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Thursday, November 30, 2006 | 10:54 PM

test,
1 2 3.

had a meeting at 8 this morning. something was so different this morning on the way to school. haha. i guess i starting observing the people around me more. on the bus, i saw this lady who had a nice babydoll dress. she further accessorized it with a belt. hm, it was okay i guess. but i'm sorry, it just didn't bring out the figure -.- then i watched the people who got on at the serangoon mrt station stop. this guy walked past and caught my eye. and when that happens you'll be like "hm, at least this one looks decent." but it's only when he stands so close and you are greeted with that foul smell do you realise he smokes. oh damn right i was turned off.

after, we all followed balmnail to the national library! ahh, just in time to borrow a book for that english book review ): bummer. i wonder what they consider good books. the book i decided on is so profound! :D haha. since i couldn't find any of jodi picoult's books - they're all on loan ): ugh.

then i went on my date! with my cousin :D walked around bugis, then down to town. yay, shopping!! :D but i spent so much. mannn, i've to start saving more cash! and so does BUDDY :/ there's this 37degrees shorts i want! :D but i had fun. finally, this day arrived. haha. and i'm addicted to haribo's roulette! :D dang, i kept buying 'em. guess we spent every single cent in our wallets, even down to the cash in our ezlinks for at macs. ugh. oh, and we both reek smell of paris hilton now! HAH, after spraying her perfume on ourselves :D mine's like paris' just ♥ me. tsk. only reminds me of my dream (of hilton and richie :/) as well as nothing in this world! xD atlees and i also went to kinokuniya and borders. i want this book from borders for christmas. it's called i don't want to be crazy :D *hint!

then my brother came down to join us at orchard. at dinner time my parents came down and we ate at sakae sushi, ps. i saw cool specs :D i need to change mine. oh, when we passed this shoe shop, i can't believe my mom pointed at those pumps and went "you need another pair for new year, right?" i almost wanted to scream "YESSS!" but nah, i'm more gracious than that :/ but i do! i am going to get another pair :D mannn, i have so many things to add to my wishlist. christmas is coming up afterall. heh.

i told my mom about the books my cousin and i want. she was like, "what kind of books?" i said "teenage fiction" and she went "what, those kind of love stories arh?" BUMMER. mom, i don't believe in love stories, thankyou.

oh, tomorrow is going to be so freakin' exciting! :D CAT (Cedar Athletic Team for short, if you're scratching your head and racking your brains to figure that out) is going down to vivo at 3pm to meet carl lewis! he's like olympic champion for longjump and 100m times over. mannn, he's gracing the opening of nike's megastore there. this is a chance of a lifetime; i hope to take a picture with him! can't wait :D

that's a long post. hah, finally i can make lonely proud. i'm blogging about my life and it ain't one in a million! :D


i don't want to miss a thing - aerosmith

i could stay awake just to hear you breathing
watch you smile while you are sleeping
while you're far away dreaming
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender
i could stay lost in this moment forever
every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
'cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
'cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing

lying close to you feeling your heart beating
and i'm wondering what you're dreaming
wondering if it's me you're seeing
then i kiss your eyes
and thank God we're together
i just want to stay with you in this moment forever
forever and ever

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
'cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
'cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing

i don't want to miss one smile
i don't want to miss one kiss
i just want to be with you
right here with you, just like this
i just want to hold you close
feel your heart so close to mine
and just stay here in this moment
for all the rest of time

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
'cause i'd miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing
'cause even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do
i'd still miss you baby
and i don't want to miss a thing

don't want to close my eyes
i don't want to fall asleep
i don't want to miss a thing


steer clear of danger;

Wednesday, November 29, 2006 | 4:05 PM

help,
i'm afraid.

i can't help it; someone please put a bullet through my head because
i miss you.

here's a music meme i was asked to do long ago.
maybe we'll go back to then,
when all i did was wait, wait, wait..

this is the last time
'cause my heart can't take it anymore.
lost the faith, lost the love;
when the sun goes down and the shadows grow,
give me something to believe in.
it's a little too late,
there's no turning back.
it's much too late for goodbye.
the road is now a sudden sea,
it's emptying into the streets.
let your waves crash down on me,
over and over again.
one touch and i'll be in too deep now to ever swim against the current;
the undertow will grab our heels and won't let go.
gotta pick myself up
on the wings of love,
we're soaring, flying
and you make me feel so tall.
that's how it went,
slow and steady rush,
the moment we decided to let love in.
but things are not what they seem,
you won't succeed unless you try.
tonight i made a secret oath to keep chasing after you.


you'll always remain as
something behind that plastic cover i just can't reach.
i hope this makes it clear.

| 12:41 PM

intervene,
kill this burden.

some form of release would do good.
i can't wait for when i can.

thanks cindy :D

it's left or right;
i want to win you over.

