The day couldn't get any more boring. And it sucks the fact I'd to give the Barker Carnival a miss 'cause of tuition. Was looking forward to seeing all GA(I)ers again ): Tuition was fun, at least. We're always laughing like crazy people 'cause PAIL and Hwans are such fun people! And, of course not forgetting that Mr Tay is so gay he never fails to entertain. Couldn't join PAIL and Hwans to watch Transformers after class. Damn. Hope they'd fun.
As the days go by these feet are getting uglier. And the little lumps are getting hard. Eew. Can't wait for that appointment with the Skin Specialist next week. Have got to save these feet. If even I can't stand the look of 'em, no one can. Ugh. Looks count for a lot and ohmygoodness I must be superficial.
And so they say, "Love is a Game".I dreamt of you too. Is that pure coincidence?
He told me, "You make me miss you."
Listening: Hello Colour Red - Daphne Loves Derby
| 12:02 AM
Won't you walk with me?
Haven't had the opportunity to post in 2 days.
On Wednesday had a great time mugging at Bishan library. Strangely didn't see Kangkang, though he claimed he's been there every single day for the past goodness-knows-how-many weeks, trying real hard to score at one of three Prelims. Tsk. Guess mugging really drives you mad; we were having fun with equations and vectors. Like, Chicken Chunks :D
Yesterday was boring. Can't remember.
Today was retarded as well. Think we're all evil but Chemistry remedial feels so much like gah. Oh well, was quite sad to have to leave it early (due to some meeting) actually. He was just about to get on to the part I don't understand.
We were all getting horny in the SFE Room whilst through with the meeting. Stupid. Thanks to Balmnail the so-not-innocent. Talked about stuff. And I still think the vids they show during CE Lessons are just useless. No one ever goes 'round talking to each other about BGRs and sex like as if they don't have anything better to do.
That aside, the skin allergies on my feet are getting real bad. Thankfully, at least, Sarah and Tiramisu accompanied me to the Polyclinic yesterday. It's still swelling as bad, though. And I've trouble sleeping 'cause it's really so damn itchy ): Stupid ant bites.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong;
And where your love has always been enough for me.
Please be okay.
Listening: Trembling - Yellowcard
Haven't had the opportunity to post in 2 days.
On Wednesday had a great time mugging at Bishan library. Strangely didn't see Kangkang, though he claimed he's been there every single day for the past goodness-knows-how-many weeks, trying real hard to score at one of three Prelims. Tsk. Guess mugging really drives you mad; we were having fun with equations and vectors. Like, Chicken Chunks :D
Yesterday was boring. Can't remember.
Today was retarded as well. Think we're all evil but Chemistry remedial feels so much like gah. Oh well, was quite sad to have to leave it early (due to some meeting) actually. He was just about to get on to the part I don't understand.
We were all getting horny in the SFE Room whilst through with the meeting. Stupid. Thanks to Balmnail the so-not-innocent. Talked about stuff. And I still think the vids they show during CE Lessons are just useless. No one ever goes 'round talking to each other about BGRs and sex like as if they don't have anything better to do.
That aside, the skin allergies on my feet are getting real bad. Thankfully, at least, Sarah and Tiramisu accompanied me to the Polyclinic yesterday. It's still swelling as bad, though. And I've trouble sleeping 'cause it's really so damn itchy ): Stupid ant bites.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong;
And where your love has always been enough for me.
Please be okay.
Listening: Trembling - Yellowcard
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 | 10:59 PM
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again.
Today was tiring, and boring. Don't really remember much that happened, save for PE lesson. Which was, ironically, the first lesson and that makes me so cannot believe I can even recall. Miraculous.
Had to do gym work with Yvonne, Nisha and Vidhya while the rest of the class could rollerblade ): 'Cause I haven't completed the NAPFA test. More specifically, the 2.4km run. But it sucks, the fact that I've to take everything again, seeing as I've waited 'til after the vacation. Damn.
Anyhow, the only thing worth remembering is when Tiramisu and Base actually decided to do what I would like to call, 'stunts'. Base was trying to prove her strength and Tiramisu sadly was her 'target'. Unfortunately, the stunt didn't turn out so well and that caused them to end up in some obscene position I'd rather not describe. Hah, basically, Base's head got stuck in Tiramisu's butt. If you didn't know you'd prolly think they were trying to make out. It was bad, real bad.
Haven't had that feeling of a post-good run for such a long time; was great today. To be honest, am missing that adrenaline a 'lil. Maybe, after all, I'm put in T&F for a purpose. Perhaps, today I can finally convince myself: I love running, I really do. Just kind of sorry that I suck at it.
There isn't much time left to mug. Prelims is on its way. And Mrs Koh has a way of scaring us so bad while still maintaining an absolute straight face. Professional. To add on to that, workload for Prefects' stuff is getting much heavier. Everything's coming back again. Open Space, Head Prefect Elections Campaign Speeches, Voting Day, National Track & Field Championships, Leaders' Investiture, RHD, National Day.. Sure am choking.
Guess I can never put it into words well enough for you to understand.
You're the stage, that keeps me acting.
Listening: Somewhere In Between - Lifehouse
Today was tiring, and boring. Don't really remember much that happened, save for PE lesson. Which was, ironically, the first lesson and that makes me so cannot believe I can even recall. Miraculous.
