Been slacking too much.
English paper yesterday was bad. Weird how I felt one way 'bout it, and the rest thought otherwise? Like, entirely opposite. It's making me freak. Bad, bad.
Went mugging again, after. Same place, same time, same person :D We're going to spend so much more time there. Everyday after each paper - now how 'bout that? We have such great conversations together. Like, talk of how we're going to bang Singapore right past the doldrums and into the core of the Earth. Somehow or another, our talk's always influenced by FOB songs. And "I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me And You)" is like our mugging song<3 Though yesterday's duration was much shorter; we were attacked by the rain. And I think the counter people are total weirdos. Okay, random. I want more cheesecake and milkshake. Imagine the calories.
Attended YF today. Had some seminar: "Love Factually". Think it was quite a good one. And relevant. Okay, so I don't think I'm ready. Love the way things are always brought back into perspective in one way or another. You just know it when you're being administered to. Thank God for that. Now give me the courage to go forth and take action.
My mid-year examinations are just going to screw off. Wonder what will happen if I don't make it below 20. Wish I didn't have to take all this. I don't want to be involved in the chase. But it's the world that conforms. Think I'll just be discriminated if I try dropping out. Radical. How can I do something - anything - I desire, with the world staring ever so intently? Hell yeah, your actions contradict your words.
Tonight, I say goodbye to the world I thought I lived in.
&Did you know Love is just a silly game?
Thursday, April 26, 2007 | 9:35 PM
And faith makes everybody scared.
Thank God NAPFA 2.4 was postponed. Saturday morning, 8am. But I'm part of the exceptional group; taking the whole test after mid-years.
Congrats, Cedar Dancers :D Y'all got that GWH!
Tomorrow's English. Am freaking out, somehow. Weird how I've never got this feeling before. Maybe I'm really not prepared at all this year. Not even, mentally. Suck. Really have no idea what to feel now. This numbing pain is kind of soothing, though.
Can't spend too much time here. Have to continue on SS to get my mind off English. And then will probably be turning in early. Already got screwed over for coming online.
The time has come.
Thank God NAPFA 2.4 was postponed. Saturday morning, 8am. But I'm part of the exceptional group; taking the whole test after mid-years.
Congrats, Cedar Dancers :D Y'all got that GWH!
Tomorrow's English. Am freaking out, somehow. Weird how I've never got this feeling before. Maybe I'm really not prepared at all this year. Not even, mentally. Suck. Really have no idea what to feel now. This numbing pain is kind of soothing, though.
Can't spend too much time here. Have to continue on SS to get my mind off English. And then will probably be turning in early. Already got screwed over for coming online.
The time has come.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007 | 11:08 PM
To the unknown, to where you are.
And yeah, as expected, people did pon school today. But I must say I was looking forward to seeing something like, only 20 people. Kind of disappointed 27 people were around?! Many were being abnormal! - They actually came =O Anyway my whole group for English pangseh-ed me. Thank God I didn't have to do the presentation due to time constraints or they're so going to get it from me -.-
After school mugged with Capitalist! Though I think now the title ought to be changed to Communist?! Haha, considering all the money that's going into the Santa bag ;D Was at PS' Starbucks. Cheesecake! Quite a nice place to mug, I must admit. I love places where there aren't many other students around :D Did a fair 'mount of Geography.
Patronized The Body Shop to get gifts for LQ. Migrating to Aussie on Sunday. Damn, why is everyone doing this to me!! ): 6 years ago it was Charmaine, and yeah, that's okay, I can accept it already. But now ): I want to follow. Gah. But I don't think she wants to leave that much; like how Amath Rep doesn't wanna return to India =/ LQ cried today during recess 'cause we had this "celebration" - farewell - thing ):
Reached home at 4 plus. That's like, the earliest in days.
Tomorrow's NAPFA 2.4km ): IDONTWANTTORUN! It's one day before mid-years. How freaky is that?! My time is up.
Yay Plate Tectonics!<3
So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea.
And yeah, as expected, people did pon school today. But I must say I was looking forward to seeing something like, only 20 people. Kind of disappointed 27 people were around?! Many were being abnormal! - They actually came =O Anyway my whole group for English pangseh-ed me. Thank God I didn't have to do the presentation due to time constraints or they're so going to get it from me -.-
After school mugged with Capitalist! Though I think now the title ought to be changed to Communist?! Haha, considering all the money that's going into the Santa bag ;D Was at PS' Starbucks. Cheesecake! Quite a nice place to mug, I must admit. I love places where there aren't many other students around :D Did a fair 'mount of Geography.
Patronized The Body Shop to get gifts for LQ. Migrating to Aussie on Sunday. Damn, why is everyone doing this to me!! ): 6 years ago it was Charmaine, and yeah, that's okay, I can accept it already. But now ): I want to follow. Gah. But I don't think she wants to leave that much; like how Amath Rep doesn't wanna return to India =/ LQ cried today during recess 'cause we had this "celebration" - farewell - thing ):
Reached home at 4 plus. That's like, the earliest in days.
Tomorrow's NAPFA 2.4km ): IDONTWANTTORUN! It's one day before mid-years. How freaky is that?! My time is up.
Yay Plate Tectonics!<3So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007 | 10:36 PM
I am falling into grace.
Boring day, pretty much. Everything's so draggy in class though I'm kind of glad I'm staying awake. Almost. Seriously, you can force yourself to not drift off into dreamland in all lessons, other than Emath. Gah.
Guess Choir SYF did lift some spirits, t'ward the end of the day. GOLD! Congrats, y'all. (Though WH would've totally nailed it, but GG all the same.) At least, there's something for the school. To Handbell Ensemble: It's okay, y'all put in your best effort, and that's enough :D To Dance Club: All the way, tomorrow!
Managed to located VCH with Cavewoman and Hyena! =O That's an achievement, honestly. Considering my sense of direction and streetwise-ness is like really =/ HAHA, and I know I'm in orienteering dept.
Tomorrow'll be expecting only slightly more than half the class in school. Turn up sure isn't going to be high. People are going to pon! Funny. 'Cause apparently school tomorrow is "useless"; there's only Geography and Chemistry lessons worth "looking forward to", if ever. Hello there's Organic Chemistry test, people! Retarded shit, no?
russ. DragonForce! says:
honey why you calling me so late
russ. DragonForce!says:
its kinda hard to talk right now.
russ. DragonForce!says:
etc...
russ. DragonForce!says:
it's really good to hear your voice saying my name
We're happy plastic people. says:
ohmygosh. HAHAHA.
russ. DragonForce!says:
it sounds so sweeet
We're happy plastic people. says:
you HINDER-ing around XD
Amusing. Is that totally random, or what! :D
It's wrong, but I miss it so much. All the best; I'm always behind.
And I'll never forget the reason why you're singing now.
Boring day, pretty much. Everything's so draggy in class though I'm kind of glad I'm staying awake. Almost. Seriously, you can force yourself to not drift off into dreamland in all lessons, other than Emath. Gah.
Guess Choir SYF did lift some spirits, t'ward the end of the day. GOLD! Congrats, y'all. (Though WH would've totally nailed it, but GG all the same.) At least, there's something for the school. To Handbell Ensemble: It's okay, y'all put in your best effort, and that's enough :D To Dance Club: All the way, tomorrow!
Managed to located VCH with Cavewoman and Hyena! =O That's an achievement, honestly. Considering my sense of direction and streetwise-ness is like really =/ HAHA, and I know I'm in orienteering dept.
