Complete and total adoration
My gift to you, my heart was yours
In ten weeks you shaped it
In one night you murdered it
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet
My gift to you, my heart was yours
In ten weeks you shaped it
In one night you murdered it
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet
Jessica's birthday celebration!Today was a tiring day, but I'd loads of fun ♥
I'm not exactly thinking now; my brain's currently malfunctioning ): Mehhhh. But yes, the 2 main highlights today are:
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, JESSICA :]
OG27 celebrated it for her after school at LDF. We'd a cute cake and everything. The present was this plushie we'd shared the cost for.
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The other highlight happened after school!
NYJC Girls' Soccer Team ♥Soccer Tournament Match #2. Played against GESS today - the German girls. They're so good, I tell you ): We were thrashed, 10-0! Yes, believe it. HAHA. Nevertheless, it was a Good Game, and I mean it :]
Coach said we played better. And so did our Captains. Plus, right now I'm feeling so egoistic just 'cuz Coach praised me. "Good running", was what she said :] And I'm sure, la! I mean, today was the first time ever since I stopped training in Cedar that I'd sprinted so hard.
Good push today, though. The player I was marking was crazily fasttttt. Some kind of Speed Machine ):
Okay I need sleep, pronto. Stupid Econs Test.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008 | 10:53 PM
Now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free
Ain't it the truth?
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free
Ain't it the truth?
Sarah, I miss you! D:School's been pretty much okay, though recently, it's turning into a nightmare. Mini one, thankfully. (But even then.)
Can't think straight right now. The few
1. Soccer Tournament Match 2 tomorrow!
2. Today was a helluva day.
3. Betrayal is the last thing I need.
4. Commend me for not skipping Geog Seminar today :]
5. Can't wait for Jessica's Birthday Celebration thing.
6. Joshua Tan if you're here, I'm angry so go awaaayyyyyy ):
7. ____ Trouble, Burst My Bubble.
Stupid Econs test on Thursday. After tomorrow's Match I won't have time to mug. I can just go and die now.
(I hate the way I've been blogging.)
Anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD :]
Sunday, January 27, 2008 | 10:42 PM
Happy 17th, Wanping! ♥
Love you so much, BFFAEZXZXZ!Babe, you mean too muchhhhh.
You, Me, Us, Time :]
You, Me, Us, Time :]
| 5:11 PM
And the moment I clicked "Submit", the struggle was over.
SAJC: Here I come ♥
Thank God for wisdom.
Michelle, my Soccer Buddyyyy :]
Yesterday morning, had first match of the Soccer Tournament. Played against SRJC. Lost 1-0 to a penalty kick (in which the referee wrongly gave!). Aye, but nevertheless, we'd fun.
Was pretty surprised Coach played me for the entire Second Half. Actually, it's amazing how I even got chosen into the 2nd Team. Good for Rachel and Peiqi; the only 2 J1s who played as part of the first 11!
Centre mid, I was. Oh bugger, other than having to run so much - which I actually don't really mind - I was put up against SR's mid-fielders. And they are all J2s ): How freaky and big. I didn't dare be that aggressive. There's this person called Farah (#8) she's so hiong, she kicked my ankle when I intercepted the ball. Now there's this bruise, oh what in the world.
Can't wait for Monday's training. Which is, tomorrow! HAHAHA :]
(Photos are uploaded onto FB. Click on the link in the right-hand side column under 'Picture-Perfect'!)
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After the match, headed down to Dhoby Ghaut, PS with some of the seniors. Went to DAISO to buy stuff for Ke Li's birthday present! The seniors were getting so excited with all the cute things we found there. Think though it might seem inexpensive that everything's just $2, at the rate they chucked stuff into the basket, it'd easily amount to a fair sum D:
Met OGMs (and 1 OGL) for lunch. Morgan, Carlton, Cheryl and Albert. Nigel came later on, when I was about to leave for YF!
Ewww, I look ugly next to Morgan Estee Kek Yashi ):
Check out the dressing, yo!
(I refuse to believe Nigel is a 17 year old to-be.)
Some kind of illusion?
Nawww, it's just Carlton proving Albert's short! :]
Have got no idea what in the world they did after I left for Bishan at 1530h. Think they managed to find something to do. Lunch was short but our conversation was pretty okay. Centred mainly on Soccer and JAE Choices. Well.
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YF Camp Echo was good :]
Catching up with Sydney and all! Though not everyone was present. Oh well. Anyway, seeing Just reminded me of a very important announcement I forgot to make a few days ago D:
THE ARMY GUYS ARE BACK. FINALLY, AFTER 2 WEEKS. MY BROTHER'S BACK, TOO! BUT HE'S ILL ):
Okay, that aside. Prayer was good, with Junipher. We'll keep each other in prayer :] Stay strong, you. 'O' Levels, no biggggg ♥
Anyway I'm still so confused about where to go for JAE. My shitty results ain't giving me much choice. My fault, I'm sure. Spoke to some of the YFers after YF ended. Bob and Just were obviously asking me to go to SA, mehhhh.
Edric was being nice and encouraging :] He shared with me his 'O' Level results and said mine really weren't all too bad. I guess so. Thanks, you! But right after that he and Shaun were like going "ALAMAKKKK" (in that manner) when I told them I was in Girls' Soccer -.- Stupid. Cannot believe I am so cool, I know D:
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At night, went for a Special Dinner with my family.
Celebrated my Dad's birthday, my results (?!) and the fact that my brother's back. Actually my Dad's birthday's on the 29th, but since my brother's going to Camp tonight, it's got to be done earlier.
(Speaking of results. I can't help but think about it so much. My parents were talking about my cousin's again today and I felt like shit. I know I suck so bad. I suck worse than a straw. Sometimes I wish I could tell them all to 'shut up' and that I'm going to prove them otherwise in 2 years. But I won't. I'll wait, for the right time to shine.Keeping it inside can be such a burden, but I don't give a shit. Let me diediedie.)
Saturdays are busy days.
The day we declared it a "Non-School Day";
♥
Those pictures were taken on the last day ever I thought I'd live to see myself happy: 23rd January 2008. Mehhhh.
Anyhoo, I pon-ed every single Lecture and Seminar that ran, on the Wednesday before the fateful Thursday D: It was, some kind of an experience. But it's when you realise what good friends you've come to make, albeit temporal (or so I do believe).But sometimes all we need is trust. Trust, Ely.
Zhiwen, Jessica & Morgan: Thanks for all 'em memories. Playground and all :] Love.
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Match tomorrow. Suddenly I'm getting butterflies in my stomach ):
TOOWMS told me: "Like any other soccer fan, go in there and be your favourite soccer player." Oh, how in the world? Bummer, I sure wouldn't want to have to do the Robot Dance when I do score. Even though it's cool, I admit. (HAHAHA Crouch I love youyouyou! ♥)
Tomorrow's going to be a busy day. Hopefully I can (finally) make it for an OG Outing :] Then it's YF Camp Echo thereafter! Sydney Sydney is the besttttt. Amazing I can still get this excited over everything. Carlton told me not to be emo. I won't, okay?
That's why, darling, it's incredible - how someone so unforgettable, would find me unforgettable,
too.
SAJC: Here I come ♥
Thank God for wisdom.
| 3:19 PM
I've got these perfect pictures in my head of possibility
It was the words you whispered then
They led me to believe
You led me to believe
But it's not right and you know it
It was the words you whispered then
They led me to believe
You led me to believe
But it's not right and you know it
Michelle, my Soccer Buddyyyy :]Yesterday morning, had first match of the Soccer Tournament. Played against SRJC. Lost 1-0 to a penalty kick (in which the referee wrongly gave!). Aye, but nevertheless, we'd fun.
Was pretty surprised Coach played me for the entire Second Half. Actually, it's amazing how I even got chosen into the 2nd Team. Good for Rachel and Peiqi; the only 2 J1s who played as part of the first 11!