21 days - blink 182

my mind wonders as i'm trying not to fall in love with you
'cause everytime i awake i ponder on my mistakes
of what i said, it is always my esteem that i sure lose
playing those stupid games as i always end up chasing you

i can't help myself anymore
rehearsing my thoughts as i'm too scared to come to your door
i pushed it all aside just to stand next to youbut now you won't talk to me for something that i didn't do

it's not gonna work

and i'm trying not to think of you
i'm all confused as i think of the things that i would do
i'm all shook up as i get all nervous inside
my emotions are something that i will always hide


the last part.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006 | 6:49 PM

surrender,
over my dead body.

i've to plan an escape.
i need a contingency plan.

we'll work backwards;
knowing the outcome.

oh, the courage to face it.
you can't hide forever.

let's play a new game,
where i pretend you're mine.


empty - cranberries

something has left my life
and i don't know where it went to
somebody caused me strife
and it's not what i was seeking

didn't you see me, didn't you hear medidn't you see me standing there

why did you turn out the lights
did you know that i was sleeping

say a prayer for mehelp to feel the strength i did
my identity has been taken
is my heart breaking on me

all my plans fell though my hands
they fell
though my hands on me
in my obvious it suddenly seems
empty


i can only give you my heart;

Monday, November 27, 2006 | 6:35 PM

seal
your memory.

for she tried to write a fairytale,
but her pen ran out of ink.
with chapters unfinished;
drafted but never published.

the sun had set on a new day.
& i'll never believe again.

promise me:
you'll look back and smile,
smile for what we were.
don't cry,
cry for what we could have been.

last summer - lost prophets

the Friday sun bears down again
as we drive with our friends
and on these longest days we spend
all the time trying to pretend
that our stories could be true
why dare to be cool
the setting sun says the day is through
if only we knew

and we all sit round here in our home town
listen to the waves as they all crash down
and watch the fire as it slowly burns away
glowing embers fly across the sky

here by my side, in the summer, our last summer
the world passes by, in the summer, our last summer
the light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer
the view from our last summer

we trace the sun across the sky
and we laugh till we cry
always so hard to say goodbye
and we all sit round here in our home town
it's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
the memories, i hope will never fade
glowing embers fly across the sky

here by my side, in the summer, our last summer
the world passes by in the summer, our last summer
the light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer
the view from our last summer

i would stop time to stay with you
i would stop time so we don't move
i would stop time
i would stop time
i would stop time to keep you

here by my side, in the summer, our last summer
the world passes by in the summer, our last summer
the light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer


"some way or another, i'll always love you."

| 1:11 PM

exeunt;
the end.

it's like milk turned sour.

"time to wake up,"
and so it is.

what pity,
my deepest regret.

red cars - waking ashland

say goodbye to January
goodbye to February
and all those days, will they be forgotten?
my confidence yeah your fading
found myself second guessing
and all my thoughts
and all their reasons

watching red cars pass me by
and i swore i wouldn't cry
now i swim in my defeat
memories are flashing by
oh a war's waging inside
and i'm wounded in my defeat

march ended unexpected
this is my confession
not a day goes by
where you don't cross my mind
it's so confusing
like an un-rehearsed symphony
your last kiss goodbye
put water in these eyes

i'm dying for you
dying, dying for you


i had a dream;

Saturday, November 25, 2006 | 10:25 PM

blaspheme,
silent but deadly.

today was a bad day overall, save for the fact that my grandmother won first in some competition, earning her an easy 400bucks. and because we're her cheerleading squad - with me as lead! :D - we got 50bucks. so i guess, going to use the 450 to celebrate some time.

meant to go beaching, but it rained and i fell asleep. so that was cancelled. anyway, the sand would've been so wet and that's like, yuck :/ guess it was a wise decision to some extent, 'cause i heard it rained again thereafter. it would've been havoc had we gone down. ugh.

so i went clubbing instead. eew, bad dinner. forced to join the spillover crowd, since the original chinese restaurant we were intending to patronize was hosting a wedding ): some new steakhouse & bistro, but it had poor service. real pathetic -.- and in the end i didn't manage to bowl. bummer, what a total waste of time.

-

i can't fake it anymore.
because, this is true.