Tomorrow'll be expecting only slightly more than half the class in school. Turn up sure isn't going to be high. People are going to pon! Funny. 'Cause apparently school tomorrow is "useless"; there's only Geography and Chemistry lessons worth "looking forward to", if ever. Hello there's Organic Chemistry test, people! Retarded shit, no?
russ. DragonForce! says:
honey why you calling me so late
russ. DragonForce!says:
its kinda hard to talk right now.
russ. DragonForce!says:
etc...
russ. DragonForce!says:
it's really good to hear your voice saying my name
We're happy plastic people. says:
ohmygosh. HAHAHA.
russ. DragonForce!says:
it sounds so sweeet
We're happy plastic people. says:
you HINDER-ing around XD
Amusing. Is that totally random, or what! :D
It's wrong, but I miss it so much. All the best; I'm always behind.
And I'll never forget the reason why you're singing now.
Monday, April 23, 2007 | 10:25 PM
And maybe finally I won't have to know everything.
It's like a new start, somehow. But I'm approaching this differently. Not like the times before. After all that turmoil and emotional torture, I'm ready to make sure I won't fall into it again. At least, not any time soon.
Feels so good to be able to let it all down. Just, goodbye. Not ignorance or shirking of responsibility; rather new perspectives. RW would call it "half-full" :D After school today spent time with BUDDY. I love you!<3 Comforting to know how we go through the same, unknowingly. IFD sure was the most stressful time, ever. It's okay, that's behind us now. Went to the Australian High Commission. Place sure is neat! Sad we didn't get a chance to enter the place, though. Was looking forward to it, pretty much.
Had to carry this cardboard box with the Monopoly board games in 'em home. Odd, I looked weird. Perhaps like some terrorist! :D Hah, kidding. Now I keep thinking of CHO. He's an ass. Ah well.
On the bus saw this guy texting. Okay, sorry I know it's evil of me to actually see what he was typing but trust me it's so cute. Apparently the other party's some girl called "Huiying".
Him: I dunno why but u are just so important to me! Heck care her la. She's den nothing.
Her: No, I am nothing. Ur heart... (I didn't see the whole message; he read it faster than me and clicked "Reply"! =/)
Him: O please. If that were the case u would have been the one. She is nothing la.
THEN I GOT OFF THE BUS HAHA.
Aww, isn't that just absolutely sweet? Though you must pardon his poor command of English - what's "She's den nothing"?! XD Haha. But I feel happy for 'em. It seems all so drama. Like, some LOVE TRIANGLE in movies!<3
Can't get "Chain Hang Low" by Jibby Jibby Jibbs (that's what EX calls him!) out of my head :D Thus, decided to use it during English lesson. My group's going to come up with some Summary song using that tune. Coolio. Though I so cannot imagine singing it in front of the class.
Someone in class was talking about 4O having helicoidal flow in our brains, and the cocksrew motion of our brain juices! ): Geography is saturation. But IMO, there is no way there can even be movement in our brains 'cause global warming's drying up the river ): Gah, all heil mid-years!
I'm sorry.
It's like a new start, somehow. But I'm approaching this differently. Not like the times before. After all that turmoil and emotional torture, I'm ready to make sure I won't fall into it again. At least, not any time soon.
Feels so good to be able to let it all down. Just, goodbye. Not ignorance or shirking of responsibility; rather new perspectives. RW would call it "half-full" :D After school today spent time with BUDDY. I love you!<3 Comforting to know how we go through the same, unknowingly. IFD sure was the most stressful time, ever. It's okay, that's behind us now. Went to the Australian High Commission. Place sure is neat! Sad we didn't get a chance to enter the place, though. Was looking forward to it, pretty much.
Had to carry this cardboard box with the Monopoly board games in 'em home. Odd, I looked weird. Perhaps like some terrorist! :D Hah, kidding. Now I keep thinking of CHO. He's an ass. Ah well.
On the bus saw this guy texting. Okay, sorry I know it's evil of me to actually see what he was typing but trust me it's so cute. Apparently the other party's some girl called "Huiying".
Him: I dunno why but u are just so important to me! Heck care her la. She's den nothing.
Her: No, I am nothing. Ur heart... (I didn't see the whole message; he read it faster than me and clicked "Reply"! =/)
Him: O please. If that were the case u would have been the one. She is nothing la.
THEN I GOT OFF THE BUS HAHA.
Aww, isn't that just absolutely sweet? Though you must pardon his poor command of English - what's "She's den nothing"?! XD Haha. But I feel happy for 'em. It seems all so drama. Like, some LOVE TRIANGLE in movies!<3
Can't get "Chain Hang Low" by Jibby Jibby Jibbs (that's what EX calls him!) out of my head :D Thus, decided to use it during English lesson. My group's going to come up with some Summary song using that tune. Coolio. Though I so cannot imagine singing it in front of the class.
Someone in class was talking about 4O having helicoidal flow in our brains, and the cocksrew motion of our brain juices! ): Geography is saturation. But IMO, there is no way there can even be movement in our brains 'cause global warming's drying up the river ): Gah, all heil mid-years!
I'm sorry.
Sunday, April 22, 2007 | 11:26 PM
Take my security from me.
It isn't meant to turn out like that, y'know?
Happy endings are HAPPY. Like duh, who doesn't get that! I totally do and, therefore, this is screwed. Tell me I'm over, someone. HELP I DON'T WANT TO WHINE. It's okay, Russ can do it with me! >=( Rawr.
I just want to dissociate from you. And almost everyone else.
I'm acting up; being weird. Talk about facades when I actually still care. I care but you don't care that I care, so.. Does anyone even care? Think I'm like a freak or something. Can't y'all see how it was all done to get your attention? Like, Attention-Seeker #1, I am, or something along that line.
Leave me alone.
It isn't meant to turn out like that, y'know?
Happy endings are HAPPY. Like duh, who doesn't get that! I totally do and, therefore, this is screwed. Tell me I'm over, someone. HELP I DON'T WANT TO WHINE. It's okay, Russ can do it with me! >=( Rawr.
I just want to dissociate from you. And almost everyone else.
I'm acting up; being weird. Talk about facades when I actually still care. I care but you don't care that I care, so.. Does anyone even care? Think I'm like a freak or something. Can't y'all see how it was all done to get your attention? Like, Attention-Seeker #1, I am, or something along that line.
Leave me alone.
Saturday, April 21, 2007 | 8:42 PM
And maybe I just might learn to let it go.
Stayed in.
Probably 'cause I was too tired to go anywhere. Drained in every way.
Tried drowning in work; being a mugger. At least Amath is done, and one of two Emath papers. But revision for midyears is still yet to be done. Or even, started. Think I'll have to get down to SS tonight.
-
Ties that bind, ties that break.
A Wayward Elusion:
some we lose, others we gain.
Do we really have to end this way?
GIVE FACE.
Give up. 'Cause this is something I've to take my own. There is none on Earth I desire but Him. It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time; I want what's yours and I want what's mine.
&All the perfect words they seem so wrong;
Stayed in.
Probably 'cause I was too tired to go anywhere. Drained in every way.
Tried drowning in work; being a mugger. At least Amath is done, and one of two Emath papers. But revision for midyears is still yet to be done. Or even, started. Think I'll have to get down to SS tonight.
-
Ties that bind, ties that break.A Wayward Elusion:
some we lose, others we gain.
Do we really have to end this way?