Had to do gym work with Yvonne, Nisha and Vidhya while the rest of the class could rollerblade ): 'Cause I haven't completed the NAPFA test. More specifically, the 2.4km run. But it sucks, the fact that I've to take everything again, seeing as I've waited 'til after the vacation. Damn.
Anyhow, the only thing worth remembering is when Tiramisu and Base actually decided to do what I would like to call, 'stunts'. Base was trying to prove her strength and Tiramisu sadly was her 'target'. Unfortunately, the stunt didn't turn out so well and that caused them to end up in some obscene position I'd rather not describe. Hah, basically, Base's head got stuck in Tiramisu's butt. If you didn't know you'd prolly think they were trying to make out. It was bad, real bad.
Haven't had that feeling of a post-good run for such a long time; was great today. To be honest, am missing that adrenaline a 'lil. Maybe, after all, I'm put in T&F for a purpose. Perhaps, today I can finally convince myself: I love running, I really do. Just kind of sorry that I suck at it.
There isn't much time left to mug. Prelims is on its way. And Mrs Koh has a way of scaring us so bad while still maintaining an absolute straight face. Professional. To add on to that, workload for Prefects' stuff is getting much heavier. Everything's coming back again. Open Space, Head Prefect Elections Campaign Speeches, Voting Day, National Track & Field Championships, Leaders' Investiture, RHD, National Day.. Sure am choking.
Guess I can never put it into words well enough for you to understand.
You're the stage, that keeps me acting.
Listening: Somewhere In Between - Lifehouse
Monday, June 25, 2007 | 11:22 PM
Could we begin again, once upon a dream?
Survived Day One, though I can't say very well. Prolly the highlight of the day was that BFF and I didn't attend Jogging thanks to a nice little bird (who was suffering from diarrhoea or some shit). Spent the whole period in the toilet just trying to clean my blouse and wash my hair. So freaking retarded, felt like I was trying to bathe in school. Like, in a camp! Hah. It was so embarrassing ): When I told the recess clique about it, TTY just went "You know right, they always say that if a bird craps on you it'll bring you good luck. You shouldn't have washed it off, lah!" Haha, so aunty D: But ohmygoodness, no way I wouldn't kept it on my shoulder, no matter how much "luck" it's supposed to bring! Tsk.
But I'd like to think otherwise. As they say, Shit Happens. And literally, my dears. ):
That aside, Chemistry lesson was fun as well 'cause Cavewoman and I do believe that MC got turned on. The stupid EduSmart programme that he uses to teach us has useless videos and the oddest voice-overs. Today, she went, "Now, time for some fun!" and was being really seductive about it. Well.
Oh and the new Chemistry teacher looks like him. That is so freaky. Perhaps all Chemistry teachers are the same type. Haha. Except the new one is thinner, taller and his pants doesn't look like it's going to explode D: I'm evil. Face it.
Am getting so fat, don't think anyone's arms are even going to be able to give me a hug.
Hey Love, how have you been?
Listening: Room 21 - Hinder
Survived Day One, though I can't say very well. Prolly the highlight of the day was that BFF and I didn't attend Jogging thanks to a nice little bird (who was suffering from diarrhoea or some shit). Spent the whole period in the toilet just trying to clean my blouse and wash my hair. So freaking retarded, felt like I was trying to bathe in school. Like, in a camp! Hah. It was so embarrassing ): When I told the recess clique about it, TTY just went "You know right, they always say that if a bird craps on you it'll bring you good luck. You shouldn't have washed it off, lah!" Haha, so aunty D: But ohmygoodness, no way I wouldn't kept it on my shoulder, no matter how much "luck" it's supposed to bring! Tsk.
But I'd like to think otherwise. As they say, Shit Happens. And literally, my dears. ):
That aside, Chemistry lesson was fun as well 'cause Cavewoman and I do believe that MC got turned on. The stupid EduSmart programme that he uses to teach us has useless videos and the oddest voice-overs. Today, she went, "Now, time for some fun!" and was being really seductive about it. Well.
Oh and the new Chemistry teacher looks like him. That is so freaky. Perhaps all Chemistry teachers are the same type. Haha. Except the new one is thinner, taller and his pants doesn't look like it's going to explode D: I'm evil. Face it.
Am getting so fat, don't think anyone's arms are even going to be able to give me a hug.
Hey Love, how have you been?
Listening: Room 21 - Hinder
| 8:42 PM
"I just wanted to hold you in my arms."
25/6 0058h
Date, time, perfect. Brings you back to 2006.
Funny how 1 year on, and we're back to Square One.
Though slightly more.
We're strangers, but in a special way; somewhere in between the lines of love and acquaintance. But you're right: that which is missing comes across so much stronger.
Baby, I miss you.
25/6 0058h
Date, time, perfect. Brings you back to 2006.
Funny how 1 year on, and we're back to Square One.
Though slightly more.
We're strangers, but in a special way; somewhere in between the lines of love and acquaintance. But you're right: that which is missing comes across so much stronger.
Baby, I miss you.
Sunday, June 24, 2007 | 7:06 PM
Came at you in silence, my back at the wall.
Nothing's quite as interesting as before. Think everything has just slowed down (or quickened so much it has just gone into a blur?) into mugging, work, assignments, essays, deadlines, numbers, equations, formats and words. At least Cheryl's excited. Am not.
