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Sunday, March 30, 2008 | 7:05 PM

Maybe when I'm done with thinking
Maybe you can think me whole
Maybe when I'm done with endings
This can begin


A sight to behold,

& as I sat and watched the sky turn from yellow to gold to orange, to crimson red to purple then grey... I swore then and there, I'd kill myself should I ever dare do that again.

The time to move on was there.

It was time. Time to rise above.


17;
Keep a hold on me.


Friday, March 28, 2008 | 10:25 PM

Would it be all right
If we just sat and talked for a little while
If in exchange for your time
I give you this smile?


Finally, some time this week to sit down and update proper.

Tuesday

For Morning Assembly we had a special programme that involved all the Team SAJC sportsmen. We took the pledge and everything. The Captains stood in front of everyone, whilst the rest of us formed a sort of "contingent" right in the middle.

Cool, huh? :D

See Maria & Cel?
They'd specifically instructed us not to make them laugh but wtc!
(Click for enlarged view)

The main purposes were to kick start the Competition Season, as well as to encourage all the Team SAJC people. Ugh, that only reminded me of how near Season really is.

(Afterwhich, I honestly cannot remember what in the world took place that day for lessons but I found photos in my camera that reminded me of the camwhoring before GP Tutorial!)

CANDID: Benhui's sleeping, Xiayu's reading her manga and Eve's tying her hair!

I've no idea why I'm smiling like that! Maybe just trying to show off my teeth :B

HAHAHA okay so stupid. After school, Shi Qi and I headed down to Jurong Junior College to catch the Guys' Soccer Team match. It was SAJC vs. YJC! The journey there didn't seem that long, after all. Guess it was 'cuz we were talking most of the time :D Nevertheless, when we reached it was past First Half and we'd missed 2 goals! ): I tried desperately the whole game to look out for Andrew Fu and I didn't even take note of the substitution until all of a sudden I saw his jersey number out of nowhere! FREAKY.

And amazingly, my camera could capture pretty clearly the players on the field. Andrew's in every one of 'em photos, hah. Click to enlarge any of 'em!

See all the SAJC supporters in the foreground? :D

I think I see Kev in this one!

Andrew Fu & Kevin are in this one, as well as Andrew Ng who's making a save :D

Andrew, mwahahah!

Went home with Andrew Fu and we'd a good time chatting! Prolly the first time I've said so much to Andrew, hahaha. And, later on he got a bit carried away with the "Next Big Thing" thing! Tsk, tsk.


Wednesday

Can't recall much, honestly. But I know that PE was damn hiong! We ran 4 rounds for warm up - and it wasn't the slow aunty jog, mind you - then played Captain's Ball. It was through the Captain's Ball that we uncovered so many hidden talents. Like, Kai Leng's meng skills at defending and BenBen's ability to actually jump (?!), HAHAHA. Awesome stuff, it was :D And Mr Daryl (or Darren?) Ong played with us, even though Johnny commented that he's "so noob at everything else other than Rugby"!

For training, we'd a Friendly with Overseas Family School (OFS). The players on that Team are really big and strong D: Especially this giant, ohmygoodnessme. Cel had such a hard time marking her 'cuz she was like, more than a head taller!

Even though we were trailing 2-0 after First Half, we made an amazing comeback to win the game 4-3. Thanks to the effort put in by the players :D

Guess the funniest thing was their swearing, haha. And they even swore at the Ref, so much so that one of the girls got a Yellow Card! It was like, "FFFFF" everywhere O: Also, the way Narmadha imitated them was damn hilarious HAHAHA!


Thursday (Yesterday)

Was a helluva day, I swear.

First thing in the morning after Flag-raising, we went into the Geog Room for Civics and found a present there for us!

A DUSTBIN IN THE CENTRE OF THE CLASS, HAHAHA!

Ohmygosh, stinky ttm ): At the end, Mr Lian tasked Arica with having to bring the dustbin out. But Benedict the pok was kind enough to help, despite the stench! D:

HAHA, check out the expression on his face, yo!

Then during Math & Econs Lecture we got so super bored, Tracy and Shi Qi started playing with gummy bears! They threw this green gummy bear all over the place it was too disgusting to be consumed thereafter. Hence, Tracy took the liberty to vandalize it.. Thereby changing it into a work of art :D

Voila! It's even got a crown, awh.