Centre mid, I was. Oh bugger, other than having to run so much - which I actually don't really mind - I was put up against SR's mid-fielders. And they are all J2s ): How freaky and big. I didn't dare be that aggressive. There's this person called Farah (#8) she's so hiong, she kicked my ankle when I intercepted the ball. Now there's this bruise, oh what in the world.
Can't wait for Monday's training. Which is, tomorrow! HAHAHA :]
(Photos are uploaded onto FB. Click on the link in the right-hand side column under 'Picture-Perfect'!)
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After the match, headed down to Dhoby Ghaut, PS with some of the seniors. Went to DAISO to buy stuff for Ke Li's birthday present! The seniors were getting so excited with all the cute things we found there. Think though it might seem inexpensive that everything's just $2, at the rate they chucked stuff into the basket, it'd easily amount to a fair sum D:
Met OGMs (and 1 OGL) for lunch. Morgan, Carlton, Cheryl and Albert. Nigel came later on, when I was about to leave for YF!
Ewww, I look ugly next to Morgan Estee Kek Yashi ):
Check out the dressing, yo!(I refuse to believe Nigel is a 17 year old to-be.)
Some kind of illusion?Nawww, it's just Carlton proving Albert's short! :]
Have got no idea what in the world they did after I left for Bishan at 1530h. Think they managed to find something to do. Lunch was short but our conversation was pretty okay. Centred mainly on Soccer and JAE Choices. Well.
-
YF Camp Echo was good :]
Catching up with Sydney and all! Though not everyone was present. Oh well. Anyway, seeing Just reminded me of a very important announcement I forgot to make a few days ago D:
THE ARMY GUYS ARE BACK. FINALLY, AFTER 2 WEEKS. MY BROTHER'S BACK, TOO! BUT HE'S ILL ):
Okay, that aside. Prayer was good, with Junipher. We'll keep each other in prayer :] Stay strong, you. 'O' Levels, no biggggg ♥
Anyway I'm still so confused about where to go for JAE. My shitty results ain't giving me much choice. My fault, I'm sure. Spoke to some of the YFers after YF ended. Bob and Just were obviously asking me to go to SA, mehhhh.
Edric was being nice and encouraging :] He shared with me his 'O' Level results and said mine really weren't all too bad. I guess so. Thanks, you! But right after that he and Shaun were like going "ALAMAKKKK" (in that manner) when I told them I was in Girls' Soccer -.- Stupid. Cannot believe I am so cool, I know D:
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At night, went for a Special Dinner with my family.
Celebrated my Dad's birthday, my results (?!) and the fact that my brother's back. Actually my Dad's birthday's on the 29th, but since my brother's going to Camp tonight, it's got to be done earlier.
(Speaking of results. I can't help but think about it so much. My parents were talking about my cousin's again today and I felt like shit. I know I suck so bad. I suck worse than a straw. Sometimes I wish I could tell them all to 'shut up' and that I'm going to prove them otherwise in 2 years. But I won't. I'll wait, for the right time to shine.
Saturdays are busy days.
Friday, January 25, 2008 | 11:16 PM
Say "nighty-night" and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
The day we declared it a "Non-School Day";♥
Those pictures were taken on the last day ever I thought I'd live to see myself happy: 23rd January 2008. Mehhhh.
Anyhoo, I pon-ed every single Lecture and Seminar that ran, on the Wednesday before the fateful Thursday D: It was, some kind of an experience. But it's when you realise what good friends you've come to make, albeit temporal (or so I do believe).
Zhiwen, Jessica & Morgan: Thanks for all 'em memories. Playground and all :] Love.
-
Match tomorrow. Suddenly I'm getting butterflies in my stomach ):
TOOWMS told me: "Like any other soccer fan, go in there and be your favourite soccer player." Oh, how in the world? Bummer, I sure wouldn't want to have to do the Robot Dance when I do score. Even though it's cool, I admit. (HAHAHA Crouch I love youyouyou! ♥)
Tomorrow's going to be a busy day. Hopefully I can (finally) make it for an OG Outing :] Then it's YF Camp Echo thereafter! Sydney Sydney is the besttttt. Amazing I can still get this excited over everything. Carlton told me not to be emo. I won't, okay?
That's why, darling, it's incredible - how someone so unforgettable, would find me unforgettable,
too.
| 2:39 PM
And when he said this to me:
"you'll be okay. take that piece of paper out, the paper that reads "HOPE". hold on to that, for we've done our best. it's not the results, it's the process. now i believe that claim. Doubt not, for you're adequate."
Tears down my cheeks; why, oh why.
But you fill me up, just like a balloon. ♥
Earth hath no sorrow Heaven cannot heal.
Despite having this hangover feeling - prolly from getting drunk with grief - I'm pretty much okay. Am learning to get over it, and to be thankful for what He has given me. After all, I've thought about it, and it's true; my results are merely a painful reminder of the past. It's a punishment for the shit I've done in Secondary School. I know now.
(If at this point of time you don't already know how it turned out for me, don't bother asking. I'm sick of those questions already. You're going to make me feel worse than I already do. And take my word for it, I will screw you over so bad. Basically, STAY AWAY.)
Results aside, am thankful for friends. On the way to school, Sam messaged me. He was encouraging and told me, "Don't worry because it will not take away the burden, but instead the strength for tomorrow". Thanks, Sam ♥
Also, was good to be back in Cedar. I miss the school so much - both place & people. Friends, teachers, juniors, values, stories, moments, practices, memories.. LIFE.
The new Prefects' Room (PR) is so nice,
like twice the size!
EXCO and our coloured socks O:
& I miss taking photos of Eunice, Inez and Deborah like this,
like how I used to.
Cedar's excellent results :]
(Click for enlarged view.)
4/O's table of impending doom D:
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My supposed EXCO Outing thereafter was a bit screwed up. Abi, Vicky and Arica all had other commitments so it was left with Sin, Jen, Ping and I. Caught the flick "27 Dresses" (actually we'd chosen it really because of Vicky but in the end she didn't come?!). Thought it'd be bimbotic but. Turned out to be pretty romantic [:
I teared at the end, when she got married. And it's pretty rare I actually cry at the movies, mind you. Well. P'haps it was just that I was already emotional yesterday, to begin with D:
I just miss EXCO, this much ♥
Happy moments, exist.
I feel sorry.
Dying to finish off this sorry self.
Results tomorrow. I feel angsty. But perfect timing, you do have. Was it intentional? Or was the blade just attracted to the dummy. I honestly cannot tell.
(Stupid idiot egghead mehhhface) D:
Oh just kill me now.
"you'll be okay. take that piece of paper out, the paper that reads "HOPE". hold on to that, for we've done our best. it's not the results, it's the process. now i believe that claim. Doubt not, for you're adequate."
Tears down my cheeks; why, oh why.
But you fill me up, just like a balloon. ♥
| 9:49 AM
When you sail across the ocean waters
And you reach the other side safely
Could you smile a little smile for me?
'Cause I'll be thinkin' about you
I'll be thinkin' about you
Could you smile a little smile for me?
'Cause I'll be thinkin' about you
I'll be thinkin' about you
Earth hath no sorrow Heaven cannot heal.
Despite having this hangover feeling - prolly from getting drunk with grief - I'm pretty much okay. Am learning to get over it, and to be thankful for what He has given me. After all, I've thought about it, and it's true; my results are merely a painful reminder of the past. It's a punishment for the shit I've done in Secondary School. I know now.
(If at this point of time you don't already know how it turned out for me, don't bother asking. I'm sick of those questions already. You're going to make me feel worse than I already do. And take my word for it, I will screw you over so bad. Basically, STAY AWAY.)
Results aside, am thankful for friends. On the way to school, Sam messaged me. He was encouraging and told me, "Don't worry because it will not take away the burden, but instead the strength for tomorrow". Thanks, Sam ♥
Also, was good to be back in Cedar. I miss the school so much - both place & people. Friends, teachers, juniors, values, stories, moments, practices, memories.. LIFE.
