it's making life difficult.

not going to school feels like a norm right now. ohwell, it's only two days but i guess it makes a lot of difference. afterall, yesterday i didn't attend any lessons either. during morning assembly i wanted so badly to go to the recovery room, 'cause my stomach was still hurting. couldn't find peichun so i thought forget it. but thankfully jen told me to look for sarah, and so i did. spent the whole morning there. liukun, conhwa and deborah came too. then they went for MT lesson so i was left there to sleep. i was perspiring so much. well, guess it helps to bring the temperature down anyway. tired to sleep, but it was pretty interrupted.
later on during recess jogging period sue-ann came. i was like, okay. and after that some other sec one redcross juniors, as well as sharon. i got my belated birthday present. at least it's orange and yellow. so then, was kinda expecting misscomputer to come along. sadly, she had to go for the pupil climate survey /: so i got sue-ann to call deborah and conhwa instead. we went to the canteen, then back up to class.

the next lesson was english. but mike chia took over since english exam is over. thought it'd be chemistry, so i'd try to stay awake and concentrate. but it ended up as ci presentation, so i slept instead. or at least, tried to. was feeling so uncomfortable. i wanted to go home! ): but i guess that wasn't very possible. misscomputer wrote me a note <3 thanks. haha. and then eunice kept me company by talking to me during ci :D tsk. fabCEL spoke about how exposure to too much radiation had caused many citizens to suffer and some symptoms are that of diarrhoea, headaches, fever. HAHA. i told eunice, "i think i listen to too much radio" :D what shit lah.

today my entertainment source wanted to visit me! :D sadly, that could not happen. sigh. it's okay, you're supposed to be mugging anyway. and maybe it's a blessing in disguise; i don't want anyone to go through what i am right now. can't afford to fall sick - it's the exam period! /: no wonder i feel like i'm in hospital. yesterday misscomputer also accompanied me to the doctor's and then back home.

this end-of-years is just gonna suck. i cannot concentrate, nor mug. it's useless. i feel like it's time to give up already. why hold on to something that isn't worth it? there's just no reason left to try. damn this feeling. i'm not supposed to go emo. i apologise. screw.


look what she's missed.