Went for lunch somewhere in Tiong Bahru today. I know, it has "ulu" written all over it. I don't know where that is either. But anyway, on the way back passed by this sign that read: "Yangtze River Restaurant". Oh my goodness, never knew that existed. Somewhere in Kim Tian Road. And, guess I'm really slow but I only found out today there's actually a Sun Yat-Sen Memorial Hall in Singapore. Righteous. Shall make a visit there before my History Prelims.
Can't help but marvel at how things end up. Now, prolly a change in direction. Though I still feel confused as ever. Am starting to miss something around here.
Am dreading school tomorrow. Really badly. Did you know if you're afraid of school, you're said to have schoolphobia? Coolio. Reckon I might be down with slight schoolphobia. Help, I need a doctor (:
Jerks will forever remain as jerks. But there's a jerk I love ♥
Listening: Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Nothing's quite as interesting as before. Think everything has just slowed down (or quickened so much it has just gone into a blur?) into mugging, work, assignments, essays, deadlines, numbers, equations, formats and words. At least Cheryl's excited. Am not.
Went for lunch somewhere in Tiong Bahru today. I know, it has "ulu" written all over it. I don't know where that is either. But anyway, on the way back passed by this sign that read: "Yangtze River Restaurant". Oh my goodness, never knew that existed. Somewhere in Kim Tian Road. And, guess I'm really slow but I only found out today there's actually a Sun Yat-Sen Memorial Hall in Singapore. Righteous. Shall make a visit there before my History Prelims.
Can't help but marvel at how things end up. Now, prolly a change in direction. Though I still feel confused as ever. Am starting to miss something around here.
Am dreading school tomorrow. Really badly. Did you know if you're afraid of school, you're said to have schoolphobia? Coolio. Reckon I might be down with slight schoolphobia. Help, I need a doctor (:
Jerks will forever remain as jerks. But there's a jerk I love ♥
Listening: Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Friday, June 22, 2007 | 8:55 PM
I'm ready to jump, just take my hand.
Officially the last day of the June vacation. Great, prolly the only reason why I should feel resentful at all is because it means I'm getting nearer to the 'O' Levels. Well.
Everything recently has been blah, can't think of a better word to put it across. That's why I haven't been posting either. Perhaps saving grace lies in the fact that I was allowed to go for CPB Picnic on Wednesday at East Coast. Sadly, couldn't stay out 'til late.. Cycling in the evenings down this really long straight road is always a joy; I've never been able to equate that equanimity to anything else. Almost.
Then when it was time to return home BUDDY went, "We're back to reality." Damn right you are, it couldn't be better put.
And tonight I'm searching for you, just waiting to brush your shoulder.
Listening: The Right To Write Me Off - Amber Pacific
Officially the last day of the June vacation. Great, prolly the only reason why I should feel resentful at all is because it means I'm getting nearer to the 'O' Levels. Well.
Everything recently has been blah, can't think of a better word to put it across. That's why I haven't been posting either. Perhaps saving grace lies in the fact that I was allowed to go for CPB Picnic on Wednesday at East Coast. Sadly, couldn't stay out 'til late.. Cycling in the evenings down this really long straight road is always a joy; I've never been able to equate that equanimity to anything else. Almost.
Then when it was time to return home BUDDY went, "We're back to reality." Damn right you are, it couldn't be better put.
And tonight I'm searching for you, just waiting to brush your shoulder.
Listening: The Right To Write Me Off - Amber Pacific
Monday, June 18, 2007 | 10:22 PM
Yesterday is a kid in the corner.
Am seriously ill, really ill.
No one needs you more than I do.
Am seriously ill, really ill.
No one needs you more than I do.
Friday, June 15, 2007 | 11:18 PM
So clear, like the diamond in a ring.
Another meaningless day spent on mugging. Geography and Physics, this time. Though, am a little disappointed I'm so far behind schedule. (If I even have one, that is.) The past week has been so useless. Wasted, yet another. And to think I thought completing the vacation homework within the first two weeks was possible. Then again, Week One was RMUN-dominated, so.
Found out 'bout the Confident Communicator workshop being 15-17 June only this afternoon. Damn, 'cause I'd already settled a study date for tomorrow morning! Plus, am so in the mugging mood now. Or at least I hope, more than before. It's already June. Can't help it.
Been hearing too much that's going 'round. Wish they'd all just shut their mouths. The Lord knows I'm not strong enough; I can't handle this. Great, now there's this feminist comment on my Cbox. Damn, I need to get to know all these anons.
You said "forever";
But it's forever in a transient dream.
Listening: Anything - The Calling
Another meaningless day spent on mugging. Geography and Physics, this time. Though, am a little disappointed I'm so far behind schedule. (If I even have one, that is.) The past week has been so useless. Wasted, yet another. And to think I thought completing the vacation homework within the first two weeks was possible. Then again, Week One was RMUN-dominated, so.
Found out 'bout the Confident Communicator workshop being 15-17 June only this afternoon. Damn, 'cause I'd already settled a study date for tomorrow morning! Plus, am so in the mugging mood now. Or at least I hope, more than before. It's already June. Can't help it.
Been hearing too much that's going 'round. Wish they'd all just shut their mouths. The Lord knows I'm not strong enough; I can't handle this. Great, now there's this feminist comment on my Cbox. Damn, I need to get to know all these anons.
You said "forever";
But it's forever in a transient dream.
Listening: Anything - The Calling
Wednesday, June 13, 2007 | 11:53 PM
Honey, it's been a long time waiting.
Boring day.
As I'd mentioned, went out to study today. Who could be better dates than my own 2 brothers? AMK Library is such a noisy place, though. Absolutely not conducive an environment to even try and focus in. That's why I go some place else.