The new Prefects' Room (PR) is so nice,like twice the size!
EXCO and our coloured socks O:
& I miss taking photos of Eunice, Inez and Deborah like this,like how I used to.
Cedar's excellent results :](Click for enlarged view.)
4/O's table of -
My supposed EXCO Outing thereafter was a bit screwed up. Abi, Vicky and Arica all had other commitments so it was left with Sin, Jen, Ping and I. Caught the flick "27 Dresses" (actually we'd chosen it really because of Vicky but in the end she didn't come?!). Thought it'd be bimbotic but. Turned out to be pretty romantic [:
I teared at the end, when she got married. And it's pretty rare I actually cry at the movies, mind you. Well. P'haps it was just that I was already emotional yesterday, to begin with D:
I just miss EXCO, this much ♥& to You, my Stalker:
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key;
Sing me anything,
We're glad for what we've got.
♥♥♥
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key;
Sing me anything,
We're glad for what we've got.
♥♥♥
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 | 10:29 PM
There must be something wrong with me
My mind is just a sickly little alibi
And why am I surprised you're giving up on me?
"Goodbye", the word you're wielding like a knife
My mind is just a sickly little alibi
And why am I surprised you're giving up on me?
"Goodbye", the word you're wielding like a knife
Happy moments, exist.I feel sorry.
Dying to finish off this sorry self.
Results tomorrow. I feel angsty. But perfect timing, you do have. Was it intentional? Or was the blade just attracted to the dummy. I honestly cannot tell.
(Stupid idiot egghead mehhhface) D:
Oh just kill me now.
Monday, January 21, 2008 | 10:56 PM
'Walking on a tightrope says:
i've got a confession to make
♥Thy, my Knight of all. says:
Yes?
'Walking on a tightrope says:
didnt see you around in school these few days and i kinda missed you :D
Steph is so sweet! Thanks, Babe [:
It's what the Night does, I swear. I feel like shit now - useless, small, paltry.. And the list goes on.
So here's my hand; pull me up ♥
Janelle, at the Grand Stand.
Oh, and did I forget to mention: I wore Cheryl's SNGS pinafore today. Felt pretty weird in one; haven't put on something like that since 4 years ago (the Rosyth uniform). Still, enjoyed prancing around in a dress-like thing. But pretty annoying when the wind blows, mehhhh D:
Didn't manage to find my boots. Am going to Queensway tomorrow. But now I have CH telling me he can get me a 30% discount for Adidas boots. What in the world? This is confusing the shit out of me ): As it is, dragged my sick self around Singapore today just looking for a pair of shoes. Bummer.
Will be going to school tomorrow. Even though Leonard told me, "Eh if you're sick tomorrow don't act man and come school okay. Later you halfway go back again". Heh, I was never acting "man", okay! (Have always been part-guy, hahaha.)
Help, Econs Tutorial nowwwww.
'Cuz you girls make me so happy ♥
We had our NY Cedarians' Birthday Celebration kind of thing this morning. It was so much fun, though I'd overslept 40 minutes and hence missed the crux: THE BIRTHDAY SONG, (Cedar Version)! Oh dangit ):
Nevertheless, all 'em other Blue & Grey people were waiting for me in the Tennis Court. We did Billy Banja and made Yin Xue sing for us. Cedarians are always noisy and loud and we attract attention (or so some say), but who gives a damn? It's the passion and verve we actually feel, deep down inside of us all [: Plus, wearing the uniform just makes it all the more better.
(& I'm sorry Babes, I know the Blue & Grey is sacred and I shouldn't have lent it out. Butbutbut.. Okay nevermind, just don't kill me. Anyway, if it makes y'all feel better, I know how hard it is, having earned our way to wearing only the nicest uniform on Earth. If you're not a true Cedarian, it sure looks weird on you. So yes, we're the only deserving ones, yeh? D: Bugger.)
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That aside, I'm blogging at this time only because I came home early from school. Was having super bad diarrhoea tendencies. Carlton and Morgan walked me out of school. Morgan gave me the sweets (as promised!) and Carlton was so sweet. He carried my bag for me and flagged the cab. Even offered to pay for the fare but naturally I refused, even though he chucked $20 into my hands and sent me off D:
The only thing that has made me happy today is the Cedar Celebration. Everything else was screwed up.
Am playing Peacemaker for the OG. What kind of shit has arose, I've no idea. To think I thought my shit this morning - literally - was bad enough. Nyehhhh.
Have got to rest, so that I can recover for Lectures/Seminars tomorrow, Games' Day this Wednesday, training/results on Thursday, results on Friday and the Tournament Game on Saturday.
Soccer boots' shopping today. UK 7.5 [:
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Anyhoo, this is going to be so random but, I just realised my blog looks ugly on IE. Please, for all your eyes' sake, DON'T VIEW MY BLOG ON IE. Use FF, okay? Pretty, pretty please, with a durian on top ):
P/S. If you don't understand what I just said about 'IE' and 'FF', you seriously need to brush up a bit on your Computer Language. Try taking up Computing as a H2 subject, maybe? D: Or better, go find out.
Calvin is so cute.
I've come to post with a few announcements.
#1 - EXPECT TO SEE ME IN SCHOOL TOMORROW Y'ALL :B I don't care.
#2 - I'M TAKING MY BRACES OFF ON TUESDAY, 22nd JAN. Hence, any photo requests with this Braceface had better be done, pronto. (Don't say I didn't inform you!)
#3 - THINK FOR JAE, I'LL BE SIGNING UP FOR COUNCIL. Whichever JC I go, it don't matter. Elyssa has a Council face, and is totally Council-like. She cannot resist it any longer ): Damn.
P/S. Couldn't find my size for Soccer boots. Getting 'em tomorrow, some place else, after school.
And I've got You, to make me feel stronger ♥
Just a little bit.
Have taken ill since Saturday morning.
It's the result of training and rushing into an air-conditioned LT without food for more than 2 hours. The stupid Parents'/JC Talk thing does wonders, I swear. I mean, surely you've to call one night of that and getting sick the next day.. A TOTAL MIRACLE? D: Mehhhh.
Being this ill sucks. Threw up yesterday evening. Finally, after trying to do so the whole day. The entire process was too surreal; I felt like I could die. 'Cuz I couldn't breathe for a moment. It was freaky, trust me ):
Nevertheless, still feeling light-headed. Have thought about not going to school tomorrow. Taking a break, of some sort. But ack, I've made too many commitments for Monday. Am going to have to miss Soccer, shit ): I know quite a few will be upset if I'm not around. Here's an MSN conv to prove it:
Pez. said:
tmr i give you sweet k
Pez. said:
then you'll get better
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Okay [:
Pez. said:
life without elyssa feels weird even though im not close to you
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Thanks for saying that, Morgan. Haha, at least I know I've made an impact somewhere..
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
[:
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Warms the heart, it does. Haha.
Pez. said:
heh
Awh, Morgan! ♥ And Leonard said if I don't go to school tomorrow he's going to miss me too D: My friends are so cute, haha.
And also, tomorrow morning's our NY Cedarians' Birthday Celebration (random) kind of thing! Cannot miss it ): Our photoshoot day as well.
Note to self: CAMERA 8)
Hopefully I can get my Soccer boots by tonight :B
& I miss it so much I could cry ):
Ever since JC life started, everything's been flashing past. Almost in a whirl.
But there's never a day that goes by that I miss out on missing Cedar. Despite all the "negative" parts of the culture - like the discrimination, even elitism at that - there's no doubt it's a place I call 'Home'. 4 years I've spent there, and like Quincy said: It's etched. (And I've got 'em scars to prove it.)
NYJC is homey, rather. But it's just not the same. At all. No doubt. I miss 'school', as I've come to know it.
Moving on leaves one empty, if you look at it pessimistically. It's not a new beginning, it's another end. Another memory that p'haps most deem fitter to leave to the deepest recesses of one's mind. But I beg to differ.