In the afternoon before training, there was a Rugby match (SAS vs. PSS) at our field. We watched the match and I swear, I really don't get the game of Rugby. What's so fun having tons of people taupok-ing you all at once, over and over? Tsk. But that aside, the Rugby Team still is cool. And the tradition of old is awesome :D

GO SAINTS!

(Then the rest of the stuff that happened from post-training to this morning at 0200h++ need not be mentioned. Why, and whatever for, anyway?)

-

Am tired and zombie-like. 3 hours of sleep just ain't enough for me 'cuz I've been putting up with it for long enough. Mega-crazy ):

Friendly tomorrow with NTU.


19;
Fighting for my sanity.


| 2:01 AM

& all I need to do right now is



Cry.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 | 10:46 PM

Good day today, I'd say!

And yes, I'm a happy kid. Being 16+ is "WOOHOO" :D

Updates tomorrow.


22;
We're out of touch.


Monday, March 24, 2008 | 10:24 PM

We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes


Joleeen, Arica, Trace & I

Have got this disgusting rash thing coming up on my shin. Similar to the one I had last year. (Remember: I was in slippers to school for the longest time! And the dots were really really sick. Ugh.)

Okay I've to go now 'cuz Joe needs to hear my story :B


P/S. All the best to SAJC Guys' Soccer Team for their first FAS Nationals' Match against YJC tomorrow! (And, of course, to Andrew Fu hahaha.)


23;
Just to make it through.


Sunday, March 23, 2008 | 6:26 PM

I don't know about you
But I'd swear on my name
They could smell it on me
And I've never been too good with secrets


It's Easter today!



This song has been stuck in my head since like, forever :]

Yesterday was a good day, pretty much. As usual, sometimes I like to think that it's good, the fact that I don't have to worry about my days. Everything's planned out for me and I just go for it; though torturous in a way. Reminds me of a conversation I had with Marcus online on the Monday of the March Holidays:

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Tomorrow I'm busy from 8-4, Wednesday 11-9, Thursday 8-1 and 5-7, Friday 3-10, Saturday 11-9.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
But this is my schedule.

i love my voice. said:
haha you must love being busy

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Not that I do.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
It just happens.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Crawls up on me.

i love my voice. said:
haha!

i love my voice. said:
well thats sad ):

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Yeh, I guess.

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Oh well.

i love my voice. said:
haha you are funny.

i love my voice. said:
save some time for yourself

♥I do hereby swear a bounty on your heart. said:
Haha, I will try to.


Thanks for the advice, Dude.


Soccer was from 9-1. Earlier in the morning, though, we had Team Devotion. I didn't manage to make it on time for the entire sharing but apparently Coach read from the Bible and talked about how we should not forget God in all that we do. Indeed, "He holds the future". We prayed then got ready for training.

Training was interesting 'cuz we played Game at 10-minute intervals, and it was all video taped :] After 3 times, we went into a classroom to watch the video. It was embarrassing, the mistakes I actually committed! Being a Right Mid is so not easy, I swear. Aaaugh, but it was also cool to see that Marissa and I really do look quite alike on tape D: Tsk.

Gwen had brought her Micro Cube and was blasting the music. (Was it meant to be a help or a hindrance? Sounds so SS but nevertheless.) As of yesterday, though, it was agreed that her playlist was out and not well-received, HAHA. We'll prolly be coming up with a new SAJC Girls' Soccer Training Playlist or something! :]

After training we had donuts to eat 'cuz Mr Tan had bought the Team 30 donuts from Donut Factory! Oh yum ♥ There were extras so Beat brought them home, haha.

After training!

Everyone looks funny in this photo I don't know why.
(Click to enlarge)

Carin & Jo.

Team Lunch was at PP Macs. Sadly not everyone was present ): Towards the end, Maria and Cel gave the J1s an inspiring talk about FAS Finals 2007. It was crazy; we could literally feel the excitement in their voices and the pride that's once again reignited within them, as they spoke of Beat's goal and how we managed to clinch the Championship Title over VJ. Marissa, for one, was over the moon!

The "cool" table :]

Stupid Deb was asking me the boyfriend questions again! Tsk, tsk. And the rest of them at the table were suan-ing her about how, even at the age of 20, she was still single. Our topic then moved on to Soccer and as usual, Deb and I the Liverpool supporters got whacked by the Man U supporters ): I really must watch out during the Overnight Camp, in case Jo cuts off my hair or tortures me at night! O:

Rushed down to YF thereafter. Had a good time learning about Jesus as King :] Came home, skipped dinner and crashed at 2145h 'til 0700h this morning. HAHA I ROCK, WORHX.