& thieves don't return what they have taken.

stolen - dashboard confessional

we watch the season
pull up its own stakes
and catch the last weekend
of the last week
before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
another sun soaked season fades away

you have stolen my heart
you have stolen my heart

invitation only
grant farewells
crash the best one
of the best ones
clear liquor and cloudy eyed
too early to say goodnight

you have stolen my heart
you have stolen my heart

and from the ballroom floor
we are in celebration
one good stretch before our hibernation
our dreams assured and we all
will sleep well
will sleep well

you have stolen
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart

watch you spin around
in your highest heels
you are the best one
of the best ones
and we all
look like
we feel

you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart


cry over sad songs on the radio;

Friday, November 24, 2006 | 11:35 PM

dance,
on knees.

back from ltc on wednesday. haha, it was like dejavu back at LAC; 'home'. the only thing is, we're not the campers this time. well, it was -ahem- memorable indeed. had fun with the OALs. i think belaying with weiting is amusing! xD we were laughing so much. HAHA, 'cause of this particular incident :D tsk.
oh and i love the FABS! :D we're the First Aid Base Sleepers! tsk. rw, y3, retard, PAIL and i :D together with all the sleepwalkers, of course. and i had to be tied to PAIL. hey man, we're attached! :D HAHA.

-

it's been weighing on my conscience;
don't think i can do something like that again.

but it was heaven while it lasted -
except, fear?

so dreams do come true.

hands down - dashboard confessional




hands down,
this is the best day i can ever remember <3

Thursday, November 23, 2006 | 6:25 PM

choice,
my own.

look how far we've come.
& i hate being misunderstood.

i can't breathe,
'cause you're not here.

closure; last.
but not now, not on you.

you don't hear this,
but i love you.

medication - waking ashland

who am i trying to fool
as the night falls upon me
who am i trying to be
when this leads to nothing

i need some medication
i need your medication
these choices i've been making
they make me hate myself

are you there?
how i long to be with you
are you there?
listening to my despair

standing right at the shore
knowing life is so much more
i said what she wanted to hear
pretending that my mind was clear
it's a lie

how you wept, how you tried
but i never make the time
here i go once again
will this ever end?

i need some medication
i need your medication
these choices i've been making
they make me hate myself

are you there?
how i long to be with you
are you there?
listening to my despair

standing right at the shore
knowing life is so much more
said what she wanted to hear
pretending that my mind was clear

don't make the call
into the room
it's where i fall

standing right at the shore
knowing life is so much more
i said what she wanted to hear
pretending that my mind was clear
lying, trying to stop this time
i'll stop this time
one step backward chasing after
a voice inside, a voice inside
that knows


it brings tears to her eyes;

| 4:30 PM

15,
and tired.

"Father, would you take me home?",
she pleaded.


leave me alone;

Sunday, November 19, 2006 | 10:47 PM

stone,
& dare to dream.



had flea market today. i think it was rather pathetic ):
but thanks huiyi and rw for coming down! and i love that yellow bear :D

tomorrow's camp!
WHEE :D i can't wait.

say goodnight - the click five

our separation has its faults
but i don't wanna leave it all
so write the letters in teary ink
i just need some time to think
and i just need some time to breathe

baby just say goodnight
i'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
i can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know i can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

we're in a spell that never ends
the empty hourglass wore me thin
so let the phone do it's work
your voice is heaven
but it hurts
your words are memories
but they burn

baby just say goodnight
i'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
i can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know i can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

baby don't say goodbye
baby just close your eyes
and dream, tomorrow's on its way
so just walk away

baby just say goodnight
i'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
i can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know i can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

baby just say goodnight


gaze into space;

Saturday, November 18, 2006 | 3:22 PM

charge,
to the finish.

& now the search begins.

how is it,
that repetitive words aren't always unpleasant to the ear?

hard to say i'm sorry - chicago

"everybody needs a little time away"
i heard her say
"from each other"
"even lovers need a holiday
far away, from each other"

hold me now
it's hard for me to say i'm sorry
i just want you to stay
after all that we've been through
i will make it up to you
i promise to
and after all that's been said and done
you're just the part of me i can't let go

couldn't stand to be kept away
just for the day
from your body
wouldn't wanna be swept away
far away, from the one that i love

hold me now
it's hard for me to say i'm sorry
i just want you to know

hold me now
i really want to tell you i'm sorry
i could never let you go
after all that we've been through
i will make it up to you
i promise to
and after all that's been said and done
you're just the part of me i can't let go

after all that we've been through
i will make it up to you
i promise to

you're gonna be the lucky one

when we get there gonna jump in the air
no one will see us 'cause there's nobody there
after all, you know we really don't care
hold on, i'm gonna take you there


tuck in those legs.