Give up. 'Cause this is something I've to take my own. There is none on Earth I desire but Him. It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time; I want what's yours and I want what's mine.
&All the perfect words they seem so wrong;
Friday, April 20, 2007 | 9:34 PM
Put away all I know for tonight.
It was that, or nothing.
And now, I am nothing.
Hasn't exactly been a good day. 'Bad day' came on the radio while we were in Swensens; what impeccable timing. Don't really wanna brood over it. But I can't help it - I feel so bitter inside. I'm convinced and confident, 'cause we are: BRAVE & INNOCENT. But that's okay. Sometimes life throws you curves, and like in relays, you hug 'em.
Hug 'em tight, Elyssa.
It's not really easy letting go of this, though. After I've tried so hard to let go of the Novelty Race disqualification. Unfair? I don't know. But I broke down all the same. You can't say I'm weak; I'm only being human. Thanks to those who comforted me. Am better now. Love y'all.
Whatever the case, 4x100m team 4O is the awesomest team! My ex calls us that. I love you all<3 No one can ever understand how much this day meant - and means - to me. Maybe it's just 'cause the whole Oleander is depending on the Secondary 4s (mainly), that pressure is on 4O for events. But it's alright. We're the best. I know this year has been our best 4x100m timing. We know we all put in our heart and soul. It's something worth it.
Found a passage that spoke to me.
"When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel and afterward you will take me into your glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." - Psalm 73:21-26
Sincerest apologies to the PSLs, and the rest whom we - no, I - might have offended.
Am tired.Of everything.
16 and f'ed up.
It was that, or nothing.
And now, I am nothing.
Hasn't exactly been a good day. 'Bad day' came on the radio while we were in Swensens; what impeccable timing. Don't really wanna brood over it. But I can't help it - I feel so bitter inside. I'm convinced and confident, 'cause we are: BRAVE & INNOCENT. But that's okay. Sometimes life throws you curves, and like in relays, you hug 'em.
Hug 'em tight, Elyssa.
It's not really easy letting go of this, though. After I've tried so hard to let go of the Novelty Race disqualification. Unfair? I don't know. But I broke down all the same. You can't say I'm weak; I'm only being human. Thanks to those who comforted me. Am better now. Love y'all.
Whatever the case, 4x100m team 4O is the awesomest team! My ex calls us that. I love you all<3 No one can ever understand how much this day meant - and means - to me. Maybe it's just 'cause the whole Oleander is depending on the Secondary 4s (mainly), that pressure is on 4O for events. But it's alright. We're the best. I know this year has been our best 4x100m timing. We know we all put in our heart and soul. It's something worth it.
Decided to go out to get my mind off things; today saw too many tears. Couldn't bring myself to go home, 'cause that would mean thinking more about it, even more than now. Hung out with wp veron mag suuz cel xr py wenyi inezlau. Thanks for the company, babes.
Our giant earthquake! :DD
Someone is tired D:
suuz just loves doing that! XD
inezlau looks like she's studying!
Don't you agree cel looks like that toy! :D
Someone is tired D:
suuz just loves doing that! XD
inezlau looks like she's studying!
Don't you agree cel looks like that toy! :DFound a passage that spoke to me.
"When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel and afterward you will take me into your glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." - Psalm 73:21-26
Sincerest apologies to the PSLs, and the rest whom we - no, I - might have offended.
Am tired.
16 and f'ed up.
Thursday, April 19, 2007 | 10:33 PM
Don't let me second guess what I know to be real.
Wasn't really paying much attention to the happenings of today. After assembly had oral briefing. Okay, it was more like a discussion thing. Well, whatever the decision, I sure don't want a re-take. Yesterday's oral was absolutely fine. Wonder who actually went to complain?! Gah, heard it's from my class but I'm almost positive it ain't ):
Out of the classroom most of the day. HMT in Computer Lab was cool; plus lesson was shortened thanks to the briefing ;D Hah. But Emath was sick. I mean, she took SELC for lesson as well. So much so that everyone was almost dying by the 100th minute. Vectors is boring. Don't get why the class keeps trying to make life difficult for the hell lot of us when they can just be conventional and 'straight' - what's wrong with just going by the normal way.
I am boring, probably.
Math saturation almost killed me today. To add on to Emath, last lesson was Amath and after school had Amath remedial. Like, consecutive EVERYTHING! Dang. My words started to get curly and messy. Hah, it's the nodding-off thing.
Cavewoman & co. are weirdos<3
Tomorrow: Annual Track & Field Meet 2007
Isn't what goes through my mind the same every year? Content on my blog probably is the same as well. Mhmm, reckon this is mental preparation.
Fourth. The last. Really wanna make it count for something. Individual is going to be the worst. Psycho myself, as always.
Elyssa's going to make it, I know.
The battle is His. To God be the glory.
Have you ever heard of the Almighty Champions?
Wasn't really paying much attention to the happenings of today. After assembly had oral briefing. Okay, it was more like a discussion thing. Well, whatever the decision, I sure don't want a re-take. Yesterday's oral was absolutely fine. Wonder who actually went to complain?! Gah, heard it's from my class but I'm almost positive it ain't ):
Out of the classroom most of the day. HMT in Computer Lab was cool; plus lesson was shortened thanks to the briefing ;D Hah. But Emath was sick. I mean, she took SELC for lesson as well. So much so that everyone was almost dying by the 100th minute. Vectors is boring. Don't get why the class keeps trying to make life difficult for the hell lot of us when they can just be conventional and 'straight' - what's wrong with just going by the normal way.
I am boring, probably.
Math saturation almost killed me today. To add on to Emath, last lesson was Amath and after school had Amath remedial. Like, consecutive EVERYTHING! Dang. My words started to get curly and messy. Hah, it's the nodding-off thing.
Cavewoman & co. are weirdos<3
Tomorrow: Annual Track & Field Meet 2007
Isn't what goes through my mind the same every year? Content on my blog probably is the same as well. Mhmm, reckon this is mental preparation.
Fourth. The last. Really wanna make it count for something. Individual is going to be the worst. Psycho myself, as always.
Elyssa's going to make it, I know.
The battle is His. To God be the glory.
Have you ever heard of the Almighty Champions?
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 | 10:25 PM
And if this night won't let me rest.
These days it's been so freakin' humid, think global warming's going to fry the brains out of this empty head ): Gah. When you feel sticky it's like so super uncomfortable and no information can actually get stored. And please, we don't have luxurious air-conditioned rooms like some AHEM schools. Dang.
Speaking of frying. That reminds me, yesterday during PE had NAPFA 5 items. (But I was excused, thanks to the flu.) Anyway. Mr Chan was watching the re-takers doing SBJ. Funny. He told Staf: "You must jump UP! Don't keep looking down. Let your body fly!" But, as a result of his poor pronunciation - I do believe it's the Chinese upbringing - "fly" came out as "FRY". HAHAHA, it was so damn funny XD Like, we're all FRYING WITHOUT WINGS!<3 Tsk. Also, RAHH and I saw someone's RED underwear! Ohmygosh, talk about supermans and all yesterday! :O Ahem, can't say who though. Poor dear, it was during SBJ. Hope Chan didn't see. Hah. Superman's the one frying with a cape :D
Prelim English Oral today. Having the bad flu and sorethroat, but guess they couldn't postpone it for me. Fine, I know the world doesn't revolve around me this one candidate. But still. It's like some unfair assessment. Oh well. At least Foo knew 'cause I told her beforehand and she kept it in mind my reading and stuff would be affected thanks to this athletic nose (who keeps running). But thank God I made it. Even managed to squeeze out some precious laughter from her; speaking with enough humor to put a minimum curve on her face. Must be the greatest achievement of my life. Serious.