Late bus rides home are always the climax. 'Specially when you've got music to plug in to. Makes me start thinking a lot, things I'm often too busy to even remember.
Am slowly falling apart. Have got to be saved from my iniquities. Wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start.. And I'd be okay; you're only just what I need. No superficiality. Promised.
Listening: Gravity - Embrace
Boring day.
As I'd mentioned, went out to study today. Who could be better dates than my own 2 brothers? AMK Library is such a noisy place, though. Absolutely not conducive an environment to even try and focus in. That's why I go some place else.
Late bus rides home are always the climax. 'Specially when you've got music to plug in to. Makes me start thinking a lot, things I'm often too busy to even remember.
Am slowly falling apart. Have got to be saved from my iniquities. Wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start.. And I'd be okay; you're only just what I need. No superficiality. Promised.
Listening: Gravity - Embrace
Tuesday, June 12, 2007 | 10:31 PM
I can't live on your Morphine, 'cause it's making me itch.
Been home the whole day, getting myself a little high on Organic Chemistry and the likes of it. Dang, I really want to go out somewhere tomorrow. Anyone for a study date?
Reckon I know nothing's quite the same now; there was a time when everything was perfect. But that's all gone now. Ain't that sad? Prolly just run away: it's always easier than dealing with the pain. Yet, I'll take my pain and I'll protect it.
I know I've been wrong, and I've made mistakes. Those problems we couldn't solve - and prolly might never in the future - are really the things that have come between. Isn't it clear that something's still left of it? I've been changing. Just because I'm sorry, doesn't mean I didn't try.. Promise I'll do anything you ask this time.
And I wish you were a stranger I could disengage.
But even then, you'd be the perfect stranger ♥
Listening: Miss You Like Crazy - Natalie Cole
Been home the whole day, getting myself a little high on Organic Chemistry and the likes of it. Dang, I really want to go out somewhere tomorrow. Anyone for a study date?
Reckon I know nothing's quite the same now; there was a time when everything was perfect. But that's all gone now. Ain't that sad? Prolly just run away: it's always easier than dealing with the pain. Yet, I'll take my pain and I'll protect it.
I know I've been wrong, and I've made mistakes. Those problems we couldn't solve - and prolly might never in the future - are really the things that have come between. Isn't it clear that something's still left of it? I've been changing. Just because I'm sorry, doesn't mean I didn't try.. Promise I'll do anything you ask this time.
And I wish you were a stranger I could disengage.
But even then, you'd be the perfect stranger ♥
Listening: Miss You Like Crazy - Natalie Cole
Monday, June 11, 2007 | 7:20 PM
If I'm alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?
Haven't had the chance tosneak use the computer for a few days now. Posts cannot be long, anyway. Recalling..
Saturday was okay. Guess I was pretty excited over the concert, so was kind of hoping the rest of the day would pass fast. And, surprisingly it did. Tuition was fine; turned out to be pretty fun especially Chemistry. Physics was a little awkward, there, 'cause Ghost was with her friend in front (so I couldn't talk to her), Ee Hwan and I haven't exactly hit it off and (of course) PAIL's absence did make things a little.. Quiet. Hah.
Concert was great. Think Cedar choir sang well, with the exception of the first song which they went slightly flat. But no comments from a certain someone, so I guess at least it passes? Some people left during the intermission, which I felt was really being a little too much. Then again you can't blame 'em 'cause they've really got the extra cash to spare and the sole reason they even bothered to show up was that Cedar choir was performing. So there, simple. But personally I think the Austrian choir was damn good and I love the Basses. I know the Sops tend to be the "main attraction" but no,
I LOVE THE BASSES!♥
Will you sing for me someday?
Yesterday went out on a study date with MES. On our way to the library there was - and I quote MES - "an interesting incident to brighten up our day". Certainly. This mad man (as in, ANGRYMAN) just came out of his car and starting shouting at a poor cab driver. And there was a passenger in the back seat! How traumatizing ): If it were me I might've ended up crying. Tsk. But honestly, the Indian man was totally berserk. He kept banging against the bonnet of the taxi and the familiar words "F you!" couldn't stop shooting from his mouth like the rounds of a machine gun. Freaky. He needs anger management, pronto.
Chemistry was really getting me down. But I'm proud to say that I've finally grasped the basics, as of today. Knew I could trust MES; I did exactly what the teacher said. Hah. We shall be studying more together ♥ And I'll be getting that A1, promise.
I tried denying it, but there's no getting over you. Think I'll be needing someone to do me some romance.
Listening: Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down
Haven't had the chance to
Saturday was okay. Guess I was pretty excited over the concert, so was kind of hoping the rest of the day would pass fast. And, surprisingly it did. Tuition was fine; turned out to be pretty fun especially Chemistry. Physics was a little awkward, there, 'cause Ghost was with her friend in front (so I couldn't talk to her), Ee Hwan and I haven't exactly hit it off and (of course) PAIL's absence did make things a little.. Quiet. Hah.
Concert was great. Think Cedar choir sang well, with the exception of the first song which they went slightly flat. But no comments from a certain someone, so I guess at least it passes? Some people left during the intermission, which I felt was really being a little too much. Then again you can't blame 'em 'cause they've really got the extra cash to spare and the sole reason they even bothered to show up was that Cedar choir was performing. So there, simple. But personally I think the Austrian choir was damn good and I love the Basses. I know the Sops tend to be the "main attraction" but no,
I LOVE THE BASSES!♥
Will you sing for me someday?
