part of what was meant to be.
i think i handled it wrongly. anyway i always do.
we are compelled to do what we have been fobidden.
and it's just 'cause you don't know how much it hurts to receive it.
tonight may be the last chance we'll be given.
| 3:37 AM
i don't think my post is gonna sound all that logical right now, 'cause i'm not thinking straight. look at the time! :D hahaha. woohoo, this is how it is for teenagers like us ): poor school children. grahh- see how's it's like in singapore ): pathetic. was doing ndp stuff anyway :D rushing the report. haha, finally done with the cue table :D i might as well not sleep anymore. haha, being awake at this time reminds me of when i would wake up to watch the worldcup matches! :D
sometimes when you think about it, why are we so afraid of rejection? is it because of what it does to our esteem, our pride? sigh. she has a right to know, and you ought to tell her. if only she knew you feel this way for her /: sigh. don't give up. i mean, since i can't tag you i shall tell you what i want to say here. "love may not make the world go round, but it sure makes the trip worthwhile. so go get her! :D you have to make the move. probably she isn't even aware of your whole philosophy, how it can all work out. you have to let her know. it'd be a pity to see this die /: 'cause i think you really care."
i still don't get the whole airport thing actually /: but all i know is that you should wait for her. unless you tell me this is another one. the queen's been given up. 'cause if it were the queen, i thought you had made it clear. all that mattered wasthe wait.. seems like that isn't the case. have you found someone new? hm, i wonder. it's okay, the queen won't know. and probably she'd find someone else in 1 and a half years' time :D just like how you would be with that her, if only you'd tell her. honestly, you cannot wait for her to make the move. i think she's afraid. yes, probably it's not the commitment. maybe, just fear. of what, she probably doesn't know how to put it across.
strange as it is, these things we feel. so is it real? or are they all just misconceptions? could it be that we're reading into the wrong lines? or perhaps i'm just making my heart feel what i want it to? ahh, so many questions that have no answers.or maybe we just got to find them, together. if i tell you those words, what would you say? do we feel the same?
the sky glows,
i see it shining when my eyes close.
i hear your warnings but we both know;
i'm gonna look at it again.
don't wait, don't wait,
the road is now a sudden sea;
and suddenly you'redeep enough,
to lay your armour down,
you get one look,
i'll show you something that the knife took.
a bit too early for my own good;
now let's not talk about it again.
don't wait, don't wait,
the road is now a sudden sea;
and suddenly you'redeep enough,
to lay your armour down,
don't wait, don't wait,
the lights will flash andfade away,
the days will pass you by;
don't wait,
to lay your armour down-
the signal is subtle.
sometimes when you think about it, why are we so afraid of rejection? is it because of what it does to our esteem, our pride? sigh. she has a right to know, and you ought to tell her. if only she knew you feel this way for her /: sigh. don't give up. i mean, since i can't tag you i shall tell you what i want to say here. "love may not make the world go round, but it sure makes the trip worthwhile. so go get her! :D you have to make the move. probably she isn't even aware of your whole philosophy, how it can all work out. you have to let her know. it'd be a pity to see this die /: 'cause i think you really care."
i still don't get the whole airport thing actually /: but all i know is that you should wait for her. unless you tell me this is another one. the queen's been given up. 'cause if it were the queen, i thought you had made it clear. all that mattered was
strange as it is, these things we feel. so is it real? or are they all just misconceptions? could it be that we're reading into the wrong lines? or perhaps i'm just making my heart feel what i want it to? ahh, so many questions that have no answers.
the sky glows,
i see it shining when my eyes close.
i hear your warnings but we both know;
i'm gonna look at it again.
don't wait, don't wait,
the road is now a sudden sea;
and suddenly you're
to lay your armour down,
you get one look,
i'll show you something that the knife took.
a bit too early for my own good;
now let's not talk about it again.
don't wait, don't wait,
the road is now a sudden sea;
and suddenly you're
to lay your armour down,
don't wait, don't wait,
the lights will flash and
the days will pass you by;
don't wait,
to lay your armour down-
the signal is subtle.
Sunday, July 30, 2006 | 5:12 PM
woohoo, army daze yesterday was fun :D though i didn't feel too good after the break ): sheesh. this tension headache. like at the left side of my head /: and it was kinda bad. i wasn't exactly concentrating after that. but still it was entertaining :D when it first started, jose was speaking! haha :D then the funniest part is that, at that point of time, i've spoken to him, i've heard his voice.. but i haven't seen him /: bwahah. but after the play i finally met him. haha. sadly i was on the phone so it became kinda anti-social /: sorry.
it was super cold. but i couldn't keep wearing your jacket /: sorry. i've told you, it's the emotional and psychological torment i'd have to suffer. the thing they keep imposing upon me ): ohwell, thanks for it anyway :D though my body be cold, my heart was warm :D haha.
you know how it's been like all along, hiding away from what i really feel.. maybe it's time i ought to let someone in. but i need time to think; to breathe. though i was told this: "olive branches beat mistletoe (: trust me ok? i can be 'the one' for you if you like. im willing to help you along. ok? im here if you need me to help. i just want you to know. if u trust me, then let me know. i wont hurt you, if u open yrself to me. i promise." woohoo, what should i do now? it's weird, how it is that i need somebody,somebody like you. but the usage of trust against me, isn't exactly right. and the other problem right now. is the complications that will arise.. closeness. it is alluring.
but i'm touched someone cares, understands and is willing.but ask yourself, am i worth it? don't do this, for me. someone i can count and rely on. someone close to heart. never.
the things we feel alone for each other;
it was super cold. but i couldn't keep wearing your jacket /: sorry. i've told you, it's the emotional and psychological torment i'd have to suffer. the thing they keep imposing upon me ): ohwell, thanks for it anyway :D though my body be cold, my heart was warm :D haha.
you know how it's been like all along, hiding away from what i really feel.. maybe it's time i ought to let someone in. but i need time to think; to breathe. though i was told this: "olive branches beat mistletoe (: trust me ok? i can be 'the one' for you if you like. im willing to help you along. ok? im here if you need me to help. i just want you to know. if u trust me, then let me know. i wont hurt you, if u open yrself to me. i promise." woohoo, what should i do now? it's weird, how it is that i need somebody,
but i'm touched someone cares, understands and is willing.
the things we feel alone for each other;
| 9:29 AM
you're the only one,
i'd be with till the end;
when i come undone,
you bring me back again,
back under the stars,
back into your arms.
i want to know what isreal.
spare me from sleepless nights-
i'd be with till the end;
when i come undone,
you bring me back again,
back under the stars,
back into your arms.
i want to know what is
spare me from sleepless nights-
Saturday, July 29, 2006 | 4:29 PM
can't wait for later, gonna meet RAHH :D woohoo. and we'll be in skirts! /: great job to RAHH, i know you just wanna see me in one :D bwahah. actually i wear my school skirt everyday! if you haven't noticed :D hah. plus the occasional CCU :D lalala. it's gonna be purple :D hah. rmb the super-minis :D
see this conv:
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
olive branches eh.
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
why not mistletoe? haha
/antidote to this pain says:
YES, BECAUSE IT'S NOT CHRISTMAS xD
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
woohoo!
/antidote to this pain says:
i've replied on your cbox.
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
alright,
/antidote to this pain says:
anyway, who offers mistletoes with their arms.
/antidote to this pain says:
and mistletoes are hung, and you offer something else :D
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
heehee.. sth else xD
/antidote to this pain says:
woohoo, YES xD
hahaha, now people, you understand why it's olive branches :D
ohman, random thought. but if anyone ever has a voice like bryan adams, chris carrabba or john rzeznik, you bet i'd fall in love with you <3 haha.
and i'll whisper only once..
see this conv:
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
olive branches eh.
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
why not mistletoe? haha
/antidote to this pain says:
YES, BECAUSE IT'S NOT CHRISTMAS xD
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
woohoo!
/antidote to this pain says:
i've replied on your cbox.
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
alright,
/antidote to this pain says:
anyway, who offers mistletoes with their arms.
/antidote to this pain says:
and mistletoes are hung, and you offer something else :D
#21; | always, | +kyle says:
heehee.. sth else xD
/antidote to this pain says:
woohoo, YES xD
hahaha, now people, you understand why it's olive branches :D
ohman, random thought. but if anyone ever has a voice like bryan adams, chris carrabba or john rzeznik, you bet i'd fall in love with you <3 haha.
and i'll whisper only once..
| 4:10 PM
tag replies;
ATHALIE: ohman! ): it sucks to be phone-less! urgh. and now you'll have to wait till you get a new one /: all the best then!
kyle: hahaha, somewhat /: it's my deep pov rmb! :D
miss yellow: you're welcome :D and i must say, good job for the Q&A! :D they're gonna vote for that phone thing :D and i think people practically fell in love with the "give your one vote to one heart" thing :D 'cause i did! <3 woohoo. -nudges. YOU CAN DO IT.
vicky: haha, you're welcome :D woohoo, i'm your PA and your nail balm forever <3 and i think it was good initiative of you to answer the first question! :D and don't worry about your speech, yeah? ALL THE WAY :D
joseph: sure :D woohoo, relient k :D
protector: you're welcome bodyguard :D woohoo. live on your PASSION! <3 haha. you sounded so high-pitched over the microphone :D bwahah.
protector: YES YES YES! :D woohoo, yes to every question :D
kyle: hahaha, SKIRT :D wp and i are gonna be wearing skirts. things with HOLES in 'em :D bwahah. and you know why that person didn't say mistletoe? 'cause it ain't christmas! :D hah.
done! (:
ATHALIE: ohman! ): it sucks to be phone-less! urgh. and now you'll have to wait till you get a new one /: all the best then!
kyle: hahaha, somewhat /: it's my deep pov rmb! :D
miss yellow: you're welcome :D and i must say, good job for the Q&A! :D they're gonna vote for that phone thing :D and i think people practically fell in love with the "give your one vote to one heart" thing :D 'cause i did! <3 woohoo. -nudges. YOU CAN DO IT.
vicky: haha, you're welcome :D woohoo, i'm your PA and your nail balm forever <3 and i think it was good initiative of you to answer the first question! :D and don't worry about your speech, yeah? ALL THE WAY :D
joseph: sure :D woohoo, relient k :D
protector: you're welcome bodyguard :D woohoo. live on your PASSION! <3 haha. you sounded so high-pitched over the microphone :D bwahah.
protector: YES YES YES! :D woohoo, yes to every question :D
kyle: hahaha, SKIRT :D wp and i are gonna be wearing skirts. things with HOLES in 'em :D bwahah. and you know why that person didn't say mistletoe? 'cause it ain't christmas! :D hah.
done! (:
Friday, July 28, 2006 | 11:32 PM
come to think,
for such a big place it's a small world;
for such a rat race i still got faith.
and anything goes, still i got to say:
life has it's ups & downs,
but i love it anyway.
and that's what i need right now, the motivation. thankyou for being so nice :D i know i'm not alone. thanks RAHH, for listening. i know, we find that we go through the same things. sometimes it just takes either one to open our mouth and let words come forth. then we know we are in this, together. we ought not to keep it.like how she did with those tears. let someone in, 'cause you'll never know how much that will help.
and thanks to this other friend of mine, though it's the caring helpful side of that split personality :D and i was told this: "and i want to tell you, that if u ever do want me to help, u can always ask me (: really. i'd be willing to help. i'd offer an olive branch to you with outstretched arms always."
oh, what with friends that are deep! <3 i love deep people and deep things! :D like a WELL! 'cause it's deep and you can hide in it :D and you can drown in one.
tmr hc's having their army daze :D woohoo, alvin and jose will be acting. yep. can't wait, 'cause i'm going with RAHH! :D hm, what's the dress code, i wonder :D sheesh, fab's gonna turn up in a skirt /:my only regret is that i feel guilty. oh, what a letdown.
leave me alone a little while,
for such a big place it's a small world;
for such a rat race i still got faith.
and anything goes, still i got to say:
life has it's ups & downs,
but i love it anyway.
and that's what i need right now, the motivation. thankyou for being so nice :D i know i'm not alone. thanks RAHH, for listening. i know, we find that we go through the same things. sometimes it just takes either one to open our mouth and let words come forth. then we know we are in this, together. we ought not to keep it.
and thanks to this other friend of mine, though it's the caring helpful side of that split personality :D and i was told this: "and i want to tell you, that if u ever do want me to help, u can always ask me (: really. i'd be willing to help. i'd offer an olive branch to you with outstretched arms always."
oh, what with friends that are deep! <3 i love deep people and deep things! :D like a WELL! 'cause it's deep and you can hide in it :D and you can drown in one.
tmr hc's having their army daze :D woohoo, alvin and jose will be acting. yep. can't wait, 'cause i'm going with RAHH! :D hm, what's the dress code, i wonder :D sheesh, fab's gonna turn up in a skirt /:
leave me alone a little while,
| 9:30 PM
dealing with incompetence. it's never easy. 'cause then, it develops into evil thoughts. thoughts that haunt me. it wasn't meant to turn out this way, i was never meant to feel this way. woe to him that ever thought this was a piece of cake. 'cause it ain't. hearing those words, it came back again /: in a sense it could seem like, unwilling. it should've been me. no, i can't. and i'm thankful it's not the case.. sigh. the confidence factor-
today i'm glad for training. woohoo, i'm gonna get those super nice legs again :D and i'll earn that tight butt for inezlau <3 you bet i will :D haha. today we were supposed to run 3km :D i love those kind of long run type of trainings! :D hah. but IT RAINED! ): sigh. so in the end we did weights and a 30 minute run around the school /: i don't like! /: grahh- but at least there was lackie around to make it FUN! :D woohoo, we're so creative! haha, even running in a figure-of-eight xD bwahah. in the end we survived :D i mean, considering the fact that we're so unfit now ):
after training went back to ndp. kinda lost /: and apparently next week i'm gonna have to sacrifice training /: these trainings are precious! 'cause chris chanby makes them so fun :D hah. it's motivating. i like it when he conducts training. unlike,her. hah.
then when we were dismissed, walked by pp with RAHH, miss yellow, balm nail and abi :D woohoo.i was kinda solemn, sorry. we went to eat tau huay again! :D whee, it's my little secret with balm nail :D on the way we saw this sensitive kind of guy that balm nail like, admires? to say the least. hah. but that's the type :D
'cause she had to hold back her tears. it's weak to cry, on her part. but she had to. it's not like she can bottle this all for, forever. maybe it's reached a point that there's too much. the PRESSURE, it's gonna burst. and yes, that's how it's like right now. she's fragile, way too fragile. one tiny prick and the balloon'll POP. and i know i saw her, alone in a corner, as those warm tears rolled down her cheeks. and i feltsorry for her.
give me a chance to hold on,
today i'm glad for training. woohoo, i'm gonna get those super nice legs again :D and i'll earn that tight butt for inezlau <3 you bet i will :D haha. today we were supposed to run 3km :D i love those kind of long run type of trainings! :D hah. but IT RAINED! ): sigh. so in the end we did weights and a 30 minute run around the school /: i don't like! /: grahh- but at least there was lackie around to make it FUN! :D woohoo, we're so creative! haha, even running in a figure-of-eight xD bwahah. in the end we survived :D i mean, considering the fact that we're so unfit now ):
after training went back to ndp. kinda lost /: and apparently next week i'm gonna have to sacrifice training /: these trainings are precious! 'cause chris chanby makes them so fun :D hah. it's motivating. i like it when he conducts training. unlike,
then when we were dismissed, walked by pp with RAHH, miss yellow, balm nail and abi :D woohoo.
'cause she had to hold back her tears. it's weak to cry, on her part. but she had to. it's not like she can bottle this all for, forever. maybe it's reached a point that there's too much. the PRESSURE, it's gonna burst. and yes, that's how it's like right now. she's fragile, way too fragile. one tiny prick and the balloon'll POP. and i know i saw her, alone in a corner, as those warm tears rolled down her cheeks. and i felt
give me a chance to hold on,
Thursday, July 27, 2006 | 9:15 PM
ahh, i'm supposed to be at rbc's bible conference 2006 now ): sigh. i want to go! grahh- the message is so good :D woohoo, had a great time yesterday. though i reached home at 11plus /: but i would give up the world just to be able to come to you in humble adoration :D to feel your presence as you do your work in me :D
pressure. pressure to conform, to be fit into the mould of this world.will we collapse? it's the world VS the word :D and then there's the pressure to perform. where is my focus? on it or the giver of it? lastly, pressure from him. and that's a good thing :D to be renewed.