Friday, November 17, 2006 | 8:56 PM

hush;
constitute a dissonance.

i am sick of my frail and pathetic self. implications, there are many. and often, undesirable. how was i to know this would affect not only i? conflicting, indeed. as my heart wrenches.

would you agree,
today was a fairytale gone sour?

here's a riddle -
who's at the losing end?
tears undiscovered; or a heart that cries out..


tides changed - the hush sound

the tides changed it's time to go home
the waves said i should go
the wind began to blow and the water got tall
and that's when i went home

my mind changed and then i let go
the pain said i should go
the wind began to blow and the water got tall
and that's when i went home

going back to the boat
with fresh oars i will row
going back to unknown
this sos will never reach the coast


put a finger to your lip.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 | 4:36 PM

blame,
& the crowd grew silent.

ugh, my gastric's acting up again. i assure you, my stomach's been permanently damaged. my mom says the next stage after frequent gastric attacks is.. stomach ulcers! ohmygosh, i don't want that ): it's gonna hurt so bad. ahh. oh what the hell, damn this shit. i really don't have time for lunch, 'cause it don't exist in my life no more. it's schedule back-to-back, please! :/ i'm gonna kill myself if this continues. oh, isn't there a better way?

been spending time folding all the paper stars :D i love doing that. but my fingers hurt so much from all the star-pinching ): ugh. and BUDDY! the papers you bought are real nice and shiny but.. they don't make nice stars ): or perhaps. you could say my skill is poor! oh bummer, atlees help me! :/ miss having you around to star-pinch for me. haha.

oh people,
COME SUPPORT US THIS SUNDAY 19NOV FROM 8-4 @ BUKIT BATOK!
i'm sure y'all know our group by now :D
YELLOW's setting up a booth at a flea market there. we'll be selling 2nd hand stuff, as well as stuff we made :D yay. all proceeds will go the SPECIAL OLYMPICS SINGAPORE.

my USB cable is giving me shit! i am so freakin' pissed. ugh. i need to upload photos of RAHH and i on our playground expedition xD tsk. swing, swing! let's go high, higher.

i'm glad i can concentrate during amath recently. bummer, i totally think school should be this way. RAHH and i came to a consensus that these holiday extra lessons have such a jc feel :D haha. i think class should start at 8am everyday! makes us feel so much more jing shen, so we all become spongy :D woohoo. RAHH and i are zai at trig identities as well as equations :D (or so we would like to think. tsk.) but i'm at a total loss for physics. what background count, cosmic and terrestrial inteference..?! :/

i'm busy. no complaints. it's a challenge.


burning bridges - pink floyd

bridges burning gladly
merging with the shadows
flickering between the lines
stolen moments floating softly on the air
borne on wings of fire and climbing higher

ancient bonds are breaking
moving on and changing sides
dreaming of a new day
cast aside the other way
magic visions stirring
kindled by and burning flames rise in her eyes

the doorway stands ajar
the walls that once were high
beyond the gilded cage
beyond the reach of ties
the moment is at hand
she breaks the golden band


like the sword that has slain thine enemies;

Tuesday, November 14, 2006 | 10:11 PM

guilty,
as charged.

for being a murderer,
she deserves death.

"acquit, acquit!",
they shout.

but their piercing screams -
only to be concealed within empty walls.

who turns a ear to thy cry?

for judgment has been passed.

& so they say:
love is suicide.


hundred - the fray

the how i can't recall
but i'm staring at what once was the wall
separating east and west
now they meet amidst the broad daylight

so this is where you are, and this is where i am
somewhere between unsure and a hundred

it's hard i must confess
i'm banking on the rest to clear away
'cause we have spoken everything
everything short of "i love you"

you right where you are, from right where i am
somewhere between unsure and a hundred

and who's to say it's wrong
and who's to say that it's not right
where we should be for now

so this is where you are, and this is where i am
so this is where you are, and this is where i've been
somewhere between unsure and a hundred


a hero can save us.

Sunday, November 12, 2006 | 12:00 AM

prove
your worth.

haven't been blogging about the stuffs that have been happening :/ bummer, i think i always end up doing proposals whenever i'm online. that's why i only post short subtle entries! and then rw's like, how come your blog is so depressing? HAHA. 'cause, it's much easier to post my emotions, rather than "events". tsk :D

anyway, had pupil leaders' day camp on thursday :D it was fun, i guess. HAHA, it's HA as the organizers again :/ bummer. honestly i've to admit i'm quite sick of them -.- ahwell. i still 'HAHA' all the time, so what the hell. tsk :D went to sentosa. i think the telematch was fun! yay, banana got overall 2nd. woohoo. ticktickticktickBOOM! like a bomb :/ bwahaha. i love the sandcastle building! :D but due to the rain.. we had to stop ): bummer, i think our sandcastle is the best! haha.