Yesterday went out on a study date with MES. On our way to the library there was - and I quote MES - "an interesting incident to brighten up our day". Certainly. This mad man (as in, ANGRYMAN) just came out of his car and starting shouting at a poor cab driver. And there was a passenger in the back seat! How traumatizing ): If it were me I might've ended up crying. Tsk. But honestly, the Indian man was totally berserk. He kept banging against the bonnet of the taxi and the familiar words "F you!" couldn't stop shooting from his mouth like the rounds of a machine gun. Freaky. He needs anger management, pronto.
Chemistry was really getting me down. But I'm proud to say that I've finally grasped the basics, as of today. Knew I could trust MES; I did exactly what the teacher said. Hah. We shall be studying more together ♥ And I'll be getting that A1, promise.
I tried denying it, but there's no getting over you. Think I'll be needing someone to do me some romance.
Listening: Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down
Saturday, June 09, 2007 | 2:36 AM
& there's nothing like your voice.
Before the night is done I just have to hear those sweet words, spoken like a melody.
Before the night is done I just have to hear those sweet words, spoken like a melody.
Friday, June 08, 2007 | 8:42 PM
Don't fix me when I'm not broken.
Went to j8 to mug today. Have to pick up speed with my work, really. Shit. Was with my brother, 'til he left with his j1 schoolmate to the library. Girlfriend? Hm. Possibly. Thus, decided to go solo. But at the library, met Lydia. She was meeting Xin Rui to mug at Bishan as well. Total coincidence. The library was filled and Lydia was in a skirt so the floor as an option was ruled out.
Mugged at Mos (again) for a few hours. Saw Adeline and Yuan Ting around 5. No wonder my brother says I know the world - I see people practically everywhere I go. Hah.
Choir concert tomorrow. Feels like a mini RMUN gathering, no? But prior to that, tuition. Can't believe I'm dreading it before it has even begun. Damn, this is bad. Hope the company will make up for it.
I feel so much like an idiot again. Jealousy can really screw you up so bad inside. Need a pill, someone. So I guess we're both game masters now; playing our separate games. Pity the pawns, really. After being stripped of my queenship, I've come back.. As a king. Stronger? Perhaps. But are we on par? I don't know.
Do masterminds battle it out as enemies, or do they give in and compromise, in lieu of the trade? Only this is clear: I need you, to win this game.
Listening: Take Me Away - Plain White T's
Went to j8 to mug today. Have to pick up speed with my work, really. Shit. Was with my brother, 'til he left with his j1 schoolmate to the library. Girlfriend? Hm. Possibly. Thus, decided to go solo. But at the library, met Lydia. She was meeting Xin Rui to mug at Bishan as well. Total coincidence. The library was filled and Lydia was in a skirt so the floor as an option was ruled out.
Mugged at Mos (again) for a few hours. Saw Adeline and Yuan Ting around 5. No wonder my brother says I know the world - I see people practically everywhere I go. Hah.
Choir concert tomorrow. Feels like a mini RMUN gathering, no? But prior to that, tuition. Can't believe I'm dreading it before it has even begun. Damn, this is bad. Hope the company will make up for it.
I feel so much like an idiot again. Jealousy can really screw you up so bad inside. Need a pill, someone. So I guess we're both game masters now; playing our separate games. Pity the pawns, really. After being stripped of my queenship, I've come back.. As a king. Stronger? Perhaps. But are we on par? I don't know.
Do masterminds battle it out as enemies, or do they give in and compromise, in lieu of the trade? Only this is clear: I need you, to win this game.
Listening: Take Me Away - Plain White T's
Thursday, June 07, 2007 | 8:30 PM
'Cause these words are my diary screaming out loud.
My brother came back from camp last night, so today there were three people in the house. Not like it was any better, though. Simply because he wasn't in the best of moods. Oh, and to think I actually missed him while he was away! Pfft. If you think living with guys is easy, try it. The only thing he has done that is justifiable since his return is to entertain the other brother. That said, I did attempt Halo with the latter, but due to severe lack of practice guess I don't make the cut for PIC (Partner-In-Combat) D: So credit goes to my older brother, I reckon. I'd really be much better off with GameBoy Advance. Burger Time, to be specific. Okay, so tell me I'm passe.
Met PAIL and Ee Hwan for lunch. Ee Hwan is cute. So cute that I really cannot imagine getting assaulted.. Okay, I was told to never mention that incident again. So I guess I shan't. But honestly, Ee Hwan must be such a sweet little rosy-cheeked girl, I don't think a punch is even humanly possible (:
On the way to their tuition centre (which will soon be mine as well), bumped into tiramisu and Sing Yee. Thus, I made a U-turn back to AMK Hub, and back to Mos. Deja vu, really. All the more when tiramisu let me in on something she'd been told. Prolly everything took a slide from then on; I started to rattle on meaninglessly and became listless. Tragic.
Mugging certainly isn't coming along fine. Am burning these hours, man. Geek was so in; fascinating to say the least. But the lasting effect? Burdened with repetition, awe soon turns to weariness and becomes drudgery. Perfect. So there goes the six. Or thirty.
