something -
out of nothing.

today was a total mess.
i hate today.

it's all screwing up again.

RAHH: eh, your blog is so emo you know! :/
me: huh! where?!
RAHH: ohmygosh, that "pain brings pleasure" thing..
me: oh, haha. no lah, that's in the positive sense!
RAHH: chey..
me: if not what - slit your wrists yourself then so happy? O.o
RAHH: hahaha, so emo.

it's only 'cause i don't have the courage;
i'm an escapist.


bittersweetheart - soul asylum

why you always want to get the best of me
i'm like a seeing-eye dog and i can't even see
they're naked and they're following my master who is blind
and my mind's gone to pieces, i could use some piece of mind

so i picked up the pieces and i made a new start
stole an old stiletto, started stabbing in the dark
i can't live without it, i would surely fall apart
but it's hard to make arrangements 'round a bittersweetheart

bittersweetheart
better get yourself a little street smart
bittersweetheart, sad but true
it's a bittersweetheart that's a hard heart to cure
it's just my bittersweetheart

it's like a suicide mission when you can't see no end
tired of compliment-fishing and impressing your friends
i never kissed no one just to kiss and tell
it's a little bit of heaven and a whole lot of hell

in the eye of the beholder is a beautiful start
but you always seem to end up with a bittersweetheart
there's a darkness looming but the sun is shining bright
i can live to see the morning if i stay up all night

bittersweetheart
without a shortcut, without a head-start
bittersweetheart, sad but true
it's a bittersweetheart that's a hard heart to cure
my bittersweetheart
it's the hardest part
bittersweetheart

are you in there, are you beating
beating me up until i'm bleeding
how much blood can you spare

bittersweetheart
think just a drink might get you to the good part
lyin' in bed just a'wonderin' what to do
it's a bittersweetheart that'a a hard heart to cure

in time inside you find you always wind up with a bittersweetheart


rippin' up the tracks;