RELIENT K! <3
getting high over them. woohoo. see falling out's on my blog right now :D haha. they're christian! :D and that is love. jose, obviously they rock :D (and i know so do the AAR :D hah)
have you forgotten, everything that i wanted? and do you understand, how i've been keeping this for so long?i can't keep to myself enough. the strength to do what's right, to think of that which is just. it's that inevitable border that we cannot demolish. like it or not, the line's here to stay. and that's where i lost it. left out & oh-so-desolate.
today hanged out with balm nail and RAHH till pretty late :D hah. and in the end that's why i couldn't go to the conference /: but ohwell. so much crap, we churned out. (darn i sound like yoda :D) sheesh, we need a toilet. 'cause you deposit crap in toilets :D hah. to die or to borrow, that is the question. and reminds me so much of balm nail's 'pizza hit' :D woohoo. we rock.
i'm the nominees' (who have no money, according to sining :D) PA! :D haha, personal advisors. yep :D 'cause i have good analytical skills :D hahaha. thankyou, thankyou. for holding that conference in the canteen :D -shakes hands again :D haha. all the best for tmr! PEOPLE YOU CAN DO IT. the campaign speech is no big, yeah? :D haha, rmb the dictionary thing for the Q&A :D bwahah. and the sms-ing ms lizah xD
i am determined to change. for you.
though there is pain in the offering;
pressure. pressure to conform, to be fit into the mould of this world.
RELIENT K! <3
getting high over them. woohoo. see falling out's on my blog right now :D haha. they're christian! :D and that is love. jose, obviously they rock :D (and i know so do the AAR :D hah)
have you forgotten, everything that i wanted? and do you understand, how i've been keeping this for so long?
today hanged out with balm nail and RAHH till pretty late :D hah. and in the end that's why i couldn't go to the conference /: but ohwell. so much crap, we churned out. (darn i sound like yoda :D) sheesh, we need a toilet. 'cause you deposit crap in toilets :D hah. to die or to borrow, that is the question. and reminds me so much of balm nail's 'pizza hit' :D woohoo. we rock.
i'm the nominees' (who have no money, according to sining :D) PA! :D haha, personal advisors. yep :D 'cause i have good analytical skills :D hahaha. thankyou, thankyou. for holding that conference in the canteen :D -shakes hands again :D haha. all the best for tmr! PEOPLE YOU CAN DO IT. the campaign speech is no big, yeah? :D haha, rmb the dictionary thing for the Q&A :D bwahah. and the sms-ing ms lizah xD
i am determined to change. for you.
though there is pain in the offering;
Tuesday, July 25, 2006 | 11:35 PM
and unknowingly you crept into my heart and became my motivation.
have you forgotten?
have you forgotten?
| 3:38 PM
apparently my tag replies came out at an earlier date, though i posted it only just now! /: ohwell. blogger is sick it needs a doctor, as much as i do :D urgh, i've gone crazy. need a psychiatrist for my condition. yep, although i cannot say i am screwed, or i can't have a punk boss! /: hahaha.
haven't posted for some time. like on friday! didn't get a chance to talk about rhd /: haha, but it was so fun anyway :D woohoo, took so many pics! :D until now i don't even know where all those pictures are /: so people, if my face is in your camera, send the photos to me! thankyou <3 haha.
today was our last floorball lesson, with our trainee /: i can't believe it's been three weeks but i still haven't quite managed to catch his name /: ohwell. guess it's not all that important anyway. glad to know we're his favourite class! <3 whee`. i love it when the teachers like us :D haha. doesn't everyone? :D FLOORBALL ROCKS. i own! :D
thankfully there was no amath today :D woohoo. -heaves a sigh of relief. if not that'd be totally screwed. yesterday we had two consecutive periods of amath o.O i could've died. on a lighter note, i was dozing off till the point my head nodded real hard (how do you do that, really?! haha :D) and then yeah. i was awake henceforth! haha. and i enjoyed the lesson, overall. despite the fact that edna was probably mood-swinging. she gets pleased and displeased real easily. aww, we're sorry we hurt your feelings 'cause you don't feel appreciated! hah, i sound so hypocritical :D can't change the way i am. darn.
whee, tuesday's the humans day :D haha. ss was embarrassing though /: and geog was totally crazy. she mood-swang /: sometimes i think mrs ong is too stressed /: darn. she ought to take more vacations, though i think going overseas every holiday is considered frequent enough, ain't it? i love miss ng and mrs choo! and i think mike chia is kinda spoiling us! /: sheesh. though i love the fact that we're his form class.. or to put it the other way, he's our form teacher :D haha. sometimes i think he really gives in a lot! in total we only had max 35minutes of chem yesterday :D and that is HOT, 'cause chem is so freakin' boring /: what with the number of moles and all that! /: i go in a whirl-
walked out of school to the bus stop with RAHH today :D haha. we ate ice cream, and i must say, it was a mess! /: haha, the ice cream was everywhere, thanks to that plastic! grahh- it was all over RAHH's hand, making it seem almost as if she were doing a remake of house of wax or something xD (since the ice cream was white.. ohwell :D) and we saw that broken house again :D woohoo.
honestly speaking, i miss training /: well, as with almost everything else.. it's these mixed emotions that are seriously getting me down /: though i must admit, I NEED TO GET BACK IN SHAPE! oh, precious tight&firm butt, where art thou?? :D i'll get back into the momentum in no time :D whee`. beenskipping meals pretty often recently. the lack of time /: sheesh. and of course the lack of appetite. i must attribute all these to stress. grahh- no wonder my gastric's been acting up again /: one of these days my mom says i'll disappear! ahh. no i am NOT that skinny. in fact, i am putting on weight ): sigh.
hc's drama play is comin' up! i hope they say yes :D woohoo. and RAHH is so going! :D
i chased you round in memories;
haven't posted for some time. like on friday! didn't get a chance to talk about rhd /: haha, but it was so fun anyway :D woohoo, took so many pics! :D until now i don't even know where all those pictures are /: so people, if my face is in your camera, send the photos to me! thankyou <3 haha.
today was our last floorball lesson, with our trainee /: i can't believe it's been three weeks but i still haven't quite managed to catch his name /: ohwell. guess it's not all that important anyway. glad to know we're his favourite class! <3 whee`. i love it when the teachers like us :D haha. doesn't everyone? :D FLOORBALL ROCKS. i own! :D
thankfully there was no amath today :D woohoo. -heaves a sigh of relief. if not that'd be totally screwed. yesterday we had two consecutive periods of amath o.O i could've died. on a lighter note, i was dozing off till the point my head nodded real hard (how do you do that, really?! haha :D) and then yeah. i was awake henceforth! haha. and i enjoyed the lesson, overall. despite the fact that edna was probably mood-swinging. she gets pleased and displeased real easily. aww, we're sorry we hurt your feelings 'cause you don't feel appreciated! hah, i sound so hypocritical :D can't change the way i am. darn.
whee, tuesday's the humans day :D haha. ss was embarrassing though /: and geog was totally crazy. she mood-swang /: sometimes i think mrs ong is too stressed /: darn. she ought to take more vacations, though i think going overseas every holiday is considered frequent enough, ain't it? i love miss ng and mrs choo! and i think mike chia is kinda spoiling us! /: sheesh. though i love the fact that we're his form class.. or to put it the other way, he's our form teacher :D haha. sometimes i think he really gives in a lot! in total we only had max 35minutes of chem yesterday :D and that is HOT, 'cause chem is so freakin' boring /: what with the number of moles and all that! /: i go in a whirl-
walked out of school to the bus stop with RAHH today :D haha. we ate ice cream, and i must say, it was a mess! /: haha, the ice cream was everywhere, thanks to that plastic! grahh- it was all over RAHH's hand, making it seem almost as if she were doing a remake of house of wax or something xD (since the ice cream was white.. ohwell :D) and we saw that broken house again :D woohoo.
honestly speaking, i miss training /: well, as with almost everything else.. it's these mixed emotions that are seriously getting me down /: though i must admit, I NEED TO GET BACK IN SHAPE! oh, precious tight&firm butt, where art thou?? :D i'll get back into the momentum in no time :D whee`. been
hc's drama play is comin' up! i hope they say yes :D woohoo. and RAHH is so going! :D
i chased you round in memories;
Sunday, July 23, 2006 | 6:10 PM
sheesh, took zhenyang's stress survey. apparently i am quite stressed. and that's bad ): i've been advised to take more breaks. you know, i think that isn't exactly the problem. i personally feel i slack too much. or maybe, it's just cause i give myself too must pressure.. grahh-
there are so many responsibilites to fufill right now, she is unable. but she hates this feeling of uncertainty, of emptiness. i hate it. to think that she is useless. and once again, her self-esteem takes a dip. great :D she can't help it, but it's all coming back right now. like, she is small & the world is big. what irony, to be controlled by the very feelings she ought to supress.
but i thank God for today.
i've realised that joy can sing! :D and really well. today when i sat next to her i had a pleasant time listening :D whee`. i've learnt about perception. i've learnt to accept. things change over time. and the way i view others change too :D afterall, they're aren't all that bad. i think i ought to give them a chance. we're all sisters in Christ! :D i love the way You speak to me. the infallible revelation. i guess i'm slow, to realise it only now. He is helping me along the way. never noticed how the messages always come in so timely.
how foolish have i been, searching unremittingly for an answer to this. when alas!, it was before my very own eyes. turn your ears to heaven, and hear the noise inside :D You have given me the strength to carry on, i know i'm not alone :D You're fighting this with me, beside me. as i reside under the shadown of Your wings, show me the way-
saturation. too much. oh, the agony! no more, away withyou.
all for love's sake became poor,
there are so many responsibilites to fufill right now, she is unable. but she hates this feeling of uncertainty, of emptiness. i hate it. to think that she is useless. and once again, her self-esteem takes a dip. great :D she can't help it, but it's all coming back right now. like, she is small & the world is big. what irony, to be controlled by the very feelings she ought to supress.
but i thank God for today.
i've realised that joy can sing! :D and really well. today when i sat next to her i had a pleasant time listening :D whee`. i've learnt about perception. i've learnt to accept. things change over time. and the way i view others change too :D afterall, they're aren't all that bad. i think i ought to give them a chance. we're all sisters in Christ! :D i love the way You speak to me. the infallible revelation. i guess i'm slow, to realise it only now. He is helping me along the way. never noticed how the messages always come in so timely.
how foolish have i been, searching unremittingly for an answer to this. when alas!, it was before my very own eyes. turn your ears to heaven, and hear the noise inside :D You have given me the strength to carry on, i know i'm not alone :D You're fighting this with me, beside me. as i reside under the shadown of Your wings, show me the way-
saturation. too much. oh, the agony! no more, away with
all for love's sake became poor,
| 4:52 PM
i wonder why i even harbour such thoughts. ack-
such iniquity ): i don't seem to want this anymore.
i think i'm tired of it all. oh, there's the light at the end of the tunnel.
but i refuse to heed its call. i turn, andwalkaway.
give and take. oh yes, sure.
today's sermon was on "how to be a good friend". i find that particularly close to heart right now, i mean, if you catch my drift /: (hah, fab's words) we're all created for relationships. yes, they are important. just like how He was never lonely throughout eternity, for He was in good company; having had a personal relationship with Himself. the whole three in one thing :D and since we are created in His image, likewise relationships are essential. i must have this desire to be a good friend. and it's not going to be easy.
"greater love have no man than this,
than a man who lays down his life for his friends."
even as things are as they seem, it is often the case thatthere is more than meets the eye. so the theoretical YOU will never know. i cannot help but tell you this, i need you as much as you do me. i'll be praying <3
the battle's got to end. this unfaltering and relentless war.
it is the noise of my heart,
that has provoked me to love.
such iniquity ): i don't seem to want this anymore.
i think i'm tired of it all. oh, there's the light at the end of the tunnel.
but i refuse to heed its call. i turn, and
give and take. oh yes, sure.
today's sermon was on "how to be a good friend". i find that particularly close to heart right now, i mean, if you catch my drift /: (hah, fab's words) we're all created for relationships. yes, they are important. just like how He was never lonely throughout eternity, for He was in good company; having had a personal relationship with Himself. the whole three in one thing :D and since we are created in His image, likewise relationships are essential. i must have this desire to be a good friend. and it's not going to be easy.
"greater love have no man than this,
than a man who lays down his life for his friends."
even as things are as they seem, it is often the case that
the battle's got to end. this unfaltering and relentless war.
it is the noise of my heart,
that has provoked me to love.
Saturday, July 22, 2006 | 8:52 PM
this conv reminds me so much of.. things. gahh-
the sun failed to shine, says:
is it weak of me to cry?
look who's alone now, says:
depends.
look who's alone now, says:
for no reason cause you feel like an idiot, then yes.
the sun failed to shine, says:
if its because they turned, said bye, and walked away because of someone else. like i didnt exist, and i was nothing?
the sun failed to shine, says:
leaving me all alone.
look who's alone now, says:
your friends?
the sun failed to shine, says:
yep.
the sun failed to shine, says:
close ones in fact.
look who's alone now, says:
sigh.
look who's alone now, says:
sometimes you can't have them all to yourself.
look who's alone now, says:
yes, close friends should be there for you.
look who's alone now, says:
but..
look who's alone now, says:
sometimes you have to let go.
look who's alone now, says:
i've learnt that, and so should you.
the sun failed to shine, says:
we were supposed to be one big family, and suddenly i'm just kicked out of the house.
the sun failed to shine, says:
they left me alone, to struggle.
look who's alone now, says:
independence. it may sound curt, but seriously there are other people out there.
look who's alone now, says:
so cliche, but if they are true they won't walkaway.
the sun failed to shine, says:
but i really don't see anyone else around.
the sun failed to shine, says:
to depend on myself, that would take a long time to learn.
look who's alone now, says:
well, your world isn't that small.
the sun failed to shine, says:
perhaps.
the sun failed to shine, says:
but the rest just walk past, say hi, then bye.
look who's alone now, says:
make effort to be friends.
look who's alone now, says:
so they walk past say hi then bye and you watch you stone you stare?
the sun failed to shine, says:
i reply. i try to say a few lines, but so often i'm ignored i give up after a while.
it's all just child's play.
the sun failed to shine, says:
is it weak of me to cry?
look who's alone now, says:
depends.
look who's alone now, says:
for no reason cause you feel like an idiot, then yes.
the sun failed to shine, says:
if its because they turned, said bye, and walked away because of someone else. like i didnt exist, and i was nothing?
the sun failed to shine, says:
leaving me all alone.
look who's alone now, says:
your friends?
the sun failed to shine, says:
yep.
the sun failed to shine, says:
close ones in fact.
look who's alone now, says:
sigh.
look who's alone now, says:
sometimes you can't have them all to yourself.
look who's alone now, says:
yes, close friends should be there for you.
look who's alone now, says:
but..
look who's alone now, says:
sometimes you have to let go.
look who's alone now, says:
i've learnt that, and so should you.
the sun failed to shine, says:
we were supposed to be one big family, and suddenly i'm just kicked out of the house.
the sun failed to shine, says:
they left me alone, to struggle.
look who's alone now, says:
independence. it may sound curt, but seriously there are other people out there.
look who's alone now, says:
so cliche, but if they are true they won't walkaway.
the sun failed to shine, says:
but i really don't see anyone else around.
the sun failed to shine, says:
to depend on myself, that would take a long time to learn.
look who's alone now, says:
well, your world isn't that small.
the sun failed to shine, says:
perhaps.
the sun failed to shine, says:
but the rest just walk past, say hi, then bye.
look who's alone now, says:
make effort to be friends.
look who's alone now, says:
so they walk past say hi then bye and you watch you stone you stare?
the sun failed to shine, says:
i reply. i try to say a few lines, but so often i'm ignored i give up after a while.
it's all just child's play.
| 6:54 PM
how can things go so wrong. if ever.
i need a way out of this. i want this to end.
but what how will this epic tale take its leave?
only time will tell.
yay, today i sort of went shopping :D can't believe my parents bought me clothes! woohoo :D happy. was at compass, expected to see nathson. but i guess not, cause it's not a school day anyway :D didn't see deying either. ohwell.
sometimes, i think we're so caught up. yes, someday we'll all burnout. i know we'll bow before our time. we weren't made to handle this much pressure. it's beyond us. break break break. hah, the sole word that's lingering somewhere in my mind. probably by then it'll get so bad i won't be able to determine the ostensible truth. dang-
it's amazing how people around you can change how you're feeling. influence you, impact the way you think, the way you live. i'm not gonna sell myself to that. but one thing's true, you're worth living for <3 haha, the mysterious YOU :D i know someone who totally buys my theory :D -hints.
whee, randomnized thoughts. love 'em-
identity crisis.
i need a way out of this. i want this to end.
but what how will this epic tale take its leave?
yay, today i sort of went shopping :D can't believe my parents bought me clothes! woohoo :D happy. was at compass, expected to see nathson. but i guess not, cause it's not a school day anyway :D didn't see deying either. ohwell.
sometimes, i think we're so caught up. yes, someday we'll all burnout. i know we'll bow before our time. we weren't made to handle this much pressure. it's beyond us. break break break. hah, the sole word that's lingering somewhere in my mind. probably by then it'll get so bad i won't be able to determine the ostensible truth. dang-
it's amazing how people around you can change how you're feeling. influence you, impact the way you think, the way you live. i'm not gonna sell myself to that. but one thing's true, you're worth living for <3 haha, the mysterious YOU :D i know someone who totally buys my theory :D -hints.
whee, randomnized thoughts. love 'em-
identity crisis.
Thursday, July 20, 2006 | 11:11 PM
ONE.
i can do this. we can.
and i know you're there.
i can do this. we can.
and i know you're there.
| 11:01 PM
rag replies;
kyle: this tag is super mean ): fine, so we really got 3rd. eh boss, so much for aura ):
the unknown: haha :D hey there!
kyle: YEP :D
joseph: haha, WACONG! :D
wenyi: WOOHOO :D okay! -flash flash flash. ohman, flasher! :D
wenyi: hahaha, yep! the 'consequences' of being way too clever xD bwahah.
wenyi: sheesh, typho =X
nick: haha, thanks JOSEPH.
PAIL: you sound like you just made some war cry -.-"
PAIL: YEP, SAI! -runs to the toilet :D
PAIL: no, it doesn't! toilets :D woohoo, HAPPY TOILIET.
PAIL: now it's EBRP again! fickle-minded EL teachers! /: grr.
PAIL: yes, track&field :D
PAIL: woohoo! GO HIGH.
PAIL: sing a song! :D
INEZLAU!: i must totally agree, inezlau! ): these weeks been pretty screwed up anyway /: sheesh. -blows you a kiss :D bwahah.
nick: SURE, JOSEPH. sheesh.
joseph: no, look who's gonna kick who's ass! it's me kickin' your ass! /:
RAHH: kamer! :D reminds me of khmer all of a sudden :D
RAHH: yes! that acjc thing :D woohoo. eh, it seems we always need counting :D hahaha, 1 2 3! :D
RAHH: woohoo! that beloved HOLE-Y doll :D i bet our peeing demonstration was the best ever! :D haha.
RAHH: yes, it will become possessed /: sheesh! quick go save it! AHH-
kyle: yes boss :D haha. -one spoon of sugar, two dashes of milk :D
DEBORAH: debo, you're always right :D haha.
nickeng: precisely >< grahh-
nickeng: haha, BOREDOM. when is he ever?! :D
kyle: thanks for the encouragement. from my punk boss :D hahaha.
joseph: sheesh you! it's the second harassement by far.. thanks arh! ):
kyle: GRR ): haha, and you can't strikeout! /:
kyle: yes, super!! /:
PAIL: takecare of that shoulder too :D
kyle: haha, yes. the speech impediment :D woohoo. hm, yes, i caught on to your 'catch my drift'! <3 woohoo.
wenyi: yes! our track&field pic <33 whee`. hm, whose camera is it in? /: and yes, certainly missing the seniors /: that feeling comes back all the more when we saw them at the nationals! ):
stepdaughter: haha, thanks dear! :D
stepdaughter: hahaha, I BET THEY DON'T EVEN TEST YOU ON HOW TO SPELL 'STEPDAUGHTER' IN ENGLISH!! :D
Yuan: haha, you're welcome :D we'll always be behind you! <3 woohoo.
kyle: sheesh! interesting /: there's a follow-up to it right now. happened yesterday! urgh. tell you some time :D and darnit, there's so much drift-ing around! ><
PAIL: yeah.
PAIL: hahah, YES! retarded <3
PAIL: sheesh :D
PAIL: thankyou.
PAIL: yes, i rmb AWE.
miss panda eyes: you mustn't cry that much first :D
RAHH: yes! literally KILLER. 'cause now ms leong is b-r-o-k-e! /: we're killed, need to be buried! coffins. grahh-
wenyi: haha, I WANT THAT PIC!! send me :D
kyle: bwahaha :D sheesh, someday must sing that line for me! :D woohoo <3
RAHH: yes! GO-STOP is love! :D the job of the century! :D hahaha. sit on plastic containers /:
done!
kyle: this tag is super mean ): fine, so we really got 3rd. eh boss, so much for aura ):
the unknown: haha :D hey there!
kyle: YEP :D
joseph: haha, WACONG! :D
wenyi: WOOHOO :D okay! -flash flash flash. ohman, flasher! :D
wenyi: hahaha, yep! the 'consequences' of being way too clever xD bwahah.
wenyi: sheesh, typho =X
nick: haha, thanks JOSEPH.
PAIL: you sound like you just made some war cry -.-"
PAIL: YEP, SAI! -runs to the toilet :D
PAIL: no, it doesn't! toilets :D woohoo, HAPPY TOILIET.
PAIL: now it's EBRP again! fickle-minded EL teachers! /: grr.
PAIL: yes, track&field :D
PAIL: woohoo! GO HIGH.
PAIL: sing a song! :D
INEZLAU!: i must totally agree, inezlau! ): these weeks been pretty screwed up anyway /: sheesh. -blows you a kiss :D bwahah.
nick: SURE, JOSEPH. sheesh.
joseph: no, look who's gonna kick who's ass! it's me kickin' your ass! /:
RAHH: kamer! :D reminds me of khmer all of a sudden :D
RAHH: yes! that acjc thing :D woohoo. eh, it seems we always need counting :D hahaha, 1 2 3! :D
RAHH: woohoo! that beloved HOLE-Y doll :D i bet our peeing demonstration was the best ever! :D haha.
RAHH: yes, it will become possessed /: sheesh! quick go save it! AHH-
kyle: yes boss :D haha. -one spoon of sugar, two dashes of milk :D
DEBORAH: debo, you're always right :D haha.
nickeng: precisely >< grahh-
nickeng: haha, BOREDOM. when is he ever?! :D
kyle: thanks for the encouragement. from my punk boss :D hahaha.
joseph: sheesh you! it's the second harassement by far.. thanks arh! ):
kyle: GRR ): haha, and you can't strikeout! /:
kyle: yes, super!! /:
PAIL: takecare of that shoulder too :D
kyle: haha, yes. the speech impediment :D woohoo. hm, yes, i caught on to your 'catch my drift'! <3 woohoo.
wenyi: yes! our track&field pic <33 whee`. hm, whose camera is it in? /: and yes, certainly missing the seniors /: that feeling comes back all the more when we saw them at the nationals! ):
stepdaughter: haha, thanks dear! :D
stepdaughter: hahaha, I BET THEY DON'T EVEN TEST YOU ON HOW TO SPELL 'STEPDAUGHTER' IN ENGLISH!! :D
Yuan: haha, you're welcome :D we'll always be behind you! <3 woohoo.
kyle: sheesh! interesting /: there's a follow-up to it right now. happened yesterday! urgh. tell you some time :D and darnit, there's so much drift-ing around! ><
PAIL: yeah.
PAIL: hahah, YES! retarded <3
PAIL: sheesh :D
PAIL: thankyou.
PAIL: yes, i rmb AWE.
miss panda eyes: you mustn't cry that much first :D
RAHH: yes! literally KILLER. 'cause now ms leong is b-r-o-k-e! /: we're killed, need to be buried! coffins. grahh-
wenyi: haha, I WANT THAT PIC!! send me :D
kyle: bwahaha :D sheesh, someday must sing that line for me! :D woohoo <3
RAHH: yes! GO-STOP is love! :D the job of the century! :D hahaha. sit on plastic containers /:
done!
| 9:35 PM
if you think this is the way to get in, i must tell you you're very wrong. sometimes i seriously can't take it. and for all you know, someday i might just go. i got to run away from this, because by that time i'll probably never want to see you again. and yes, that's how serious things have become. darnit, steal. so that's the word, eh? smooth move. it's all a game. and you're not gonna win. stop the surface. it's super rough, if you get my drift.
CEDAR CAME IN 3RD FOR BOTH DIVISIONS :D
i don't know if i should be happy or sad. i guess both. but i will hold the passion forever <3 whatever it is, the cedar athletic team has not failed :D thanks to everyone - coaches, teachers, students and most importantly trackers <3 the cedar spirit lives on! :D just like how we will never fail to cheer our ex-cedarians in their A div races! ex-captains and all :D
and jiayuan is our heroine :D yay.
had so much fun cheering! WOOHOO. sadly cck is much smaller than the national stadium ): but still. i think cedar was loud, despite an extremely bad turn-up. it was even worse than last year /: sheesh. still, our cheering rocks. rocked the whole stadium, thankyou :D yay, now i've lost my voice.
i knew i shouldn't have cursed last night about the whole leng chang thing.cause it was worse than that. WHY? i am sick of that happening. like dejavu, time after time. okay, maybe we did make the wrong choice. now play it this way. great. so PAIL just walked off. and then it was RAHH me fab. and we stoned. we talked, we walked. we were unsound. okay, excluding fab. i mean, RAHH and i ): it was bad bad bad. and then, when we finally decided to drop the icecream thing and go straight to dinner, RAHH had to go home cause of steamboat /: darn. and i had no dinner. so i'm sure you know what happened next.
we walked for so long. i can't believe i dared to speak. that's a yay, on my part. then we went kfc. it was fun :D HAH.
i went home, my mom was totally like. sheesh /:
i hate it when things are this way. ooh, a triangle. it's never gonna be round, or smooth. see its points. SHIT.
YOU move me.
CEDAR CAME IN 3RD FOR BOTH DIVISIONS :D
i don't know if i should be happy or sad. i guess both. but i will hold the passion forever <3 whatever it is, the cedar athletic team has not failed :D thanks to everyone - coaches, teachers, students and most importantly trackers <3 the cedar spirit lives on! :D just like how we will never fail to cheer our ex-cedarians in their A div races! ex-captains and all :D
and jiayuan is our heroine :D yay.
had so much fun cheering! WOOHOO. sadly cck is much smaller than the national stadium ): but still. i think cedar was loud, despite an extremely bad turn-up. it was even worse than last year /: sheesh. still, our cheering rocks. rocked the whole stadium, thankyou :D yay, now i've lost my voice.
i knew i shouldn't have cursed last night about the whole leng chang thing.
we walked for so long. i can't believe i dared to speak. that's a yay, on my part. then we went kfc. it was fun :D HAH.
i went home, my mom was totally like. sheesh /:
i hate it when things are this way. ooh, a triangle. it's never gonna be round, or smooth. see its points. SHIT.
YOU move me.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006 | 11:18 PM
will the world miss me?
yay.
yay.
| 10:39 PM
i hate my ever-so-split personality. cause then everything appears fake. yeah, it's all jaded. the reason? even i cannot tell. how stupid it is, i don't even know i'm beaten till the moment i feel my face against the ground. isn't it too late then? there's nothing i hide. cause soon you'll know it all. someday, i wll probably let you in. and no, i will not regret. right now i can break. just let me close my eyes a little while, just a while.. and i promise you can be there henceforth.
tmr's the BIG DAY. win or lose, cedar shall not be moved.
I LOVE OUR NEW PEECEE T-SHIRT :D
thou shalt not be a conformist; bystander; perpetrator. yay :D
i feel so swing-y now! and that's B-A-D. sheesh. ohwell, at least i can look forward to tmr! :D evelyn's gonna grab one end of the banner, and i the other, we will be kiasu pigs and rush there to tie them! :D whee`
and after that, guess it's icecream day. i hope it won't be leng chang. hah, cause we're eating ICEcream? gahh- i'm sorry for everything that has happened.
oh, and thanks to JOSEPH for acting as nick and tagging on my blog, i sounded kinda dao. hah. read this conv:
joseph. #10 says:
=/
no, says:
what's that for.
joseph. #10 says:
sorryyy.
no, says:
it's okay.
joseph. #10 says:
hahaha
joseph. #10 says:
i was gonna sleep
joseph. #10 says:
then i logged on and you were on
no, says:
and.
joseph. #10 says:
?
no, says:
so you're going to sleep now.
joseph. #10 says:
yeah
joseph. #10 says:
haha
joseph. #10 says:
anything?
no, says:
okay.
no, says:
no.
joseph. #10 says:
bye!
joseph. #10 says:
(:
no, says:
bye.
sheesh, no says no /: darnit. eh, tell me whyi feel bad. cause i am nice? grr.
just this once, let me fall.fall to the ceiling-
tmr's the BIG DAY. win or lose, cedar shall not be moved.
I LOVE OUR NEW PEECEE T-SHIRT :D
thou shalt not be a conformist; bystander; perpetrator. yay :D
i feel so swing-y now! and that's B-A-D. sheesh. ohwell, at least i can look forward to tmr! :D evelyn's gonna grab one end of the banner, and i the other, we will be kiasu pigs and rush there to tie them! :D whee`
and after that, guess it's icecream day. i hope it won't be leng chang. hah, cause we're eating ICEcream? gahh- i'm sorry for everything that has happened.
oh, and thanks to JOSEPH for acting as nick and tagging on my blog, i sounded kinda dao. hah. read this conv:
joseph. #10 says:
=/
no, says:
what's that for.
joseph. #10 says:
sorryyy.
no, says:
it's okay.
joseph. #10 says:
hahaha
joseph. #10 says:
i was gonna sleep
joseph. #10 says:
then i logged on and you were on
no, says:
and.
joseph. #10 says:
?
no, says:
so you're going to sleep now.
joseph. #10 says:
yeah
joseph. #10 says:
haha
joseph. #10 says:
anything?
no, says:
okay.
no, says:
no.
joseph. #10 says:
bye!
joseph. #10 says:
(:
no, says:
bye.
sheesh, no says no /: darnit. eh, tell me why
just this once, let me fall.
Monday, July 17, 2006 | 11:40 PM
hard to please.
oh, there's a one-liner.
it puts me in a tight spot.
oh, there's a one-liner.
it puts me in a tight spot.
| 8:35 PM
ohmy, this funtarded conv :D
joseph. #10 says:
hey rahh
love me, says:
HEY?
joseph. #10 says:
rahhhh
love me, says:
RAHHH.
joseph. #10 says:
rahhh
love me, says:
rawrrr
joseph. #10 says:
growll
love me, says:
barkkk
joseph. #10 says:
ruffff
love me, says:
wooff
joseph. #10 says:
chirpp
love me, says:
neighh
joseph. #10 says:
grphgrph
joseph. #10 says:
thats a gryphon
love me, says:
SHEESH! eh don't make me LIFOTC xD
joseph. #10 says:
lifotc?!
joseph. #10 says:
lol wt
love me, says:
oops sorry afk-ed.
love me, says:
it stands for laugh in front of the com. haha.
joseph. #10 says:
LOl
joseph. #10 says:
WTH@#$%!@#%R
joseph. #10 says:
peanuts la
joseph. #10 says:
egg paste
joseph. #10 says:
im going for dinner!
joseph. #10 says:
have fun!
joseph. #10 says:
egg paste
love me, says:
HAHA.
joseph. #10 says:
AHA
joseph. #10 says:
there you go.
and then.
joseph. #10 says:
animal farm neigh neigh
love me, says:
YES!
love me, says:
HAHA.
love me, says:
I'M GOING TO POST THAT ANIMAL FARM THING.
joseph. #10 says:
what thing
joseph. #10 says:
haha
joseph. #10 says:
okay lor
joseph. #10 says:
:D
love me, says:
WHEN THE TURNED INTO ANIMALS.
love me, says:
WE*
joseph. #10 says:
hahahaha
joseph. #10 says:
i am a rawr
joseph. #10 says:
rawr
joseph. #10 says:
<-.->
love me, says:
i thought it ought to be a rawrer or something.
joseph. #10 says:
i am a horse
joseph. #10 says:
not a horser
joseph. #10 says:
yeah?
joseph. #10 says:
:D :D
darn, lit. talking to jose has made me more retarded. that's all i can say. the RETARDING FORCE. sheesh! if RAHH were here, she'd say kamer :D
red, amber, green.
joseph. #10 says:
hey rahh
love me, says:
HEY?
joseph. #10 says:
rahhhh
love me, says:
RAHHH.
joseph. #10 says:
rahhh
love me, says:
rawrrr
joseph. #10 says:
growll
love me, says:
barkkk
joseph. #10 says:
ruffff
love me, says:
wooff
joseph. #10 says:
chirpp
love me, says:
neighh
joseph. #10 says:
grphgrph
joseph. #10 says:
thats a gryphon
love me, says:
SHEESH! eh don't make me LIFOTC xD
joseph. #10 says:
lifotc?!
joseph. #10 says:
lol wt
love me, says:
oops sorry afk-ed.
love me, says:
it stands for laugh in front of the com. haha.
joseph. #10 says:
LOl
joseph. #10 says:
WTH@#$%!@#%R
joseph. #10 says:
peanuts la
joseph. #10 says:
egg paste
joseph. #10 says:
im going for dinner!
joseph. #10 says:
have fun!
joseph. #10 says:
egg paste
love me, says:
HAHA.
joseph. #10 says:
AHA
joseph. #10 says:
there you go.
and then.
joseph. #10 says:
animal farm neigh neigh
love me, says:
YES!
love me, says:
HAHA.
love me, says:
I'M GOING TO POST THAT ANIMAL FARM THING.
joseph. #10 says:
what thing
joseph. #10 says:
haha
joseph. #10 says:
okay lor
joseph. #10 says:
:D
love me, says:
WHEN THE TURNED INTO ANIMALS.
love me, says:
WE*
joseph. #10 says:
hahahaha
joseph. #10 says:
i am a rawr
joseph. #10 says:
rawr
joseph. #10 says:
<-.->
love me, says:
i thought it ought to be a rawrer or something.
joseph. #10 says:
i am a horse
joseph. #10 says:
not a horser
joseph. #10 says:
yeah?
joseph. #10 says:
:D :D
darn, lit. talking to jose has made me more retarded. that's all i can say. the RETARDING FORCE. sheesh! if RAHH were here, she'd say kamer :D
red, amber, green.
| 5:48 PM
today was like shit. darnit, i don't wish to swing or rant (violet i know you've got enough of that, sorry you sit next to me =X) but.. sigh ): no one's gonna understand except RAHH and i anyway. just keep this mouth freakin' shut. gahh-
RUSH. i guess that's what my life is like right now. today's only the first of what's gonna be a screwed up week. 7 days - will i last? the answer's pretty obvious, i mean, of course i won't die /: we'll just have to calculate the amount of damage it'll cost my already-broken spirit. HAH. probably sink to the bottom of every bottom. ooh, nice. cause then i'll be deep! (right dearest-boss-the-cool-punk? xD)
i must look forward to wednesday; it must, in no way, be screwed.. /: RAHH and i are gonna scream our hearts out :D reminds me of the song nick intro-ed to me! the lost prophets :D woohoo. wednesday is the day. -releases stress! /:though the only thing that will be screwed is not getting that position. DANGIT.
ahh, i bet all those factories are in need of workers now. the market demands mechanics! :D they've sent out an imperative command. oh yes, they have. indeed, this is it now. screwdrivers and hammers, unite! :D oh, not forgetting the SCREWS. the indispensable ingredient..
acjc invest was nice, though kinda solemn. it's malu-ating we were late. sheesh. thank God the guest speaker was late too /: the school is so big, RAHH and i were totally fascinated :D (unlike hci, cause we didn't exactly get a tour =X) THE GYM IS PHENOMENAL! :D hm, maybe not all that exaggerating, but compared to cedar's,i think poon will flip. HAH! :D fine, we're deprived. jc life is.. hectic. probably hectic-er than ours. much, much more.
then we rushed back to school, just in time for english. we had to borrow cash from the GO cause the cabfare was so freaking high! grr. you know where dover road is?! darn /: and i can't believe she refused to conduct the lesson! oh, what with RAHH and debo staying up till one and RAHH bringing THE DOLL THAT CAN PEE. and me bringing two pull-up pants in my bacg that caused me to appear like an un-wed mom -.-" darnit. sucks man.
the Os was O-kay :D i guess. thanks for the encouragement :D yep. though the wait before that was really long. we were all so damn bored. BORING. they were playing classical music! hah, since the listening comprehension's played on the radio /: most people almost slept. i was being entertaining.stress? guess when i'm stressed there's this compulsion to zi high. crazy me, zi high-ing. i think i talk too much :D hah. we had to listen to half an hour of that classical music /: not like listening to beethoven's symphonies are gonna make me any smarter! sheesh. at three the exam finally started. lame. it said "it is 3 o'clock." DANG! :D then suddenly this charity advert cut in -.-" made it seem like, it's 3 so DONATE NOW!! :D bwahah.
after that yusin, arica and i went to the canteen :D RAHH had to practice for th buzz@canteen. we started talking about geog /: so lame, yusin the science person! :D whee, huamns just get you down, don't they? you seemed to be reduced to bits when we started on geog :D and still rmb the one week stand thing! xD bwahah. ONE WEEK HOW TO STAND! faint already /: the sai thing :D bwahah. go toilet. plus the whole physics and english terms thing xD YUSIN, YOU'D BETTER GIVE A GOOD SPEECH ! <3 yay.
as quoted from inezlau - merely nothing but a screwed day.
ALL THOSE IN FAVOUR SAY "AYE". say it.
oh sure, just go on faking it. someday; split-
RUSH. i guess that's what my life is like right now. today's only the first of what's gonna be a screwed up week. 7 days - will i last? the answer's pretty obvious, i mean, of course i won't die /: we'll just have to calculate the amount of damage it'll cost my already-broken spirit. HAH. probably sink to the bottom of every bottom. ooh, nice. cause then i'll be deep! (right dearest-boss-the-cool-punk? xD)
i must look forward to wednesday; it must, in no way, be screwed.. /: RAHH and i are gonna scream our hearts out :D reminds me of the song nick intro-ed to me! the lost prophets :D woohoo. wednesday is the day. -releases stress! /:
ahh, i bet all those factories are in need of workers now. the market demands mechanics! :D they've sent out an imperative command. oh yes, they have. indeed, this is it now. screwdrivers and hammers, unite! :D oh, not forgetting the SCREWS. the indispensable ingredient..
acjc invest was nice, though kinda solemn. it's malu-ating we were late. sheesh. thank God the guest speaker was late too /: the school is so big, RAHH and i were totally fascinated :D (unlike hci, cause we didn't exactly get a tour =X) THE GYM IS PHENOMENAL! :D hm, maybe not all that exaggerating, but compared to cedar's,
then we rushed back to school, just in time for english. we had to borrow cash from the GO cause the cabfare was so freaking high! grr. you know where dover road is?! darn /: and i can't believe she refused to conduct the lesson! oh, what with RAHH and debo staying up till one and RAHH bringing THE DOLL THAT CAN PEE. and me bringing two pull-up pants in my bacg that caused me to appear like an un-wed mom -.-" darnit. sucks man.
the Os was O-kay :D i guess. thanks for the encouragement :D yep. though the wait before that was really long. we were all so damn bored. BORING. they were playing classical music! hah, since the listening comprehension's played on the radio /: most people almost slept. i was being entertaining.
after that yusin, arica and i went to the canteen :D RAHH had to practice for th buzz@canteen. we started talking about geog /: so lame, yusin the science person! :D whee, huamns just get you down, don't they? you seemed to be reduced to bits when we started on geog :D and still rmb the one week stand thing! xD bwahah. ONE WEEK HOW TO STAND! faint already /: the sai thing :D bwahah. go toilet. plus the whole physics and english terms thing xD YUSIN, YOU'D BETTER GIVE A GOOD SPEECH ! <3 yay.
as quoted from inezlau - merely nothing but a screwed day.
ALL THOSE IN FAVOUR SAY "AYE". say it.
oh sure, just go on faking it. someday; split-
Sunday, July 16, 2006 | 10:25 PM
tmr's the start of a hectic new week. but i will survive! :D
can't wait for wednesday, really :D getting so zi high everytime i think about it :D whee` as for tmr, acjc invest in the morning :D going with RAHH! <3 yay :D then there's our english product review ppt! /: sheesh. RAHH's gonna bring her COOL DOLL THAT CAN PEE :D yayness. darn, why did mrs ng have to make us go first?! just cause we're comparing pull-up pants!! :D hah.
after that there's O level MT listening comprehension! AHH. -faints ):
i want to be RAHH's PE! her personal editor!! :D haha, for her hpc campaign speech :D yay. but, i can't stay online anymore. how freakin' annoying. sheesh, got scolded this morning cause apparently i use for so long.. and late into the night that i don't get enough rest. i know, all those health problems i get but HELLO! ): my social life. i think i will die.
and now i'm a real secretary :D i'm fab's PA. bwahahah. i'm thecute secretary of a COOL PUNK! :D whee, so exciting. -rushes to get his coffee. let's rmb.. one spoon of sugar and two dashes of milk :D yay, i got it :D WOOHOO, I'M IN THE COOL CLUB NOW :D
i can't sing a love song the way it's meant to be,
but tonight all i want is you here with me <3
can't wait for wednesday, really :D getting so zi high everytime i think about it :D whee` as for tmr, acjc invest in the morning :D going with RAHH! <3 yay :D then there's our english product review ppt! /: sheesh. RAHH's gonna bring her COOL DOLL THAT CAN PEE :D yayness. darn, why did mrs ng have to make us go first?! just cause we're comparing pull-up pants!! :D hah.
after that there's O level MT listening comprehension! AHH. -faints ):
i want to be RAHH's PE! her personal editor!! :D haha, for her hpc campaign speech :D yay. but, i can't stay online anymore. how freakin' annoying. sheesh, got scolded this morning cause apparently i use for so long.. and late into the night that i don't get enough rest. i know, all those health problems i get but HELLO! ): my social life. i think i will die.
and now i'm a real secretary :D i'm fab's PA. bwahahah. i'm the
i can't sing a love song the way it's meant to be,
but tonight all i want is you here with me <3
Saturday, July 15, 2006 | 5:49 PM
yay i got a new song i'm in love with :D cause the lyrics are so nice :D
though you got to click the play button on the top left hand corner yourself :D haha. once again, it seems compatible only with IE and not firefox. crazy blogger. it's biased!! hah :D ohwell, i got both so it's fine by me :D
i've found how useless saturday afternoons are to me. they just make me feel so.. urgh. take 'em away, please! ):
i think i dare to try again. and i will. i regret not being bold enough to take the first step. oh, darn the confidence factor. BUMMER-
when i look into your eyes
everytime you smile at me
oh i goweak inside
i just can't hide my love
tell me, how can i walk away. i don't care what they say, i'm lovin' you anyway. cause it's the way you make me feel <3 thankyou.
though you got to click the play button on the top left hand corner yourself :D haha. once again, it seems compatible only with IE and not firefox. crazy blogger. it's biased!! hah :D ohwell, i got both so it's fine by me :D
i've found how useless saturday afternoons are to me. they just make me feel so.. urgh. take 'em away, please! ):
i think i dare to try again. and i will. i regret not being bold enough to take the first step. oh, darn the confidence factor. BUMMER-
when i look into your eyes
everytime you smile at me
oh i go
i just can't hide my love
tell me, how can i walk away. i don't care what they say, i'm lovin' you anyway. cause it's the way you make me feel <3 thankyou.
| 5:21 PM
gahh-.
the coming week is gonna be so trying. i think i will break. will you be there for me?
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NATIONALS!! :D woohoo. one of the most anticipated events every year :D poor juniors, they haven't got the chance to be there /: it rocks, the passion, the hype and most of all, the cedar spirit at its best <3 we will conquer-
it's hard to know where i stand
it's hard to know where i am
well maybe it's a puzzle i don't understand
but sometimes
i get the feeling that i'm
stranded in the wrong time
where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme, a sound bite
is it any wonder that i'm tired?
is it any wonder that i feel uptight?
is it any wonder i don't know what's right?
oh, these days, after all the misery you made
is it any wonder that i feel afraid?
is it any wonder that i feel betrayed?
i think i'm swinging right now ): i don't know how to face the future, what's coming up next. i'm afraid. i can't fight this feeling anymore. but i'll close my eyes, give you my hand; i'll feel your heart beating and i know you'll understand. do you feel the same, or am i only dreaming?
was it too beautiful to last?
the coming week is gonna be so trying. i think i will break. will you be there for me?
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NATIONALS!! :D woohoo. one of the most anticipated events every year :D poor juniors, they haven't got the chance to be there /: it rocks, the passion, the hype and most of all, the cedar spirit at its best <3 we will conquer-
it's hard to know where i stand
it's hard to know where i am
well maybe it's a puzzle i don't understand
but sometimes
i get the feeling that i'm
stranded in the wrong time
where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme, a sound bite
is it any wonder that i'm tired?
is it any wonder that i feel uptight?
is it any wonder i don't know what's right?
oh, these days, after all the misery you made
is it any wonder that i feel afraid?
is it any wonder that i feel betrayed?
i think i'm swinging right now ): i don't know how to face the future, what's coming up next. i'm afraid. i can't fight this feeling anymore. but i'll close my eyes, give you my hand; i'll feel your heart beating and i know you'll understand. do you feel the same, or am i only dreaming?
was it too beautiful to last?
| 4:02 PM
tag replies;
davin: yEsHh! :D miiE iiShhx dE bEzXx aT tHiish laNgUaGE wOrRzXx :D
CEL: haha, we always miss you when you're not in school =X esp IMP too! :D
rw: haha, banned? long story :D
miss panda eyes: sheesh, i'm not promoting crying here! /:
yingqi: haha, okay. relinked :D
kyle: hahaha, SOCKS! :D so super random.
PAIL: yep, pulling! :D
PAIL: thanks dear <3 love.
Jeff: hahaha, the way you reply is so funny. like so innocent :D
Jeff: -smiles back :D
kyle: hm, why does it have problems attaching photos?! darn, blogger is stupid rmb :D but we will win it :D
rahh: GERMANY <3 still love it so.
rahh: yeah! haha :D retarded egg-guy lah :D and by the way, you tagged wrongly as 'rahh' instead of 'RAHH'! :D bwahahah.
kyle: haha, you wear retainers /: colour the wire! :D bwahaha. and furthermore, yours isn't the individual tooth band thing ): so no france. or swiss? sad.
kyle: DARN! :D typho.
cy: haha, she has one?! i didn't know either /: sheesh. heh :D you sound so pathetic complaining i didn't tag /:
kyle: oh you did sms him? thanks :D haha. sheesh, tell him it's okay.
miss yellow: yes! poor poor zizou ): marco materazzi insulted him! grr.
miss yellow: bwahahah :D what a good summary.
cy: YES!! ): germany forever lah.
cy: haha /: i wanted france to win, when germany went out.
cy: HEH. see, it's your fault for underestimating france :D bwahah.
ms computer!: YOU'RE SLOW OR WHATEVER :D haha, you asked me to say it! :D yeah, nicest marshmallow ever :D thanks!
huiyi(:: thanks! :D
PAIL: aye, don't care about that :D
PAIL: yes, ben&jerry's :D yum! high-class wOrRxXzZ.
PAIL: if you want :D
RAHH: oh yeah! :D woohoo. wonderful soup dispenser <3 love it! plus its soap! YAY.
RAHH: you spelt it as te! :D
RAHH: sheesh, one tag to say "haha. xD" then what do i reply? HEHHEH :D
RAHH: VERY COOL! :D but rmb who's cooler :D water!
RAHH: in the end she was so super COLD the next day -.-"
RAHH: another laughing tag! i shall reply this: BWAHAHAH :D
protector: yes, the operation is over /: you're called bodyguard, you goon! :D bwahaha. tried to stalk me yesterday eh! HAH :D together with miang :D and YOU WORE YELLOW!! <3 love it.
protector: BYE BODYGUARD! :D
jfur: haha. THAT thing! one billion years already /: you haven't changed target? :D
joseph: just fine, thankyou :D it's tying me down.
kyle: PRESENTS! :D whee` yep, smile!smile!smile! :D
PAIL: haha, i read it! :D
PAIL: yeah, she let you use the com? :D haha, the early bird. we need duty roster from dhilshad.
PAIL: sheesh! they eat breakfast lah, not worms! :D
PAIL: haha, okay : D
PAIL: yeah! darn the typho /:
deborah: yes you are! at first we're like, hm, D is so Difficult to think of a word that's Downright positive and it's starting with a 'D'. but wp thought of Dynamic :D
kyle: ohdear, i don't feel the coolness! /: i wonder why? -fans myself. eh, now i'm the cool one! :D but yeah, Fabian Fabulous. haha.
rw: exotic?! darn :D haha. rw for Runs Well lah :D bwahah.
vicky: haha, HIT THE PIZZA! :D woohoo. and yay, you removed the double i in your name! GOOD :D haha. yeah i revealed something. shall remove it :D
joseph: darn, boost his ego :D too big already lah. fine, Kyle Kawaii :D so j is for joseph. Joseph Jogabonito! :D
yusin: haha :D yeah! oh, now that you tag i rmb that i forgot to post about the "choir" people thing :D haha i rmb that i forgot :D
RAHH: yes! :D
RAHH: ohwell, the 'consequences' of being clever! :D clever consequences?! darn :D
RAHH: thankyou, thankyou :D
RAHH: yes! thk the market guy! bummer :D
done!
davin: yEsHh! :D miiE iiShhx dE bEzXx aT tHiish laNgUaGE wOrRzXx :D
CEL: haha, we always miss you when you're not in school =X esp IMP too! :D
rw: haha, banned? long story :D
miss panda eyes: sheesh, i'm not promoting crying here! /:
yingqi: haha, okay. relinked :D
kyle: hahaha, SOCKS! :D so super random.
PAIL: yep, pulling! :D
PAIL: thanks dear <3 love.
Jeff: hahaha, the way you reply is so funny. like so innocent :D
Jeff: -smiles back :D
kyle: hm, why does it have problems attaching photos?! darn, blogger is stupid rmb :D but we will win it :D
rahh: GERMANY <3 still love it so.
rahh: yeah! haha :D retarded egg-guy lah :D and by the way, you tagged wrongly as 'rahh' instead of 'RAHH'! :D bwahahah.
kyle: haha, you wear retainers /: colour the wire! :D bwahaha. and furthermore, yours isn't the individual tooth band thing ): so no france. or swiss? sad.
kyle: DARN! :D typho.
cy: haha, she has one?! i didn't know either /: sheesh. heh :D you sound so pathetic complaining i didn't tag /:
kyle: oh you did sms him? thanks :D haha. sheesh, tell him it's okay.
miss yellow: yes! poor poor zizou ): marco materazzi insulted him! grr.
miss yellow: bwahahah :D what a good summary.
cy: YES!! ): germany forever lah.
cy: haha /: i wanted france to win, when germany went out.
cy: HEH. see, it's your fault for underestimating france :D bwahah.
ms computer!: YOU'RE SLOW OR WHATEVER :D haha, you asked me to say it! :D yeah, nicest marshmallow ever :D thanks!
huiyi(:: thanks! :D
PAIL: aye, don't care about that :D
PAIL: yes, ben&jerry's :D yum! high-class wOrRxXzZ.
PAIL: if you want :D
RAHH: oh yeah! :D woohoo. wonderful soup dispenser <3 love it! plus its soap! YAY.
RAHH: you spelt it as te! :D
RAHH: sheesh, one tag to say "haha. xD" then what do i reply? HEHHEH :D
RAHH: VERY COOL! :D but rmb who's cooler :D water!
RAHH: in the end she was so super COLD the next day -.-"
RAHH: another laughing tag! i shall reply this: BWAHAHAH :D
protector: yes, the operation is over /: you're called bodyguard, you goon! :D bwahaha. tried to stalk me yesterday eh! HAH :D together with miang :D and YOU WORE YELLOW!! <3 love it.
protector: BYE BODYGUARD! :D
jfur: haha. THAT thing! one billion years already /: you haven't changed target? :D
joseph: just fine, thankyou :D it's tying me down.
kyle: PRESENTS! :D whee` yep, smile!smile!smile! :D
PAIL: haha, i read it! :D
PAIL: yeah, she let you use the com? :D haha, the early bird. we need duty roster from dhilshad.
PAIL: sheesh! they eat breakfast lah, not worms! :D
PAIL: haha, okay : D
PAIL: yeah! darn the typho /:
deborah: yes you are! at first we're like, hm, D is so Difficult to think of a word that's Downright positive and it's starting with a 'D'. but wp thought of Dynamic :D
kyle: ohdear, i don't feel the coolness! /: i wonder why? -fans myself. eh, now i'm the cool one! :D but yeah, Fabian Fabulous. haha.
rw: exotic?! darn :D haha. rw for Runs Well lah :D bwahah.
vicky: haha, HIT THE PIZZA! :D woohoo. and yay, you removed the double i in your name! GOOD :D haha. yeah i revealed something. shall remove it :D
joseph: darn, boost his ego :D too big already lah. fine, Kyle Kawaii :D so j is for joseph. Joseph Jogabonito! :D
yusin: haha :D yeah! oh, now that you tag i rmb that i forgot to post about the "choir" people thing :D haha i rmb that i forgot :D
RAHH: yes! :D
RAHH: ohwell, the 'consequences' of being clever! :D clever consequences?! darn :D
RAHH: thankyou, thankyou :D
RAHH: yes! thk the market guy! bummer :D
done!
Friday, July 14, 2006 | 11:40 PM
ahh, RAHH and i can hardly open our eyes! /: -do that goldfish eye action :D bwahaha.we look retarded when we do that! and that's why we love it so <3 woohoo! GOLDFISHES HAVE BIG BIG EYES!
oh, and talk about RAHH and i :D during amath, edna mode praised RAHH! :D hahaha. she was so embarrassed! :D rain-partner and debo kept looking at her :D hahaha. cause RAHH answered the question correctly! and she was like, "SO CLEVER!" and she said RAHH's good, we must learn from her :D RAHH covered her face in malu-ation! :D (by the way, all credit for providing the exact account info goes to debo! :D) lalala. then when i answered the next question she was like "excellent!" /: darn.but E is for Excellent! hahaha :D so in the end RAHH and i came up with this:
Elyssa Excellent
Wanping Wonderful
Sharron Superb
Peichun Perfect
Deborah Dynamic
darn, we're soclique-d /: oops. sheesh.
YAY, I JUST PUT FAB INTO A COMA. it lasts till tmr morning :D have fun in lala-land :D too bad you won't be able to choose a name from that screaming mobbing horde downstairs :D ohwell, they'll have to wait :D
somewhere only we know-
oh, and talk about RAHH and i :D during amath, edna mode praised RAHH! :D hahaha. she was so embarrassed! :D rain-partner and debo kept looking at her :D hahaha. cause RAHH answered the question correctly! and she was like, "SO CLEVER!" and she said RAHH's good, we must learn from her :D RAHH covered her face in malu-ation! :D (by the way, all credit for providing the exact account info goes to debo! :D) lalala. then when i answered the next question she was like "excellent!" /: darn.
Elyssa Excellent
Wanping Wonderful
Sharron Superb
Peichun Perfect
Deborah Dynamic
darn, we're so
YAY, I JUST PUT FAB INTO A COMA. it lasts till tmr morning :D have fun in lala-land :D too bad you won't be able to choose a name from that screaming mobbing horde downstairs :D ohwell, they'll have to wait :D
somewhere only we know-
| 10:45 PM
teachers really really have split personalities! darn /: today during ndp rehearsal, mike chia, mr yau and even TAN XX showed it! hahaha. TAN XX went "very good, bagus, hen hao!" :D and mr yau went "wahlao" and "wah biang eh!". mike chia and his disgusting chinese /: oops! :D today was only outdoor, as for indoor we did -CENSORED- (this post has been edited as of 1707hours, 15july2006 as it contains top secret information that should not be known to the world till after 8august2006 :D) fab says it's so.. like our childhood days :D sure, who can let go? it was so fun! :D haha. hope it'll be cool :D oops, not supposed to give away too much :D
14 july 2006 @ 1036hrs - THE MOMENT WE DROVE EDNA mode NUTS! =X
sheesh, she went crazy today. probably cause she was wearing this COLD brown shirt again -.-" i've realised, teachers can get high too. haha, actually that's a rather delayed thing cause.. they are humans too! so obviously :D but, i still think teachers should wear HOT shirts. makes them nicer :D here's what i propose:
for edna - RED/PINK
for doctor ong - ORANGE! :D
for miss ng - PINK
hahaha, so lame :D today during ss we went high. i like miss ng, she has the ability to make us laugh <3>high. yesterday, during ss i was almost half-sleeping. and then she was discussing with the class the importance of the location of industries in singapore. i wasn't even listening /: she was standing in front of my table all the time! haha, cause she was so cool - came into class empty-handed. PRO :D so she asked, why it must be located near the sea? i wasn't concentrating and i just said in jest, "so they can go swimming!" hahaha, everyone laughed, so did i :D and miss ng agreed that the workers have their leisure time :D SHEESH.
today, she was so inspiring, yet again :D here's our aspiration: "we aspire to be... modern sophisticated dynamic and independent working women in this fast-paced cosmopolitan and unpredictable world :D" ahh, miss was stressing so much on how she enjoyed the freedom. freedom of not having to be tied down with a spouse, or children.. that's why i've been bold-ing the miss-es :D hahaha. guess she'll never get married? yeah.
ss affected our geog :D in the positive sense. we were kinda high. and that made mrs ong happy. oops, i mean doctor ong! :D haha, thanks to the fact that her handwriting is getting worse, according to her own personal judgement /: (hey, i didn't comment :D) so yep, i think i should make my handwriting go uglier. then i'll be a good doctor! why is there the presence of this common misconception? then again, is it even a misconception? :D hahaha, they do have squiggly handwriting! hah. so anyway, during geog i decided she should wear orange :D anyway, she said she would on monday. since she claims orange is the new IN for us :D hahaha. i would love to see her in orange! though i know she's just kidding /: i also learnt in geog.. it's us against the world :D hah, it's a pun in itself. if you have no confidence, CHECK THE TEXTBOOK! :D lalala. go high-
oh, fab & melt-y people. he came up with the new motto which i adopted for us. cool eh :D haha. smile!smile!smile! :D cause, it's the similar yet different thing.. it hits me so much. yeah you're right, forces memories. though of course not every single word! :D ahh, i love that song so much :D and the whole eat icecream after t&f meet thing is so random :D
janica is so nice :D she randomly came to talk to me online! :D hahaha. look at part of our conv.
*jpang* says:
ahhah
*jpang* says:
u are still so crappy
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
HEH
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
i guess.
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
hm, you mean it should be the case that i'm less crappy, probably due to stress or something?
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
yeah.. i am feeling the stress. but still got to be crappy : D helps me to de-stress.
*jpang* says:
HAHAHA.
*jpang* says:
nahhh
*jpang* says:
crappiness is prob the only characteristic one can hardly live without
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
hahaha.
i agree :D yay, thanks janica <3 hpc '05 :D
let this be our prayer;
14 july 2006 @ 1036hrs - THE MOMENT WE DROVE EDNA mode NUTS! =X
sheesh, she went crazy today. probably cause she was wearing this COLD brown shirt again -.-" i've realised, teachers can get high too. haha, actually that's a rather delayed thing cause.. they are humans too! so obviously :D but, i still think teachers should wear HOT shirts. makes them nicer :D here's what i propose:
for edna - RED/PINK
for doctor ong - ORANGE! :D
for miss ng - PINK
hahaha, so lame :D today during ss we went high. i like miss ng, she has the ability to make us laugh <3>high. yesterday, during ss i was almost half-sleeping. and then she was discussing with the class the importance of the location of industries in singapore. i wasn't even listening /: she was standing in front of my table all the time! haha, cause she was so cool - came into class empty-handed. PRO :D so she asked, why it must be located near the sea? i wasn't concentrating and i just said in jest, "so they can go swimming!" hahaha, everyone laughed, so did i :D and miss ng agreed that the workers have their leisure time :D SHEESH.
today, she was so inspiring, yet again :D here's our aspiration: "we aspire to be... modern sophisticated dynamic and independent working women in this fast-paced cosmopolitan and unpredictable world :D" ahh, miss was stressing so much on how she enjoyed the freedom. freedom of not having to be tied down with a spouse, or children.. that's why i've been bold-ing the miss-es :D hahaha. guess she'll never get married? yeah.
ss affected our geog :D in the positive sense. we were kinda high. and that made mrs ong happy. oops, i mean doctor ong! :D haha, thanks to the fact that her handwriting is getting worse, according to her own personal judgement /: (hey, i didn't comment :D) so yep, i think i should make my handwriting go uglier. then i'll be a good doctor! why is there the presence of this common misconception? then again, is it even a misconception? :D hahaha, they do have squiggly handwriting! hah. so anyway, during geog i decided she should wear orange :D anyway, she said she would on monday. since she claims orange is the new IN for us :D hahaha. i would love to see her in orange! though i know she's just kidding /: i also learnt in geog.. it's us against the world :D hah, it's a pun in itself. if you have no confidence, CHECK THE TEXTBOOK! :D lalala. go high-
oh, fab & melt-y people. he came up with the new motto which i adopted for us. cool eh :D haha. smile!smile!smile! :D cause, it's the similar yet different thing.. it hits me so much. yeah you're right, forces memories. though of course not every single word! :D ahh, i love that song so much :D and the whole eat icecream after t&f meet thing is so random :D
janica is so nice :D she randomly came to talk to me online! :D hahaha. look at part of our conv.
*jpang* says:
ahhah
*jpang* says:
u are still so crappy
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
HEH
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
i guess.
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
hm, you mean it should be the case that i'm less crappy, probably due to stress or something?
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
yeah.. i am feeling the stress. but still got to be crappy : D helps me to de-stress.
*jpang* says:
HAHAHA.
*jpang* says:
nahhh
*jpang* says:
crappiness is prob the only characteristic one can hardly live without
do you want my blood; my tears, says:
hahaha.
i agree :D yay, thanks janica <3 hpc '05 :D
let this be our prayer;
Thursday, July 13, 2006 | 11:29 PM
through the fish eyed lens of tear-stained eyes
i can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
i'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where i hide
if you negotiate the minefield in the drive
and beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
and if you make it past the shotgun in the hall
dial the combination, open the priesthole
and if i'm in i'll tell you what's behind the wall
there's a kid who had a big hallucination
making loves to girls in magazines
he wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith
could anybody love him
or is it just a crazy dream
and if i show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight
and if i open my heart to you
and show you my weak side
what would you do
would you sell your story to rolling stone
would you take the children away
and leave me alone
and smile in reassurance
as you whisper down the phone
would you send me packing
or would you take me home
thought i oughta bare my naked feelings
thought i oughta tear the curtain down
i held the blade in trembling hands
prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
i never had the nerve to makethe final cut
i wish i had the courage. but i don't.
i can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
i'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where i hide
if you negotiate the minefield in the drive
and beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
and if you make it past the shotgun in the hall
dial the combination, open the priesthole
and if i'm in i'll tell you what's behind the wall
there's a kid who had a big hallucination
making loves to girls in magazines
he wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith
could anybody love him
or is it just a crazy dream
and if i show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight
and if i open my heart to you
and show you my weak side
what would you do
would you sell your story to rolling stone
would you take the children away
and leave me alone
and smile in reassurance
as you whisper down the phone
would you send me packing
or would you take me home
thought i oughta bare my naked feelings
thought i oughta tear the curtain down
i held the blade in trembling hands
prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
i never had the nerve to make
i wish i had the courage. but i don't.
| 10:34 PM
what grabs me most, is that deep down, i actually care. i must admit, this is a shocker. i've been so unfaithful, so pretending. those feelings i faked. i'm sorry. but thank God for your tears, they brought me back. the moment i saw them roll.. it's almost as if you drenched me with your sadness. probably you didn't see, and i think you didn't. in fact, no one did. but i cried, i cried for you. i'll probably never understand you, but i want to.
today edna mode went crazy. that day was bad enough, you think? speaking in greek and latin. i can faint. CRAZY EDNA. she claimed we copied /: but at least good for RAHH, her work's recognised for putting in effort :D -gives her a pat on the back. maybe cause today she was so COLD. she wore a COLD beige shirt. ohwell, that's more like her usual self anyway. being nice is too much to expect. oh, so mundane.
see who's so nice <3>hitler /: hahaha.
on impulse, says:
anyway.. EVA BRAUN! you want to be like her? :D
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
HAHAHA NO WAY MAN
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
just mentioning herrr
on impulse, says:
hahahaha.
on impulse, says:
HITLER WILL PLAY WITH YOUR FEELINGS.
on impulse, says:
OR MAYBE SHE WAS PLAYING WITH HER OWN :D
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
LOL
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
u and ur hitler
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
elyssa= hitler????????
on impulse, says:
NO! IT'S MORE LIKE you AND your HITLER :D
on impulse, says:
I THINK YOU LOVE HITLER.
on impulse, says:
:D
on impulse, says:
HAHAHA.
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
WHATEVER. ur hitler. so i love you.
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
BWAHAHA
on impulse, says:
YAY?
on impulse, says:
HAHA :D
today's my brother's birthday! <3 older brother. haha. we went out to eat :D
scream thy last scream-
today edna mode went crazy. that day was bad enough, you think? speaking in greek and latin. i can faint. CRAZY EDNA. she claimed we copied /: but at least good for RAHH, her work's recognised for putting in effort :D -gives her a pat on the back. maybe cause today she was so COLD. she wore a COLD beige shirt. ohwell, that's more like her usual self anyway. being nice is too much to expect. oh, so mundane.
see who's so nice <3>hitler /: hahaha.
on impulse, says:
anyway.. EVA BRAUN! you want to be like her? :D
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
HAHAHA NO WAY MAN
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
just mentioning herrr
on impulse, says:
hahahaha.
on impulse, says:
HITLER WILL PLAY WITH YOUR FEELINGS.
on impulse, says:
OR MAYBE SHE WAS PLAYING WITH HER OWN :D
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
LOL
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
u and ur hitler
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
elyssa= hitler????????
on impulse, says:
NO! IT'S MORE LIKE you AND your HITLER :D
on impulse, says:
I THINK YOU LOVE HITLER.
on impulse, says:
:D
on impulse, says:
HAHAHA.
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
WHATEVER. ur hitler. so i love you.
a final bullet to put our love to death says:
BWAHAHA
on impulse, says:
YAY?
on impulse, says:
HAHA :D
today's my brother's birthday! <3 older brother. haha. we went out to eat :D
scream thy last scream-
Wednesday, July 12, 2006 | 11:08 PM
i am a box :D
i am square. i am an object of cardboard. i eat. i talk. i listen. i am made of paper. i am bound by a ribbon. and i suck at studying.
am i anymore different from you? i wonder. maybe humans hate boxes. cause i'm getting dao-ed the whole day ): -sobs. ohwell. i'll contain my feelings anyway :D
jose just created the SAS club. no, it has nothing to do with st andrews' secondary. (i mean, cedar, hci.. where does st andrews' come in? :D) it stands for suckatstudying :D he's the president, i'm the vice :D cause we both suck at studying. oh, and screw math the most! /:
these days i can't sleep. sigh. it's okay, i'll just lie there and probably fall asleep when my body realises i'm tired :D yeah, it's slow.
i missed YOU,
i am square. i am an object of cardboard. i eat. i talk. i listen. i am made of paper. i am bound by a ribbon. and i suck at studying.
am i anymore different from you? i wonder. maybe humans hate boxes. cause i'm getting dao-ed the whole day ): -sobs. ohwell. i'll contain my feelings anyway :D
jose just created the SAS club. no, it has nothing to do with st andrews' secondary. (i mean, cedar, hci.. where does st andrews' come in? :D) it stands for suckatstudying :D he's the president, i'm the vice :D cause we both suck at studying. oh, and screw math the most! /:
these days i can't sleep. sigh. it's okay, i'll just lie there and probably fall asleep when my body realises i'm tired :D yeah, it's slow.
i miss
| 4:54 PM
i hate it when things are so surface. i want this to last. time, what we need. but i know it won't.. we must work this out. cause it's important to me. you are, we are. maybe you think i don't care. if i ever said that i don't, i lied. don't constantly think it's one-sided, probably i've neglected you. but.. i'm just sorry. someday, are we going to return to where we were?
regarding ytd's O level MT oral, i'm not going to care. everything i did was in vain. great. it was the topic i wished for. thank God. but i was too nervous i didn't say out the points. i think i can die right now. this is it. the O levels. and i wasted my chance. i screwed it.
today was funny :D i think we all feel like killing edna mode right now. for goodness' sake, she can't teach! ): we're all suffering ever since she came back. it's this weird, bittersweet love-hate relationship. she sometimes gets so ridiculous, you are at a loss. do i laugh or cry right now? darn. but these two days i think she's a little better :D we're currently on functions. ohmy, she kept going on about range-domain, domain-range.. i was like, are we discussing geog here? cause apparently there are so many ranges they could probably make the himalayan range for all i care. and she kept adding questions! it got so hilarious. we were laughing at her but she wasn't even aware :D there was like question 2a and 2b. she had to add 2a* and 2b*. darn, by the end of the lesson i was seeing stars. sheesh, seriously no one was listening. i was dozing off /: then, once again, the bell of life (not the kiss) woke me up :D haha.
today she was in a better mood! i think probably cause she was wearing her favourite shirt or something :D hahaha, it's HOT PINK. i laugh- and she asked the class who attends amath tuition, there were like only a few. but she considered that as so many and when she asked us why we had to rely on tuition cause apparently it is a waste of our parents' cash. oh, for goodness' sake! everyone knew the answer. obviously cause we can't depend on her to survive amath! darn :D
after school, we stayed back to help with the banners :D had to sun them. cause the national track&field competition is coming up! jiayou trackers <3 sheesh, we always use the same banners every year /: i know hci have already painted new ones! AHH. but we are going to do the same too, i hope :D i know amelia wants new ones, and so do i! :D at first we were like, no sun! ): but we still laid them all out on the courtyard floor. but guess what, the dumb-est thing is that when we started rolling them up to put into the AS, the sun came out -.-" and we all sweat so much, esp while rolling the super long banner! the longest ever. in the end the whole thing looked screwed. it turned from swiss roll to sushi to a corpse! /: sweat so much doing that. yuck, we stinked. (no, stank :D)
speaking of warped english.. after the banner thing, mrs peh wanted the sec three peecees to help with the planning of some reading programme. we actually didn't want to go /: it's not like we were all that free! but in the end, of course, we still went :D in a sense guess it was worth it, cause we ended up laughing so much. realised the teachers got split personalities! -oh the horror! :D hahaha. apparently she's so super serious in class. but during the discussion it went haywire. probably got some loose pieces here and there :D vidhya said reading can "upgrade our minds"! :D haha, funny. enrich, you mean! :D and mrs peh, the way she ran was so funny :D and when she said "oh dear, so pessimistic!", i just couldn't control it, and neither could balm nail :D we almost fell off the second level! hahaha. i still rmb vidhya's wacky ideas about the trolley thing and all that :D i think in the end, no one will eat and we will end up with like five people! and guess who the five will be.. the "i/cs" :D haha.
yesterday after oral RAHH, miss computer, eunn, rain partner, debo and i went to pp macs :D i was about to be late for tuition already, but whatever :D haha. after eating, RAHH had to go home to study and i had to go for tuition! so we took 13 together :D it rained while we were eating. and i didn't bring my umbrella. RAHH had too many things on her hands to hold hers. so we just walked in the rain to the bus stop :D and then, we got all spotty :D haha, at first i thought i heard her say SPORTY! hah, like we will master footie just by walking in the rain :D we went to the toilet at the bus stop, and we couldn't stop laughing. cause the rain got onto our specs and our face, i was thinking probably we weren't even walking straight :D WE CAN'T OPEN OUR EYES, darnit. SHOW US THE LIGHT! :D then after using the toilet, i wanted to wash my hands and when i pressed the soap dispenser, THE WHOLE COVER CAME OFF. ohmy sheesh, i think i'm too strong /: hah! then it wouldn't go back on and i think i suffered from fits just laughing so badly :D i love that dispenser! sadly i forgot to bring my phone, or i would've taken a picture of it :D
recently RAHH and i keep seeing skidder-like people :D haha! so amusing :D like on the bus. there was this guy, like from the moment he came on, probably he's frictionless or something. he "slid" down the aisle, and then used the pole to stop himself so he kinda swung round it. reminded me of someone singing in a musical or something. maybe you could name singing in the rain, since it was raining yesterday! :D
speaking of RAHH, today during CE, i think mike chia saw that we were all so tired /: heh. so we were asked to close our eyes. and obviously i knew the thing was to imagine someone, or something. haha. true enough - someone that you like, and you can trust. well, you-know-who came to mind :D lalala. i'll keep it a secret. cause it's gonna hurt some people, i think. ohwell. but it was cool. and then we were supposed to imagine what he/she is doing, what he/she would say to comfort you when you're down, what makes you trust him/her so much.. haha, to me the person was laughing :D and i was reminded of the 1, 2, 3 JIAYOU! thing <3 then we went on to speak about healthy relationships. SIGH. what happens when the number 3 pops up? i wonder.
you know how it's like, pushing what you feel aside. how you hide, the things you conceal in your heart.. don't. it'll just close in on you. i wonder how fab is doing. sometimes we just can't help it. oh, sadness. got to get over that bout of despondency :D pull through. just hang on real tight.
oh, is it a wonder i love it when it rains? the tinge of overcast and that streak of melancholy.. absolutely brilliant.
compression at my door.
regarding ytd's O level MT oral, i'm not going to care. everything i did was in vain. great. it was the topic i wished for. thank God. but i was too nervous i didn't say out the points. i think i can die right now. this is it. the O levels. and i wasted my chance. i screwed it.
today was funny :D i think we all feel like killing edna mode right now. for goodness' sake, she can't teach! ): we're all suffering ever since she came back. it's this weird, bittersweet love-hate relationship. she sometimes gets so ridiculous, you are at a loss. do i laugh or cry right now? darn. but these two days i think she's a little better :D we're currently on functions. ohmy, she kept going on about range-domain, domain-range.. i was like, are we discussing geog here? cause apparently there are so many ranges they could probably make the himalayan range for all i care. and she kept adding questions! it got so hilarious. we were laughing at her but she wasn't even aware :D there was like question 2a and 2b. she had to add 2a* and 2b*. darn, by the end of the lesson i was seeing stars. sheesh, seriously no one was listening. i was dozing off /: then, once again, the bell of life (not the kiss) woke me up :D haha.
today she was in a better mood! i think probably cause she was wearing her favourite shirt or something :D hahaha, it's HOT PINK. i laugh- and she asked the class who attends amath tuition, there were like only a few. but she considered that as so many and when she asked us why we had to rely on tuition cause apparently it is a waste of our parents' cash. oh, for goodness' sake! everyone knew the answer. obviously cause we can't depend on her to survive amath! darn :D
after school, we stayed back to help with the banners :D had to sun them. cause the national track&field competition is coming up! jiayou trackers <3 sheesh, we always use the same banners every year /: i know hci have already painted new ones! AHH. but we are going to do the same too, i hope :D i know amelia wants new ones, and so do i! :D at first we were like, no sun! ): but we still laid them all out on the courtyard floor. but guess what, the dumb-est thing is that when we started rolling them up to put into the AS, the sun came out -.-" and we all sweat so much, esp while rolling the super long banner! the longest ever. in the end the whole thing looked screwed. it turned from swiss roll to sushi to a corpse! /: sweat so much doing that. yuck, we stinked. (no, stank :D)
speaking of warped english.. after the banner thing, mrs peh wanted the sec three peecees to help with the planning of some reading programme. we actually didn't want to go /: it's not like we were all that free! but in the end, of course, we still went :D in a sense guess it was worth it, cause we ended up laughing so much. realised the teachers got split personalities! -oh the horror! :D hahaha. apparently she's so super serious in class. but during the discussion it went haywire. probably got some loose pieces here and there :D vidhya said reading can "upgrade our minds"! :D haha, funny. enrich, you mean! :D and mrs peh, the way she ran was so funny :D and when she said "oh dear, so pessimistic!", i just couldn't control it, and neither could balm nail :D we almost fell off the second level! hahaha. i still rmb vidhya's wacky ideas about the trolley thing and all that :D i think in the end, no one will eat and we will end up with like five people! and guess who the five will be.. the "i/cs" :D haha.
yesterday after oral RAHH, miss computer, eunn, rain partner, debo and i went to pp macs :D i was about to be late for tuition already, but whatever :D haha. after eating, RAHH had to go home to study and i had to go for tuition! so we took 13 together :D it rained while we were eating. and i didn't bring my umbrella. RAHH had too many things on her hands to hold hers. so we just walked in the rain to the bus stop :D and then, we got all spotty :D haha, at first i thought i heard her say SPORTY! hah, like we will master footie just by walking in the rain :D we went to the toilet at the bus stop, and we couldn't stop laughing. cause the rain got onto our specs and our face, i was thinking probably we weren't even walking straight :D WE CAN'T OPEN OUR EYES, darnit. SHOW US THE LIGHT! :D then after using the toilet, i wanted to wash my hands and when i pressed the soap dispenser, THE WHOLE COVER CAME OFF. ohmy sheesh, i think i'm too strong /: hah! then it wouldn't go back on and i think i suffered from fits just laughing so badly :D i love that dispenser! sadly i forgot to bring my phone, or i would've taken a picture of it :D
recently RAHH and i keep seeing skidder-like people :D haha! so amusing :D like on the bus. there was this guy, like from the moment he came on, probably he's frictionless or something. he "slid" down the aisle, and then used the pole to stop himself so he kinda swung round it. reminded me of someone singing in a musical or something. maybe you could name singing in the rain, since it was raining yesterday! :D
speaking of RAHH, today during CE, i think mike chia saw that we were all so tired /: heh. so we were asked to close our eyes. and obviously i knew the thing was to imagine someone, or something. haha. true enough - someone that you like, and you can trust. well, you-know-who came to mind :D lalala. i'll keep it a secret. cause it's gonna hurt some people, i think. ohwell. but it was cool. and then we were supposed to imagine what he/she is doing, what he/she would say to comfort you when you're down, what makes you trust him/her so much.. haha, to me the person was laughing :D and i was reminded of the 1, 2, 3 JIAYOU! thing <3 then we went on to speak about healthy relationships. SIGH. what happens when the number 3 pops up? i wonder.
you know how it's like, pushing what you feel aside. how you hide, the things you conceal in your heart.. don't. it'll just close in on you. i wonder how fab is doing. sometimes we just can't help it. oh, sadness. got to get over that bout of despondency :D pull through. just hang on real tight.
oh, is it a wonder i love it when it rains? the tinge of overcast and that streak of melancholy.. absolutely brilliant.
compression at my door.
Monday, July 10, 2006 | 5:04 AM
i am broken.
the dream is over. and so this is how it ends-
oh, talk about deserving. i think fab fell asleep /: sad. nick and i were the only two surviving ones awake :D heh. but i see no reason to celebrate this worldcup. crazy unpredictable things happen. afterall, this is football and anything can happen.
let me be there.
the dream is over. and so this is how it ends-
oh, talk about deserving. i think fab fell asleep /: sad. nick and i were the only two surviving ones awake :D heh. but i see no reason to celebrate this worldcup. crazy unpredictable things happen. afterall, this is football and anything can happen.
let me be there.
Sunday, July 09, 2006 | 4:55 AM
okay, so figo did assist in the goal that portugal scored :D so i guess now the score is 3-0 and it's full-time :D YAY.
i can't say much.. there's too much joy i have to express <3 all i'm going to do is this:
-flashes my BLACK RED YELLOW braces <3
fab should just support germany, man. i mean, afterall.. their colours are black red and yellow :D thank God there's a yellow in there! <3 haha. yay, germany's third. go deutschland :D
oh, and if only this were the finals.. dream on, elyssa /: it's okay, i want to see zizou's swansong a graceful one. GO FRANCE! though the odds are against them ): technically, it's an italy win. but no, france must continue to be ever so unbending :D
she's gone-
i can't say much.. there's too much joy i have to express <3 all i'm going to do is this:
-flashes my BLACK RED YELLOW braces <3
fab should just support germany, man. i mean, afterall.. their colours are black red and yellow :D thank God there's a yellow in there! <3 haha. yay, germany's third. go deutschland :D
oh, and if only this were the finals.. dream on, elyssa /: it's okay, i want to see zizou's swansong a graceful one. GO FRANCE! though the odds are against them ): technically, it's an italy win. but no, france must continue to be ever so unbending :D
she's gone-
| 4:39 AM
GOAL YET AGAIN! :D
germany owns! and schweinsteiger is love <3
figo had better get something goin' if he portugal is to save some face /: i mean, 3-0! darn. this so should've been that fated italy match ): sigh. portugal is set to lose. unless you prove to me they can do an aussie - 3 goals in 8 minutes :D
O'KAHN THE GREAT <3 hasn't lost his touch, thankfully :D
THIS IS GERMANY'S NIGHT-if hitler were alive, he'd be proud :D
i think fab's sleeping. probably hunger got to him, as well as lethargy. and not forgetting the fact that portgual is so far behind.. wp is right - he has no xin qing to watch already ): sigh. sad how things turn out. oh, and by the way, there's always rivalry between us; i've lost count of how many you've won and how many i have :D haha.
there's a danger in loving somebody too much;
germany owns! and schweinsteiger is love <3
figo had better get something goin' if he portugal is to save some face /: i mean, 3-0! darn. this so should've been that fated italy match ): sigh. portugal is set to lose. unless you prove to me they can do an aussie - 3 goals in 8 minutes :D
O'KAHN THE GREAT <3 hasn't lost his touch, thankfully :D
THIS IS GERMANY'S NIGHT-
i think fab's sleeping. probably hunger got to him, as well as lethargy. and not forgetting the fact that portgual is so far behind.. wp is right - he has no xin qing to watch already ): sigh. sad how things turn out. oh, and by the way, there's always rivalry between us; i've lost count of how many you've won and how many i have :D haha.
there's a danger in loving somebody too much;
| 4:20 AM
JUST WHEN I SAID RICARDO CANNOT BE BROKEN. HE FAILED /: GO SCHWEINSTEIGER :D OUR HERO <3
fab says he's hungry. i tell him, he should satisfy his hunger the way GERMANY does :D hahaha. they cannot be stopped! like this powerful disease that sweeps across a city and plaguing them with the worst illness ever :D YAY. TWO-NIL! :D own goal by petit -.-" poor thing. he'd be criticised now.. /:
ohwell, miroslav klose is getting sub-ed. so i guess we won't be able to catch that sixth goal ): ahh, but he's already done so much :D yay for klose :D now i just hope podolski can get some magic on :D poor lahm, fell on his un-injured arm ): wp said he'd better not break it or anything. if not both will be in casts! poor dear /: i can imagine how painful it's going to be, running like that /:
no one to claim.
fab says he's hungry. i tell him, he should satisfy his hunger the way GERMANY does :D hahaha. they cannot be stopped! like this powerful disease that sweeps across a city and plaguing them with the worst illness ever :D YAY. TWO-NIL! :D own goal by petit -.-" poor thing. he'd be criticised now.. /:
ohwell, miroslav klose is getting sub-ed. so i guess we won't be able to catch that sixth goal ): ahh, but he's already done so much :D yay for klose :D now i just hope podolski can get some magic on :D poor lahm, fell on his un-injured arm ): wp said he'd better not break it or anything. if not both will be in casts! poor dear /: i can imagine how painful it's going to be, running like that /:
no one to claim.
| 4:01 AM
I AM WATCHING :D
and guess who i'm rooting for :D you guessed it! <3
go jurgen klinsmann! :D you rock. MY FAVOURITE COACH. haha :D it's not like as if i'm the one being coached /: but still. he's so animated. i love that spirit :D ask him to jump higher! love is when he does that :D
ahhhh, ricardo is too pro to be broken ): sad. i hope miroslav klose scores again :D then he will have a record SIX goals scored this worldcup :D yay. as it is, no one's getting close to this lead scorer :D no four, only three :D
haha, i'll be watching.
and guess who i'm rooting for :D you guessed it! <3
go jurgen klinsmann! :D you rock. MY FAVOURITE COACH. haha :D it's not like as if i'm the one being coached /: but still. he's so animated. i love that spirit :D ask him to jump higher! love is when he does that :D
ahhhh, ricardo is too pro to be broken ): sad. i hope miroslav klose scores again :D then he will have a record SIX goals scored this worldcup :D yay. as it is, no one's getting close to this lead scorer :D no four, only three :D
haha, i'll be watching.
Saturday, July 08, 2006 | 5:18 PM
i know this cool and smart guy, name starts with F and ends with abian. can you guess? bet you can't, cause his name is fasdqoiwueoqiudasijdlakjslabian :D lalala, my new friend :D definitely not like fab. who is COLD (no, kho) and hates TYPHO ERRORS. why is it even spelt with a H?! no idea.
as i promised before, here's the pic of my finger that miss computer did up for me <3
darn, i'm so obsessed with the whole photo thing :D
see the sec three peecees' egg :D lalala. this is so history! it was from the leadership camp by high achievers during the holidays /: sadly we had to throw it away cause abi's mom was sick of seeing it in her house. so on the youth day holiday i took a picture of it in pp macs :D then we left it on the table when we left. and the egg-guy from macs was shaking it -.-" hahaha. we called him the egg-guy :D
and i'm itching to shame this selfish driver that parked his car in the middle of two lots :D but i think i shall do that another time :D
today's the day i realised the battle's over.
i'm giving up on everything
because you messed me up,
don't know how much you;
you never listened,
that's just too bad.
there's no point in thinking about yesterday,
it's too late now,
it won't ever be the same;
we're so different now.
my thoughts are choking, on you my dear.
as i promised before, here's the pic of my finger that miss computer did up for me <3
darn, i'm so obsessed with the whole photo thing :D
see the sec three peecees' egg :D lalala. this is so history! it was from the leadership camp by high achievers during the holidays /: sadly we had to throw it away cause abi's mom was sick of seeing it in her house. so on the youth day holiday i took a picture of it in pp macs :D then we left it on the table when we left. and the egg-guy from macs was shaking it -.-" hahaha. we called him the egg-guy :D
and i'm itching to shame this selfish driver that parked his car in the middle of two lots :D but i think i shall do that another time :D
today's the day i realised the battle's over.
i'm giving up on everything
because you messed me up,
don't know how much you;
you never listened,
that's just too bad.
there's no point in thinking about yesterday,
it's too late now,
it won't ever be the same;
we're so different now.
| 2:58 PM
hm, i've finally rmb-ed what i wanted to post yesterday :D yay! oh and before that.. in case all you people are wondering why i have declared that i'm banned from using the computer but you still see me from time to time, that's cause. either i ask, or the other thing. which is the forbidden one /: heh. still, i would like to clarify that situations in the house are getting better so i am allowed on sometimes :D though not as much as before. furthermore, i've been so busy. and lazy. heh :D
regarding yesterday's chain of thoughts :D (though the chain broke, but that's not the point :D) it's all a game sometimes. and yeah, like i've said. i think i want out. to win, i gotta play. and so to lose, i justquit. and for now i guess that's what i want. that's what i'm gonna do. jealousy cripples- i know i'll get over it.
on thursday i self-trained again :D -gives myself a pat on the back. together with lackie! :D -gives her a pat on the back. yay, we did 5 rounds around the school in like 14minutes, rested and then did another 2 rounds :D meanwhile wanping waited for me. afterward i accompanied her to bishan, where she went for her third lang class at moelc. i was so lazy to go home, in the end i slacked off at j8 to wait for my mom.. went to mos. i mean, how boring can it get, hanging out alone?! ): i thought i could do my chem graph. then i realised i didn't have my pencilcase that day. only a pen, a pencil, an eraser and my liquid correction! darn, sounds so pathetic :D i didn't even have a ruler. so i couldn't draw the graph. i think i got so bored sitting there myself, i took pictures of my FOOD! :D here's one:
speaking of photos, yay! - i finally managed to upload the photos from my phone to the computer :D -smiles. yes, i did it. thanks to my dad, who helped :D
boring saturday afternoon..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NATHANIEL! :D my brother. loves <3
so sad he's sick /: so i think we'll be postponing the celebration till next week or something /: ohwell.
is it any wonder that i feel betrayed-
regarding yesterday's chain of thoughts :D (though the chain broke, but that's not the point :D) it's all a game sometimes. and yeah, like i've said. i think i want out. to win, i gotta play. and so to lose, i just
on thursday i self-trained again :D -gives myself a pat on the back. together with lackie! :D -gives her a pat on the back. yay, we did 5 rounds around the school in like 14minutes, rested and then did another 2 rounds :D meanwhile wanping waited for me. afterward i accompanied her to bishan, where she went for her third lang class at moelc. i was so lazy to go home, in the end i slacked off at j8 to wait for my mom.. went to mos. i mean, how boring can it get, hanging out alone?! ): i thought i could do my chem graph. then i realised i didn't have my pencilcase that day. only a pen, a pencil, an eraser and my liquid correction! darn, sounds so pathetic :D i didn't even have a ruler. so i couldn't draw the graph. i think i got so bored sitting there myself, i took pictures of my FOOD! :D here's one:
speaking of photos, yay! - i finally managed to upload the photos from my phone to the computer :D -smiles. yes, i did it. thanks to my dad, who helped :D
boring saturday afternoon..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NATHANIEL! :D my brother. loves <3
so sad he's sick /: so i think we'll be postponing the celebration till next week or something /: ohwell.
is it any wonder that i feel betrayed-
Friday, July 07, 2006 | 11:24 PM
i've found i'm not going to dare to try. i know fab says to go ahead. but well. i've found it's a scary world out there.. who knows what could happen. haha. darn, there was so much i wanted to post but i just forgot /: great. oh, forget it.
some people are just so qian bian. sheesh, can't stand it. just like that anon that called me today when i was out with sharron. screaming over the phone to sms fab. i'm like, HUH? sheesh.
can't you see that you lie to yourself.
you can't see the world through a mirror;
it won't be too late when the smoke clears,
cause i am still here.
everytime i try to make you smile,
you're always feeling sorry for yourself.
everytime i try to make you laugh,
you can't, you're too tough,
you think you're loveless;
it was too much that i'm asking for-
would you comfort me, would you cry with me?
some people are just so qian bian. sheesh, can't stand it. just like that anon that called me today when i was out with sharron. screaming over the phone to sms fab. i'm like, HUH? sheesh.
can't you see that you lie to yourself.
you can't see the world through a mirror;
it won't be too late when the smoke clears,
cause i am still here.
everytime i try to make you smile,
you're always feeling sorry for yourself.
everytime i try to make you laugh,
you can't, you're too tough,
you think you're loveless;
it was too much that i'm asking for-
would you comfort me, would you cry with me?
| 10:46 PM
tag replies;
miss yellow: i don't show you diao faces okay! :D haha.
miss yellow: haha :D
INEZLAU!: bwahah :D yeah man! this world needs some love <3
INEZLAU!: yes i love you inezlau :D but just don't make me go squirming and squealing :D hahaha.
wenyi: yeah! :D we, the people who got the same answers for the last question of the physics test :D bwahahah. we will make it! i hope =X he's taking a billion years to return the scripts! darnit.
PAIL: haha, STUPID studying. ain't stupid! we had so much fun laughing :D
PAIL: HELLO :D haha. love you no matter what happens okay <3 i know it's rough right now ):
rw: haha, why so surprised :D
kyle: hm, presents :D you'll get something better if you ever sound anymore deadpan :D i've thought of the best thing, you lamer :D
kyle: hahah, GERMANY <3
RAHH: nahh, you learn :D
RAHH: sheesh :D
RAHH: of course i can't! :D no no, i can :D at your house what! :D -winks. sheesh, so leng.
RAHH: HI-LO :D
RAHH: there's not a star in heaven we can't reach :D
RAHH: woah, go back so far in time, to ltc! /: oh, the memories..
RAHH: bwahahah. cheering for me? thankyou :D
RAHH: lalala :D
arty!: hahaha :D nope, maybe i should! :D
kyle: haha, don't be sad then! :D you can be happy now cause FRANCE is so gonna win this :D of course i know faster.. you got 1 minute lag! /: nope, spelling is not important okay! :D tell you about this test sometime :D
RAHH: yes! :D you're right! let's call it "the rahh revolution". what a brilliant idea! be my partner-in-crime <3
RAHH: haha, yeah. thanks :D
JESSICA!: jealous is it? :D bwahahah.
miss yellow: YES!! :D lalala.
INEZLAU!: so innocent! :D haha.
miss yellow: YES GOOD ONE :D GO FRANCE.
kyle: haha, nice to meet you. sounds so formal :D france france france! darn, so strange saying it cause before this it was all "GO GERMANY" :D
Jeff: HEY :D
Jeff: -smiles.
Jeff: haha, yep. at first i was afraid of being extra /: but i guess i had fun :D
Jeff: football was fun :D haha, at least when we tried to play :D
Jeff: thankyou :D same to you. haha :D
Jeff: yep, nice going out with you too :D haha. best part is you blade really well :D
PAIL: yep.
PAIL: yeah. if you want to bold, use the square brackets.
arica: yeah, cannot use actually. BUT :D
arica: yeah, i know what you mean. we'll pull through :D like we've done so many times over.
PAIL: well, sorry. i know this tongue of mine can get real vicious. it's the way it is.
PAIL: thanks for telling me :D
PAIL: yeah, you should. stop yourself from getting affected by it, and stop it from affecting us :D
PAIL: ee, tuition /:
kyle: yeah i guess ): thanks anyway :D
Jeff: haha, retarded :D but yes, SEPTEMBER!! :D
kyle: haha, Jeff is :D but in the nice sense. heh. hm, thanks for saying all that :D but it's really okay.
Jeff: sheesh :D
Jeff: IT'S YOU :D
Jeff: haha, stay beside doesn't mean stay inside /: bwahaha.
Jeff: darn :D it's fabian!
kyle: hahaha, his father. jeff's father tags my blog! oh, the horror! :D
miss yellow: sort of. not really phone. sms, for fab and for wanping it's just things that happen in school :D
deborah: YEAH /: haha, but .. :D hahaha.
jappy: HELLO person-who-calls-me-a-daoist :D
miss yellow: i don't show you diao faces okay! :D haha.
miss yellow: haha :D
INEZLAU!: bwahah :D yeah man! this world needs some love <3
INEZLAU!: yes i love you inezlau :D but just don't make me go squirming and squealing :D hahaha.
wenyi: yeah! :D we, the people who got the same answers for the last question of the physics test :D bwahahah. we will make it! i hope =X he's taking a billion years to return the scripts! darnit.
PAIL: haha, STUPID studying. ain't stupid! we had so much fun laughing :D
PAIL: HELLO :D haha. love you no matter what happens okay <3 i know it's rough right now ):
rw: haha, why so surprised :D
kyle: hm, presents :D you'll get something better if you ever sound anymore deadpan :D i've thought of the best thing, you lamer :D
kyle: hahah, GERMANY <3
RAHH: nahh, you learn :D
RAHH: sheesh :D
RAHH: of course i can't! :D no no, i can :D at your house what! :D -winks. sheesh, so leng.
RAHH: HI-LO :D
RAHH: there's not a star in heaven we can't reach :D
RAHH: woah, go back so far in time, to ltc! /: oh, the memories..
RAHH: bwahahah. cheering for me? thankyou :D
RAHH: lalala :D
arty!: hahaha :D nope, maybe i should! :D
kyle: haha, don't be sad then! :D you can be happy now cause FRANCE is so gonna win this :D of course i know faster.. you got 1 minute lag! /: nope, spelling is not important okay! :D tell you about this test sometime :D
RAHH: yes! :D you're right! let's call it "the rahh revolution". what a brilliant idea! be my partner-in-crime <3
RAHH: haha, yeah. thanks :D
JESSICA!: jealous is it? :D bwahahah.
miss yellow: YES!! :D lalala.
INEZLAU!: so innocent! :D haha.
miss yellow: YES GOOD ONE :D GO FRANCE.
kyle: haha, nice to meet you. sounds so formal :D france france france! darn, so strange saying it cause before this it was all "GO GERMANY" :D
Jeff: HEY :D
Jeff: -smiles.
Jeff: haha, yep. at first i was afraid of being extra /: but i guess i had fun :D
Jeff: football was fun :D haha, at least when we tried to play :D
Jeff: thankyou :D same to you. haha :D
Jeff: yep, nice going out with you too :D haha. best part is you blade really well :D
PAIL: yep.
PAIL: yeah. if you want to bold, use the square brackets.
arica: yeah, cannot use actually. BUT :D
arica: yeah, i know what you mean. we'll pull through :D like we've done so many times over.
PAIL: well, sorry. i know this tongue of mine can get real vicious. it's the way it is.
PAIL: thanks for telling me :D
PAIL: yeah, you should. stop yourself from getting affected by it, and stop it from affecting us :D
PAIL: ee, tuition /:
kyle: yeah i guess ): thanks anyway :D
Jeff: haha, retarded :D but yes, SEPTEMBER!! :D
kyle: haha, Jeff is :D but in the nice sense. heh. hm, thanks for saying all that :D but it's really okay.
Jeff: sheesh :D
Jeff: IT'S YOU :D
Jeff: haha, stay beside doesn't mean stay inside /: bwahaha.
Jeff: darn :D it's fabian!
kyle: hahaha, his father. jeff's father tags my blog! oh, the horror! :D
miss yellow: sort of. not really phone. sms, for fab and for wanping it's just things that happen in school :D
deborah: YEAH /: haha, but .. :D hahaha.
jappy: HELLO person-who-calls-me-a-daoist :D
Thursday, July 06, 2006 | 11:03 PM
ahh, too late for me to blog /: haha. today i am not using the computer sneakily okay! :D yeah. i can't blog already. going to get killed. so, to receive "updates", please visit here or here! :D yep. wanping and fab's. the nice people who are helping me since they well understand my plight :D thankyou :D
slipping through my fingers.
slipping through my fingers.
| 5:25 AM
FABIEN BARTHEZ is LOVE! <3
he's a good keeper :D
dare i try? dare i say what i feel is true?no. cause i know the person that will get hurt in the end will be me, again. and that's the whole point. i probably think too much. no, there's nothing. not at all. in fact, i wish there isn't. cause i don't want to be put in that position.
today there's gonna be a meeting with miss lizah during recess, and with achala after school /: scary. i think both are kinda obviously about the hpc elections stuff. darn, i'm afraid. but i guess i'm not in the run anymore. i won't be, anyway. sometimes, i just hope i won't regret my choice. i'm still in doubt if i did the right thing.could i?
woah, so many tags to reply. can't :D got to get ready for school soon :D haha. it's my first 3am match! :D darn, there's training today. i think i will die /:
love changes everything;
he's a good keeper :D
dare i try? dare i say what i feel is true?
today there's gonna be a meeting with miss lizah during recess, and with achala after school /: scary. i think both are kinda obviously about the hpc elections stuff. darn, i'm afraid. but i guess i'm not in the run anymore. i won't be, anyway. sometimes, i just hope i won't regret my choice. i'm still in doubt if i did the right thing.
woah, so many tags to reply. can't :D got to get ready for school soon :D haha. it's my first 3am match! :D darn, there's training today. i think i will die /:
love changes everything;
| 5:10 AM
ALAS! THE FRENCH HAVE PREVAILED :D
i cannot be anymore happier :D lalala. after those two minutes that changed the world, FOREVER. i guess it's only deserving france triumphs over portugal. this is how things should work out :D haha. the deserving team ought to win.. just likegermany. but oh dang, i'm not gonna go on about that ): although thanks to italy, germany's out. just two minutes; a hundred and sixty seconds. unbelievable-
all thanks to that stupid referee in the australia-italy match! the whole natural course of things have been interrupted. if not for the fact that he gave a penalty, italy would not have smashed australia.. the aussies deserved to go further under hiddink. it was not meant to be this way.. DARNIT, ITALY IS LIKE. gahh- they kicked australia out, they kicked spain out. and if that's not enough, even germany. however, i will not mourn. for klinsmann is one of the best coaches :D a hero in defeat. yep, plus the fact that germany played well :D GERMANY SHOULD'VE WON. they looked good for that /:
dang, i know football is a sensitive issue. but y'all shouldn't get too affected by it. a pity it's just that i'm not one of the journalists. hey, they can say almost anything they want. cause they have a certain ability to criticise. why can't i, then? yeah, i'm not one of them. maybe that's why everyday i get someone tagging, screaming and disapproving of my views. but think of it this way, IT'S WHAT I THINK. if you don't agree, so be it. sure, it's not like we have freedom of speech in singapore, or anything. but i'm not even discriminating YOU.it's like y'all are the ones on the field?!
i know, the passion and perhaps, loyalty, you feel towards the team you support. so do i, towards germany. yeah, maybe i talk a lot about them. but i dare say as much as y'all do about yours. still, i don't care even if you tell me in the face germany sucks :D as long as i know who i support, i ain't gonna be swayed but what others think. that's the true spirit. furthermore, i hate to say this, but people out there who watch just cause there are "hot" guys on that team are aplenty. watch it for the sport. the real thing.
i am small & the world is big.
i cannot be anymore happier :D lalala. after those two minutes that changed the world, FOREVER. i guess it's only deserving france triumphs over portugal. this is how things should work out :D haha. the deserving team ought to win.. just like
all thanks to that stupid referee in the australia-italy match! the whole natural course of things have been interrupted. if not for the fact that he gave a penalty, italy would not have smashed australia.. the aussies deserved to go further under hiddink. it was not meant to be this way.. DARNIT, ITALY IS LIKE. gahh- they kicked australia out, they kicked spain out. and if that's not enough, even germany. however, i will not mourn. for klinsmann is one of the best coaches :D a hero in defeat. yep, plus the fact that germany played well :D GERMANY SHOULD'VE WON. they looked good for that /:
dang, i know football is a sensitive issue. but y'all shouldn't get too affected by it. a pity it's just that i'm not one of the journalists. hey, they can say almost anything they want. cause they have a certain ability to criticise. why can't i, then? yeah, i'm not one of them. maybe that's why everyday i get someone tagging, screaming and disapproving of my views. but think of it this way, IT'S WHAT I THINK. if you don't agree, so be it. sure, it's not like we have freedom of speech in singapore, or anything. but i'm not even discriminating YOU.
i know, the passion and perhaps, loyalty, you feel towards the team you support. so do i, towards germany. yeah, maybe i talk a lot about them. but i dare say as much as y'all do about yours. still, i don't care even if you tell me in the face germany sucks :D as long as i know who i support, i ain't gonna be swayed but what others think. that's the true spirit. furthermore, i hate to say this, but people out there who watch just cause there are "hot" guys on that team are aplenty. watch it for the sport. the real thing.
i am small & the world is big.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006 | 2:35 PM
this post is not supposed to exist, i know. sigh, sorry.
down. that's all. sorry fab for freaking you out; i guess i did. there's so much more you haven't seen. and yes, i'm NOT screwed. i listen.
swinging. hah, activated the world, i guess. i'm weird, yeah. and fragile? maybe. fake? definitely. you see, why the face. why the front. why the WALL. oh, and if they knew. weird it is, how someone can just see through you like that. then you feel, like they know. just shut out. no, it's wrong. i ought to be just smiling, no matter what. like jappy's haha-ing. yay, run&hide. could this be.. no, stop. don't give away too easily. the one. it's over. but to fight, is a must.
today's talk with miss lizah, hope i'm in. somehow i just want to be.i think i can. confidence, i need. to know i can. to know they're supporting me. to know..
it's not that difficult really. i've realised how much i'm cared for. just walking down the corridor and everyone says hi. i love that feeling. thanks people <3
but i will avoid it this time. maybe all i need is YOU-
but i can't find the right words to say.. been thinking too much in class lately. i haven't been listening to the lessons at all. it's been on for two days. gahh- my mind's wandered off somewhere else. somewhere far, far away. i think i have serious problems with the swing. oh dang, just fix it. today i laughed like crazy. when germany lost?! i've gone insane.for laughter hides the silent cries. but now i'm supporting FRANCE. can't believe mike chia and i have the same taste /: sheesh. GO FRANCE, AWAY WITH YOU portugal! :D cause cronaldo sucks. (oops, eunice is so going to slaughter me.)
my social life ever since being banned from the computer has almost been virtually destroyed. i've vanished from the online world, only to the joy of some. guess you guys are happy; sometimes i talk too much about germany? well, good for you then. CAUSE I'M GONE. regarding germany, i guess we can learn from ballack. yes, conceitedness kills. even as fans we mustn't be arrogant. no wonder he's the captain. oh, praise such spirit. it's okay, be gracious. we'll be back. MY team <3
love token.
down. that's all. sorry fab for freaking you out; i guess i did. there's so much more you haven't seen. and yes, i'm NOT screwed. i listen.
today's talk with miss lizah, hope i'm in. somehow i just want to be.
it's not that difficult really. i've realised how much i'm cared for. just walking down the corridor and everyone says hi. i love that feeling. thanks people <3
but i will avoid it this time. maybe all i need is YOU-
but i can't find the right words to say.. been thinking too much in class lately. i haven't been listening to the lessons at all. it's been on for two days. gahh- my mind's wandered off somewhere else. somewhere far, far away. i think i have serious problems with the swing. oh dang, just fix it. today i laughed like crazy. when germany lost?! i've gone insane.
my social life ever since being banned from the computer has almost been virtually destroyed. i've vanished from the online world, only to the joy of some. guess you guys are happy; sometimes i talk too much about germany? well, good for you then. CAUSE I'M GONE. regarding germany, i guess we can learn from ballack. yes, conceitedness kills. even as fans we mustn't be arrogant. no wonder he's the captain. oh, praise such spirit. it's okay, be gracious. we'll be back. MY team <3
love token.
Monday, July 03, 2006 | 5:45 PM
great, so there goes my life. i've been restricted from using the computer henceforth. wth. and ironically, just on saturday, there was i, questioning the reason behind our quiet submissiveness.. accepting defeat without showing the slightest bit of REBEL. yep, this is the way it has to end. the way i'm destined to be controlled..
oh, and as with the rest of my life-
that aside, haven't been allowed on the blog about the quarter finals! ): BRAZIL IS SO OUT! darnit, people. rejoice! :D hahah. i'm sorry to all those brazilian fans /: but this is the biggest shocker of the worldcup ever! so i guess brazil isn't going to win..of course not. the only saving grace for brazil that will stop me from hating them so much is KAKA, cause.. he's HOT i guess. but lahm is hotter anytime. yes, lahm with the injured arm.
hah, but fab doesn't care at all that brazil is out. to him, it's more like. FRANCE QUALIFIED!! :D haha. we celebrated with vodka over it :D bwahaha. ohwell, so now. it's gonna be FRANCE vs GERMANY in the finals!! :D whee. i'm sure it's obvious who the winner will be :D hah! -nudges fab. SO NOT FRANCE. GO GERMANY!! <3
today went out to wanping's conglom outing.. so extra! but it was fun :D haha, finally saw fab. before, we were like online friends. so weird. well, as he put it, two friends who met due to our passion for COLOURS. yellow forever :D lalala. we played soccer! i think i malu-ated myself /: dang. ohwell :D still had fun.
with this, my exit. but i'll be back people :D i'll never give up! haha. come back, stronger bigger better :D love.
oh, and as with the rest of my life-
that aside, haven't been allowed on the blog about the quarter finals! ): BRAZIL IS SO OUT! darnit, people. rejoice! :D hahah. i'm sorry to all those brazilian fans /: but this is the biggest shocker of the worldcup ever! so i guess brazil isn't going to win..
hah, but fab doesn't care at all that brazil is out. to him, it's more like. FRANCE QUALIFIED!! :D haha. we celebrated with vodka over it :D bwahaha. ohwell, so now. it's gonna be FRANCE vs GERMANY in the finals!! :D whee. i'm sure it's obvious who the winner will be :D hah! -nudges fab. SO NOT FRANCE. GO GERMANY!! <3
today went out to wanping's conglom outing.. so extra! but it was fun :D haha, finally saw fab. before, we were like online friends. so weird. well, as he put it, two friends who met due to our passion for COLOURS. yellow forever :D lalala. we played soccer! i think i malu-ated myself /: dang. ohwell :D still had fun.
with this, my exit. but i'll be back people :D i'll never give up! haha. come back, stronger bigger better :D love.
Saturday, July 01, 2006 | 6:38 PM
oh, don't succumb to such oppression & morbidity.
it's such lazy, monotonous evenings that trigger you to think. reminisce, recall, reflect,regret.. been thinking, the day i sold myself to my school life would probably go down in history as the day i made the biggest mistake. it's almost as good as me signing an agreement; a death agreement. why? sure, it's an institute of education afterall. but the more we are taught, it's probably the case that we are more aware. cognizant of this cruel life we lead. don't you think it'd be better off if we we're ignorant? ignorance is bliss. we wouldn't have to know. REBEL. so much for moulding my future, i laugh. it's crushing my dreams, here. DARN.
i'm bound to this. with knots so tight there's no way i can break loose. TIME. oh, such a crucial factor. no time, no time. i wish. neglecting everything, everyone. i need to get a hold of this once more. where am i heading? be my compass.
things, it has taught me. many invaluable things. to be more unyielding, unbending, uncompromising. just when things are all going this way. capture all those stray emotions.. ever wondered why we've never thought of rebelling? hah. -sarcasm. maybe it's cause we've all been indoctrinated, brainwashed, manipulated. WHY ARE WE CONTROLLED? WHY DO WE OBEY? was talking with violet that day. she's right - that day, during recess, she was looking out the window. and wondering, what would happen if i just sneaked out like that? what can they do to me? i agree. why do we bend the knee. why does our instinct not ever think of going against what is set for us? i wonder :D why we think it's right to stay in school. it's the society. the culture. the way we're brought up.
darn, i sound like i'm staging a revolution here. no, there isn't a trace of that intent, not at all. i haven't been influenced by hitler or whatsoever, to challenge authority. don't misjudge my views. it was a random thought :D hah. to misunderstand me would be equivalent to me losing my I-M-A-G-E :D which is entirely superfluous. see me for who i am.though there's more than meets the eye. live with this confusion and irony i throw at you today; don't try to define me.
fragmentarily vanishing within these subfusc walls. save me if you may.
so a day when you've lost yourself completely,
could be a night when your life ends.
such a heart that will lead you to deceiving,
all the pain held in-
it's such lazy, monotonous evenings that trigger you to think. reminisce, recall, reflect,
i'm bound to this. with knots so tight there's no way i can break loose. TIME. oh, such a crucial factor. no time, no time. i wish. neglecting everything, everyone. i need to get a hold of this once more. where am i heading? be my compass.
things, it has taught me. many invaluable things. to be more unyielding, unbending, uncompromising. just when things are all going this way. capture all those stray emotions.. ever wondered why we've never thought of rebelling? hah. -sarcasm. maybe it's cause we've all been indoctrinated, brainwashed, manipulated. WHY ARE WE CONTROLLED? WHY DO WE OBEY? was talking with violet that day. she's right - that day, during recess, she was looking out the window. and wondering, what would happen if i just sneaked out like that? what can they do to me? i agree. why do we bend the knee. why does our instinct not ever think of going against what is set for us? i wonder :D why we think it's right to stay in school. it's the society. the culture. the way we're brought up.
darn, i sound like i'm staging a revolution here. no, there isn't a trace of that intent, not at all. i haven't been influenced by hitler or whatsoever, to challenge authority. don't misjudge my views. it was a random thought :D hah. to misunderstand me would be equivalent to me losing my I-M-A-G-E :D which is entirely superfluous. see me for who i am.
fragmentarily vanishing within these subfusc walls. save me if you may.
so a day when you've lost yourself completely,
could be a night when your life ends.
such a heart that will lead you to deceiving,
all the pain held in-
| 12:23 PM
naked - avril :D
i wake up in the morning
put on my face
the one that's gonna get me
through another day
doesn't really matter
how I feel inside
'cause life is like a game sometimes
but then you came around me
the walls just disappeared
nothing to surround me
and keep me from my fears
i'm unprotected
see how i've opened up
oh, you've made me trust
because i've nver felt like this before
i'm naked
around you
does it show?
you see right through me
and i can't hide
i'm naked
around you
and it feels so right
i'm tyring to remember
why i was afraid
to be myself and let the
covers fall away
i guess i never had someone like you
io help me, to help me fit
in my skin
i never felt like this before
i'm naked
around you
does it show?
you see right through me
and i can't hide
i'm naked
around you
and it feels so right
i'm naked
oh oh yeah
does it show?
yeah, I'm naked
oh oh, yeah yeah
i'm so naked around you
and i can't hide
you're gonna see right through, baby
ahh :D cause you past my heart.
| 1:46 AM
GERMANY FOREVER! <3
darn, they so shouldn't have put argentina against germany. cause i know whatever the outcome, i'd still be sad ): cause i like both teams so much. but if you ask me to make just one decision, i'd have to go with germany. still.. sigh. POOR ARGENTINA ):
but i guess germany lives up to their name, of having a flawless record in penalties :D yay, germany. boo, argentina. now i have to feel mixed about this all. happy? or sad? i guess both. it's not going to be easy managing both emotions ): this might as well be the FINALS or something. the game was so freakin' exciting :D right from the start, both sides were so aggressive :Di bet brazil isn't even anywhere close =P hah! :D
i don't know about everyone else. i guess most people just care about what brazil scores -.-" sheesh. but fab is sad i think /: i'll have to influence wanping to watch! haha, apparently she's footie illiterate. hah :D ohwell, have to sleep :D
like a bad movie,
darn, they so shouldn't have put argentina against germany. cause i know whatever the outcome, i'd still be sad ): cause i like both teams so much. but if you ask me to make just one decision, i'd have to go with germany. still.. sigh. POOR ARGENTINA ):
but i guess germany lives up to their name, of having a flawless record in penalties :D yay, germany. boo, argentina. now i have to feel mixed about this all. happy? or sad? i guess both. it's not going to be easy managing both emotions ): this might as well be the FINALS or something. the game was so freakin' exciting :D right from the start, both sides were so aggressive :D
i don't know about everyone else. i guess most people just care about what brazil scores -.-" sheesh. but fab is sad i think /: i'll have to influence wanping to watch! haha, apparently she's footie illiterate. hah :D ohwell, have to sleep :D
like a bad movie,