That aside. Honestly, it's only because I don't bother, doesn't mean I'm not aware. But over time, I've come to accept. So let them bitch. Wouldn't it be great if I could just put my sorry self up for display and let them all condemn - not in the form of wary whispers or gossip BEHIND MY BACK but rather - through stoning as a form of expressing discontent. Got a problem? Throw a rock. Brilliant idea, no? If only.. But hey, it's a cruel world, I almost forgot.
Stop the doubts and discoveries. It's as blatant as asking why I changed the colour of my braces' brackets to green today - was it so I can camouflage stray bits of green, or so Balmnail would kiss me? Yes, that's how sick in the head it is. And dumb.
Listening: I'm So Much Cooler Than Your Boyfriend - Bop Skizzum
My brother came back from camp last night, so today there were three people in the house. Not like it was any better, though. Simply because he wasn't in the best of moods. Oh, and to think I actually missed him while he was away! Pfft. If you think living with guys is easy, try it. The only thing he has done that is justifiable since his return is to entertain the other brother. That said, I did attempt Halo with the latter, but due to severe lack of practice guess I don't make the cut for PIC (Partner-In-Combat) D: So credit goes to my older brother, I reckon. I'd really be much better off with GameBoy Advance. Burger Time, to be specific. Okay, so tell me I'm passe.
Met PAIL and Ee Hwan for lunch. Ee Hwan is cute. So cute that I really cannot imagine getting assaulted.. Okay, I was told to never mention that incident again. So I guess I shan't. But honestly, Ee Hwan must be such a sweet little rosy-cheeked girl, I don't think a punch is even humanly possible (:
On the way to their tuition centre (which will soon be mine as well), bumped into tiramisu and Sing Yee. Thus, I made a U-turn back to AMK Hub, and back to Mos. Deja vu, really. All the more when tiramisu let me in on something she'd been told. Prolly everything took a slide from then on; I started to rattle on meaninglessly and became listless. Tragic.
Mugging certainly isn't coming along fine. Am burning these hours, man. Geek was so in; fascinating to say the least. But the lasting effect? Burdened with repetition, awe soon turns to weariness and becomes drudgery. Perfect. So there goes the six. Or thirty.
That aside. Honestly, it's only because I don't bother, doesn't mean I'm not aware. But over time, I've come to accept. So let them bitch. Wouldn't it be great if I could just put my sorry self up for display and let them all condemn - not in the form of wary whispers or gossip BEHIND MY BACK but rather - through stoning as a form of expressing discontent. Got a problem? Throw a rock. Brilliant idea, no? If only.. But hey, it's a cruel world, I almost forgot.
Stop the doubts and discoveries. It's as blatant as asking why I changed the colour of my braces' brackets to green today - was it so I can camouflage stray bits of green, or so Balmnail would kiss me? Yes, that's how sick in the head it is. And dumb.
Listening: I'm So Much Cooler Than Your Boyfriend - Bop Skizzum
Wednesday, June 06, 2007 | 10:37 PM
When a lie becomes the truth.
Today was cool. Went to VivoCity with my brother in the afternoon, and stayed there right 'til dinner. Told you - I would get out somehow. Hah. I still think it's stupid, though, that I'm allowed to go anywhere, as long as it's to study. But I'm certainly not complaining. Hoho.
Met Peter at Carl's Jr. And I stayed there almost the whole afternoon finishing up my HMT while my brother roamed around. Was interesting (and annoying at the same time) the fact that I was sitting opposite this couple who couldn't stop bickering. Damn, guys and their chauvanistic views. Hah, sorry pardon me for eavesdropping but that guy's really got it bad. He was so burdened, I could tell from the way he spoke and complained about her mom. Tsk, parents. Then at DAISO, guess who I met! Deborah and Grace haha. Okay, I shan't go into details but Deborah was seemingly so shocked I was actually out with my brother? Hah.
Everything else between post-HMT and dinner was just plain nostalgia. Truth be told, I miss those days of innocence, when we would waste our time walking around aimlessly; just sitting together with the evening sun upon our faces and the wind in our hair.. Oblivious to the world around as we bask in the company of each other. I miss that, I really do.
And I can never shake off the habit of opening a conversation window when I sign in, yet not typing for the immense amount of emotions to be expressed in words - or the lack thereof - that overcomes.
Listening: Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) - Craig David
Today was cool. Went to VivoCity with my brother in the afternoon, and stayed there right 'til dinner. Told you - I would get out somehow. Hah. I still think it's stupid, though, that I'm allowed to go anywhere, as long as it's to study. But I'm certainly not complaining. Hoho.
Met Peter at Carl's Jr. And I stayed there almost the whole afternoon finishing up my HMT while my brother roamed around. Was interesting (and annoying at the same time) the fact that I was sitting opposite this couple who couldn't stop bickering. Damn, guys and their chauvanistic views. Hah, sorry pardon me for eavesdropping but that guy's really got it bad. He was so burdened, I could tell from the way he spoke and complained about her mom. Tsk, parents. Then at DAISO, guess who I met! Deborah and Grace haha. Okay, I shan't go into details but Deborah was seemingly so shocked I was actually out with my brother? Hah.
Everything else between post-HMT and dinner was just plain nostalgia. Truth be told, I miss those days of innocence, when we would waste our time walking around aimlessly; just sitting together with the evening sun upon our faces and the wind in our hair.. Oblivious to the world around as we bask in the company of each other. I miss that, I really do.
And I can never shake off the habit of opening a conversation window when I sign in, yet not typing for the immense amount of emotions to be expressed in words - or the lack thereof - that overcomes.