Cavewoman and I are totally crazy in class. Today during Geography we learned that we should all be grateful we have periods! 'Cause apparently that's what keeps us living longer than guys. Some estrogen thing. Damn, I hate Bio so don't ask me what that is. It's just something produced in the female body I guess. VKoh was talking about women living longer like as if it's something so great. Personally, life is so much pain. I'd rather pass earlier, only to reside in paradise.
Cross-country C'ships didn't go as well as we'd expected. But it's okay. We're always CHAMPIONS. Anyway, met so many people at Turf City. Haha, it's the same almost every year. But guess there're more this year. Sadly didn't see Chenyang run past. Think I was on the phone when 'B' Div boys came in. Saw Zac, unexpectedly. My voice was so low, think I could pass off as a guy and start going "Ra ra ra raffles!" HAHAHA :D Victorians are forever going BOLEH.
LACK is so lame. Wanted us to take the long road home with rollerblades and durians. Tsk! Funny. Crap, should've taken more photos. Shall put 'em up tomorrow; edit this post. For tonight, I'm just too tired.
Wish we were SECOND, to none.
Hate HMT homework. Oh cool, alliteration.
These days it's been so freakin' humid, think global warming's going to fry the brains out of this empty head ): Gah. When you feel sticky it's like so super uncomfortable and no information can actually get stored. And please, we don't have luxurious air-conditioned rooms like some AHEM schools. Dang.
Speaking of frying. That reminds me, yesterday during PE had NAPFA 5 items. (But I was excused, thanks to the flu.) Anyway. Mr Chan was watching the re-takers doing SBJ. Funny. He told Staf: "You must jump UP! Don't keep looking down. Let your body fly!" But, as a result of his poor pronunciation - I do believe it's the Chinese upbringing - "fly" came out as "FRY". HAHAHA, it was so damn funny XD Like, we're all FRYING WITHOUT WINGS!<3 Tsk. Also, RAHH and I saw someone's RED underwear! Ohmygosh, talk about supermans and all yesterday! :O Ahem, can't say who though. Poor dear, it was during SBJ. Hope Chan didn't see. Hah. Superman's the one frying with a cape :D
Prelim English Oral today. Having the bad flu and sorethroat, but guess they couldn't postpone it for me. Fine, I know the world doesn't revolve around me this one candidate. But still. It's like some unfair assessment. Oh well. At least Foo knew 'cause I told her beforehand and she kept it in mind my reading and stuff would be affected thanks to this athletic nose (who keeps running). But thank God I made it. Even managed to squeeze out some precious laughter from her; speaking with enough humor to put a minimum curve on her face. Must be the greatest achievement of my life. Serious.
Cavewoman and I are totally crazy in class. Today during Geography we learned that we should all be grateful we have periods! 'Cause apparently that's what keeps us living longer than guys. Some estrogen thing. Damn, I hate Bio so don't ask me what that is. It's just something produced in the female body I guess. VKoh was talking about women living longer like as if it's something so great. Personally, life is so much pain. I'd rather pass earlier, only to reside in paradise.
Cross-country C'ships didn't go as well as we'd expected. But it's okay. We're always CHAMPIONS. Anyway, met so many people at Turf City. Haha, it's the same almost every year. But guess there're more this year. Sadly didn't see Chenyang run past. Think I was on the phone when 'B' Div boys came in. Saw Zac, unexpectedly. My voice was so low, think I could pass off as a guy and start going "Ra ra ra raffles!" HAHAHA :D Victorians are forever going BOLEH.
LACK is so lame. Wanted us to take the long road home with rollerblades and durians. Tsk! Funny. Crap, should've taken more photos. Shall put 'em up tomorrow; edit this post. For tonight, I'm just too tired.
Wish we were SECOND, to none.
Hate HMT homework. Oh cool, alliteration.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 | 11:42 PM
In this familiar place sheltered and concealed.
Didn't post yesterday. And that's quite a bad thing. You see, there's just so many things that happen in a day.. It's difficult to recount 'em all if I just miss a day.
Ah well, don't remember much 'bout yesterday. Only thing I do is: I SURVIVED. Thank God. Oh, and the races were pretty much okay. Individual event sucked for me; but it's CEL's PB so I'm glad for her. Like, first time she hit under 14s :D Yay. Haha, my PB's only slightly below that. And that's way way way back last year ): On a better note, performance for 4x100m could possibly be better than expected. Pray it is the case.
Today seemed to pass by so quickly. Almost everything. Like, it zoomed past in a blur. I couldn't catch.. But found I'm starting to find a connection with Chemistry. Oh, right - it the chemistry :D Hah. Felt like an idiot during SS/History. Can't believe it - I'm still not "enlightened". What the hell are we supposed to study?! And tell me my "spotting" (rather, speculating) skills suck like shit. Gah. HELP!
That aside, HAPPY 16th, CAVEWOMAN! [:
Love that girl so much, I gave her the best birthday present ever - chance to grope me even more today. (Oh, have I ever mentioned she does this to me all the time?! What more us being table partners..) Plus, in commemoration of her birthday, April 17 shall be known as "World Mass Groping Day" from henceforth. Trust me, you so don't wanna know the story behind this. Just take this crap and swallow it whole. Period.
After school had PANAMA Meeting. Please, we're so not going to wear that FRILLY POLLERA for D&D! :O Suck. We'll all look like we're wearing dollies. At least, thank God it ain't those banana head gears. Tsk! Plus, RI's going to have it bad. Provided I'm the fashion designer, of course. Make 'em come in Superman costumes with their RED underwears on the outside. Best - organic chem comes in handy 'cause I'm gonna make those underwears with Terylene, complete with ester linkages :D Ah, won't they be smelling fruity, then?! HAHAHA. I love Chemistry. Have I mentioned? ;D
Then,
Woohoo, met Cavewoman and Hyena to get ice cream. YUM, I love ice cream :D GET FAT, y'know? If Cavewoman were here, she'd make me say the two deadly letters: GG!
Tomorrow's National Inter-school Cross-country Championships 2007.
Go CEDAR<3
Pwn, show 'em what we're made of.
-
& this is done in secret.
'Cause it's not like you know;
I still care, somehow.
Didn't post yesterday. And that's quite a bad thing. You see, there's just so many things that happen in a day.. It's difficult to recount 'em all if I just miss a day.
Ah well, don't remember much 'bout yesterday. Only thing I do is: I SURVIVED. Thank God. Oh, and the races were pretty much okay. Individual event sucked for me; but it's CEL's PB so I'm glad for her. Like, first time she hit under 14s :D Yay. Haha, my PB's only slightly below that. And that's way way way back last year ): On a better note, performance for 4x100m could possibly be better than expected. Pray it is the case.
Today seemed to pass by so quickly. Almost everything. Like, it zoomed past in a blur. I couldn't catch.. But found I'm starting to find a connection with Chemistry. Oh, right - it the chemistry :D Hah. Felt like an idiot during SS/History. Can't believe it - I'm still not "enlightened". What the hell are we supposed to study?! And tell me my "spotting" (rather, speculating) skills suck like shit. Gah. HELP!