After being in Cedar, there's this need to see the Life in action. Once more; no, all the time. Constantly and surely, like it's something to be fed upon. It's the drug I need in my veins. The very veins that pump this heart. For the heart, itself, sustains life.
Attending school everyday just reminds me of Cedar. Every time I look myself in the mirror, or see the other Cedarians walking around school in the Blue & Grey, I just wish I'd never have to change out of my uniform. It's what gives me identity. Security. Knowing we belong to somewhere or something, and knowing that somehow we are of worth is the basis of what keeps us going. People need to feel acceptance.
Can't things just stay this way? With the GCE 'O' Level results set to be released next week, I don't know what to think anymore.
Everything is coming together. But not in harmony.
i've got a confession to make
♥Thy, my Knight of all. says:
Yes?
'Walking on a tightrope says:
didnt see you around in school these few days and i kinda missed you :D
Steph is so sweet! Thanks, Babe [:
It's what the Night does, I swear. I feel like shit now - useless, small, paltry.. And the list goes on.
So here's my hand; pull me up ♥
| 9:02 PM
Wait outside I hope the air will
Serve to remind you that my heart is
As cold as the clouds of your breath
And my words are as timed
As the beating in my chest
Serve to remind you that my heart is
As cold as the clouds of your breath
And my words are as timed
As the beating in my chest
Janelle, at the Grand Stand.Oh, and did I forget to mention: I wore Cheryl's SNGS pinafore today. Felt pretty weird in one; haven't put on something like that since 4 years ago (the Rosyth uniform). Still, enjoyed prancing around in a dress-like thing. But pretty annoying when the wind blows, mehhhh D:
Didn't manage to find my boots. Am going to Queensway tomorrow. But now I have CH telling me he can get me a 30% discount for Adidas boots. What in the world? This is confusing the shit out of me ): As it is, dragged my sick self around Singapore today just looking for a pair of shoes. Bummer.
Will be going to school tomorrow. Even though Leonard told me, "Eh if you're sick tomorrow don't act man and come school okay. Later you halfway go back again". Heh, I was never acting "man", okay! (Have always been part-guy, hahaha.)
Help, Econs Tutorial nowwwww.
| 2:04 PM
I've got no place in my heart for a criminal like you
To dwell in this endeavor, make this last forever
I'm just delirious, you can't be serious
You're so infamous for leaving me a mess
To dwell in this endeavor, make this last forever
I'm just delirious, you can't be serious
You're so infamous for leaving me a mess
'Cuz you girls make me so happy ♥We had our NY Cedarians' Birthday Celebration kind of thing this morning. It was so much fun, though I'd overslept 40 minutes and hence missed the crux: THE BIRTHDAY SONG, (Cedar Version)! Oh dangit ):
Nevertheless, all 'em other Blue & Grey people were waiting for me in the Tennis Court. We did Billy Banja and made Yin Xue sing for us. Cedarians are always noisy and loud and we attract attention (or so some say), but who gives a damn? It's the passion and verve we actually feel, deep down inside of us all [: Plus, wearing the uniform just makes it all the more better.
(& I'm sorry Babes, I know the Blue & Grey is sacred and I shouldn't have lent it out. Butbutbut.. Okay nevermind, just don't kill me. Anyway, if it makes y'all feel better, I know how hard it is, having earned our way to wearing only the nicest uniform on Earth. If you're not a true Cedarian, it sure looks weird on you. So yes, we're the only deserving ones, yeh? D: Bugger.)
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That aside, I'm blogging at this time only because I came home early from school. Was having super bad diarrhoea tendencies. Carlton and Morgan walked me out of school. Morgan gave me the sweets (as promised!) and Carlton was so sweet. He carried my bag for me and flagged the cab. Even offered to pay for the fare but naturally I refused, even though he chucked $20 into my hands and sent me off D:
The only thing that has made me happy today is the Cedar Celebration. Everything else was screwed up.
Am playing Peacemaker for the OG. What kind of shit has arose, I've no idea. To think I thought my shit this morning - literally - was bad enough. Nyehhhh.
Have got to rest, so that I can recover for Lectures/Seminars tomorrow, Games' Day this Wednesday, training/results on Thursday, results on Friday and the Tournament Game on Saturday.
Soccer boots' shopping today. UK 7.5 [:
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Anyhoo, this is going to be so random but, I just realised my blog looks ugly on IE. Please, for all your eyes' sake, DON'T VIEW MY BLOG ON IE. Use FF, okay? Pretty, pretty please, with a durian on top ):
P/S. If you don't understand what I just said about 'IE' and 'FF', you seriously need to brush up a bit on your Computer Language. Try taking up Computing as a H2 subject, maybe? D: Or better, go find out.
Sunday, January 20, 2008 | 10:51 PM
Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
Recall the moments that once have
Retract the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you
Recall the moments that once have
Retract the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you
Calvin is so cute.(Made my day)
I've come to post with a few announcements.
#1 - EXPECT TO SEE ME IN SCHOOL TOMORROW Y'ALL :B I don't care.
#2 - I'M TAKING MY BRACES OFF ON TUESDAY, 22nd JAN. Hence, any photo requests with this Braceface had better be done, pronto. (Don't say I didn't inform you!)
#3 - THINK FOR JAE, I'LL BE SIGNING UP FOR COUNCIL. Whichever JC I go, it don't matter. Elyssa has a Council face, and is totally Council-like. She cannot resist it any longer ): Damn.
P/S. Couldn't find my size for Soccer boots. Getting 'em tomorrow, some place else, after school.
And I've got You, to make me feel stronger ♥
| 8:03 PM
And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming?
No one's listening anyway
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming?
No one's listening anyway
Just a little bit.Have taken ill since Saturday morning.
It's the result of training and rushing into an air-conditioned LT without food for more than 2 hours. The stupid Parents'/JC Talk thing does wonders, I swear. I mean, surely you've to call one night of that and getting sick the next day.. A TOTAL MIRACLE? D: Mehhhh.
Being this ill sucks. Threw up yesterday evening. Finally, after trying to do so the whole day. The entire process was too surreal; I felt like I could die. 'Cuz I couldn't breathe for a moment. It was freaky, trust me ):
Nevertheless, still feeling light-headed. Have thought about not going to school tomorrow. Taking a break, of some sort. But ack, I've made too many commitments for Monday. Am going to have to miss Soccer, shit ): I know quite a few will be upset if I'm not around. Here's an MSN conv to prove it:
Pez. said:
tmr i give you sweet k
Pez. said:
then you'll get better
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Okay [:
Pez. said:
life without elyssa feels weird even though im not close to you
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Thanks for saying that, Morgan. Haha, at least I know I've made an impact somewhere..
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
[:
♥This self-inflicted entropy. said:
Warms the heart, it does. Haha.
Pez. said:
heh
Awh, Morgan! ♥ And Leonard said if I don't go to school tomorrow he's going to miss me too D: My friends are so cute, haha.
And also, tomorrow morning's our NY Cedarians' Birthday Celebration (random) kind of thing! Cannot miss it ): Our photoshoot day as well.
Note to self: CAMERA 8)
Hopefully I can get my Soccer boots by tonight :B
Thursday, January 17, 2008 | 10:07 PM
Goodbye, goodnight my weary, weary world
I wish I had something I could leave you behind
But wind grows colder and the pain grows duller
Did you ever really care about me?
I wish I had something I could leave you behind
But wind grows colder and the pain grows duller
Did you ever really care about me?
& I miss it so much I could cry ):Ever since JC life started, everything's been flashing past. Almost in a whirl.
But there's never a day that goes by that I miss out on missing Cedar. Despite all the "negative" parts of the culture - like the discrimination, even elitism at that - there's no doubt it's a place I call 'Home'. 4 years I've spent there, and like Quincy said: It's etched. (And I've got 'em scars to prove it.)
NYJC is homey, rather. But it's just not the same. At all. No doubt. I miss 'school', as I've come to know it.