Listening: Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) - Craig David
Monday, June 04, 2007 | 10:16 PM
Under the shadow of the steeples.
Stuck at home the whole day with nothing to do but HMT ('cause I'm already done with Math, I don't want to do my Sciences yet, my textbooks for all Humanities are in school and - best of all - I don't know the assignment for English) really sucks. Kids, don't try this at home. It can kill, damn it.
Have to get out of this hell somehow. And I will. Oh, and did I mention: all 4 computers in the house are locked as well? After this, I'm off to fixing dates, pronto. Study dates.
And to think I might not see those eyes again makes it so hard not to cry.
Stuck at home the whole day with nothing to do but HMT ('cause I'm already done with Math, I don't want to do my Sciences yet, my textbooks for all Humanities are in school and - best of all - I don't know the assignment for English) really sucks. Kids, don't try this at home. It can kill, damn it.
Have to get out of this hell somehow. And I will. Oh, and did I mention: all 4 computers in the house are locked as well? After this, I'm off to fixing dates, pronto. Study dates.
And to think I might not see those eyes again makes it so hard not to cry.
Sunday, June 03, 2007 | 5:33 PM
Catch a lover by the toe.
Damn, Sunday afternoons are the bomb.
MES is back ;D Am really happy that we'll be able to meet soon, and that everything has been pretty much okay on both our sides. Or so it seems. That would suffice, won't it?
I dare not imagine. I dare not fathom. I dare not dream.
No longer, though this heart is convinced of its worth. But still, how much? How little? Everyone needs to see; something to know it's real.
P.S. Zac's off to Malaysia again ): And, I am grounded so don't ask me to go anywhere.
Listening: Run - Snow Patrol
Damn, Sunday afternoons are the bomb.
MES is back ;D Am really happy that we'll be able to meet soon, and that everything has been pretty much okay on both our sides. Or so it seems. That would suffice, won't it?
I dare not imagine. I dare not fathom. I dare not dream.
No longer, though this heart is convinced of its worth. But still, how much? How little? Everyone needs to see; something to know it's real.
P.S. Zac's off to Malaysia again ): And, I am grounded so don't ask me to go anywhere.
Listening: Run - Snow Patrol
Saturday, June 02, 2007 | 11:40 PM
Too many midnight promises.
RMUN Day Two
Think we moved faster on the second day. Well, we were still going 'round in circles at some points, but focus was deviated after lunch due to RMUN Crisis (which was so expected, by the way). The spotlights were immediately cast upon Iran and Israel - who have been, up to this point in time, rather quiet - to take the floor. So General Assembly One was tasked with having to keep the peace, as usual. Ohmygosh I think we were all so bored with the peacekeeping already! But there wasn't any choice.
Things didn't take a turn for the better, with the Security Council passing a resolution by Tea Break. Best of all, it was stated in the resolution that there was to be a peacekeeping unit led by the Russian Federation (oh, poor Kangkang) and that Iran was strongly urged to 'lighten up a lil' over the whole national sovereignty thing. But, Iran still decided to stick with going "under the guidance of Allah", which actually earned her more points I believe, for being firm on her country's stand.
More analogies sprang up, with France officially taking the title of "DRAMAMAMA". I was passing out notepapers crazier than ever, with the number of notes increasing so much so that they spread out into a fan. But that couldn't beat Shirley's record - she had a whole stack! Honestly, is pasta that attractive? ;D
RMUN Day Three
Last day was so freakin' exciting. The day started off with all of us being so high! Everyone was looking forward to D&D, I believe.
Had only 2 hours to debate. Was pretty bad, 'cause we had to rush out both resolutions for the Crisis as well as the Main topic. Thank God we managed to pull it off, though. Despite the absence of JC/Hungary. Apparently he and Marvin/USA spent 1.5 hours on the phone in order to strike a compromise! Hah, now I call them gay. Guys don't spend 1.5 hours on the phone with each other. Seriously.
After passing both resolutions, we were ecstatic. Unfortunately we didn't have time to move to the Secondary topic, or PPG would've submitted a shit resolution, under the orders of our Boss.
I love Bubbles! YAY, everyone knows time = money, bananas and lambs! Like who doesn't. Tsk. Anyway, Shirley/Italy, Doralyn/South Korea and I/Panama won the title for having the most notepaper passes and seemingly a certain kind of influence over the GA despite not taking the floor much. And Blossom was deemed as having the nicest voice?! Haha.
Fashion Parade was so weird. Everyone was horny and people started cross-dressing. Think it so put us off. And someone actually violated the sacred banana! ): Right, I shan't go into that.
D&D was the ultimate. We were all dressed to kill. Haha. The band was absolutely weird! But the music thereafter was awesome. We danced like there was no tomorrow. Well, at least I did. Dancing is therapeutic, yeh. It helps you forget everything, let your hair down (act emo!) and go crazy. You lose yourself, literally. Like, would Elyssa in the right mind actually dance on stage with ___? Hell, no. Another thing about D&D were the scandals. Oh, you see them EVERYWHERE. JC and I were just going crazy looking at couples. Hah! I know my BFF has a secret too :O
RMUN GA(I) LOVE! ♥
Oh, to the night that never ended-
POST-RMUN
Woke up feeling real high, still. Great.
But other things weren't so pretty. Got it from my Mom again today. Am really annoyed every time I get it on my back. Damn. And I hate homework. HMT, that is.