Crap, I don't want the week to start all over again.


24;
Don't let me down.


Friday, March 21, 2008 | 4:24 PM

Drink up, baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy


& if I had eyes in the back of my head,
I would've told you that you looked good

As I walked away.


It's Good Friday today.



For Your love, Lord.

Thank God this week was shorter; only 4 days and I already felt I could die. Once school starts again, I'm done for ):

Schedule's been so packed, I hardly have time for anything else but lessons and Soccer. Even OG36 is missin' out on my loveeee, I swear. Oh bummer. But I can't say I'm hating this - Soccer is my (new) life, or so it seems :D

Got our jerseys and our Team SAJC shirts at yesterday's training! Wow, how exciting indeed. I desperately wanted #15 - 'cuz of Crouch, naturally - but the seniors were given priority - again, naturally - and Jo chose it ): Made me pretty upset but well, at least my second choice was available! And hence, I now don "16" on my back. (Same number as Germany's Lahm ♥)

Season's coming up and I'm starting to feel the pressure. Trainings are getting more on the emotional side and I don't know if it's a good thing. Coach recently shifted me over to Defence, so now I play CB. It's a pretty cool role, actually.


There's a need for change.


26;
You're heartbreaking work.


Wednesday, March 19, 2008 | 4:00 AM

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep 'cuz reality is finally better than your dreams."

Nonono, I'm up. It's GPGPGP.

:D

Sunday, March 16, 2008 | 7:42 PM

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight


Been lazy to update, recently. Too much crowding my life head ):

Holidays have zoomed past, for one. Ah well, I prolly should post about the entire week even though it's going to take a hell long time. Aaaaugh.


(Last) Friday-Sunday


PREP CAMP!! :]

It was much fun, and I must say, a good time of spiritual refreshment as well as bonding with the Christians in - and out - of SAJC. Throughout the Camp, was hanging around most with Benedict, Rach, Sam and Chesed. My Group Leader was Vincent and guess what, he's like my older brother's good friend, HAHAHA. (Apparently, studying partner, yo.) What a small world, I'd say D:

Learnt the importance and POWER of prayer, as well as fellowship. Was in the group I called "The Wanderers" 'cuz we were neither dancing nor in the band! Hence, we were assigned to help out with the Egg Factoids - don't ask me why it's such an odd name 'cuz I certainly didn't come up with it - and the wire-bending souvenirs :]

It was during the course of these Art & Craft sessions (of sorts) that I uncovered Emma's talent of being so ARTSY-FARTSY, tsk! Anyhoo, most of the time we were just being high and I think we gave Sharon a hard time. Heh, sorry.

Photos!:

Remember Kevin my giraffe? Stupid Sam was abusing it every night ):
(SOUNDS WRONG BUT YES.)

See the cross? :]

The sky was just pretty pretty! And that's when we marvel at God's handiwork.

Then during this Free Time slot, we all started sitting on the ledges of the second storey. Was kind of freaky, like I could fall any moment! D: Thanks to my fear of heights. But Benedict quoted from the Bible - and out of context, again! - that "He shall send His angels to surround you.." HAHAHA.

Chesed's like trying to emo; DRAMAAAA!

If you ask me, I think Sam's better at the emo-ing O:

Went home with Rach on Sunday morning. Bought Macs' Breakfast, takeaway! When I reached home I just stuffed my dirty laundry into the washing machine, took a shower and crashed.

The usual.


Monday

Woke up to a good morning, pretty much. Decided to mug. (But honestly, that didn't really give me a headstart anyway 'cuz I still have more than half my assignments undone..)

Training in the afternoon. Arrived tad late by the seniors' standards - I swear I didn't know about the half-hour rule! - and guess that made me feel pretty bad ): Nevertheless, I survived training, and I think I survived it well.

Following a pact made between God & I: Training was good, only 'cuz I'd committed it to prayer. Camp had taught me much, and I was determined to see prayer in action. With each round, I gave praise to His Name and I promised to give God the glory. Praise be to God, for He delivered, once again. I am proud to say I am a Christian and that, should anyone ask how I made it, I will be a testimony for Him ♥


Tuesday

Got influenced into attending Teen Games together with the Team, instead of attending AP/GP Lecture. 'Til now, I'm still clueless about that topic but I guess the time spent together with the Soccer Girls has made it all worth the while :]

Didn't know Teen Games was organized by Singapore Youth For Christ (SYFC) until we were made to listen to a small message that was preached. Interesting, indeed. But I guess that was good; bringing our focus back to God and not just all about the Game itself.

Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself thoroughly playing with my Team mates. GO SAINTS! Sadly, no camwhorage 'cuz I forgot to bring my camera. Some of the rest took photos but I've yet to get the photos from off them ):

Team Lunch was at United Square, Novena. We settled with Pastamania. I couldn't stay to interact, though. 'Cuz I'd my braces appointment! Alas, my braces have been removed. Have been dreading this day ttm D: Gahhh, I miss them so much!

IN LOVING MEMORY
Tuesday, 11 March 2008, 1420h: The moment Ely's braces ceased to exist.

Now I think I look odd. Wonderful.


Wednesday

OG36 had a Mugging Session in school, initiated by Joleeen. Unfortunately, I'd already made plans to study with BFF, Albert and Reuben. But things took a turn for the worse when BFF had to stay home 'cuz she was unwell ):

Left with Albert and Reuben. Novena Starbucks was cold, as usual. Nyehhh. Met Kevin there as well, though. Haha, wonder why he's always there; favourite hangout of sorts. The rest of the day went by okay. Everything was in replay when we went to Fish & Co. to eat again and yada yada. (I'll save the details for my own head, thank you.)

Training got cancelled 'cuz it was pouring the entire day! D: Amazing how it can rain so much, haha.

My brother's POP from BMTC took place. It was raining and all, plus my Dad forgot to take photos of the cap-throwing! Mannn, that's like one of the most significant parts. But still, I think it's cool my brother's out of Army.. For now! Finally, the first 3 months have passed. Praise God for taking care of him, and that his 'A' Level results weren't too bad :]

Met dajie and zl for dinner. I thank God for the opportunity for us to meet; it's been 2 years now and we're still going strong, yes? The Mini Zoo! :B I love you two so much and I'm glad that y'all are doing pretty much okay. Somehow, though, we always forget to camwhore, HAHA. Takecare ♥


Thursday

Teen Games again! :]

Siyi was late, HAHA. And the night before she still could message all of us and IN CAPS, saying we've to be at Little India station at 0730h, tsk. Arica woke late as well. It was funny 'cuz Suria called her and she went, "O-M-G, I'm late!" in a very shocked/sleepy/I-just-sat-up-in-bed tone.

The wet weather was pretty bad. Coach gathered us together before the start.

Coach: Any of you brought goggles today?
Us: -Stunned- Uh, no. Why?
Coach: 'Cuz today y'all will be diving.
Us: Huh?
Coach: See the fields? Like milo!


HAHAHA. But it was true. Throughout the course of the day we got muddier and muddier. It was stinky, above all ): Ah well, can't complain 'cuz there was this NJ Keeper that kept diving in order to save the ball, that after a few matches she was brown from neck down D: Mud spa, we call it!

In the end, the games had to be called off halfway. Pretty upsetting 'cuz we didn't get to finish it. Nevertheless, we'd a helluva time playing our hearts out, bonding and even making friends with the other teams! Our SAJC seniors participated in the competition as well - those who'd won FAS National Champions last year - and I must say, they're good O: The Deyi United players became our new friends.

Despite the rain, our spirits were never dampened and I think we were the most self-entertaining group over there! Sang in the rain, kicked around and at the end of it all, even washed ourselves in the flooded longkang. We looked like those Kampong Kids (and Narmadha was the worse 'cuz she literally sat in the drain I think she looked like some poor African kiddo) so much so that Coach and the seniors couldn't stop laughing at us! :]

Wati made the best comment ever: "See, who said girls are afraid of mud?"

I went home to get my stuff washed and to take a shower. Half of the group went to Coach's office to bathe/mug and the other half did the same at Suria's. We then met at Jalan Besar stadium at 1700h to watch the Lion City Cup match - UAE vs Chinese Taipei. UAE was like imba, 'cuz by First Half they'd managed to get 2-0 against Chinese Taipei. All the Chinese Taipei players were Arica's, HAH.

The final score.

Towards the end of the match the Australian players came and sat next to where we were seated, haha. Some of the guys are so cute that I think we got distracted ): Marissa somehow caught the attention of one of the guys and there was a bit of hoo-ha going on! Goodness me.

The Singapore and Australian Teams :]

The J1s sitting in the same row as me :]

My first photo with braces off! D:
(WHATTHEPOK, I LOOK UGLYYYY)

Haha, I stole a photo!