someone else was so excited, 'cause chief jeremy came back for sandcastle building -.- ugh. haha, special connections everywhere. scandalous!

yesterday we were supposed to have the reece. oh, but it was raining when we were all at harbourfront mrt station, even before the activity. hah, but what can you expect. someone like p wouldn't give up till the very end. and then it's too late. we were released 40mins later than the actual dismissal time even! :/ so pissed off, i am. it's about being discerning. who couldn't tell the rain wouldn't stop any time soon? ugh. freakin' wasted my whole saturday. it's not like we're that free.

but had a fun time entertaining ourselves, all the same! :D i love the OALs! haha. and we created the LEE (or is it LI or LY or LIE?) family! :D tsk. yay, EARLY.

anyhow, was blog hopping a moment ago :D tsk, had a good laugh reading posts by all kinds of ahlians! xD bwahaha. and i found this love dedication, that's the funniest i've ever seen. sheesh, they really ought to watch their language. it's not even decent english! :/ RAHH said they sing their english! HAHA, retarded. honestly, they have nothing better to do. everyday, they just go around aiiaiiluvluv and dardar-ing -.- bummer. TIME IS MONEY, dearies! but, my helpline advised me against reading anymore. he was like, decreasing your IQ! xD haha.

-

once again,
i've set down the blade.

i'll stay level-headed.
try.

gravity - embrace

honey, it's been a long time coming
and i can't stop now
such a long time running
and i can't stop now
do you hear my heart beating
can you hear that sound
'cause i can't help thinking
and i don't look down

and then i looked up at the sun and i could see
oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
and then i looked up at the sky and saw the sun
and the way that gravity pulls on everyone, on everyone

baby, it's been a long time waiting
such a long, long time
and i can't stop smiling
no i can't stop now
and do you hear my heart beating
and can you hear that sound
'cause i can't help crying
and i won't look down

and then i looked up at the sun and i could see
oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
and then i looked up at the sun and saw the sky
and the way that gravity pulls on you and i, on you and i

can you hear my heart beating
can you hear that sound
'cause i can't help crying
and i wont look down


an apology accepted.

Saturday, November 11, 2006 | 8:09 PM

truce,
behind closed doors.

is it going to be the cliche:
"i shouldn't have put my trust in you"

or

"i know what you did last summer" ?

i guess, more like
"curiosity killed the cat" :/


forgive us our debts,
as we forgive our debtors.

Friday, November 10, 2006 | 6:37 PM

trump,
the time is ripe.

i'm sorry for what i've put you through.
guess i never knew the agony.. till now.

it's been a long, long process.
but i've got to hold out; and i will.

just 7 letters that can kill.

i've been crushed, almost beyond restoration.
but there's a remedy.


till it comes,

Wednesday, November 08, 2006 | 11:18 PM

score,
you're a star.

today's training was so slack :/ bummer, only two hours! i could hardly believe it. sheesh, just check out the schedule:
warm up
100m drills x3
20m sprint x5
40m sprint x5
60m sprint x5
cool down

haha, we ended at 10! :D but, that can only mean that next training's going to be tough ): bummer, it's not like i don't know the teachers well enough; that's the way things are! moderation. yep. but still, i enjoyed today :D

after training we had rehearsal for t&f farewell. haha, at first we weren't doing anything. just slacking around and trying to come up with the songs to sing and dance to. then, we got on to the dancing after deciding on "believe me" and "1, 2 step" :D haha. everyone was so reluctant to dance :/ only siti, ade, cheryl and i were trying to come up with steps! later on people left ): but i feel accomplished all the same, 'cause we managed to come up with the steps for the portion of "believe me" that we're using! :D YAY. oh, and cheryl said i sing well :D haha, thanks for that compliment. but hey, i bet i'm gonna get people telling me "there's a reason why you're not in choir.." oh what the hell :/

-

took a nap at 1730, woke at 1900.
had a bad dream :/ i just hope you're fine.

what an apt song, but i had to change all the 'she's and 'her's to 'you's.
tsk, i'm straight please :D

scratch - allister

i've been sitting here for hours
a burning image of you in my mind
finding comfort in the words you say
but its not the same

i know you're worth the wait
and i can't explain what i'm going through inside
but i would turn away the world
just to have you here with me tonight

take our time
making sure that everything feels right
it won't be easy
but i'm not afraid
you're so far away

you better start from scratch
its now or never
but we can't look back
i need you with me
for another day
you're so far away
yeah far away

i've been sitting here forever
your voice is resonating in my mind
countless hours with you on the phone
and now i'm not alone

i know you're worth the wait
and i can't escape
what i'm going through inside
but i would turn away the world
just to have you here with me tonight

i know there's no time left for second chances
still we're right despite these circumstances
you've changed me more than you could ever know
so we will just hang on until tomorrow
so take my hand
don't ever let me go


you're a dream come true, baby.

| 3:48 PM














dream on,

child.

it's yours to keep.

for, at least,
when all else fails:

SEEK THE LIGHT.
find yourself where you belong.