That aside, HAPPY 16th, CAVEWOMAN! [:
Love that girl so much, I gave her the best birthday present ever - chance to grope me even more today. (Oh, have I ever mentioned she does this to me all the time?! What more us being table partners..) Plus, in commemoration of her birthday, April 17 shall be known as "World Mass Groping Day" from henceforth. Trust me, you so don't wanna know the story behind this. Just take this crap and swallow it whole. Period.
After school had PANAMA Meeting. Please, we're so not going to wear that FRILLY POLLERA for D&D! :O Suck. We'll all look like we're wearing dollies. At least, thank God it ain't those banana head gears. Tsk! Plus, RI's going to have it bad. Provided I'm the fashion designer, of course. Make 'em come in Superman costumes with their RED underwears on the outside. Best - organic chem comes in handy 'cause I'm gonna make those underwears with Terylene, complete with ester linkages :D Ah, won't they be smelling fruity, then?! HAHAHA. I love Chemistry. Have I mentioned? ;D
Then,
Woohoo, met Cavewoman and Hyena to get ice cream. YUM, I love ice cream :D GET FAT, y'know? If Cavewoman were here, she'd make me say the two deadly letters: GG!Tomorrow's National Inter-school Cross-country Championships 2007.
Go CEDAR<3
Pwn, show 'em what we're made of.
-
& this is done in secret.
'Cause it's not like you know;
I still care, somehow.
Sunday, April 15, 2007 | 11:09 PM
This doubt is screaming in my face.
Can't really stand how it is, the fact that I always come back only on Sundays. It's annoying, 'cause it really shouldn't be the case. Anyhow, have decided to become more fervent. By His strength alone I shall overcome.
Today's sermon was great. Think Elder Kumar's an interesting speaker :D HAHA. Learned that JOY is not equal to HAPPINESS. For joy is the inner, eternal, immortal delight in God and His goodness. We've to stop and ponder more often. Selah, y'know? Mustn't allow the momentum of time and circumstance to carry us through the stream of life. It ought to be this dependent thing; placing trust with Christ.
Guess the best part is the knowledge that:
There is no escape from the vagaries of life, but in Christ there is guarantee of the highest calling.
So, PRESS ON T'WARD THE MARK<3
Funny how I'm being watched, how my life is safe in the Father's hands. Just when things are about to crumble, when I'm that close to the rocks beneath, He delivers. I know time and again through the messages I've been administered to. Have I just been blind to the signs all along? Fighting alone is so much pain. And it is said, "Let them who are weary find rest in the Lord." And so shall I lay my burdens down. I'm ready for a new week.
It's renewal.
In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
Closing my eyes I whisper a silent prayer;
Can't really stand how it is, the fact that I always come back only on Sundays. It's annoying, 'cause it really shouldn't be the case. Anyhow, have decided to become more fervent. By His strength alone I shall overcome.
Today's sermon was great. Think Elder Kumar's an interesting speaker :D HAHA. Learned that JOY is not equal to HAPPINESS. For joy is the inner, eternal, immortal delight in God and His goodness. We've to stop and ponder more often. Selah, y'know? Mustn't allow the momentum of time and circumstance to carry us through the stream of life. It ought to be this dependent thing; placing trust with Christ.
Guess the best part is the knowledge that:
There is no escape from the vagaries of life, but in Christ there is guarantee of the highest calling.
So, PRESS ON T'WARD THE MARK<3
Funny how I'm being watched, how my life is safe in the Father's hands. Just when things are about to crumble, when I'm that close to the rocks beneath, He delivers. I know time and again through the messages I've been administered to. Have I just been blind to the signs all along? Fighting alone is so much pain. And it is said, "Let them who are weary find rest in the Lord." And so shall I lay my burdens down. I'm ready for a new week.
It's renewal.
In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
Closing my eyes I whisper a silent prayer;
| 4:56 PM
And this meant to be Saturday's post.
I'll get over your back.
Took ill overnight. What kind of shit is that? Went to bed with an irritated throat and the next morning, VOILA! Stuffed nose, cough and dry throat. Damn ):
Wanted to study with hl. But ended up dating Clement at AMK library :D Mugged the whole afternoon! Though I must admit it's kind of depressing I managed to get through only Amath. Suck.
And then we camwhored. Only one photo. Is that counted? Okay, no. 'Cause we didn't have a camera today! ):
Needa take more photographs with Clement <3
AMK Hub MOS for dinner. Apparently Wen Min was there as well. But I didn't see her? Was on the phone with my younger brother while going up the escalator and that's where she saw me. Tsk, odd. Oh well, had that sneaky feeling I was going to meet a Cedarian, anyway :D
Tomorrow's Church <3
Will be fine - Monday's when it all begins again. Bummer.
Don't think. Don't.
I'll get over your back.
Took ill overnight. What kind of shit is that? Went to bed with an irritated throat and the next morning, VOILA! Stuffed nose, cough and dry throat. Damn ):
Wanted to study with hl. But ended up dating Clement at AMK library :D Mugged the whole afternoon! Though I must admit it's kind of depressing I managed to get through only Amath. Suck.
And then we camwhored. Only one photo. Is that counted? Okay, no. 'Cause we didn't have a camera today! ):
Needa take more photographs with Clement <3AMK Hub MOS for dinner. Apparently Wen Min was there as well. But I didn't see her? Was on the phone with my younger brother while going up the escalator and that's where she saw me. Tsk, odd. Oh well, had that sneaky feeling I was going to meet a Cedarian, anyway :D
Tomorrow's Church <3
Will be fine - Monday's when it all begins again. Bummer.
Don't think. Don't.
| 4:55 PM
Computer's been down these few days; this was meant to be Friday's post.
I'm so much better than you guessed.
Y'know, Friday the 13th don't count for nothin'. Today sure was one of the most hectic days ever. Trying, to put it more aptly. And there were many times I was close to a major breakdown. Tears were shed, but mostly was suppressed.
But things weren't all that bad; believe they could've been worse. Thank God Heats was postponed. 'Cause that also means CEL can run. I hope. And MTP was okay. Come to think, they never really say bad things about you, unless you're really the out-of-control type. Which, of course, I'm not. Was just told I've to work harder, submit assignments more regularly and get ready to go full steam after mid-years. Okay, shall trust GChoo this time about the whole "Elyssa-has-potential-to-do-well-I'm-confident-in-her" thing. Though you ought to know, I don't really do "potential". Mentioned it before.
OAC Campfire. Was alright, though felt the sec 3s were a little zi high-ing. Sincerest apologies, but they're a bunch of weirdos. I do believe those words were kind of customary. They really didn't have to. But OH WELL. Our campfires these days.. =/ Glad to see the leaders, though. And OALs camwhored :D
Throat feels bad. Need the sleep.
& thank God for rain.
I'm so much better than you guessed.
Y'know, Friday the 13th don't count for nothin'. Today sure was one of the most hectic days ever. Trying, to put it more aptly. And there were many times I was close to a major breakdown. Tears were shed, but mostly was suppressed.
But things weren't all that bad; believe they could've been worse. Thank God Heats was postponed. 'Cause that also means CEL can run. I hope. And MTP was okay. Come to think, they never really say bad things about you, unless you're really the out-of-control type. Which, of course, I'm not. Was just told I've to work harder, submit assignments more regularly and get ready to go full steam after mid-years. Okay, shall trust GChoo this time about the whole "Elyssa-has-potential-to-do-well-I'm-confident-in-her" thing. Though you ought to know, I don't really do "potential". Mentioned it before.