Moving on leaves one empty, if you look at it pessimistically. It's not a new beginning, it's another end. Another memory that p'haps most deem fitter to leave to the deepest recesses of one's mind. But I beg to differ.
After being in Cedar, there's this need to see the Life in action. Once more; no, all the time. Constantly and surely, like it's something to be fed upon. It's the drug I need in my veins. The very veins that pump this heart. For the heart, itself, sustains life.
Attending school everyday just reminds me of Cedar. Every time I look myself in the mirror, or see the other Cedarians walking around school in the Blue & Grey, I just wish I'd never have to change out of my uniform. It's what gives me identity. Security. Knowing we belong to somewhere or something, and knowing that somehow we are of worth is the basis of what keeps us going. People need to feel acceptance.
Can't things just stay this way? With the GCE 'O' Level results set to be released next week, I don't know what to think anymore.
Everything is coming together. But not in harmony.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008 | 10:07 PM
Damn, it's 10pm and I feel like crap.
ELY. LIT. NOW.
& I will my quietus make, with a bare bodkin ♥
This is Joshua.
Joshua is hugging Kevin.
Kevin likes being hugged.
Joshua loves Kevin.
(I think) Kevin loves Joshua.
Joshua and Kevin look cute together.
Joshua intends to spend more time with Kevin.
& vice versa ♥
Okay face it, Ely - you're cranky.
Tutorials galore, with little time. The need to rest, is looming over me like some huge, grey, threatening thundercloud. It's going to cause a storm much worse than the one I'd witnessed 2 days ago.
... Oh, what Tragedy ):
Some, would do good.
Am feeling bummed. (Guess this is when it all starts to settle in, huh?)
Had a pretty long day, coupled with training from 5-7plus. This is the real JC life that one should be made to experience. The first week after Orientation was easy, but it'd cut us way too much slack. Jaded, in a nutshell.
Thankfully, though, I've got friends to get me through the day. In the same Seminar Group as me are Leonard, Seow Hwee, and Joshua [: But mostly, I hang with the guys, haha. Had some time playing ball passing today, between classes. Soccer is going to start meaning much more to me, in time to come; sense of purpose and fulfillment awaits.
During training we played a game at the Parade Square. My team won with a 2-1 score! And guess who scored one of the 2 goals. (Mwahahah, I rock your house down, I knowwwww.) The other was brought home by Magdeline, GG O:
Tomorrow's supposed to be my short day, 'cuz today's my long day. It has to work like that. But it ain't, so I've concluded the timetable is prolly screwed up ): When I complained to Joshua, the conversation went like this..
joshua, no longer says:
ermm..
joshua, no longer says:
coscos ur sleepy!
joshua, no longer says:
and ur experiencing a biological process
joshua, no longer says:
:P
♥The salt of most unrighteous tears. says:
Okay.
♥The salt of most unrighteous tears. says:
Good enough an answer ):
In the week to come - and for much longer than that, prolly even the rest of my life - I am to feel the tragedies in life. Act like Jean Grey. Concentrate for a while. Start getting weaker. Go, "Oh Scott!" and faint.Into the arms of Romeo.
'Tis such be of a Literature student; hardly "a consummation devoutly to be wish'd".
To die, to sleep; to sleep: perchance to dream.
The highlight of all the lectures last week D:
(Click for enlarged view.)
Yesterday, went to Church earlier to help Joy with the organizing of the Clubhouse. This is prolly like, Round Two. But this time, with lesser "comrades" mobilized. 'Cuz apparently most of those who helped in Round One were not free. In the end, only Sam Tan, Charles and I were there.
YF was Team Launch! The workshop was pretty fun. I mean, with Sam Tan as group leader, how in the world can you go wrong? Tsk. Anyway, Sam is supposed to stand in the hugging position 'til this morning 1030h. (Right, Joy? -Inside joke.) But in the end I didn't even see the "friend". Who's that, again? Sharon? Rachel? Sarah..? Okay nevermind, I give up D:
-Okay I got lost in my train of thoughts.- ):
Basically, somehow I don't seem all that excited for school tomorrow. Have got to find a poem for Lit. But I still love Lit, tsk.
PE and Soccer tomorrow, one after the other. I will be stick-skinny come post-8pm [: YAY? Hahaha.
Credit the moodswings, all strange & jumpy behaviour to my period. PERIOD.
Thursday
Meant to skip PE and meet Leonard at 11am, to make it in time for Math Lecture. (Which was, apparently, the only lecture I had that day.) But in the end my conscience got the better of me and I went to school.
Pangseh-ed Leonard though; I forgot to tell him I was going to school, tsk. Anyway, if it made him feel any better, I was alone when the rest of the OG went for Chem Lecture. Spent time in the library studying Lit. Was so immersed that I ended up skipping PE all the same. 3 hours of studying Critical Terms for Literature. Loved it [:
After school there was supposed to be Mass Dance at the Atrium. But only the J2s seemed to be there. Besides, the OG guys wanted to play Soccer. They asked me to join just 'cuz I said I was going to join Girls' Soccer. Tsk, what the crap.
Met MES for lunch instead. Went to RJ, hahaha. Saw quite a few Cedarians, 'cuz our uniform is so prominent! (All the more, amongst the sea of white/RI and navy blue/RGS.) Stupid MES kept claiming that I'd crashed RJ when all I did was to step into the canteen for barely 10 minutes -.- HAHA.
At j8, saw Abraham! He said Cedar uniform looks nice. Oh, but of course [: He's merely stating the obvious so don't mind him, really. Hah. Then, met An Shing at the Food Court. He's one kind of damn idiotic, wtcd. Kept talking about Japheth and I. Excuse me, wait 'til I start on your -ahem- Jennifer AND Rachel, then we'll see what you have to say. (Don't think just 'cuz you're RI/RJ then can suan me!) Nyehhhh O:
Thereafter, had a good long story-telling session with TOOWMS. It was two-way, so yeh.
Thanks for that, you.
Friday
My brother went into the Army today ):
Am pretty sad. Honestly, have thought about this day quite a bit. Especially since I entered Upper Secondary, with the study of Social Studies - I swear, the propaganda is like shit - I became much more aware. It seemed rather far away then, though. But now that it has happened, it's a strange feeling. I miss my brother ):
(Oh and I went to the Ceremony today. Pon-ed school; the FIRST TIME in my entire life! The camp site is better than I expected. Not too bad, I reckon. And guess who I saw! Theodore, HAHAHA. He was made to sweep leaves D: And when I called him, he looked sad. He just shook his head and didn't smile. Mannnnn.)
Serving the country is something every Son of Singapore should be proud of [: But the training is tough, I must say. All the best, y'all. Will be keeping every one of you in prayer.
Korkor: Takecare and trust in Him. Love.
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First Soccer training today!
NYJC Soccer is like, D: Sheesh. Especially for Girls' Soccer, it's much more of a recreational than competitive CCA. Still, it's fun. Playing games and all that.
There's more in store, I'm sure. Cannot wait, cannot wait [:
All that aside, we're assigned to our Seminar Groups already. Am in S2A, together with Leonard and Seow Hwee. The new timetable is screwed up ):
I love Love;
Being in Love.
During Math Lecture today.
It's blur ):
Today was one of the busiest days so far, and will be the busiest I've got all week. Thank God I've survived it. It's like, Admin Talk, Lit, Geog, Math and GP. Oh bugger, that was a hell lot to digest.
Nevertheless, school's very much enjoyable {:
CCA Bazaar after school. Frankly, the Co-Curricular Activities in NYJC are pretty pathetic. Not that I'm trying to be judging here (hell no), but it's the bitter truth D: Guess they're just not really so much into the CCA culture as was back in Cedar.
Had a hard time deciding what to join. Currently, am torn between Touch Rugby & Soccer. TOOWMS is encouraging me to join Soccer. (But that's like, a "doh!" kind of thing, tsk.) Touch Rug is fun, mud aside. Aye, either way, it's the field and mud. Only difference between the two: Feet, or Hands. Hah. Will make a choice come Saturday, though.