-

cut;
stop.

all this subtlety -
i miss you so bad.


where'd you go?

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 | 11:05 PM

catalyst,
kick up the leaves.

today's belay school was fun :D haha, i love conducting campcraft test! xD stayed at cc the whole time, didn't go to obs 'til the end. and i was so sleepy by then ): oh, and orr dept finally had the chance to do rockwall! :D though i only belayed two people, but still -.-

bummer, missed lessons again today. that really sucks. edna gave us notes. weird that lydia chew passed amath notes to us, and not chem?! then the biased freak gave chem notes to someone else ): boo. my chemistry isn't exactly making it, as we all know. what the hell ): i'm going to die at this rate. ack-

yay, finally rid of amath tuition. rejoice! :D
i wasn't benefitting from it anyway. so i see no point in carrying on.
oh, why do those words seem familiar? :/

-

tonight;
the start of pain.

heavy rests the head that missed the train.

will you..?

forgive me - evanescence

can you forgive me again?
i don't know what i said
but i didn't mean to hurt you

i heard the words come out
i thought that i would die
it hurts so much to hurt you

then you look at me
you're not shouting anymore
you're silently broken

i'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

each time i say something i regret
i cry "i don't wanna lose you!"
but some how i know
that you will never leave me
yeah

'cause you were made for me
some how i'll make you see
how happy you make me

i can't live this life
without you by my side
i need you to survive

so stay with me
you look in my eyes and
i'm screaming inside that i'm sorry..

and you forgive me again
you're my one true friend
and i never meant to hurt you


driven by your love;

| 7:49 PM

bind,
like a fetter.

for i'm prone to wander.

& how could i have burnt paradise?

the city has been scarred,
by the death of the saints.

now who shall save thee?

here i raise mine Ebenezer;
hither by thy help i'm come.


i'll miss you. /3

| 12:18 AM

flood;
kiss the undertow.

on came war,
knockin' on my door with all its might.

and the angel of death swept across,
plaguing the hearts of those with fury.
shot by a .44 caliber bullet.

but oh bless our souls,
for she left as soon as she arrived.

-

& i'll run to you;
keep me safe from my fears.

watch and learn:



break free.

Saturday, November 04, 2006 | 11:28 PM

shutter,
close the blinds.

you won't need anyone else.
hold on to me, never let me go.

in dark and empty streets,
you cut with light.

kill the silence, so deafening.


sadistic video, i love:


YAY BUDDY'S BACK<3


the joke's on me.

| 8:03 PM

obtuse,
smell the flowers.

my grandmother graduated today :D hm, i'd thought it be some formal ceremony. but it turned out to be just studio phototaking. bummer. the real ceremony's some time in december. anyway, balmnail says i have a cool grandma, and fab says she must be real diligent :D HAHA, guess what - she's graduating from english classes she took at the CC! xD i think it's cute, the way the CC gives the elderly a chance at feeling accomplished. how sweet of 'em <3

then there was this old lady that sat beside us. she was going to change into her graduation gown and thus, requested i help her watch her handbag. it made me think: how much more complicated we have become. how is it that they are able to trust so easily? this world is so full of deceit; yet she could trust. is it all a matter of simple faith? i wonder. certainly, it's got to do with culture. how much more different was it back then? i've heard much from those of the older generations about not even having to shut the doors at night :D how tight.

anyway, i'm sad i couldn't go to yf today ): hope PAIL went and had a good time. i'll resume again next week! :D yay, can't wait. it's like 7 days. bummer.

after the phototaking at some catholic centre, i went ps. and i had this sudden strong craving for CHEESECAKE<3 my ultimate love! yay. well, in fact, i'm game for cheesecake almost anytime. so i went to secret recipe and got myself a nice slice of new york cheesecake :D to be honest, i love blueberry cheesecake the most. (*hint!!) but i have no idea what they freakin' did to the blueberry cheesecake and added cream all over the sides! that can only spell one thing - eew! ): ahwell, afterwhich i ate half a slice of choclate banana cake too :D whoo, weight gain ): but i'd give anything for cheesecake. so there.

