Ohmygosh I think I'm too Geoggyfied =OThe rest of the pictures, I'll prolly save 'em for another day.
We also found this nice walkway and new shopping place. When the money starts rollin' into these pockets I'll be heading down to get a hoodie or two :D And we're always passing by The Istana. Honestly it's really unkempt and I bet maintenance is hardly carried out. Just observe and see how bushy it has become. I'm sure if there's a topo map of The Istana, it'll be dominated with cultivation, shrubs, bushes and what-not greenery you got.
Y'know how much it sucks, the fact that I know I can do it, but I just didn't get the chance to. Watching myself make the same mistakes again, over; am really tired. No idea how just pure mugging can bring so much lethargy. It's the "pre-rigour", so Ms Ng says.
I don't feel like talking tonight. Everyone's a letdown. Just going to drown myself with Emath.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007 | 5:18 PM
I got nothing left to defend.
Hello world,
Haven't been blogging much. Or at least it feels like. Now, time spent on the computer's just for my Geography PPTs. Though just yesterday, found a new distraction: DeviantART. Shit, grant me the discipline to stay away. At least, 'til after Mid-Years.
Yesterday's HMT Papers were, average. LACK says she liked the second last passage of Paper 2. How random. After the Papers, went out with Communist to PS Starbucks again. Trust me, the people behind the counter are absolutely wacky. BIG JOKE. First time we went there was the best. Then we had this guy-girl/girl-guy (whichever way it don't make a difference) who tried striking a conversation with us. And yesterday, we encountered Mr. Hello-I'm-Gay-Thank-You-Here's-Your-Order-Byebye. You dig? Anyway, Communist ordered a banana. 'Twas odd. We took pictures of the banana. Amusing. Halfway through mugging some IJ girls came and tried dominating the place by screaming into a phone. They were acting retarded. I get pissed with them. Really pissed. Why'd they have to make themselves appear bitchy? Some image.
Originally we planned to dress emo and go to one of the Starbucks in Orchard today, for a change. PS Starbucks is meant for those "I'm-in-school-uniform" days. But well, Moooom won me this time though I know Communist loves me so much she'd rather choose me over her. One date we missed out on ): It's okay, the rest of the week it's us again ♥
Anyway, today's FIRST MAY so HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGNES! :D It's cool to be sixteen. Yeah, sure. I'm not even sixteen yet and I don't want to think about it.
Slacking, slacking, slacking. FOCUS. Can't believe I'm actually harbouring the thought of following my parents to IKEA Tampines later. If I do, I'm so screwed. Am going to pay for my sins, I just know it. Damn, let's get messed up.
Today feels like a Saturday. Saturday evenings are dangerous. Gets me into some reflective mood. Am feeling that way right now; prolly might go all mopey. Satisfaction gained from mugging has worn off. Pensiveness sets in. You start to think 'bout things like, how so much innocence is lost through the years. Cheryl commented recently she'd like to go back to 2006. That'd be great, but I want to return to 2001, or earlier. P school, that's what I'm looking at.
What's wrong with being pensive.
Hello world,
Haven't been blogging much. Or at least it feels like. Now, time spent on the computer's just for my Geography PPTs. Though just yesterday, found a new distraction: DeviantART. Shit, grant me the discipline to stay away. At least, 'til after Mid-Years.
Yesterday's HMT Papers were, average. LACK says she liked the second last passage of Paper 2. How random. After the Papers, went out with Communist to PS Starbucks again. Trust me, the people behind the counter are absolutely wacky. BIG JOKE. First time we went there was the best. Then we had this guy-girl/girl-guy (whichever way it don't make a difference) who tried striking a conversation with us. And yesterday, we encountered Mr. Hello-I'm-Gay-Thank-You-Here's-Your-Order-Byebye. You dig? Anyway, Communist ordered a banana. 'Twas odd. We took pictures of the banana. Amusing. Halfway through mugging some IJ girls came and tried dominating the place by screaming into a phone. They were acting retarded. I get pissed with them. Really pissed. Why'd they have to make themselves appear bitchy? Some image.
Originally we planned to dress emo and go to one of the Starbucks in Orchard today, for a change. PS Starbucks is meant for those "I'm-in-school-uniform" days. But well, Moooom won me this time though I know Communist loves me so much she'd rather choose me over her. One date we missed out on ): It's okay, the rest of the week it's us again ♥
Anyway, today's FIRST MAY so HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGNES! :D It's cool to be sixteen. Yeah, sure. I'm not even sixteen yet and I don't want to think about it.
Slacking, slacking, slacking. FOCUS. Can't believe I'm actually harbouring the thought of following my parents to IKEA Tampines later. If I do, I'm so screwed. Am going to pay for my sins, I just know it. Damn, let's get messed up.
Today feels like a Saturday. Saturday evenings are dangerous. Gets me into some reflective mood. Am feeling that way right now; prolly might go all mopey. Satisfaction gained from mugging has worn off. Pensiveness sets in. You start to think 'bout things like, how so much innocence is lost through the years. Cheryl commented recently she'd like to go back to 2006. That'd be great, but I want to return to 2001, or earlier. P school, that's what I'm looking at.
What's wrong with being pensive.