During the 30 minutes break before Math Lecture, most of OG27 spent time mugging at LDF. Mugging is the shit, man ♥
But, we got distracted.. With Leonard's quest to be "known by many names". (Nyehhh, like he's that popular!) D: Started lending him all our nametags. But all the names were that of the girls' -.- Tsk. And hence, here begins the pinning process:
Okay, this looks totally wrong. HAHAHA.
YAAAYYYYY :D
(Click for enlarged view.)
& I like this photo, so [:
Prolly pon-ing school on Friday. First time in my entire life. It's to send my older brother off to NS. The enrollment ceremony, I think. Well.
Random, now:
jasmine said:
alright im off to bathe and mug now!
jasmine said:
see you around (:
This MJ girl scares the shit out of me ): Now, am determined to be more mugger-like. Thanks for the 'encouragement', Jasmine ): Mehhhh.
P/S. Photos for NYJC Orientation One 2008 is up on Facebook. Here are the links: One, Two, Three. P+ty.
In Strawberry Fields, forever ♥
Am lazy to upload the photos I took during Econs Lecture today, tsk.
(Short post, today's will be.)
School is fun. Mugging is fun. All the shitz we experience is fun. Basically, just be hiong and chiong and it will be fun. Lectures aside, free periods are spent in the library. Studying [: Oh, what funnnnnn.
Went out after school today. Caught "Across The Universe"; my first NC16 flick! IT'S A GOOD MOVIE, REALLY. WATCH IT {: It's cute & musical-like. And Lucy is so pretty.
But haha, seriously have got no idea what the excitement is all about.. With all 15 year olds so eager to turn 16. But sheesh, even though I'm supposed to be 17 this year, I don't think people will actually believe I am of age. Still, they didn't bother checking today and I feel proud of myself for that [: Tsk.
Oh, and we went to NUM. The guys working there are basically all just gay. Like, downright gay ): Why, why, why? I see them and then I think to myself, "Where in the world have all the men gone?" D: Plus, being gay is one thing. Trying to engage in a conversation with me is another thing. Ugh.
Excuse me, I am a vulnerable young woman, okay.
Right, am too high for my own good. It's a no wonder I feel tired. Too much energy burned. And recently my odd eating habits have returned. It's a disorder, I swear.
Lit tomorrow = ♥!
Here to post about yesterday & today.
Recently, life has been "mundane" in terms of the emotional platform. Can't say much. Please, y'all, bear with the narrations. It's not something I enjoy all that much either. (And as for S.. I've neglected you so so much. I miss you.)
Sunday
Managed to attend 8.30am first ever official Service, with the Message included. Overslept, actually. But thank God for my father and a car. Hah.
First YD at 1030h as well. And it's not longer Cindy & Debbie ): Xinyan is nice, though. Like the way her voice sounds. For the first lesson, we had those ice breaker sort of games. But was kind of pointless 'cuz all the people there were from my YD previously, save for Sarah! [:
The early birds took a photo!
Haha, managed to do a TM shot by placing my camera above this projector that was on the floor. Funny how the angle worked out. I must be becoming a rather successful photographer HAHAHA.
Monday
Met for OG27 Breakfast this morning! Initially it was meant to be at the field near Serangoon MRT. (We desperately wanted to be extra/unique/crazy/AA.)
But well, in the end we ended up at Central Macs. There were enough seats to house all of us, surprisingly! Even with so many other Athena OGs there and the Athena OGLs. Tsk. But in the end, since we'd already brought food and Macs was like, so unhealthly, we decided to eat outside at the playground [:
We are damn happening, I swear.
We look good ♥
All the different uniforms look nice when they come together. Think no two of us are in the same school; that's pretty awesome. The only identical ones are Doris, Chloe & Chuen Hwee (doh!). Pity, though, Steph wore NY Orientation shirt. And I think in the photo my eyes are closed, shit mannnn ):
Lectures today were alright. GP, Math and Lit for me. Ended at 1200nn whilst the rest of them - other than Leonard - had Chem! Thank God I'm spared from that. Met CH 'cuz he was having his break. He brought Leonard and I 'round on a school tour.
Ran into Joshua on the way! Sheesh, I seem to be seeing Joshua everywhere. In the morning while waiting for the bus at the bus stop as well; almost forgot we lived near each other D:
Tomorrow, 1.5hr PE. What kind of damn shit?! HAHA. But other than that, it's only Econs Lecture [:
P/S. The OG27 Video is up on Youtube! Thanks to Zhiwen. Here it is:
I keep watching it -.-
Alrightyyyyy, enough of my shitz already ):
OG27 ♥
NYJC Orientation One 2008 [:
Day 3 was all about funfunfun. The ownage is good, people. It's so damn good.
Cheered 'til my throat's sore. (Still is, now.) But it's all worth it, aye! A-A-ATHENA! A-A-ATHENA! Hahaha.
The Dance Competition was crazyyyy. The contestants seriously can dance. In a way, then, thank God Sara and I got eliminated. Or I would've totally died during the Freestyle Round D:
Cheering Competition was fun! Felt like Cedar, but different, of course. Volunteered as one of the OGM Leaders. Couldn't help it, I swear. The enthusiasm was just bursting out of me, really. Anyway Rupini was there, cheering with me! [: Yay, go Cedarrrrrr.
Disco Night was a blast. Went cranky, similar to that of RMUN's D&D last year. Steph, you rock, babe!
Went for OG Supper at RK House in Gardens thereafter. Lots of stupid incidents. Albert even suggested going to the park to do Mass Dance -.- Wl, that kind is too high already. HAHAHA.
But anyhoo, being the overtly-enthusiastic person that I (usually) am, I spent today creating a video for OG27! Ask me to send you the vid, if you want it; Youtube hates me, so yeh. Love y'all to bits. WE'RE THE BEST ATHENA OG [:
OG Breakfast on Monday! Picnic at Serangoon MRT, tsk D:
First day of school today.
Somehow, by the day before yesterday, I managed to hype myself up for PAE at NY. It turned out to be everything I'd imagined - what with the cheena culture and all.
But in spite of that, am glad to say it ain't all that bad. Cheena, but I'm surviving. Have found myself quite a few English-speaking friends {: Even with the overwhelming numbers of students hailing from schools like Chung Cheng and Nan Chiau (in large part due to the affiliation), those like me still manage to live with it.
One of the strangest things is prolly going to school and seeing GUYS around. It's something I haven't experienced for the past 4 years. Besides, Primary School is really nothing. Because the guys are more childish then. (Still are, now.) Tsk.
Am in Athena/OG27. Thanks to the whole "Cedar upbringing", was prolly the most enthu in the group {: Can't help it, really. Aye, I miss the Cedar atmosphere, many! ):
On a side note, Morgan rocks my world! First ever person to tell me I have slender legs. Lie, factually. But a true opinion, I respect. HAHAHA.
Tomorrow, Sentosa trip for us! And prolly OG Dinner after.
Am tired. Have got to rest for tomorrow D:
ELY. LIT. NOW.
& I will my quietus make, with a bare bodkin ♥
Tuesday, January 15, 2008 | 10:02 PM
And if you don't love me, let me go
And I am a writer, a writer of fictions
I am the heart that you call home
And I've written pages upon pages
Trying to rid you from my bones
And I am a writer, a writer of fictions
I am the heart that you call home
And I've written pages upon pages
Trying to rid you from my bones
Awhhhh :D
This is Joshua.
Joshua is hugging Kevin.
Kevin likes being hugged.
Joshua loves Kevin.
(I think) Kevin loves Joshua.
Joshua and Kevin look cute together.
Joshua intends to spend more time with Kevin.
& vice versa ♥
Okay face it, Ely - you're cranky.
Tutorials galore, with little time. The need to rest, is looming over me like some huge, grey, threatening thundercloud. It's going to cause a storm much worse than the one I'd witnessed 2 days ago.