OAC Campfire. Was alright, though felt the sec 3s were a little zi high-ing. Sincerest apologies, but they're a bunch of weirdos. I do believe those words were kind of customary. They really didn't have to. But OH WELL. Our campfires these days.. =/ Glad to see the leaders, though. And OALs camwhored :D
Throat feels bad. Need the sleep.
& thank God for rain.
Thursday, April 12, 2007 | 9:35 PM
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry.
Can't take it no more.
Lessons are now the easiest thing to get past in the day. Absolutely unbelievable. Never thought there'd come a day it'd be said. But hell yeah, the day has come. Love the classroom. And everything in it. It's home; like where solace is found. No phone, no events, no planning, no screw-ups (well, almost),no life.. Anything to not face everything, honestly.
Just like how HMT period was. So, entertaining. Great way to start the day. But things always screw it up in the end anyway. In the words of China's National Anthem: Wake up.. (Well, those are the only two words our dearest gang jie - HK girl - can remember. Tsk.) Someday I'm really going to get that flag-raising animation in our computers and mobile phones. RAHH knows what I mean.
Downward spiral. How true. Intriguing. MtYau never fails to make it all right.. With false hope, false comfort, false lies. Okay, does that make sense? Not complaining, just stating. And it's true - how long, how much, more am I going to believe? Holding on is too difficult. More difficult than finding solutions in an exasperated state. I'd rather be stressed to my head and yet still be able play supergirl; instead of keeping calm and saving nothing but my emotional status. Ain't worth it.
Superstitious? Hell, no. Just, WHY. All has to happen at the same time. Is it really such a coincidence? Please, I don't want to be guilty - I don't want to have reasons to be angry with God. 50th Anniversary is nothing big. In fact, it's everything screwed up, in a BIG way. Sorry 'bout CSB and MLDDS ): Jiayou, the rest.
Something's got to happen to lift us all. Aren't we all supposed to be "riding the waves"? More like, crashing; residing in the trough, we are. Pathetic.
Tomorrow's going to be the busiest and craziest day of my life: School, Sports heats, Video shoot, MTP, Campfire. It's doom. And when my parents find out about how I've been in school, I'll probably just die off to nowhere. Today might well be my last day in the online world. Thanks.
I want to sleep, and never wake.
It's not dying.
Just, never-ending sleep.
Can't take it no more.
Lessons are now the easiest thing to get past in the day. Absolutely unbelievable. Never thought there'd come a day it'd be said. But hell yeah, the day has come. Love the classroom. And everything in it. It's home; like where solace is found. No phone, no events, no planning, no screw-ups (well, almost),
Just like how HMT period was. So, entertaining. Great way to start the day. But things always screw it up in the end anyway. In the words of China's National Anthem: Wake up.. (Well, those are the only two words our dearest gang jie - HK girl - can remember. Tsk.) Someday I'm really going to get that flag-raising animation in our computers and mobile phones. RAHH knows what I mean.
Downward spiral. How true. Intriguing. MtYau never fails to make it all right.. With false hope, false comfort, false lies. Okay, does that make sense? Not complaining, just stating. And it's true - how long, how much, more am I going to believe? Holding on is too difficult. More difficult than finding solutions in an exasperated state. I'd rather be stressed to my head and yet still be able play supergirl; instead of keeping calm and saving nothing but my emotional status. Ain't worth it.
Superstitious? Hell, no. Just, WHY. All has to happen at the same time. Is it really such a coincidence? Please, I don't want to be guilty - I don't want to have reasons to be angry with God. 50th Anniversary is nothing big. In fact, it's everything screwed up, in a BIG way. Sorry 'bout CSB and MLDDS ): Jiayou, the rest.
Something's got to happen to lift us all. Aren't we all supposed to be "riding the waves"? More like, crashing; residing in the trough, we are. Pathetic.
Tomorrow's going to be the busiest and craziest day of my life: School, Sports heats, Video shoot, MTP, Campfire. It's doom. And when my parents find out about how I've been in school, I'll probably just die off to nowhere. Today might well be my last day in the online world. Thanks.
I want to sleep, and never wake.
It's not dying.
Just, never-ending sleep.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007 | 10:09 PM
Well, the world seems bigger than both of us.
How is it, that although I crashed at 2230h, I was still falling asleep in class today? Odd. It was the best thing that could ever happen during History TA. Everything about TOP was just so inconducive! Damn the weather, really. And what with the noise the juniors were making?! The monotonous motion of the fan made it seem like it was going to spin into an endless oblivion. Now, that would've been scary.
Thank God for Amath, though. At least it wasn't as bad as expected. Glad to know I'm not "the-only-freak-who-got-0.0009plus-for-question-4" :D 'Cause Abi and Jen did as well. Oh, does that make them freaks too? HAHA, kidding.
Today's Chemistry lesson pwned. Like, one of the best ever. I LOVE ORGANIC CHEM!<3 Is that being weird?! To some, yes. But honestly, learning about alkanes, alkenes, alcohols and carboxylic acids.. Like, YAY :D Oh, plus esters! Today was funny. He was rattling on about recap of polymers, monomers, polymerization, blah-blah.. Then suddenly! FATS :D
Oh man, that sure made cavewoman and I sit up and listen - so eager to know what fats are, and how to get rid of them. Tsk. Apparently it's some hydrolysis thing?! SAPONIFICATION, if I'm not wrong :D Anyway, cavewoman's got a live example of the structure of many fat molecules.. Guess where!
HAHAHA. And you know what! Our beloved friend ester is found in fat as well. Sheesh.
Seriously, the whole ester thing is getting to us! Cavewoman and hyena were crazy yesterday. Heard they went into The Body Shop smelling the fruity stuff, then concluding people who smell fruity are called Esther?! HAHA, retarded.
On a bad note, our events sucked. To think we were in good spirits yesterday. I hate to be a sore loser, posting incessant ranting here. But that's not the point; just because we won 1st last year - and most probably also 'cause you can't believe we're so freaking fast - you don't want to let us own again this year. We did it last year, how much different can it be this? Anyway if not for the fact that they freakingly DISQUALIFIED us, we would've pwned. And by such a large gap. Damn them. It's a total mood-drainer.
Wonder how the record's going to be broken. Should we have believed RBSG from the start? No, we cannot give in. I am determined to prove.
Am really down. MtYau killed me twice today. With just 4 words. "Stretch 'til next week" and "There is no concert" was enough to make this heart fall. A thread was all that held it up. Never knew words could cut.
-
& at times like these,
I just need to blow.
Blow bubbles.
Red bubbles.
How is it, that although I crashed at 2230h, I was still falling asleep in class today? Odd. It was the best thing that could ever happen during History TA. Everything about TOP was just so inconducive! Damn the weather, really. And what with the noise the juniors were making?! The monotonous motion of the fan made it seem like it was going to spin into an endless oblivion. Now, that would've been scary.
Thank God for Amath, though. At least it wasn't as bad as expected. Glad to know I'm not "the-only-freak-who-got-0.0009plus-for-question-4" :D 'Cause Abi and Jen did as well. Oh, does that make them freaks too? HAHA, kidding.