Unhappy things aside, went for dinner with my brothers 'cause my parents were out for a wedding dinner. Ah, it was great fun. Ought to do more of such, more often. It's really nice to be able to just sit and talk with your siblings once in a while; brings us closer anyway.
While we were at Cafe Cartel my older brother and I had an interesting conversation.
Him: *After picking our orders* Eh, I don't dare to ask. How?
Me: HUH. Just call the waiter over there lah.
Him: Sheesh, okay okay.
*After talking to the waiter*
Him: Man, I think I need to practice more.
Me: Yeh, to prepare for next time.. You're already 18, y'know.
*Looks to a couple beside us*
Him: Eh, observe them and tell me what to do.
Me: HAHA, okay. Make her laugh.
Him: What! I am not the type to make someone laugh.
Me: Okay then make her cry.
Him: Oh, that's much easier.
Right, and do I have to teach him how to be a good boyfriend? I know someone who can.
Wanted to stay out for the Happy Hour. But hey, my parents were going to come home, no? What a pity, because I really need to get high again. It kills everything, at least.
-
And we're only so far apart. Thanks for last night.
Listening: Stacy's Mom - Fountains Of Wayne
RMUN Day Two
Think we moved faster on the second day. Well, we were still going 'round in circles at some points, but focus was deviated after lunch due to RMUN Crisis (which was so expected, by the way). The spotlights were immediately cast upon Iran and Israel - who have been, up to this point in time, rather quiet - to take the floor. So General Assembly One was tasked with having to keep the peace, as usual. Ohmygosh I think we were all so bored with the peacekeeping already! But there wasn't any choice.
Things didn't take a turn for the better, with the Security Council passing a resolution by Tea Break. Best of all, it was stated in the resolution that there was to be a peacekeeping unit led by the Russian Federation (oh, poor Kangkang) and that Iran was strongly urged to 'lighten up a lil' over the whole national sovereignty thing. But, Iran still decided to stick with going "under the guidance of Allah", which actually earned her more points I believe, for being firm on her country's stand.
More analogies sprang up, with France officially taking the title of "DRAMAMAMA". I was passing out notepapers crazier than ever, with the number of notes increasing so much so that they spread out into a fan. But that couldn't beat Shirley's record - she had a whole stack! Honestly, is pasta that attractive? ;D
RMUN Day Three
Last day was so freakin' exciting. The day started off with all of us being so high! Everyone was looking forward to D&D, I believe.
Had only 2 hours to debate. Was pretty bad, 'cause we had to rush out both resolutions for the Crisis as well as the Main topic. Thank God we managed to pull it off, though. Despite the absence of JC/Hungary. Apparently he and Marvin/USA spent 1.5 hours on the phone in order to strike a compromise! Hah, now I call them gay. Guys don't spend 1.5 hours on the phone with each other. Seriously.
After passing both resolutions, we were ecstatic. Unfortunately we didn't have time to move to the Secondary topic, or PPG would've submitted a shit resolution, under the orders of our Boss.
I love Bubbles! YAY, everyone knows time = money, bananas and lambs! Like who doesn't. Tsk. Anyway, Shirley/Italy, Doralyn/South Korea and I/Panama won the title for having the most notepaper passes and seemingly a certain kind of influence over the GA despite not taking the floor much. And Blossom was deemed as having the nicest voice?! Haha.
Fashion Parade was so weird. Everyone was horny and people started cross-dressing. Think it so put us off. And someone actually violated the sacred banana! ): Right, I shan't go into that.
D&D was the ultimate. We were all dressed to kill. Haha. The band was absolutely weird! But the music thereafter was awesome. We danced like there was no tomorrow. Well, at least I did. Dancing is therapeutic, yeh. It helps you forget everything, let your hair down (act emo!) and go crazy. You lose yourself, literally. Like, would Elyssa in the right mind actually dance on stage with ___? Hell, no. Another thing about D&D were the scandals. Oh, you see them EVERYWHERE. JC and I were just going crazy looking at couples. Hah! I know my BFF has a secret too :O
RMUN GA(I) LOVE! ♥
Oh, to the night that never ended-
POST-RMUN
Woke up feeling real high, still. Great.
But other things weren't so pretty. Got it from my Mom again today. Am really annoyed every time I get it on my back. Damn. And I hate homework. HMT, that is.
Unhappy things aside, went for dinner with my brothers 'cause my parents were out for a wedding dinner. Ah, it was great fun. Ought to do more of such, more often. It's really nice to be able to just sit and talk with your siblings once in a while; brings us closer anyway.
While we were at Cafe Cartel my older brother and I had an interesting conversation.
Him: *After picking our orders* Eh, I don't dare to ask. How?
Me: HUH. Just call the waiter over there lah.
Him: Sheesh, okay okay.
*After talking to the waiter*
Him: Man, I think I need to practice more.
Me: Yeh, to prepare for next time.. You're already 18, y'know.
*Looks to a couple beside us*
Him: Eh, observe them and tell me what to do.
Me: HAHA, okay. Make her laugh.
Him: What! I am not the type to make someone laugh.
Me: Okay then make her cry.
Him: Oh, that's much easier.
Right, and do I have to teach him how to be a good boyfriend? I know someone who can.
Wanted to stay out for the Happy Hour. But hey, my parents were going to come home, no? What a pity, because I really need to get high again. It kills everything, at least.
-
And we're only so far apart. Thanks for last night.
Listening: Stacy's Mom - Fountains Of Wayne