... Oh, what Tragedy ):
Monday, January 14, 2008 | 10:40 PM
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me
Some, would do good.Am feeling bummed. (Guess this is when it all starts to settle in, huh?)
Had a pretty long day, coupled with training from 5-7plus. This is the real JC life that one should be made to experience. The first week after Orientation was easy, but it'd cut us way too much slack. Jaded, in a nutshell.
Thankfully, though, I've got friends to get me through the day. In the same Seminar Group as me are Leonard, Seow Hwee, and Joshua [: But mostly, I hang with the guys, haha. Had some time playing ball passing today, between classes. Soccer is going to start meaning much more to me, in time to come; sense of purpose and fulfillment awaits.
During training we played a game at the Parade Square. My team won with a 2-1 score! And guess who scored one of the 2 goals. (Mwahahah, I rock your house down, I knowwwww.) The other was brought home by Magdeline, GG O:
Tomorrow's supposed to be my short day, 'cuz today's my long day. It has to work like that. But it ain't, so I've concluded the timetable is prolly screwed up ): When I complained to Joshua, the conversation went like this..
joshua, no longer says:
ermm..
joshua, no longer says:
coscos ur sleepy!
joshua, no longer says:
and ur experiencing a biological process
joshua, no longer says:
:P
♥The salt of most unrighteous tears. says:
Okay.
♥The salt of most unrighteous tears. says:
Good enough an answer ):
In the week to come - and for much longer than that, prolly even the rest of my life - I am to feel the tragedies in life. Act like Jean Grey. Concentrate for a while. Start getting weaker. Go, "Oh Scott!" and faint.
'Tis such be of a Literature student; hardly "a consummation devoutly to be wish'd".
To die, to sleep; to sleep: perchance to dream.
Sunday, January 13, 2008 | 9:43 PM
This bitter pill to swallow is the silence that I keep
It poisons me I can't swim free the river is too deep
Though I'm baptized by your touch I am no worse at most
In love with your ghost
It poisons me I can't swim free the river is too deep
Though I'm baptized by your touch I am no worse at most
In love with your ghost
The highlight of all the lectures last week D:(Click for enlarged view.)
Yesterday, went to Church earlier to help Joy with the organizing of the Clubhouse. This is prolly like, Round Two. But this time, with lesser "comrades" mobilized. 'Cuz apparently most of those who helped in Round One were not free. In the end, only Sam Tan, Charles and I were there.
YF was Team Launch! The workshop was pretty fun. I mean, with Sam Tan as group leader, how in the world can you go wrong? Tsk. Anyway, Sam is supposed to stand in the hugging position 'til this morning 1030h. (Right, Joy? -Inside joke.) But in the end I didn't even see the "friend". Who's that, again? Sharon? Rachel? Sarah..? Okay nevermind, I give up D:
-Okay I got lost in my train of thoughts.- ):
Basically, somehow I don't seem all that excited for school tomorrow. Have got to find a poem for Lit. But I still love Lit, tsk.
PE and Soccer tomorrow, one after the other. I will be stick-skinny come post-8pm [: YAY? Hahaha.
Credit the moodswings, all strange & jumpy behaviour to my period. PERIOD.
Friday, January 11, 2008 | 10:36 PM
This story's getting old
The home wrecker with a heart of gold
Keep you locked up in the trunk in my mind
Keep, keep talking
Keep this alive
The home wrecker with a heart of gold
Keep you locked up in the trunk in my mind
Keep, keep talking
Keep this alive
Thursday
Meant to skip PE and meet Leonard at 11am, to make it in time for Math Lecture. (Which was, apparently, the only lecture I had that day.) But in the end my conscience got the better of me and I went to school.
Pangseh-ed Leonard though; I forgot to tell him I was going to school, tsk. Anyway, if it made him feel any better, I was alone when the rest of the OG went for Chem Lecture. Spent time in the library studying Lit. Was so immersed that I ended up skipping PE all the same. 3 hours of studying Critical Terms for Literature. Loved it [:
After school there was supposed to be Mass Dance at the Atrium. But only the J2s seemed to be there. Besides, the OG guys wanted to play Soccer. They asked me to join just 'cuz I said I was going to join Girls' Soccer. Tsk, what the crap.
Met MES for lunch instead. Went to RJ, hahaha. Saw quite a few Cedarians, 'cuz our uniform is so prominent! (All the more, amongst the sea of white/RI and navy blue/RGS.) Stupid MES kept claiming that I'd crashed RJ when all I did was to step into the canteen for barely 10 minutes -.- HAHA.
At j8, saw Abraham! He said Cedar uniform looks nice. Oh, but of course [: He's merely stating the obvious so don't mind him, really. Hah. Then, met An Shing at the Food Court. He's one kind of damn idiotic, wtcd. Kept talking about Japheth and I. Excuse me, wait 'til I start on your -ahem- Jennifer AND Rachel, then we'll see what you have to say. (Don't think just 'cuz you're RI/RJ then can suan me!) Nyehhhh O:
Thereafter, had a good long story-telling session with TOOWMS. It was two-way, so yeh.
Thanks for that, you.
Friday
My brother went into the Army today ):
Am pretty sad. Honestly, have thought about this day quite a bit. Especially since I entered Upper Secondary, with the study of Social Studies - I swear, the propaganda is like shit - I became much more aware. It seemed rather far away then, though. But now that it has happened, it's a strange feeling. I miss my brother ):
(Oh and I went to the Ceremony today. Pon-ed school; the FIRST TIME in my entire life! The camp site is better than I expected. Not too bad, I reckon. And guess who I saw! Theodore, HAHAHA. He was made to sweep leaves D: And when I called him, he looked sad. He just shook his head and didn't smile. Mannnnn.)
Serving the country is something every Son of Singapore should be proud of [: But the training is tough, I must say. All the best, y'all. Will be keeping every one of you in prayer.
Korkor: Takecare and trust in Him. Love.
-
First Soccer training today!
NYJC Soccer is like, D: Sheesh. Especially for Girls' Soccer, it's much more of a recreational than competitive CCA. Still, it's fun. Playing games and all that.
There's more in store, I'm sure. Cannot wait, cannot wait [:
All that aside, we're assigned to our Seminar Groups already. Am in S2A, together with Leonard and Seow Hwee. The new timetable is screwed up ):
Wednesday, January 09, 2008 | 9:43 PM
And I'm lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride
But I'm not getting stronger
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride
But I'm not getting stronger
I love Love;Being in Love.
And dare I say, I don't care what it does to me?
Over & over, but p'haps just not enough.
But save your breath and keep that knife.
My skin is tough; your blade just might not cut.
Oh, my Love, wouldn't we be attractive?
With eyeglasses full of stars, and plenty of paper for scenery paintings.
I've seen angels fall from blinding heights,
But you yourself are nothing so divine;
Just next in line.
Over & over, but p'haps just not enough.
But save your breath and keep that knife.
My skin is tough; your blade just might not cut.
Oh, my Love, wouldn't we be attractive?
With eyeglasses full of stars, and plenty of paper for scenery paintings.
I've seen angels fall from blinding heights,
But you yourself are nothing so divine;
Just next in line.
'Cuz you don't know what you do
to me.
♥♥♥
to me.
♥♥♥
| 7:03 PM
It's out with the old
And in with the new
Goodbye clouds of grey
Hello skies of blue
And in with the new
Goodbye clouds of grey
Hello skies of blue
During Math Lecture today.It's blur ):
Today was one of the busiest days so far, and will be the busiest I've got all week. Thank God I've survived it. It's like, Admin Talk, Lit, Geog, Math and GP. Oh bugger, that was a hell lot to digest.
Nevertheless, school's very much enjoyable {:
CCA Bazaar after school. Frankly, the Co-Curricular Activities in NYJC are pretty pathetic. Not that I'm trying to be judging here (hell no), but it's the bitter truth D: Guess they're just not really so much into the CCA culture as was back in Cedar.