-

i need your grace.
come, that i may lay your arms.

such love;

214 - rivermaya

am i real?
do the words i speak before you
make you feel
that the love i have for you
will see no ending?

well, if you look into my eyes
then you should know
that you have nothing here to doubt
nothing to fear
and you can lay your questions down
'cause if you'll hold me
we can fade into the night
and you'll know

the world could die
and everything may lie
still you shouldn't cry
'cause time may pass
but longer than it'll last
i'll be by your side

take my hand
and gently close your eyes
so you could understand
that there's no greater love tonight
than what i've for you
well, if you feel the same way for me
then let go

we can journey to a garden no one knows
life is short, my darling
tell me that you love me

so we can fade into the night
and you'll know
the world could die
and everything may lie
but you won't cry
'cause time may pass
and everything won't last
but i'll be by your side
forever by your side
so you won't cry


we struggle to survive;

Friday, November 03, 2006 | 11:04 PM

rewritten,
with a backslash.

thanks rw for the video :D i love it!

balmnail and my friend:
if i make you mad today, will you still love me tomorrow?

"forever & ever, dear."
as balmnail put it - gross, but still.


& alas!
there is no fulfilment in seeing the world:
through a broken mirror.

but through your eyes,
i seek the truth.


without you here - goo goo dolls

your love's a gathered storm i chased across the sky
a moment in your arms became the reason why
and you're still the only light that fills the emptiness
the only one i need until my dying breath
and i would give you everything just to feel your open arms
and i'm not sure i believe anything i feel

and now, now that you're near
there's nothing more without you
without you here

and i'm trying to believe
in things that i don't know
the turning of the world
the color of your soul
that love could kill the pain
truth is never vain
it turns strangers into lovers
and enemies to brothers
just say you understand
i never had this planned

and now, now that you're near
there's nothing more without you
without you here
without you here
there's nothing more without you
without you here

my head lies to my heart
and my heart it still believes
it seems the ones who love us are the ones
that we deceive
but you're changing everything
you're changing everything in me

and now, now that you're near
there's nothing more without you
without you here


it's you & me against the world;

| 9:45 PM

black&white.
draw inferences.

let's all flyaway :D
emotions, never level.

i was so tired after training yesterday, that i slept almost immediately after getting into bed. dangit, fell asleep on the receiver again /: great. bet the bill's gonna go sky-high and then my parents will get suspicious. of course, "who else talks more on the phone than elyssa?" bummer, if that's what they think. (can't deny it, though) /: sheesh.

i was supposed to be in school at 1000 today, for some meeting regarding induction ceremony. haha, i woke up then fell asleep again for another 10 minutes /: in the end, i was late! and i had to iron my shirt /: bummer. must've been too drained last night to do it. ugh. i messaged balmnail to tell her i'd be late. but i received no reply! when i reached school at 1020, found out that her phone had gone blank! /: bummer, how pathetic. now it's dead.

i spent the whole day with balmnail today! love you :D haha. after the meeting we went for brunch at the canteen :D then oals had store check. bummer, with hoyan at training.. only left eye was left. and that's me, fyi ): all the other depts had first and second ics present ): well, come to think. misscomputer was missing bi -space- ru too /: but at least she was in the hype of it all! i was like.. pathetically alone at the side. COUNTING COMPASSES! <3

after orr was done, i helped coil rope for obs :D then later folded plastic bags for maintenance -.- HAHA. following that, i went to sleep at the benches. tired /: when i woke, realised i had slept for 30mins. haha, so retarded. watched RAHH, tehh and balmnail play bball, while my friend, lwin and natasha stoned. later on p spoke to RAHH, right eye and the ACs. she's scary ):

i brought 2 apples to school today. they were nice and small :D one red and one green! HAHA, balmnail fell in love with the green one, obviously :D and they smelled so nice! balmnail went around making people smell them. i was like, sheesh i'm so not gonna eat something you made 30 people smell! /: retarded.

balmnail and i wanted to go vivo, but waiting for bushbear and RAHH took so long ): p always has so much to say! bummer. so we left by pp first. ate the apples on the way out. i let balmnail have the nice lime green one while i took the juicy red one :D went to get only. then bushbear and RAHH called! :D it was already 1630, so we decided against vivo. that could wait till some other time. went j8 instead, since RAHH had to reach home by 1800. on the bus, balmnail and i were so jinx-ed /: go under the horizontal sign for shelter! xD bummer, so retarded - who puts signs horizontally?! i'd have to bend over and read the sign from the bottom /: tsk.

