I might be a fool, but you might be one too.


Internet was down yesterday. But climax of the would-have-been post:

"And Saturday nights always leave me feeling so hung up. Seeing twos so perfectly together makes me, alone, feel like an idiot. And I've come to realise it's not just a game, but also, an asset. If you have it, congratulations. If you don't, then it really comes down to personality. But my heart tells me I'm a go-getter. Or maybe it's just me with this need, a secret obligation. It works the same way as when you see a cute guy and you wish he were yours.

Is the lovin' really gone? 'Cause I need it to get by."

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Sunday afternoons are always slow and certainly sleep-inducing. And today, things aren't really looking good much, with the rain and all. But I'm just glad to be in, instead of out. Love the smell of rain, the comfort it brings. What time for nostalgia to set in: of love, life and that ilk.

If only I could lay this heavy head down to rest.. But work is beckoning and I can't say I'm the least prepared to face what's ahead the following week - continuation of Prelims. Social Studies is the first paper up, accompanied by a whole string thereafter. Shocks this lifeless heart just thinking about it. And those negative images my mind creates are just threatening to materialise.

Have got to convince myself of this love: mugging is the shit.


To my textbooks (my Loves), I sing:

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms

ELYSSA, GET DOWN TO MUGGING D:

"Be still, and know that I am God." - Psalm 46:10