Today's Chemistry lesson pwned. Like, one of the best ever. I LOVE ORGANIC CHEM!<3 Is that being weird?! To some, yes. But honestly, learning about alkanes, alkenes, alcohols and carboxylic acids.. Like, YAY :D Oh, plus esters! Today was funny. He was rattling on about recap of polymers, monomers, polymerization, blah-blah.. Then suddenly! FATS :D
Oh man, that sure made cavewoman and I sit up and listen - so eager to know what fats are, and how to get rid of them. Tsk. Apparently it's some hydrolysis thing?! SAPONIFICATION, if I'm not wrong :D Anyway, cavewoman's got a live example of the structure of many fat molecules.. Guess where!
HAHAHA. And you know what! Our beloved friend ester is found in fat as well. Sheesh.Seriously, the whole ester thing is getting to us! Cavewoman and hyena were crazy yesterday. Heard they went into The Body Shop smelling the fruity stuff, then concluding people who smell fruity are called Esther?! HAHA, retarded.
On a bad note, our events sucked. To think we were in good spirits yesterday. I hate to be a sore loser, posting incessant ranting here. But that's not the point; just because we won 1st last year - and most probably also 'cause you can't believe we're so freaking fast - you don't want to let us own again this year. We did it last year, how much different can it be this? Anyway if not for the fact that they freakingly DISQUALIFIED us, we would've pwned. And by such a large gap. Damn them. It's a total mood-drainer.
Wonder how the record's going to be broken. Should we have believed RBSG from the start? No, we cannot give in. I am determined to prove.
Am really down. MtYau killed me twice today. With just 4 words. "Stretch 'til next week" and "There is no concert" was enough to make this heart fall. A thread was all that held it up. Never knew words could cut.
-
& at times like these,
I just need to blow.
Blow bubbles.
Red bubbles.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007 | 10:00 PM
The feel of an ice cube, melting over time.
Things really cannot get any worse. Everyone has "bad days", but I think we're having a "bad week". And please, don't even start with the fact that this Friday's "Friday the 13th", 'cause that really should be the least of our concerns now - what the day's called! - seeing how it is that on 13th April we're all going to be so packed. Right up to our necks; I don't think we'll be able to breathe. Someone, something. If you may.
Competency just shines through here. That's all I can say. What more is there to confidentiality? Perhaps we'll never get past these dark skies. Where's the light? It's always talk about "potential", never "ability". Maybe it's time to stretch that hand out - and realise we can't see our fingers. How dark, it is.
Tried to be supergirl today. 'Cause the EZ-link machines weren't working. Well, I'd fixed it before the previous time! But guess it's a different issue altogether this time =/ Ah well. During Chemistry lesson today, we learned about esters. That was funny. Oh, what with Arty's friend and all :D Must send her that note I constructed! Tsk. In the end, she committed hava-kiri in our story, so probably she'll never get the chance to read it.
Chinese was sucky, had spring test! How annoying, honestly. Though it's quite a good thing that we managed to complete it in time this time :D Sure, no more F9s yeah!
WE'RE GOING TO LIVE IN HOUSES LIKE IN THE MOVIE "SKY HIGH"! xD
at least that's what we came up with in Geography. Funny.
Our class owns. Ole may not win, but at least my class' up for it :D 1st for both 10x80m and Novelty Race events, in our heat at least. We'll just have to see how 4H fares? Yah.
Tomorrow's History, Amath and training.
You can do it, I know.
Things really cannot get any worse. Everyone has "bad days", but I think we're having a "bad week". And please, don't even start with the fact that this Friday's "Friday the 13th", 'cause that really should be the least of our concerns now - what the day's called! - seeing how it is that on 13th April we're all going to be so packed. Right up to our necks; I don't think we'll be able to breathe. Someone, something. If you may.
Competency just shines through here. That's all I can say. What more is there to confidentiality? Perhaps we'll never get past these dark skies. Where's the light? It's always talk about "potential", never "ability". Maybe it's time to stretch that hand out - and realise we can't see our fingers. How dark, it is.
Tried to be supergirl today. 'Cause the EZ-link machines weren't working. Well, I'd fixed it before the previous time! But guess it's a different issue altogether this time =/ Ah well. During Chemistry lesson today, we learned about esters. That was funny. Oh, what with Arty's friend and all :D Must send her that note I constructed! Tsk. In the end, she committed hava-kiri in our story, so probably she'll never get the chance to read it.
Chinese was sucky, had spring test! How annoying, honestly. Though it's quite a good thing that we managed to complete it in time this time :D Sure, no more F9s yeah!
WE'RE GOING TO LIVE IN HOUSES LIKE IN THE MOVIE "SKY HIGH"! xD
at least that's what we came up with in Geography. Funny.
Our class owns. Ole may not win, but at least my class' up for it :D 1st for both 10x80m and Novelty Race events, in our heat at least. We'll just have to see how 4H fares? Yah.
Tomorrow's History, Amath and training.
You can do it, I know.
Monday, April 09, 2007 | 10:50 PM
The scent of Vaseline in the summertime.
Had a terrible day. Knew things wouldn't go right, since the moment I had that nasty feeling last night - premonition? I wouldn't be surprised. Soul's soaked with guilt. Got to squeeze it dry somehow. Restitution: compensating, making good that which I've done wrong. But tell me, how?
I'm supposed to be doing 3 at once. Maybe it'll be so much better just ripping me apart. The order's all wrong. Perhaps it's fault of mine. If learning the hard way's going to help, then by all means. But it's taking far too long. I don't have enough time for such. Got to get a grip, soon. I've tried too many times; guess it's futile. I feel inadequate.
Though all is not lost. The world can't be so bleak, can it? Being with people who care, love, and possibly even share the same (though severity differs) - friends - drains the pain. Down to every last ounce that floweth from this heavy heart. Just so dense. It's therapeutic: the way support heals, mending these wounds.
It's infectious, believe me. We all have our moments, don't we? Reckon I've one too many.
The general atmosphere today just spelled D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-N-G, with the exception of History and English lessons. At least there's saving grace. The best must've been Joy's letter. Now, that was hilarious. At least I felt so :D For goodness' sake, who ever thinks about stabbing themselves with a ball-point pen?! Hah.
Need matchsticks for these eyes. They mustn't, can't close tonight.
Had a terrible day. Knew things wouldn't go right, since the moment I had that nasty feeling last night - premonition? I wouldn't be surprised. Soul's soaked with guilt. Got to squeeze it dry somehow. Restitution: compensating, making good that which I've done wrong. But tell me, how?
I'm supposed to be doing 3 at once. Maybe it'll be so much better just ripping me apart. The order's all wrong. Perhaps it's fault of mine. If learning the hard way's going to help, then by all means. But it's taking far too long. I don't have enough time for such. Got to get a grip, soon. I've tried too many times; guess it's futile. I feel inadequate.
Though all is not lost. The world can't be so bleak, can it? Being with people who care, love, and possibly even share the same (though severity differs) - friends - drains the pain. Down to every last ounce that floweth from this heavy heart. Just so dense. It's therapeutic: the way support heals, mending these wounds.
It's infectious, believe me. We all have our moments, don't we? Reckon I've one too many.
The general atmosphere today just spelled D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-N-G, with the exception of History and English lessons. At least there's saving grace. The best must've been Joy's letter. Now, that was hilarious. At least I felt so :D For goodness' sake, who ever thinks about stabbing themselves with a ball-point pen?! Hah.
Need matchsticks for these eyes. They mustn't, can't close tonight.