We watched the Singapore-Australia match only 'til Half-time. Then we made our way down to Bugis' foodcourt for dinner at about 9 :] Cel informed us that training for Friday was cancelled! All the better, anyway, 'cuz our boots were terribly wet from the morning D: Went home with Arica and Cel, and I'd a good time speaking with Cel, haha.


Friday

Woke with the intention of studying but it was futile.

Spent time preparing for YF Worship. Then headed down to j8 with my parents, had Mos takeaway and went straight to Church. Met Shermaine and Serene to discuss Worship. Left Church with Serene and Zac to Jo's party, while Shermaine stayed in Church to mug with Charles 'til late!

Think the 3 of us YFers felt out-of-place at Jo's, HAHA. 'Cuz all the little guys there were like 13 year olds and the rest of us, much older D: Sam Tan couldn't make it, that pok! Abandon his QT Partner only, tsk. When Jo's parents asked us how old we were, we all burst out laughing! (Serene's old enough to be Jo's Aunt already..) D:

Jo and Zac played the guitar whilst I just watched on. Then, Jo created his Facebook account! :] HAHAHA, he'd been waiting for this day just so that he can be of age - officially - to create one. How, innocent.

Then we had the cake-cutting and birthdaysong-singing time!

Mmm, strawberry cheesecake!

Here's the Happy Birthday Boy ♥


Saturday

Went to Church at 12nn to meet Shermaine and get our last-minute stuff ready for Worship rehearsal at 1330h. Rehearsal was okay, thank God.

Just before Worship, Shermaine and I were really nervous ): The Worship Team said a prayer and we started. Thankfully, though, He saw us through it. I knew I was afraid 'cuz my fingers were really cold D: Nevertheless, after it was over, Joey came and told me, "Elyssa, you've a very nice manly voice. I think I'll call you more often and talk to you over the phone!" HAHAHA. Sam Kwan also spoke to me and asked me how I felt; am glad he said I didn't sound nervous and in fact, sounded like my usual self :]

After YF, had intended to join EXCO at AMK for dinner. But I'd to join my family instead, 'cuz my brother's home this weekend. Ah well. Sam Tan was supposed to teach me Econs while I waited for my Dad to come pick me from Church but that pok stole my notes at first, then distracted me by making me talk about something else and finally, went to play Captain's Ball. POK! ):


OkaythatwasareallylongpostIthinkI'llstopnow.

Phew :B

Monday, March 10, 2008 | 11:03 PM

And I'm choking right along with the words in my throat
I'm falling back in love with the letter you wrote
And I think that I was wrong, but I guess I don't know
I figure that I'll wait until you tell me so


Are you there?
Sometimes it's so hard to tell.


Quote someone who posted this some place else:

"One day, I want to be the "you" in all those over-used quotes on your profile. One day, I want to count the little stars and have it add up to my name. One day, I want you to end every conversation with "I love you" or "Never leave me." And I wouldn't, leave you that is. It's only fair. After all the effort I've put in to finding the perfect quote to describe the exact emotion you put in my head, don't I deserve someone to do the same for me? Underneath all the "I'm glad I didn't die before I met you"s and the "The truth is I've never fallen so hard"s, there's a little girl, who wishes she could just take your hand and run away. I want to stand up on my tippy toes and kiss you gently on the cheek. I want your hand to reach down and push a lock of hair behind my ear. I want you to hold me, and cherish me, and love me. And only me. But, I know "I'm not your star" this time around. So goes another day of away messages revolving around such topics as "The only broken hearted loser you'll ever need" and "I'm sick of writing every song about you". But you'll never know that "you" really is you. And your "you" will never mean me."


&& to me, you're a part-time lover and a full-time friend

Thursday, March 06, 2008 | 10:38 PM

I'm so much like you
Caught in a moment, coming unglued
In a world so big, it's not easy to choose
Which path to take, which pawn to move
So we'll let go of everything we've ever known


Smile,
but it's only what we put in front.


Haven't had much time to post, let alone go online. Oh bugger, I'm looking forward to the full-swing JC life. Entirely.

We all face problems from time to time, but I thank God for sending grace and comfort - often through people - when I need it most :] These days, fasting has also taught me how to put aside worldly things and to focus on nothing else but Him alone.

Was just sharing with Benedict this morning how I enjoy Morning Worship so much. It prepares me for the day, and serves as a reminder how I should rely on His strength instead of mine.

(Things will work out fine, I'm sure.)