Had a hard time deciding what to join. Currently, am torn between Touch Rugby & Soccer. TOOWMS is encouraging me to join Soccer. (But that's like, a "doh!" kind of thing, tsk.) Touch Rug is fun, mud aside. Aye, either way, it's the field and mud. Only difference between the two: Feet, or Hands. Hah. Will make a choice come Saturday, though.
During the 30 minutes break before Math Lecture, most of OG27 spent time mugging at LDF. Mugging is the shit, man ♥
But, we got distracted.. With Leonard's quest to be "known by many names". (Nyehhh, like he's that popular!) D: Started lending him all our nametags. But all the names were that of the girls' -.- Tsk. And hence, here begins the pinning process:
Okay, this looks totally wrong. HAHAHA.
YAAAYYYYY :D
(Click for enlarged view.)
& I like this photo, so [:Prolly pon-ing school on Friday. First time in my entire life. It's to send my older brother off to NS. The enrollment ceremony, I think. Well.
Random, now:
jasmine said:
alright im off to bathe and mug now!
jasmine said:
see you around (:
This MJ girl scares the shit out of me ): Now, am determined to be more mugger-like. Thanks for the 'encouragement', Jasmine ): Mehhhh.
P/S. Photos for NYJC Orientation One 2008 is up on Facebook. Here are the links: One, Two, Three. P+ty.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008 | 10:35 PM
Hey, Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
In Strawberry Fields, forever ♥Am lazy to upload the photos I took during Econs Lecture today, tsk.
(Short post, today's will be.)
School is fun. Mugging is fun. All the shitz we experience is fun. Basically, just be hiong and chiong and it will be fun. Lectures aside, free periods are spent in the library. Studying [: Oh, what funnnnnn.
Went out after school today. Caught "Across The Universe"; my first NC16 flick! IT'S A GOOD MOVIE, REALLY. WATCH IT {: It's cute & musical-like. And Lucy is so pretty.
But haha, seriously have got no idea what the excitement is all about.. With all 15 year olds so eager to turn 16. But sheesh, even though I'm supposed to be 17 this year, I don't think people will actually believe I am of age. Still, they didn't bother checking today and I feel proud of myself for that [: Tsk.
Oh, and we went to NUM. The guys working there are basically all just gay. Like, downright gay ): Why, why, why? I see them and then I think to myself, "Where in the world have all the men gone?" D: Plus, being gay is one thing. Trying to engage in a conversation with me is another thing. Ugh.
Excuse me, I am a vulnerable young woman, okay.
Right, am too high for my own good. It's a no wonder I feel tired. Too much energy burned. And recently my odd eating habits have returned. It's a disorder, I swear.
Lit tomorrow = ♥!
Monday, January 07, 2008 | 10:21 PM
Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds that will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds that will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
Here to post about yesterday & today.
Recently, life has been "mundane" in terms of the emotional platform. Can't say much. Please, y'all, bear with the narrations. It's not something I enjoy all that much either. (And as for S.. I've neglected you so so much. I miss you.)
Sunday
Managed to attend 8.30am first ever official Service, with the Message included. Overslept, actually. But thank God for my father and a car. Hah.
First YD at 1030h as well. And it's not longer Cindy & Debbie ): Xinyan is nice, though. Like the way her voice sounds. For the first lesson, we had those ice breaker sort of games. But was kind of pointless 'cuz all the people there were from my YD previously, save for Sarah! [:
The early birds took a photo!Haha, managed to do a TM shot by placing my camera above this projector that was on the floor. Funny how the angle worked out. I must be becoming a rather successful photographer HAHAHA.
Monday
Met for OG27 Breakfast this morning! Initially it was meant to be at the field near Serangoon MRT. (We desperately wanted to be extra/unique/crazy/AA.)
But well, in the end we ended up at Central Macs. There were enough seats to house all of us, surprisingly! Even with so many other Athena OGs there and the Athena OGLs. Tsk. But in the end, since we'd already brought food and Macs was like, so unhealthly, we decided to eat outside at the playground [:
We are damn happening, I swear.
We look good ♥All the different uniforms look nice when they come together. Think no two of us are in the same school; that's pretty awesome. The only identical ones are Doris, Chloe & Chuen Hwee (doh!). Pity, though, Steph wore NY Orientation shirt. And I think in the photo my eyes are closed, shit mannnn ):
Lectures today were alright. GP, Math and Lit for me. Ended at 1200nn whilst the rest of them - other than Leonard - had Chem! Thank God I'm spared from that. Met CH 'cuz he was having his break. He brought Leonard and I 'round on a school tour.
Ran into Joshua on the way! Sheesh, I seem to be seeing Joshua everywhere. In the morning while waiting for the bus at the bus stop as well; almost forgot we lived near each other D:
Tomorrow, 1.5hr PE. What kind of damn shit?! HAHA. But other than that, it's only Econs Lecture [:
P/S. The OG27 Video is up on Youtube! Thanks to Zhiwen. Here it is:
I keep watching it -.-
Alrightyyyyy, enough of my shitz already ):
Saturday, January 05, 2008 | 11:04 PM
Melt down
It's not a crush
In a hot, hot room
We're in a rush
Headstrong, can you feel the beat?
In a hot, hot room
We're in a rush
Headstrong, can you feel the beat?
OG27 ♥NYJC Orientation One 2008 [:
Day 3 was all about funfunfun. The ownage is good, people. It's so damn good.
Cheered 'til my throat's sore. (Still is, now.) But it's all worth it, aye! A-A-ATHENA! A-A-ATHENA! Hahaha.
The Dance Competition was crazyyyy. The contestants seriously can dance. In a way, then, thank God Sara and I got eliminated. Or I would've totally died during the Freestyle Round D:
Cheering Competition was fun! Felt like Cedar, but different, of course. Volunteered as one of the OGM Leaders. Couldn't help it, I swear. The enthusiasm was just bursting out of me, really. Anyway Rupini was there, cheering with me! [: Yay, go Cedarrrrrr.
Disco Night was a blast. Went cranky, similar to that of RMUN's D&D last year. Steph, you rock, babe!
Went for OG Supper at RK House in Gardens thereafter. Lots of stupid incidents. Albert even suggested going to the park to do Mass Dance -.- Wl, that kind is too high already. HAHAHA.
But anyhoo, being the overtly-enthusiastic person that I (usually) am, I spent today creating a video for OG27! Ask me to send you the vid, if you want it; Youtube hates me, so yeh. Love y'all to bits. WE'RE THE BEST ATHENA OG [:
OG Breakfast on Monday! Picnic at Serangoon MRT, tsk D:
Wednesday, January 02, 2008 | 9:31 PM
Two to one
Static to the sound of you and I
Undone for the last time
And don't you think
I wish I could stay
Your lips give you away
Static to the sound of you and I
Undone for the last time
And don't you think
I wish I could stay
Your lips give you away
First day of school today.
Somehow, by the day before yesterday, I managed to hype myself up for PAE at NY. It turned out to be everything I'd imagined - what with the cheena culture and all.
But in spite of that, am glad to say it ain't all that bad. Cheena, but I'm surviving. Have found myself quite a few English-speaking friends {: Even with the overwhelming numbers of students hailing from schools like Chung Cheng and Nan Chiau (in large part due to the affiliation), those like me still manage to live with it.
One of the strangest things is prolly going to school and seeing GUYS around. It's something I haven't experienced for the past 4 years. Besides, Primary School is really nothing. Because the guys are more childish then. (Still are, now.) Tsk.
Am in Athena/OG27. Thanks to the whole "Cedar upbringing", was prolly the most enthu in the group {: Can't help it, really. Aye, I miss the Cedar atmosphere, many! ):
On a side note, Morgan rocks my world! First ever person to tell me I have slender legs. Lie, factually. But a true opinion, I respect. HAHAHA.
Tomorrow, Sentosa trip for us! And prolly OG Dinner after.
Am tired. Have got to rest for tomorrow D: