i saw siti on thursday, after my meeting. it was pretty late. like 4plus. she was in the canteen, alone. i was with yusin, debo, zaferin and abi. well, she didn't seem to be waiting for anyone. and she looked so stressed. could it because of training? i will never know. i was kind of worried; she looked stressed ever since the basketball competition. well, i know as the monitress she would be one of the most affected 3H person. but yeah. and she kept eating and eating. maybe i was thinking too much. but it really freaked me out. if you're reading this, i just want to say "jiayou" for training. and i hope you won't hold it against my class.
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ytd was the last day of school. it didn't feel like it though. so sian. the first time i didn't go out with anyone on the last day of school. anyway we had a board meeting. it was regarding the selection of the prefectorial board EXCO 2006 - 2007. i wonder why i didn't believe the sec twos in the first place. i should've. anyhow, the sec threes had to fill in two forms. i think i kinda screwed it. urgh.
then, ping had her choir stuff, arica her dance. vicky had plans with her friends. so it was home for me. and the most pathetic thing of all, home alone. thankfully i met isadora and shan on my way out at pp :D but i was kinda afraid of isadora at first.. i knew she felt strongly against the whole basketball thing.
i'm sorry. but sometimes we win and at others we lose. afterall, 3H can be glad they will definitely be getting the best class for sports day again next year, as 4H. and the same for xcty. i can safely tell you these competitions are much more prestigious than this little little bball competition for BPD. who even cares about BPD?! sheesh. and please, don't go off saying we cheated.
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the expectations of a sec three is too much to bear. sigh. i can't believe you didn't even give us the slightest warning. or, for that matter, i would like to refer to it as mental preparation. don't think we're robots. we don't just work 24/7. we are only human, and so are you. and if you think you're dynamic, so be it. don't expect us to be the same. i promise you, i won't be that way. setting an example? you're not all that great afterall. you just think you are. but don't, it blows your heads too BIG.
sure, whatever.