That aside, "All trainings have been cancelled, in pursuit of A. E." D: Ironically enough, we're having none whilst VJ have increased their training sessions to 5 times a week (i. e. Every school day, as we know it), damn. Nevertheless, whoever said anything about not having 'accidental trainings'? Plus, tomorrow morning's the time for our SILENT PROTEST: J1 Soccer Girls are going to wear boots + ankle socks with our school uniform for Assembly.

Tomorrow's my first ever Econs Test in SAJC, haha. What the shit, I'm so excited for the Preparation Camp that I feel like conveniently bypassing it now ): Quote Rachel: Stuff it man I'm going to sleep! HAHA.

Oh, and tomorrow's the release of the 'A' Level results for the J3s. Am worried for my brother but I'll be praying for him. Cool to see him in school, though. Heh.

AND YES, PREP CAMP ♥ :B

Monday, March 03, 2008 | 10:35 PM

When it all comes down, there's no one else to turn to. (Maybe, just maybe, S.)

But even then, there's only so much one can offer, before it becomes one of those "only you yourself can deal with it" things.

-

To whichever 'you' you are:

1) I trusted you, like I said I would. And you were right - though not always right -in the end. Still, trust can be easily misplaced. I wonder, what's the right thing to do now? I dare not judge, if this was the right thing to've done.

2) Even if I were to say "I love you", I won't mean it 100%. Is that what you want? Are you ready to settle for that? I'd rather you don't, and you tell me "no".

3) Give me assurance, like you've done so. I need to feel your presence; that you are by my side throughout this. You, are indispensable.


When it screws your heart over so bad, just let it go and sleep.

& so I will.

Saturday, March 01, 2008 | 10:21 PM

The longer that I'm out here, the better you sound
You're scrunching up your face in this picture I found
And I'm chasing after you, steadily losing ground
I miss you all the time but I'm blocking it out


Yesterday

CG 1.5 Bonding

Had CG Bonding Time yesterday at the Track/Gallery :] We're (1+2)/2=1.5! 'Cuz it's 08A01 and 08A02, HAHA. Tawan came up with that formula, of sorts.

We took tons of photos and I think we look pretty unglam in most of them! But I guess that's the purpose of candid shots, no? Tsk. Will upload the photos to FB when I have more time. (Recently everything's starting to flood in again. JC life in full-swing, coming right up.) Sigh.

Anyhoo, Michael got taupok-ed yesterday as well D: It was the consequence of losing a carom game he was playing with the guys in the SC! Ohmysheesh, you should've seen the Army of guys that came down on poor Michael. Nevertheless, he survived! HAHA. Didn't manage to take a vid but I took photos!

After school, went out with some of the OG36 people, to meet Kris, Rachel and Ho Yuen CW! Walked around PS and ate dinner at Pastamania together, 'cuz Ho Yuen CW had the Membership Card, heh :]


Today

Training turned out to be Team Time! Fun, ttm :]

It was a good chance to get to know the Team better. We had sandcastle-building from 8-10am, then Indoor Soccer at Futsal from 11-12nn. Was super tired and that hindered my performance ): The arches of my feet are aching so badly now.

Had Team Lunch at Burger King! All 23 of us sat together 'cuz we joined tables, haha. And made noise, and some people (Gwen, Siyi, Maria, Beatrice) were jamming! Deborah tried singing but what in the world, I really wouldn't want to comment D:

Sadly enough, I brought my camera today but forgot the battery ): Mehhh. Hence, no camwhorage AT ALL and I'm pretty upset over that. Oh well, it was good time spent.


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I feel random now. And I'm on Messenger!

JAPPY. says:
and i bought fbts!

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Haha, what in the world?

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Why so random!

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
You mean FBT curve cut ah?

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
D:

JAPPY. says:
haha

JAPPY. says:
NOPE

JAPPY. says:
not curve cut

JAPPY. says:
im sure i so gay lah

JAPPY. says:
haha

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Hahaha, I'd faint if you do D:

JAPPY. says:
aha

JAPPY. says:
if u lend me yours i'd wear it!

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
HAHAHA.

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Okay I lend you my red one :]

JAPPY. says:
omg

JAPPY. says:
that's damn gay.

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
Then next day I buy electric blue you wear!

JAPPY. says:
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

JAPPY. says:
(i like.)

♥I'm going sleepless and you're out of lullabies. says:
HAHAHA.

JAPPY. says:
i reailsed smth

JAPPY. says:
how am i gonna fit -.-


HAHAHA, Japheth is so gay sometimes.