on the bus, balmnail complained about her dead phone again. so bushbear tried fixing it. but sadly, even her magic fingers could do nothing ): in the end RAHH and bushbear suggested dropping it one more time -.- so retarded! i've heard of reverse psychology. but what's this?! reverse action? xD balmnail really tried it, and we ended up malu-ating ourselves! it dropped to the floor, and we had problems finding it! ): the lady behind ended up helping us. SHEESH.

went to yoshi, they all ate salmon bowl. student meal :D i had spicy tori nibbles, which were hardly spicy at all /: ohwell. at least they tasted nice. balmnail commented it's nice food, after a long time. it's been ppmacs and tauhuey for so long. and i reminded us that "lunch" no longer exists in our lives ): sigh. pathetic, no wonder my diet's been so bad recently. good, in a sense. i don't want to be fat ): haha. balmnail told us about how sleeping makes one obese /: then a whole long talk about how sleep affects the way our body functions started. oh, for goodness' sake! i'm not a bio student and neither is RAHH. thankfully bushbear saved the day by commenting on something that reminded her of 'hertz'. physics! love. (only disadvantage was, balmnail-the-bio-student got left out) heh.

we ended up saying lame jokes. sheesh, we were honestly doing the laugh-then-stone-in-a-matter-of-seconds thing /: STRESS, i believe. still remember the stupid joke that was not funny at all, yet we started laughing even before the joke ended. totally retarded. well, guess it's the way bushbear says it. she always makes me laugh :D oh, and what with the house that experienced a blackout xD later on bushbear and i were so jinx-ed too! /: about me thinking too much.

all hail the no lifers! <3

went to the top level thereafter. stood outside gv for so long, with notebooks in our hands. we were checking our schedules! haha, we need to fit in some outing for PEEP next week, if possible :D haha, we seemed like sophisticated businesswomen. (how, that's for you to figure. what's so professional about a few calendars? HAHA) took a trip to minitoons next. saw this cool thing that had four toys! but it was like, 12bucks. bummer, we're all broke ): ohwell. some other time. later on, my mom called. so i met her, RAHH went home. bushbear and balmnail went to the singtel shop to operate on her poor phone. it needs to be revived /:

wow, some long post indeed. i've said enough.
oh, not forgetting the nail balm we've yet to get <3 can't wait. $!


it's all about you.

Thursday, November 02, 2006 | 11:33 PM

complacency,
kick a bucket.

i lost my USB cable! ): i'm sad. 'cause now i can't upload pictures. boo.
there are so many nice pictures i want to post! like my adventure to vivo with dearest sd :D woohoo. i love "shopping" with my sd! YAY, nice person to walk around with. c'mon, got to give her credit. she actually accepts my squealing over everything yellow and giraffe-ish in vivo without complaining :D (there's a lot of that around, by the way.) who else can do that, please! :D haha.

oh, and i cut my hair today :D
I LOVE MY FRINGE! <3 yay.

i think i sucked at training today. oh bummer, what a cheat.


& what use is there,
facing this world with a bleeding heart?


ridin' an elevator.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 | 11:19 AM

freed,
from the grip of sin.
Romans 6:7

& do you believe everything happens for a reason?

PAIL: this, for you.
be of good courage, weep not. do you not know where the righteous dwell after death? the Lord will reward them for their faith, and shower upon them blessings for eternity. is this not the most awesome gift of all? He gave His life, so that we may reign with Him forever. and Heaven shall see no sorrow, no suffering, no guilt, no pain. His people rejoice, singing praises in the bounty of the Lord endlessly. they will come out, and shout for joy on the heights of Zion.

and so saith this, in Isaiah 51:11 - "The ransomed of the Lord will return. They will enter Zion with singing; everlasting joy will crown their heads. Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away."

while in our earthly bodies we are incapable of fully comprehending departure, look ahead - stand your ground. will you not be able to meet him at the end of it all? and it is then, that Heaven's doors will be flung wide open; the same way The Father's loving arms will be there to welcome His children. listen to the words of the psalmist: "Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints." Psalm 116:15

have faith, therefore. let that feeling of emptiness be driven from you. we who are still alive, and left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. for the Lord himself will come down from Heaven, and we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with the angels in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. and so we will be with the Lord evermore.

love, snail.


& do you believe that you can carry on even after you fall?

life, ever so fragile. and we, ever so vulnerable. whoever said these happens only in the movies? we're merely spectators in this film we're living. it never stops, till the last breath. and we're not main actresses. perhaps, you could start thinking about the fact that we're playing a much bigger role than you ever expected.


come, she'll take you into the garden of tears.