Sunday, April 08, 2007 | 12:34 AM
I'll get over it yet.
can't believe I was actually that pissed yesterday. felt like it was the suckiest shit I'd ever sunk into. but, it's all okay now. sometimes anger just, gets released and then "chill" D: tried to mug, but I just couldn't concentrate. it was all just not forming together.
anyway, I managed to catch the last 40 minutes of 'A Walk To Remember', only 'cause hl told me it's on tv. haha, I didn't even know o.O just shows how much I've been watching tv; I didn't even catch the advert around anywhere! tsk. it's such a great production!<3
our love is like the wind -
I can't see it, but I can feel it.
-
the best things in life are unseen:
that's why we close our eyes when we
KISS, CRY & DREAM.
&i'll be okay even if my skies are turning grey;
can't believe I was actually that pissed yesterday. felt like it was the suckiest shit I'd ever sunk into. but, it's all okay now. sometimes anger just, gets released and then "chill" D: tried to mug, but I just couldn't concentrate. it was all just not forming together.
anyway, I managed to catch the last 40 minutes of 'A Walk To Remember', only 'cause hl told me it's on tv. haha, I didn't even know o.O just shows how much I've been watching tv; I didn't even catch the advert around anywhere! tsk. it's such a great production!<3
our love is like the wind -
I can't see it, but I can feel it.
-
the best things in life are unseen:that's why we close our eyes when we
KISS, CRY & DREAM.
&i'll be okay even if my skies are turning grey;
Saturday, April 07, 2007 | 12:18 PM
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed.
today's supposed to be mugging day! :D going to go to the library later or something. hm. it's sad I don't feel really in the mood yet D: though midyears are just 'round the corner. ugh, think I'm going to die. how can everyone else be SO mugger! please, it's like as if they've been studying for midyears ever since they were born o.O HAHA.
my primary school best friend's in singapore! :D ohman, it's been a long time since we last met up. that's like, end of sec 2. and it was I who flew over to melbourne. haha. it's so cool to be living in aussie :D but oh, sure the cruelty of reality.. I've been fooled too many times as kid. give it up, elyssa. it ain't ever going to happen ): should just be content with life HERE. and anyway, if ever I decide to take off, they'll probably just label me "quitter" =O tsk.
we went RK House this morning for prata!! HAHA, I couldn't help but laugh to myself when my dad was taking the order xD oh and I can't believe that charmaine has seen that vid on youtube as well! sheesh. and in australia they do something like the milodinosaur too. well, almost D:
too bad we didn't camwhore ): ahwell. I totally love the accent! HAHA.
and oh, add me on myspace! :D that is, if you even have one. tsk. over there they don't use friendster. it's more like myspace. and blogs..? not really =/
culture, elyssa, culture.
G'day, mate DDD:
today's supposed to be mugging day! :D going to go to the library later or something. hm. it's sad I don't feel really in the mood yet D: though midyears are just 'round the corner. ugh, think I'm going to die. how can everyone else be SO mugger! please, it's like as if they've been studying for midyears ever since they were born o.O HAHA.
my primary school best friend's in singapore! :D ohman, it's been a long time since we last met up. that's like, end of sec 2. and it was I who flew over to melbourne. haha. it's so cool to be living in aussie :D but oh, sure the cruelty of reality.. I've been fooled too many times as kid. give it up, elyssa. it ain't ever going to happen ): should just be content with life HERE. and anyway, if ever I decide to take off, they'll probably just label me "quitter" =O tsk.
we went RK House this morning for prata!! HAHA, I couldn't help but laugh to myself when my dad was taking the order xD oh and I can't believe that charmaine has seen that vid on youtube as well! sheesh. and in australia they do something like the milodinosaur too. well, almost D:
too bad we didn't camwhore ): ahwell. I totally love the accent! HAHA.
and oh, add me on myspace! :D that is, if you even have one. tsk. over there they don't use friendster. it's more like myspace. and blogs..? not really =/
culture, elyssa, culture.
G'day, mate DDD:
| 12:12 AM
I get carried away.
GOOD FRIDAY :D
went for service, yay! haha.
wanted catch number23 at j8 after that. but didn't ): ate at subway though. yum :D
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oh and what do you know?
Darling, I'm not gonna be your plastic doll<3
when it rains, it pours.
I'm tired.
crash, to the ground.
& I need you tonight.
with these two hands,
I'll make your dreams<3
never knew.
GOOD FRIDAY :D
went for service, yay! haha.
wanted catch number23 at j8 after that. but didn't ): ate at subway though. yum :D
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oh and what do you know?
Darling, I'm not gonna be your plastic doll<3
Thursday, April 05, 2007 | 1:27 AM
I believe I'm the same.
when it rains, it pours.I'm tired.
crash, to the ground.
& I need you tonight.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007 | 11:31 PM
I think God can explain.
with these two hands,I'll make your dreams<3
never knew.
| 10:53 PM
It's alright, I'm okay.
haven't been updating for a few days. on saturday went to catch mr bean's holiday with jen, vicky, yusin and wp :D HAHA, we had so much fun. true, maybe it's not worth paying money to just laugh, but that's exactly what we need. DE-STRESS, baby.
before the movie we found ourselves "free fun", as vicky puts it :D
poor sin. HAHA, the monster's got her! xD
unglam! =/ aye, they're just sian. it's great to be the photographer, eh? :D
then guess who we met in spotlight!! CAVEWOMAN & HYENA! :D they're living in squatter settlements! HAHA. you won't get it I reckon; it's a geog thang<333
see, so poor until she has to beg for.. PEPSI?! o.O hahaha.
sunday I went to church. the first in a long time! haha, MindChamps sure saw me away from church for weeks and weeks and weeks.. =/ I miss church! and all the people in it :D though I'm not attending catechism class with the rest ):
yesterday I had training. well, it's a gradual thing, I believe. the intensity's at an all-time high now. 'cause national juniors' is here =/ cedar's just got to own this year. sigh. we'renot performing. just, yet.
today's geog test was really bad. thanks P, though. after school went to study with mscomputer. bishan, as usual. coffeebean! :D yum, mudpie & tiramisu. haha. and I'm so glad we got the amath. though it took us one billion years to complete it but still o.O tsk.
hl, I'm sorry about your match ):
tomorrow's training. best.
all the way, elyssa.
haven't been updating for a few days. on saturday went to catch mr bean's holiday with jen, vicky, yusin and wp :D HAHA, we had so much fun. true, maybe it's not worth paying money to just laugh, but that's exactly what we need. DE-STRESS, baby.
before the movie we found ourselves "free fun", as vicky puts it :D
poor sin. HAHA, the monster's got her! xD
unglam! =/ aye, they're just sian. it's great to be the photographer, eh? :Dthen guess who we met in spotlight!! CAVEWOMAN & HYENA! :D they're living in squatter settlements! HAHA. you won't get it I reckon; it's a geog thang<333
see, so poor until she has to beg for.. PEPSI?! o.O hahaha.sunday I went to church. the first in a long time! haha, MindChamps sure saw me away from church for weeks and weeks and weeks.. =/ I miss church! and all the people in it :D though I'm not attending catechism class with the rest ):
yesterday I had training. well, it's a gradual thing, I believe. the intensity's at an all-time high now. 'cause national juniors' is here =/ cedar's just got to own this year. sigh. we're
today's geog test was really bad. thanks P, though. after school went to study with mscomputer. bishan, as usual. coffeebean! :D yum, mudpie & tiramisu. haha. and I'm so glad we got the amath. though it took us one billion years to complete it but still o.O tsk.
hl, I'm sorry about your match ):
tomorrow's training. best.
all the way, elyssa.