sheesh, took zhenyang's stress survey. apparently i am quite stressed. and that's bad ): i've been advised to take more breaks. you know, i think that isn't exactly the problem. i personally feel i slack too much. or maybe, it's just cause i give myself too must pressure.. grahh-

there are so many responsibilites to fufill right now, she is unable. but she hates this feeling of uncertainty, of emptiness. i hate it. to think that she is useless. and once again, her self-esteem takes a dip. great :D she can't help it, but it's all coming back right now. like, she is small & the world is big. what irony, to be controlled by the very feelings she ought to supress.

but i thank God for today.
i've realised that joy can sing! :D and really well. today when i sat next to her i had a pleasant time listening :D whee`. i've learnt about perception. i've learnt to accept. things change over time. and the way i view others change too :D afterall, they're aren't all that bad. i think i ought to give them a chance. we're all sisters in Christ! :D i love the way You speak to me. the infallible revelation. i guess i'm slow, to realise it only now. He is helping me along the way. never noticed how the messages always come in so timely.

how foolish have i been, searching unremittingly for an answer to this. when alas!, it was before my very own eyes. turn your ears to heaven, and hear the noise inside :D You have given me the strength to carry on, i know i'm not alone :D You're fighting this with me, beside me. as i reside under the shadown of Your wings, show me the way-

saturation. too much. oh, the agony! no more, away with you.


all for love's sake became poor,